romantic accident

"Impossible, I'm a man." An Mingzhi reacted violently, panicked, "It's left over from a car accident, don't make such a joke."

Zheng Yuzhang said seriously: "I'm not kidding, Yangyang is our child."

An Ming knew that Zheng Yuzhang was not coaxing him to lie to him, Zheng Yuzhang was crazy.Either he had hallucinations to hear such words.

"I'm a man." He retorted muffled.

If Zheng Yuzhang really can't find any good excuses, even if Yang Yang is said to be a surrogate or adopted, he will believe it.But what nonsense he was talking about now, it was ridiculous.

He didn't understand why Zheng Yuzhang made up such a fantasy lie to deceive him.

"Men can't have children." He thought of the weird scar on his lower abdomen, as if convincing himself, "It was just a car accident."

"Mingzhi, look at me." Zheng Yuzhang stroked his cheek, forcing An Mingzhi to look at him, "I know you can't accept it for a while, but you are different from others, you are special."

An Mingzhi looked at him with eyes filled with water vapor.

"Dr. Yu said that you are a very rare special hermaphroditism. You have two reproductive/reproductive/systems in your body. Your mother also knows this, but she never told you."

Zheng Yuzhang gently rubbed his belly, where one of their babies was once conceived: "Your body is very special. Another reproductive system is completely hidden in the body. It looks no different from ordinary men on the outside, so ordinary physical examination I couldn't find it out."

An Mingzhi was too shocked to speak, the person Zheng Yuzhang spoke of was strange and far away, as if that person was not him, and he was listening to another person's story.

"When you were almost ten years old, you suddenly had a stomachache one day. Your mother took you to the hospital for an examination and found out. The doctor at that time did an examination for you and said that your male phylogeny is well developed. The other organ will slowly shrink away in the body, which will not affect the future marriage and childbirth, but the number of sperms may be less than ordinary people, and it is not so easy to have children after marriage."

Zheng Yuzhang said: "It's just rare, not impossible, so your mother didn't tell you about it. Moreover, your age has passed the optimal period for surgery, and the doctor can only prescribe some drugs to promote secondary sexual atrophy. "

An Mingzhi remembered this incident, probably when he was in the third grade, he suddenly had a stomachache during physical education class, and the teacher informed his mother to take him back.Later they went to the hospital for many examinations. The doctor even took off his pants and touched him. An Mingzhi, who already had a gender concept, remembered this incident very firmly.

As Zheng Yuzhang said, his mother didn't tell him about it, but just gave him the medicine when she came back.Xiao An knew that he took that experience as an ordinary stomachache and didn't care about it.

What he said was so true that An Mingzhi became uneasy: "How do you know this?"

"Your mother said." Zheng Yuzhang said, "She was present when Yang Yang was born."

"My mother knows too?"

"Yeah." If you abduct someone and give birth to yourself, you must inform the mother-in-law.

An Mingzhi still finds it unbelievable, but in his consciousness he has gradually begun to believe Zheng Yuzhang's words.

He took those medicines for a while and stopped taking them, because his parents divorced soon after, his mother married overseas, and his father remarried. He was fostered at his aunt's house, and no one cared about him.At that time, he had already started to learn dancing, and he went to college. In order to keep his skin fine and thin, his body hair sparse, and his voice not so hoarse, he paid great attention to eating less food with high male hormones, and even secretly took some drugs that increase estrogen.

The organs that were supposed to shrink quietly grew again in his body.

But now An Mingzhi's body is well-proportioned and soft, not as delicate as a woman's.At best, he is a little whiter and thinner than other men, nothing else.

"That, that's impossible..." It's also impossible to get pregnant.

"Yes, the doctor also said that the chance is very, very small, but the small chance doesn't mean it's impossible."

When they were pregnant with Zheng Yuyang, they had been together for more than three years and their relationship was stable, so they rarely wore condoms during sex/love.Zheng Yuzhang contradicts deeply every time, and always likes to get it in the deepest part of his body.

An Mingzhi thought at the time that if he was a woman, he would have been pregnant so many times with Zheng Yuzhang's nonsense.

He just thought about it, never thought that one day it would come true.

Seeing his panicked expression, Zheng Yuzhang laughed. He was much more shocked when he knew it than An Mingzhi is now.

At that time, Zheng Yuyang had already been in An Mingzhi's stomach for almost three months, and the two adults still didn't know it at all, and they lived life in bed without restraint.An Mingzhi cried out in pain on the bed, but Zheng Yuzhang thought it was a joke, but seeing his pale face, he hurriedly took him to the hospital.

An Mingzhi hadn't filmed for a while, her hair was long and unshaven, and covered the back of her neck with jet-black hair, she was wearing a mask and a peaked cap, making it difficult to distinguish her gender.

The doctor thought he was a woman with short hair, and calmly asked them to go to the obstetrics and gynecology department upstairs for an examination, saying that he might be pregnant.

The two couldn't laugh or cry on the spot.

After a round of other examinations, no problems were found. An Ming knew that the pain in his stomach was gone, so he wanted to go back. Zheng Yuzhang was worried, and took him to his personal doctor for an examination.

His personal doctor, who is both Chinese and Western medicine, put his fingers on his pulse, his expression became serious, and he said that he might really be pregnant.

Zheng Yuzhang couldn't laugh immediately.

After checking with the latest equipment, the assumptions of the two previous doctors were verified. An Ming knew that there was a small thing in his stomach for three months.On the B-ultrasound, the little thing looked like a fava bean, and the doctor said it was only four or five centimeters.

