lotus carp

I am a girl.

A girl with a bell in the morning and a drum in the evening, with a heart like still water.

Master Huijing, the abbot of Lianhua Nunnery, said, I have not yet finished my relationship with the world and my seven emotions.She won't allow me to shave my hair out.

I smiled, but it didn't matter.No matter whether I shave my hair or not, I have nowhere to go, no one to wait for, and live in this clean nunnery every day.

Around this nunnery called lotus, I can't wait for the lotus that hates me.

A month ago, I was seriously ill and was abandoned at the foot of Lianhua Mountain, and happened to be rescued by Master Huijing who returned from wandering.Master Huijing's wonderful hands of rejuvenation pulled me back from the gate of hell. My condition improved day by day, and within a month I was fine.Master Huijing is too kind to take me in to live in this lotus nunnery, otherwise I really don't know where I can go with my carefree body.I don't have anything to repay my wife, so I help out in the nunnery every day to do what I can, and I am used to doing these Buddhist chores in Guangyang Temple.

When I think of Guangyang Temple, I think of the koi pond in the backyard, the red line pavilion under the marriage tree, and a face.

Days and nights without light, things in memory became more and more blurred, but that face was still so clear.Whenever I think of that face, I can be reminded of Guangming's appearance that I haven't seen for a long time.

I always dream about her.In those similar dreams, I saw that her face was still smiling, and I heard her words were still gentle and carefree, and I gradually believed that she still loves me in real life.

I think, I still don't want to believe that when I was willing to fall into the boundless darkness, the only light I had left, the lotus flower, chose to leave by myself.

Why are you thinking about this again?I shook my head, trying to shake these mixed memories out of my head, then touched the rosary in my hand, and began to recite it intently.

"Miss Li, Miss Li!" There were shouts from outside the room, as if it was Miaoqing, the little nun who had been taking care of me during my illness.

"Come in." I put down the rosary in my hand, and heard the door creak open, and Miaoqing's footsteps approached.

"What's the matter? You are yelling, and the teacher will punish you for copying scriptures after hearing it."

"Miss Li! A girl came to the nunnery and said she was going to become a monk. Even the mistress was alarmed, and she was going to the main hall! I looked at it from a distance, and the girl was very beautiful, and she was not dressed like an ordinary person, no Knowing what kind of hardships you have suffered, how can you see through the red dust?" Miaoqing also didn't look out, and sat down next to my buttocks. "Do you want to go and see?"

"No." I'm not interested, "You know the rules of the teacher, such a noisy woman must be unclean, and she will not be allowed to shave her left or right."

"But she's really pretty... It's the first time I've seen such a beautiful girl at this age... You really don't want to take a look? It's good to take a look from a distance..." Miao Qing was a little unwilling Said heartily.

"You forgot again, I can't see it." I smiled, "If you want to see it, go and see it again, just tell me about it later."

"But..." Before Miao Qing finished speaking, there was a knock on the door.

Today my little room is unusually lively.

"The door is unlocked, come in."

"Miss Carp." It was Miaozhen, the eldest disciple next to the teacher. "Master invites you to come over in the front hall."

"The front hall?" The front hall where the woman Miaoqing was talking about?I'm a little confused, I don't know the intention of Mrs. Huijing.

"Exactly. Miss Carp, please."

"Sister Lao Miaozhen led the way."

Guided by Miaozhen, I walked into the front hall. As soon as I entered the hall, I heard the woman's faint sobs and the voice of Mrs. Huijing:

"Girl, someone is here. After you meet her, if you still insist on becoming a monk, I will ask her to shave your hair for you."

My heart suddenly beat violently, and an almost miraculous idea exploded in my mind. It was as if a heavy iron was hanging on my feet, and I dared not move a step forward.

The sobbing stopped, and a familiar figure suddenly appeared in my arms, bumping into the fragrance of lotus carp in my arms.A voice that used to linger in dreams every night rang in my ears.

"I found you, Li."