almost lonely

tighter.

"I should be in the hospital now. I should have stayed with him. I should have guarded him, but I ran away..." He wasn't cold, he was afraid, "I dare not see him. I didn't take good care of him, and I let him Sick and hurting him again. I can't take care of him! What should I do?"

Xu Ye was trembling all the time, making Ning Juechen's heart twist.He remembered how Lu Juelan comforted Xu Ye in the second year of high school, so he also held Xu Ye's shoulder and said to him: "You have done a good job." Xu Ye couldn't even speak clearly, Ning Juechen It was easy to discern what he was talking about, what he said was: "I'm not good, I have someone else in my heart..."

Ning Juechen's heart suddenly felt sore, whether these words were describing the past or the present, it was a blow that could choke his life.Ning Juechen moved his lips awkwardly, but only made an incomprehensible gasp.

Xu Ye talked a lot of nonsense along the way.

"I was not good before, I was not good to him, I was thinking of others."

"I can tell them apart, they are different, I can clearly tell the difference."

"But why did I admit my mistake several times?"

"I'm sorry Chenchen..."

"I want to see Jue Lan. I make excuses for myself to see him, but he is with someone else. That person knows Chenchen and calls him Xiaochen. I don't even know who I'm mad at."

"I'm not allowed to look for him by myself, but I still miss him. When I saw someone from behind in the hospital that day, I thought it was him."

"So Chenchen is still awake, he refuses to wake up, because I treated him badly, and he won't forgive me."

"I don't like Lu Juelan, I don't like him anymore, I really don't know why..."

Ning Juechen listened to him silently, tears streaming down his face.Later Xu Ye repeated the opening sentence again: "Juelan, don't come again." Ning Juechen wiped his face carelessly twice, nodded and said, "Okay."

In the past, Xu Ye also came to him drunk in the middle of the night, and Ning Juechen fell asleep several times, but was called by Xu Ye to open the door.Xu Ye had a bad temper, and became even more unreasonable when he was drunk. Ning Juechen kindly persuaded him to drink less, but he didn't appreciate it at all, and asked Ning Juechen if he thought he was annoying and didn't want him to come.

How could Ning Juechen not want him to come over?He was really worried, because his dad died of drinking at that time.Xu Ye gets angry when he talks too much, and when he gets angry, he just presses him down regardless of what he does, and he tosses about rudely all night. ——Thinking about this kind of life carefully, it turned out to be half a year ago.

Today's Xu Ye is very different from before. When washing his face, he was too obedient, and he didn't make a sound when the water flowed into his eyes, just kneading with his head down.Ning Juechen moved up with a towel, and he quickly grabbed it and wiped it vigorously: "Chenchen, I will never drink again, don't be angry, I will never drink again, I promise."

In the end Xu Ye sat down on the edge of the bed very quietly, and Ning Juechen skillfully dried his hair. Several times he thought Xu Ye had fallen asleep, but just as he turned off the hair dryer and stood up, Xu Ye grabbed him.Xu Ye looked up at him beggingly, whispered two words: "Don't go."

The more Xu Ye was so submissive, the more Ning Juechen felt piercing.He grabbed Xu Ye's wrist and pulled it off, and suddenly felt that the skin felt like...?Ning Juechen was startled and frightened. Looking carefully at his wrist, there was actually a large area of ​​burns on it. The small wound in the middle was still fresh. It could be seen that the hand was heavy, and the flesh on the edge was turned up.

He is more familiar with this kind of scar than anyone else, and he also knows better than anyone what this shape is: it is almost full of the butterfly's second wing.

Ning Juechen let go of his hand suddenly, swallowed twice, as if being pinched by someone's neck, he couldn't breathe.It took a long time before he hissed and asked Xu Ye: "What are you?" Xu Ye pinched his wound, as if he didn't know the pain at all.

"This is punishment." He blinked, with a smile on his lips, "Punishment for stomach bleeding."

"This is because I overslept at night and didn't help him turn over, which caused him to develop bed sores; this is because the fluid was pushed too fast once; this is because the bed was flattened after pushing the fluid, so the regurgitation occurred; It’s because I forgot to suck his phlegm one morning.” Xu Ye pointed to the deep and shallow scars and introduced them to Ning Juechen solemnly, and finally touched the butterfly’s wing, “These are because of misidentification, Because he was thinking of others by his side, because he was thinking of people who shouldn't be thinking of, so he had to work harder."

After speaking, he raised his head, confused and asked seriously: "But I can't tell the difference again, is it Chenchen or Juelan now?"