An Mingzhi still couldn't believe it: "I don't remember at all... Was it because of a car accident?"

"Yes, the doctor said you have selective amnesia." Zheng Yuzhang said, "Maybe that memory is too painful for you."

"pain?"

An knowingly forgot that period of memory, like a disk being wiped clean, and some scattered fragments occasionally jumped into his head, vague and unreal, like a dream.

He didn't know why he was in pain.

"Well, it's painful." Zheng Yuzhang said a little sadly, "because you don't want this child."

An Mingzhi looked at him like a child waiting for an adult to tell a story.

"I don't like him? Why?"

Zheng Yuzhang touched his hair and let him lean on him, helplessly and tenderly: "It's not that you don't like him, it's because your parents make you very resistant to having children."

An Ming knew what he was thinking at the time.

It's not that he doesn't like children, he's just afraid.It is still the same today, like Yang Yang, he has always liked it very much, but if it becomes his own child, it will be different.

His parents' marriage failed, and he often quarreled when he was a child. If he tried to persuade him, he would be scolded, and if he accidentally offended his father, he would also be scolded.His mother was a very bad-tempered person, and it was inevitable that her emotions would be involved in the little him sometimes.

Although they divorced later, Ke An knew that his childhood had caused him unavoidable harm. When he was a teenager, he thought that he would never get married in the future, nor would he have children of his own, so he would never become him. Someone like my father.

He didn't want to be a failed dad.

"During that time, you were very anxious, depressed and suspicious. You thought you would become like your father, and you always thought that I didn't love you, but the child in my womb." Zheng Yuzhang said.

It's not just these, I don't know if it's because of the influence of progesterone, but An Mingzhi's personality has changed a lot.He was afraid, terrified, anxious, felt like a monster, would give birth to a little monster, either a meatball, or a monster with a small tail and small horns, even though the B-ultrasound showed that the fetus was all normal, he had several times Want to get rid of the "little monster".

He sometimes felt that he was just suffering from a strange disease and was not pregnant. The disease caused him nausea and vomiting every day, and his stomach was getting bigger day by day, and he might explode one day.

Every day he worries about his belly exploding.

Zheng Yuzhang coaxed him until the baby was more than five months old, and there was no way to remove the baby, so An Mingzhi had to give up and accept the reality to give birth to it.

But his previous worries are still there, and he doesn't want this child to be like him.

An Mingzhi hung his head and thought for a while, then suddenly asked: "But, do you love me?"

Zheng Yuzhang was confident: "Why don't I love you?! I want to give you my heart, who should I love if I don't love you?"

For so many years, he never said "love" to An Mingzhi, even he himself didn't realize it, he thought that doing it was equivalent to expressing it.

When he said it so logically, An Mingzhi was stunned.

He turned his head and said in a sad tone, "You said it yourself, I'm just a bed crawler."

Zheng Yuzhang thought for a long time and finally remembered that he seemed to have said such a stupid sentence, but it had been so many years, and when he was arguing with him for a while, how could this little ancestor still remember.

"You know, I said some bad things before, and I was confused at the time. I found out later that you really like me, and you didn't want to play around. Now Yangyang is so big, don't mention the past OK, okay?"

An Mingzhi didn't speak, a tear slipped down and seeped into the soil.

Seeing him crying, Zheng Yuzhang couldn't take it anymore, he was most afraid of An Mingzhi's tears: "Do you think I don't love you?"

An Mingzhi's voice was a little choked up: "Because you never said it."

He didn't say it, but he did it.Originally, expressing love was a bit difficult for a man in his forties.

"Does it count if you say it?"

An Mingzhi nodded, he wanted to hear it very much.

It really felt awkward for Zheng Yuzhang to say "I love you" all of a sudden.After waiting for a few seconds, he held An Mingzhi in his arms, and said the first words "I love you" to him in the cave where the mutual heating was being made, amidst the sounds of thunder and rain, and amidst the crackling flames.

An Mingzhi leaned on him contentedly, are those three words really that important?not necessarily.But it made him feel at ease like never before.

He has forgotten many things, and Zheng Yuzhang is telling him bit by bit.

"Yangyang was born prematurely. The doctor said that the place where you carry the fetus is too small and the development is not complete. Yangyang was cut out after seven months. He stayed in the incubator for many days before he could look like a normal baby."

Zheng Yuzhang said cruelly: "You only saw him once when he was born."

"Really?" An Mingzhi didn't have the slightest impression.

"You live in the fear of your father and dare not contact him. Then, there was a car accident, and you lost this memory. The doctor said that people will selectively forget things that make them painful."

"So... you haven't told me?"

"I thought it would make you feel better." Zheng Yuzhang said, "You got along well with Yangyang later, I thought about telling you, but I didn't find a suitable opportunity, and you never asked again."

An Mingzhi thought that it was because he was too disappointed. If he had enough disappointment, he would not hit the south wall again.

Until this moment, he still had a sense of unreality that Yang Yang was actually his child, the child of him and Zheng Yuzhang.He's a...man who can have babies?

It's really like a dream, maybe after waking up from sleep, the dream will really wake up.

Gradually, the night deepened, the wind left, the rain became lighter, and the flames weakened. An Mingzhi leaned on Zheng Yuzhang's shoulder and yawned.

Zheng Yuzhang kissed his forehead and said to him as he had done for more than 2000 days and nights in the past: "Good boy, go to sleep."