almost lonely

, right in front of him.Xu Ye felt that the lump of rotten flesh in his chest that was so painful that it was numb was finally jumping and jumping again, as if he was the one who came back to life.He hugged him very tightly and vigorously, he needed to feel his heartbeat and listen to his breathing, he really needed a little proof.

After a long time, Xu Ye said slowly, "Why didn't you tell me?" Ning Juechen had already leaned against him so calmly that he seemed to be asleep, but after hearing this sentence, he began to struggle and tremble again.Xu Ye's heart ached to death, and he wished he could slap himself twice: "I'm wrong, I won't ask, don't be afraid."

The shoulder was a little hot and wet, Xu Ye thought it was tears, turned his head and saw a lot of red, a lot of blood.Ning Juechen lay motionless on his shoulder, nosebleeds poured out crazily and dripped all over his white sweater.It was the same in the hospital a few hours ago. After saying a few words, there was no response suddenly. Xu Ye was so frightened that his heart almost stopped beating: "Chenchen?!"

The person in his arms moved and opened his eyes.Xu Ye was stunned, and he felt something "wrong" with just one glance, or to be precise, it should be "right", this is Lu Juelan's eyes.Lu Juelan pushed Xu Ye away, raised his hand and wiped the nosebleed twice: "You finally found out, I thought he would not tell you until he died."

Xu Ye was caught off guard by the word "death" and stabbed at the door of his heart: "What...death?" Twitching the corners of his mouth, "I only know that he will get out of my body soon." Xu Ye asked each word, "What do you mean?"

"Originally, he could have dragged on a little longer, but he is too stupid. I am the master of my body. Can he steal it for a while and for a lifetime? Every time I am stimulated casually, I can't stand it. I did it on purpose, probably He still foolishly thinks that he has won me, and he doesn't even know that he is exhausting himself day by day." Lu Juelan looked down at the blood on the back of his hand, his expression became a little distorted, "Look, he has already begun to be rejected by his body, The legendary lost soul?"

Xu Ye's breathing was all messed up: "Why?" Lu Juelan continued blankly: "He occupied my body for half a year, dumped my fiancée and lost my job, isn't that enough reason?" Xu Yanning was stunned. Concentrate: "You don't like him, you have never liked him, why?"

Lu Juelan smiled: "Why? Because he is dirty, and so are you. I feel disgusted if he stays in my body for one more day. Do you know why my mother divorced back then? Because he was cheated by his father, who is gay! He's a bastard just like his father!"

Xu Ye's clenched fists were almost crushed: "What crazy things are you talking about?! His father is also your father! He is your younger brother!" "I only have one father, and my father's name is Lu Chengxiong!" Lu Juelan sneered, "If he hadn't appeared out of nowhere back then, my mother would never have anything to do with that beast! Why did he intervene in our fine family of three? He shouldn't have appeared in our lives in the first place!"

Xu Ye was only 11 years old when he first met Lu Juelan, and now he is 27 years old.For so many years, Xu Ye didn't know whether he had never seen Lu Juelan clearly, or Lu Juelan had changed so much that he no longer knew him.

Lu Juelan continued hissing: "I have been brothers with you for so many years! Okay, gays are gays, you are my best friend, I forced myself to accept you and understand you, but when you turned around, you actually had sex with him Together?! He really is just like his father..." "Lu Juelan!" Xu Ye interrupted him sharply, and suddenly felt that the person in front of him was so strange that it was scary.

The cell phone rang suddenly, and the caller ID was Aunt Xu. Xu Ye's heart tightened, and he answered in a hurry: "What's wrong?" Aunt Xu reassured him that everything was checked and everything was fine. Xu Ye nodded and agreed: "Okay, I'll go to the hospital in a while. Auntie, you can get him some juice first. I bought pears and oranges yesterday and put them in the cabinet by the door. You can see them as soon as you open the door. Mangoes Don’t let it go, I tasted it too sweet, and drank phlegm, it’s not good. Well, I’ll be right over.”

Lu Juelan's tone changed: "Is there something wrong with his body?" "He wanted to 'kill' himself, don't you know? So you didn't lead this matter..." Xu Ye hung up the phone, his eyes darkened, "What happens to his body if he dies? Is it you or him who stays?"

Seeing Lu Juelan's face turn pale, Xu Ye suddenly had a bold thought: "You don't know? So... half the probability? You don't dare to take risks." Lu Juelan's expression became a little ugly: "What do you want to say? ?”

Xu Ye stared at him intently: "I'll take good care of his body. In exchange, first, don't provoke him and don't force him to do anything. Second, you stay here and don't stay away from my sight." Lu Juelan The face is still forced to relax: "Are you kidding? Why should I make a deal with you? What would you be willing to do to him? Can you kill him or watch him die?"