Ning Juechen held Xu Ye's wrist carefully, hot tears dripped on the back of his hand, he didn't know what he was talking about: "Brother Ye, I let you go, you can let me go too." Wrapping his arms around his waist, Yi leaned on him like a child, as if he didn't hear his words at all: "When are you coming back? I miss you so much."

24 who is on my side

It was another morning, and it was still dark.Ning Juechen gradually became conscious, and found himself standing in front of the French window, the cigarette butt in his hand fell off, and ash gathered around his feet.He was afraid that Xu Ye would break the secret, so he has moved out from Xu Ye's place this week, and has been staying in the express hotel for the past few days.

The process of fighting for the initiative of the body is like a game of tug-of-war with no end in sight. The consequence of being evenly matched is that both sides suffer, and no one wants to waste their own time on things like sleeping.

Ning Juechen didn't know that this body hadn't had a good rest for a few days, and now he felt exhausted, heartbroken, and every bone in his body was aching.

It was pitch black outside the window, dotted with a few street lamps here and there.He sat down on the ground leaning on the cold glass, took out his phone, and propped his forehead to send a message to Qiu Hui.He didn't want to trouble Qiu Hui at first, but the mental pressure became more and more difficult to dispel every day, and he really needed an outlet.It also started in the last few days. Every time he woke up, he would briefly talk to Qiu Hui about the current situation, which should be regarded as a kind of record.

[Just woke up, he probably didn't go out at night, he smoked a lot, the cigarette case was empty. ]

[I think he is preparing something, what he wants to do, but I can't guess. ]

[Where did you say he was when I was in this body?Like now.Or where was I when he was here? ]

[Maybe it really is a soul swap. ]

[He was sealed in my body before. ]

[When I am not here, it seems that when I fell asleep, I should have returned to my body. ]

[In a vegetative body. ]

[It turns out that this is the feeling of being in a vegetative state... just like being dead. ]

[I am a little scared. ]

[Actually, I was thinking, when he was in my body, such as now, what would happen if my body died, would his soul also die along with it?That is, disappear? ]

[can you? ]

[Then he will never come back and never come back? ]

He was so tired that he couldn't keep his eyes open, and fell asleep after leaning against the window frame, and didn't even have time to put down the phone he was holding.

He was awakened by the vibration of his mobile phone, and Qiu Hui called.Ning Juechen stretched his stiff body, and pressed the answer button: "Hey, it's me now." Qiu Hui spoke in a hurry, and even questioned: "Where are you?!" Ning Juechen answered him vaguely: "At home, what's the matter?"

Qiu Hui was still very serious: "Aren't you serious?" Ning Juechen didn't realize it at first: "What?" Qiu Hui's tone didn't relax at all: "The things you sent me aren't serious, are they? Are you kidding?" Ning Juechen didn't speak, and Qiu Hui sighed: "Xiaochen, don't have such thoughts, this is... killing people, have you ever thought about it?"

When he woke up in the morning and saw the news, he immediately woke up in fright, and hurried to catch up with the phone, his palms were still covered in cold sweat.Ning Juechen's eyes flickered: "...But, that's me." Qiu Hui was angry and anxious: "You are your brother now! What are you thinking?!"

Ning Juechen remained silent, and Qiu Hui continued in a panic: "Have you ever thought about another possibility, what if that body dies and your brother happens to be able to return to his original state? What would you do? Would you How?" Ning Juechen continued calmly: "I will die."

When Qiu Hui heard him say these three words in a calm tone, his heart jumped: "Anyway, this road is not good! Don't even think about it!" Ning Juechen suddenly became excited: "But if it goes on like this, I will die too. , I can't control it more and more, do you understand? This is not mine! I will be squeezed out by him soon!"

Qiu Hui quickly softened up to comfort him: "Xiaochen, I know I know everything, don't worry! I'll ask for leave and come to see you, okay? I'll accompany you, don't be afraid." Ning Juechen spit out two words: " No." After saying that, he hung up the phone.

He threw away the phone, closed his eyes tiredly,——you don't know.

Ning Juechen fell asleep for a long time this time, and woke up once in the middle. Lu Juelan seemed to want to go out and stood in front of the mirror to change clothes.Ning Juechen didn't have the energy to stop him, and he couldn't stop him. After half an hour, he couldn't hold on anymore, and his consciousness soon fell silent again.

The second time he woke up, it was in a strange restaurant. He raised his head and saw Xu Tingya sitting opposite... Ning Juechen's heart skipped a beat.Xu Tingya looked at him with concern: "Are you uncomfortable?" Ning Juechen's face was as white as paper. He didn't know what Lu Juelan and Xu Tingya had just said, did they mention the soul exchange: "I...it's fine."

Xu Tingya frowned: "You just