almost lonely

There really is nowhere to go.Xu Ye thought for a while: "Then you should stay with me tonight."

Ning Juechen nodded and said yes, then turned his head and said to the driver: "Master, let's go to Baile Lane!" Xu Ye's earlobe became hot from his rubbing, and silently raised his elbow to open up his personality: "Master, don't go to Baile Lane!" Lexiang, go to the central hospital." Ning Juechen turned around in a daze: "Aren't you going?"

He had already noticed that Xu Ye was avoiding him, so he sat up straight at a loss, not daring to lean against Xu Ye anymore.Xu Ye replied to him in a low voice: "There is no more Baile Lane." The whole area from Baile Lane to Baiyun Building was demolished the year before last, and there was nothing left.Ning Juechen twisted his fingers and asked softly: "Then where can I find you in the future?"

Both of them suffered a lot along the way.Ning Juechen was so drunk that he just wanted to sleep, and could hardly keep his eyes open.But it seemed like he hadn't seen Xu Ye for a long, long time, and he kept trying to talk to Xu Ye, but the first thing he said was nonsense.

For a while it was "I haven't eaten soup dumplings for a few days, shall we go to eat soup dumplings", and for a while it was "Tomorrow morning class, I have to silent the fourth unit word. You can take a look at it when you have time. It's okay if you don't want to. When the time comes I'll write it down for you", and then "I took two history test papers this weekend, and I have finished writing them for you".

After listening for a while, the driver finally couldn't help it anymore: "You guys are still students, so you just drink like this outside in the middle of the night? Don't the adults care about it!" Xu Ye explained embarrassingly: "No, he was drunk and talking nonsense, you Look at how we look like students."

He was irritable, knowing that he couldn't explain the truth to a drunk person, and thinking of Lu Juelan's ambiguous historical achievements, he said along the way: "It's just you? Forget it." Ning Juechen was stunned, biting awkwardly Lips: "No, I wrote it seriously." Then he hung his head limply and did not say a word.

The car was suddenly quiet, Xu Ye turned his face away and looked at the dark street scene outside the window, feeling as if a piece of his heart had been ripped out.These days, he was in the hospital every day, and found that Ning Juechen's eyes moved and his mouth moved several times. He rushed to the doctor excitedly, and asked if it meant that the situation had improved, and was he about to wake up?

Every time I get the same answer: this is not the patient's voluntary action, but an unconscious nerve reflex.From the ecstasy of the first time and the second time to the later discouragement, every time the process of rapidly falling from hope to disappointment and persisting in refusing to despair seems to tear him apart and reassemble him.

Xu Ye read a novel written by Ning Juechen a few days ago, and there is a paragraph in it that says: Sometimes it is very hard to like you.Where you can't see me, I will become Prometheus imprisoned on the Caucasus Mountain, day and night, eating my heart and cutting out my bones.But as long as you look back at me one more time, new red flesh will immediately grow on the rotten wound.

In the past few months, Xu Ye experienced all the words in this passage, and he didn't dare to think about Ning Juechen's mood when he wrote these words.Every day, even "unconscious nerve reflexes" have gradually become his comfort and healing.

Until seeing Lu Juelan again tonight, Xu Ye actually saw Ning Juechen's shadow on him again. These are obviously Ning Juechen's demeanor, Ning Juechen's actions, and Ning Juechen's words...

Xu Ye felt that he must be in a daze. On the one hand, his heart trembled, like a thirsty traveler walking in the desert who was suddenly gifted with a handful of clear springs; Crushed crushed into powder.

Staying with Lu Juelan for an extra second is a heinous crime.

After more than half an hour, they finally arrived at the destination, and Ning Juechen curled up in the innermost corner and fell asleep by the car window.Xu Ye got out of the car and walked around to the other side to open the door, Ning Juechen took advantage of the situation and fell into his arms.Xu Ye was stunned for a moment, and when he lowered his head, he saw that he was still wringing his fingers tightly in his sleep, and this little movement immediately made him distracted.

Xu Ye silently withdrew his hand, Ning Juechen had no support, and almost fell when he tilted, and woke up suddenly.Xu Ye urged him uncomfortably: "We're here, get out of the car." It was cold outside, and the snow was falling heavily, turning from snowflakes to snowflakes.

Ning Juechen walked away step by step without saying a word, not knowing why Xu Ye was angry.In fact, he was still too dizzy to walk, but Xu Ye walked ahead without any intention of waiting for him, so he could only follow.Anyway, this kind of scene has been staged a hundred times a thousand times, he is used to it, it doesn't matter.

Ning Juechen had only been here once, and now that he was drunk and it was late at night, he didn't remember where it was at all, so he stood at the door for a while and refused to go in.Xu Ye really wanted to return home, and just wanted to settle him back to the hospital quickly: "Come in, I have something else to do." Ning Juechen grabbed the door frame and asked softly, "Where is this? Where are you going?"