"You can try to see if I'm joking. Lu Juelan, if he's not afraid, I'm not afraid." Xu Ye's tone was surprisingly calm, "He wants to take a gamble, he wants to get rid of it, but he doesn't dare, so let me do it. As long as it is what he wants, I will help him. Try it and see if I dare." The veins on Lu Juelan's neck burst, and he stared at him like a madman.

After Xu Ye finished speaking, he picked up his coat and went out. When he ran into Qiu Hui who was guarding the corridor, Xu Ye felt an indescribable exhaustion in his heart: "Why haven't you left yet?" Qiu Hui's eyes froze on him. On the large bloodstain on the shoulder: "You left him at home alone?" Xu Yi put on his coat and said, "I'm going to the hospital."

Qiu Hui stepped forward to stop him without expression: "I want to see him." Xu Ye pushed him away expressionlessly: "You go and see, it's not him now." Qiu Hui glared at him: "You are not him Boyfriend, he is not your property!" Xu Yi nodded: "You are right, can I go to the hospital?"

Qiu Hui looked at his back, his teeth were about to be gritted. This person's name is Xu Ye, and Xu Ye's input in Jiugongge is 9893.Qiu Hui asked what the pseudonym meant several times, but Ning Juechen didn't tell him. He didn't expect this string of numbers to be a person's name. ——Does Ning Juechen like him so much? !

When I went to the hospital, I went to the doctor first. In fact, Xu Ye had some secret expectations in his heart. Under such circumstances, it was inevitable that he was a bit extravagant. Will the situation get better?Are there signs of recovery?Facts have proved that these are really fantasies. The doctor just talked about the treatment of gastric bleeding and the precautions for nursing. He also reassured him not to blame himself too much and not to put too much pressure on himself. The main reason is that the patient had stomach problems before, not without care good.

Xu Ye thanked the doctor and went back to the ward. When he saw Ning Juechen's face, he burst into tears, startled Aunt Xu, and asked him repeatedly: "What's the matter, Xiao Xu? Did the doctor say something was wrong?" ?" Xu Ye just shook his head, sat on the edge of the bed and grabbed Ning Juechen's slender wrist, crying so hard that he couldn't speak a word.

It was the first time Aunt Xu saw him like this.When encountering this kind of thing, no one should rush to the sky, but Xu Ye didn't. Although he was clumsy at first and couldn't even peel an apple well, and he looked like the type who didn't know how to take care of others, but he quickly entered the state and learned seriously.

It is said that there is no filial son at the bedside after a long illness. After such a long time, Xu Yizhen has never slacked off for a moment. Aunt Xu has been a nurse for many years. She has met all kinds of people and can do things for "friends". Xu Ye was the first to reach this level.Don't know what happened today so sad?

Aunt Xu looked distressed, she always felt that this child is very good and sensible: "It's good to let it out, you can't always keep it in your heart, you will get sick. You are so good to him, Xiao Ning knows in his heart, he all I know."

Xu Ye stayed in the hospital for a long time, and before leaving, he turned the person on the bed over again, and did not return until early in the morning.It was a little bit of evasion, he didn't know how to face Lu Juelan when he went back.Xu Ye squatted at the back door of the hospital and lit the last cigarette in the pack. He remembered that twice, the "Lu Jue Lan" he thought was smoking with him here. What was Ning Juechen thinking at that time?Xu Ye didn't know and didn't dare to guess, he flicked the cigarette butt between his fingers, and felt like falling ash, bit by bit, shattered.

As soon as he got home and opened the door, he heard the sound of splashing water, Xu Ye paused, and saw the man standing in front of the pool.Xu Ye didn't speak, and waited for him to turn around—it was Chenchen.Ning Juechen looked at him for a while, then lowered his head and pursed his lips: "I'm sorry, I made your clothes dirty." Xu Ye followed his gaze and saw the dark red blood stains caked on his sweater.

He walked over, and the blood-stained clothes that Ning Juechen had changed were soaked in the pool, and the water was a little red.He said this for the second time: "Chenchen, can I give you a hug?" Ning Juechen didn't nod or shake his head, Xu Ye leaned over and carefully circled him from behind, holding his hand tightly in his palm hold.In such a cold winter, I was still soaking in cold water, and my fingers were frozen like ice cubes.Ning Juechen shuddered, then spit out a word softly after realizing it: "Okay."

The winter sun shines in through the window, making it look very warm.

26 If we do it all over again

Perhaps Xu Ye's threat that day had an effect, and Lu Juelan only appeared at night at first.Days became very regular, Xu Ye stayed at home with Ning Juechen during the day, went to the hospital when it was dark, and stayed overnight in the ward.

When Ning Juechen was awake, he was very quiet and said very little. Xu Ye often remembered that when he first met, Ning Juechen always