almost lonely

At the beginning of the countdown, he drank the last spoonful of fish soup, touched the sore corners of his eyes, and sent Xu Ye a short message of blessing.The severe cold lasted vigorously for half a month, and when Xu Ye came to find Ning Juechen in the middle of the first month, he had just recovered.

That is, during this half month, Ning Juechen clearly realized that he was the only one who had no family.

For the next three years during the Spring Festival, Ning Juechen never took the initiative to ask Xu Ye if he would come, but he would still prepare a New Year's Eve dinner for two, and he would still cook Xu Ye's favorite crucian carp soup.Xu Ye never came here once, and Ning Juechen always ate so many dishes by himself until the fifth and sixth day of the new year.

But Xu Ye didn't know all of this, he only knew that Ning Juechen hadn't left him in the past four years, even during Chinese New Year.The kittens and puppies who had been kept by his side suddenly wanted to run away alone, and Xu Yi felt an inexplicable panic in his heart.

Ning Juechen saw all the changes in his expression, and thought that Xu Ye's struggles and hardships were all because of Lu Juelan, and suddenly felt bored, turned his back and fell asleep.Xu Ye smashed the crumbled cigarette case into the trash can, sat on the edge of the bed and looked at Ning Juechen's thin back buried under the quilt.

Ning Juechen was fair, a very fine and translucent white, and there was a small round mole in the middle of the back of her neck, which was set off by the surrounding fair skin, making her look particularly exquisite and lovely.The little mole sometimes sank into the edge of the quilt and then slowly rose back up with his shallow breathing. Xu Ye stared at it for a long time, feeling a burst of soft pity in his heart.

In the first year of their ridiculous relationship, Ning Juechen wore a turtleneck sweater all winter, and turned to him with a serious expression and asked him, "Is this more like my brother?" ——Lu Juelan has no hair on the back of his neck mole.

You are no longer like him, Chenchen.

Xu Ye lay down and took him into his arms from behind and hugged him gently. Ning Juechen's breathing suddenly stopped, and he froze uncomfortably.

He was very tired and sleepy, and he just wanted to take a quick nap. Before he fell asleep, he was still thinking drowsily: What is Xu Ye doing? Together, are lovers.

It was so real, he almost wanted to believe it.

2 Genuine and Counterfeit

Xu Ye never went back to Jingcheng after graduating from high school. Ning Juechen thought it was expected when he suddenly proposed to go back together this time, and even jokingly asked Xu Ye if he wanted to marry him.When he said this, he was squatting on the ground to open the suitcase that had already been packed, and put the new shirts neatly folded one by one.

Xu Ye doesn't live here long, he comes every day when he wants to come, and he doesn't see anyone for half a month when he doesn't want to come, the clothes he keeps in the closet are still summer.A few days ago, Ning Juechen went to the mall to buy some shirts for Xu Ye. Because Xu Ye hadn't been here for a long time, he put them all in the box before he had time to give them to him.

Thinking that Xu Ye was going to meet Lu Juelan wearing them, Ning Juechen thought it was quite funny, laughed for a while and felt like crying.

It was evening when we arrived in Jingcheng, Xu Yi's house had already been sold, and it was impossible for Ning Juechen to go back to live at home, and the two of them were homeless when they returned to their hometown.They booked a room at a downtown hotel, unpacked and went out to find a place to have dinner.

Ning Juechen doesn't like the shopping mall downstairs very much.One day during the summer vacation of the second year of high school, Xu Ye called him out to watch a movie, and the appointment was at the movie theater here.At that time, Ning Juechen was nervous and excited, and went to the barber shop specially to change into a new hairstyle with a special spirit.

Xu Ye was obviously taken aback when he saw him, and asked, "Your brother also changed his hairstyle?" With short hair above the ears, he smiled silly: "No, I went alone."

Ning Juechen was actually quite nervous, he had never been to this kind of place to watch a movie.The last time I went to see a movie was a long time ago. When I was in elementary school, I was in the People's Theater in the county seat, and I used the red movie coupons issued by the school for free.I heard that the movie theater here is divided into boxes, and each box will show different movies, which is different from the ones he watched before, and the tickets are also very expensive.

Ning Juechen wanted to return the movie ticket money to Xu Ye, but was afraid that he would not want it, so he thought about inviting him to dinner.He asked his classmates, and the newly opened simple food restaurant in this shopping mall is very good.Ning Juechen usually spends almost nothing except for stationery and reference books and exercise books, but he saved a lot of pocket money and brought it all with him today.

Halfway through the meal, they met Lu Juelan and his new girlfriend.At that time, Ning Juechen was really stupid. When he looked up and saw Lu Juelan coming in from the door, he waved his hand and greeted him: "Brother." Xu Ye paused when he heard this, and turned his head to look at the door, his face suddenly changed a little. ugly.