Xu Ye pulled him into the house: "My house." The snowflakes on Ning Juechen's shoulders had already melted, and his coat was stained with water. He looked into Xu Ye's eyes stubbornly and asked again: "Do you want to go?" ?"

A scene suddenly flashed in his mind, they were also in a strange house, Xu Yi said that he had to go out, and then he didn't come back for several weeks.In fact, it happened on the first day they lived in the house in Lian City, but Ning Juechen's mind is so muddled that he can't think clearly and can't remember.

"Can you not go?" "Don't go..." "Don't go today, shall we?" He didn't know what he said in a mess, but he knew that Xu Ye was annoyed by him in the end, and shouted under his throat: "Lu Juelan, are you finished?"

Ning Juechen was woken up by the shout of "Lu Juelan", and suddenly he couldn't control his mouth: "I'll tell you a secret, he met Wu Tian the night after the college entrance examination." Xu Ye's action of opening the door was abruptly stopped: "What?" The name was so far away that he almost didn't realize it.

Ning Juechen became faintly excited, and then those words seemed to turn into a beast and crawl out of his throat, uncontrollable: "He drank Wu Tian's wine, didn't know what kind of medicine was in it, and then sent you home, Then you recognized the wrong person and kissed him." Xu Ye froze all over, and he turned around with difficulty: "...What medicine?"

Ning Juechen smiled helplessly, and the smile was extremely desolate: "You always think that he is acting, on purpose." Xu Ye reflexively wanted to deny it, but he couldn't make a sound as if his mouth was sealed, he just shook his head .Ning Juechen didn't give him time to buffer: "But you said, he turned you into, raped, the son of the person he likes, a jerk."

Ning Juechen really drank too much and ignored it, there were too many doubts in these words, as "Lu Juelan", he shouldn't know what happened on the night of the college entrance examination, let alone what Xu Ye said to Ning Juechen.

Xu Ye didn't care about these doubts, he just stood there like a stone statue, his face was frighteningly pale, and he looked lost.Xu Ye never thought about this possibility, because Ning Juechen would definitely not drink, so he was at least sober. Xu Ye always thought that Ning Juechen was taking advantage of him to get drunk...

In fact, Xu Ye had gradually let go of the matter of grandma at that time, and planned to slowly reconcile with Ning Juechen after the college entrance examination, but this kind of thing happened in the end.At that time, he only felt exhausted and disappointed, and he didn't want to have anything to do with Ning Juechen.

Ning Juechen watched Xu Ye shivering in the cold wind like a bunch of dead branches curled up on a branch.He thought he would be happy, but he wasn't.Suddenly there was a piece of emptiness in his chest, and the hula la filled it with wind.

——So decisively uprooted the love for many years, but never thought that the root grew in the heart.

21 Don't touch his things

Ning Juechen slept until noon, and when he opened his eyes, he saw a strange room with a strange ceiling.After the hangover, I only felt a splitting headache. Ning Juechen sat up dizzily with his head propped up and thought about it carefully. He couldn't remember what happened last night at all.It wasn't until he saw the two photo frames on the table that he suddenly remembered that this was Xu Ye's rented house next to the hospital.

There is a note under the photo frame with Xu Ye's handwriting on it. Xu Ye likes to write for a long time: [Your girlfriend said that you may not have a place to live, so you can just live here. I seldom come back. ]

Ning Juechen was stunned for a moment, it seems that Xu Tingya asked Xu Ye to pick him up last night.Xu Tingya was the person he felt the most sorry for in the past few months when he woke up in Lu Juelan's body. He thought that if he had the chance, he must apologize to her well and truly.

Ning Juechen thought that he had thought it through when he broke up, but now that he calmed down, he realized that he was not prepared at all, and the most basic problem of where to live was not resolved.It is possible to pay the first installment of rent with the money in hand, but the deposit must not be able to pay, and it is even more difficult to go to an express hotel for a few days.

He only has a little cash left in Lu Juelan's wallet, and he doesn't know the password of the bank card. If he really needs it, he has to go to the bank with his ID card.He didn't want to touch the money on the card unless it was a last resort, and he even wrote down the amount of cash spent, always thinking of paying it back.

Now that Lu Juelan's job is gone, he has to find a way to make money. He remembered that there are still some manuscripts he wrote before in the computer, but he doesn't know if he can still use them.

The notebook is placed on the table, because it is covered with a soft cloth, so it is clean and free of dust.The screen lit up, and when he saw the familiar desktop, he tapped the mouse to open the familiar folder. Ning Juechen felt like boiling water in his heart, but after a while, he started to tremble again.

This feeling is very strange. It is obviously my own thing, but I can't help feeling guilty when I use it.In the first few days, my nerves were too tense, and I kept my head buried in writing, as if I heard the sound of the door opening, and my heart beat so fast that my heart ached.

Fortunately, Xu Ye did what he said."