Lu Juelan glanced at them both, but didn't respond.On the contrary, the tall girl beside him pulled Lu Juelan over very familiarly: "There is an empty seat here, so let's eat together!" Tall and beautiful, with a cheerful and generous personality, Lu Juelan has been chasing her for a long time.

Xiaohua and Xu Ye sat on one side, and the brothers sat on the other.During the meal, the school girl looked at Ning Juechen with her chin for a long time: "It's really similar to Jue Lan, only the hairstyle is different." Ning Juechen was embarrassed by her stare, and his face flushed: "Today Just cut it."

The fork in Lu Juelan's hand hit the side of the plate heavily, and said in a cold voice: "It doesn't look like it." The atmosphere suddenly froze, and Ning Juechen pursed his lips, buried his head and dared not speak.In the end, the senior came out to save the siege, blinked and made a cute face to Lu Juelan: "Why are you so angry, you are the most handsome, okay?"

The meal was very embarrassing, Xu Ye didn't open his mouth the whole time, Lu Juelan just said those four words, the senior sister has been trying to liven up the atmosphere, Ning Juechen cooperated with her carefully, and didn't dare to say anything else, His brother was already angry, and Ning Juechen was afraid of offending him again.

After eating, the senior sister asked them what they were going to do next, and whether they wanted to go to the movies together.Ning Juechen secretly glanced at Lu Juelan's face, hesitating whether to say that they have already bought the tickets.Unexpectedly, Xu Ye spoke first: "I have something to do, I'll go first." The senior sister nodded, and then asked Ning Juechen: "Is the younger brother going?" Say no.

The eye shapes of the two brothers are actually different. Lu Juelan's eyes are a little bit upturned, looking fierce and heroic, while Ning Juechen's dog eyes are slightly downturned, and the pupils are black and bright, which is especially painful.The senior sister couldn't help but want to tease him: "My brother is so good, much cuter than Jue Lan." Ning Juechen was too frightened to look at Lu Jue Lan's expression, and followed Xu Ye quickly, as if he was on the run.

Ning Juechen walked with his head buried, and didn't notice that Xu Ye had stopped in front of him, so he bumped his head on his back stupidly: "Ah... I'm sorry!" Little Tail: "Where are you going home or are you going?"

Ning Juechen was stunned for a moment, he thought that Xu Ye didn't want to be with Lu Juelan and the others, and didn't want to be a light bulb, but he didn't expect that he really didn't want to go to the movies.Ning Juechen didn't dare to ask the reason, and carefully touched Xu Ye's arm: "Brother Yi, what's the matter? I'll accompany you?"

Xu Ye took out two movie tickets from his pocket and stuffed them into Ning Juechen's hands: "Don't waste it." After Xu Ye left, Ning Juechen stood there holding the two pieces of paper for a long time, and then went to the cinema Bought a cup of milk tea at a nearby beverage store.It was also he who excitedly asked his classmates yesterday, which drink shop is good, and wanted to buy Xu Ye a drink while watching a movie.

That day Ning Juechen kept thinking what did he do wrong?Why did Xu Ye leave suddenly?I can't figure it out.He deceived himself and tore off the side coupons of the two movie tickets, and pasted them solemnly in his diary. The last line on the first page was "Brother Ye invited me out to watch a movie" written by him last night, a sum of money. One stroke is as neat as a copybook.

Later Ning Juechen found out that he had done nothing wrong, the only mistake might be that he didn't resemble Lu Juelan enough, so that Xu Ye couldn't be bothered to play house with him as a counterfeit after seeing the genuine one.

Ning Juechen recalled the old incident several years ago from the beginning to the end. Every beat of the heart seemed to push the depression and despair into the blood, and the limbs, bones, and every inch of skin that flowed through quickly cooled down. .Although the store has been changed several times, Ning Juechen still recognized that this was the location of the simple restaurant, he followed behind and did not want to go in, begging Xu Ye to change places.

Ning Juechen trembled uncontrollably, the reaction was so strong that Xu Ye felt something was wrong, and he stretched out his hand to grab him: "What's wrong?" Ning Juechen's arms were thin and thin, and there was no flesh at all when he grasped them. , trembling in Xu Ye's palm.It was rare for Xu Ye to care about him tenderly: "Did you wear less?"

Ning Juechen lowered his head and repeated: "Let's eat somewhere else." Xu Ye was a little annoyed by his irrelevant answer, he didn't know what happened to Ning Juechen, and he didn't remember what happened here in the summer of his sophomore year.

After all, the loved one is always calm, and only the loved one needs to trek through mountains and rivers, eat snow and eat blankets. In the end, the blood in his heart is so cold that he can't show any "sincerity".

When bumping into Lu Juelan head-on, Ning Juechen felt very funny for a moment, Jingcheng is so big, why did they insist on bumping into each other at the entrance of this shopping mall.Lu Juelan obviously saw them too, and his eyes stopped on their hands, showing a playful sneer.

They haven't seen each other for a long time, and Ning Juechen didn't know what to put on for a while.