Nemesis

before what?Before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted by Qiao Ning who was still standing on the stairs, "Zuo Yan is here, Lin Zhigang is still thinking about you." Seeing him standing stupidly, she urged, "Come up, He drank too much at noon and was still lying down, so he couldn't come down to pick you up."

Zuo Yan was startled by her "asking why you didn't come", and then urged by her. He felt that Qiao Ning seemed to be different from the previous two times, and his tone was like an inflammatory order. Make people subconsciously follow suit.

The three aunts and six aunts downstairs gave way to him one after another, and asked Qiao Ning, "Ning Ning, is this Lin Zhi's younger brother? Is Lin Zhi better, and there is hangover soup."

Qiao Ning said with a smile, "No, I just woke up."

Another person came over to look at Zuo Yan who suddenly barged in like a monkey, and asked, "Which family are you from?"

Qiao Ning said first, "Auntie, Xiaoyan is Lin Zhi's classmate, let's talk later, ah."

Zuo Yan went up the stairs under their watchful eyes. As soon as he turned the stairs, within a minute, the bustle downstairs resumed.

Qiao Ning walked in front and didn't stop until the end of the second floor.

Zuo Yanxin thought this house is really big.

Qiao Ning watched him look around and said, "It's quiet here."

Zuo Yan nodded, followed her words, and said with a guilty conscience and nothing to say, "Brother really asked about me?"

"I didn't ask." Qiao Ning smiled, "I just called your name for a while after drinking too much."

"......" Zuo Yan was stuck, he didn't know what Qiao Ning meant. ,go in."

The air conditioner was turned on in the room, the curtains were mostly drawn, and only a small lamp by the bed was left on. There was a person lying on the bed, as if he was still producing the smell of alcohol between breaths, and the smoke filled the room.

Zuo Yan walked slowly to the head of the bed, and slowly saw Duan Linzhi's bloodshot face under the light due to drunkenness.

He had never seen Duan Linzhi drink like this.

He looked at it for a long time, and described Duan Linzhi who had memory discrepancies during this period, and finally found that he had lost weight.

For a while, Zuo Yan was confused by the thin Duan Linzhi, and he called softly, "Duan Linzhi."

Duan Linzhi was unconscious, and supported his forehead with one hand, "...Xiaoyan?"

Zuo Yan didn't answer, but only accused him, "Are you so fucking happy, drinking so much?"

Duan Linzhi seemed to be awake again, he called out "Zuo Yan" coldly, closed his eyes, and asked him what he was doing here.

Zuo Yan said, "Aren't you engaged? Why don't you invite me?"

Duan Linzhi didn't speak.

Zuo Yan smiled, "What are you pretending, your fiancée has heard it, but you still don't admit that you still like me."

He didn't blush when he spoke, as if he knew what he was thinking better than Duan Linzhi himself, pressing every step of the way, "She said you were still calling me by my name when you were drunk!"

Duan Linzhi opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling. He stared blankly for a long time, opened his mouth again and again, and finally opened his mouth with difficulty, "...I like you."

The answer that had been expected for a long time came suddenly and frankly, Zuo Yan showed a smile of "I knew it".

"...It's even reached the point where I love you a little bit."

"It can be said that before you, I have never loved anyone else. You are the first."

"I didn't actually think about confessing to you. I was very happy before I was with you. I heard you call me senior, and saw you doing things without thinking, and dealing with some troubles that I couldn't handle... But I regretted that I didn’t control myself at that time. After being with you, I fell into a brainless love for the first time in my life. I think this kind of life is the best in the world, and I don’t have to think about other things. Until I found out that in this period You've been very conscious in the relationship. So I'm back in the fear that it's going to end at any moment and the jealousy of the person who owns your past and your future."

"Sometimes I hate you for not being as committed as I am."

"More often I hate myself, I hate myself for investing too much and not being equal to you, so that I fall into pain unilaterally, and even make you suffer later, in order to avoid its destruction, I can only end up with a breakup our relationship."

Zuo Yan finally exposed him in a low voice, "I'm not in pain... It was you who insisted on breaking up, saying that you found a woman to marry."

Duan Linzhi finally hooked the corners of his mouth, it was really strange, at that moment Zuo Yan thought to himself, he is a drunk, and he is also a very good-looking drunk, "Yeah. Not to mention marriage, we are inseparable."

"You know you can't separate them, but you still divide them!"

But Duan Linzhi shook his head, "I tried."

"The third year we were together, one day I had a sixth sense like a woman - I sensed that you were going through the boredom phase, and I kind of panicked at that point, so we started fighting. Do you remember?"

Zuo Yan didn't speak.

He suddenly didn't want to listen to Duan Linzhi.He didn't think it was interesting, and he was afraid that if he continued to listen, there would be no way for Duan Linzhi to reunite with him.

Faced with Duan Linzhi's drunken confession, he began to reflect. He had to admit that a big reason why he couldn't accept breaking up with Duan Linzhi was because Duan Linzhi's indifference came too suddenly and too firmly—— In their four years of relationship, except when he had a brief compromise when he was the next one, no matter what he did, no matter when, the one who compromised became Duan Linzhi, so there was almost no quarrel between them .

Except for that short time.

It was a strange process.He began to want to escape from Duan Linzhi inexplicably, he seemed to think that they stayed together for too long, and felt inexplicably irritated by his suggestion of cohabitation.But he never took it seriously—because it didn't last long.

"Fortunately, I'm not too stupid." Duan Linzhi said, "I soon realized what made us like this; in order not to let you gradually realize your boredom in the inadvertent pain, in order to achieve a balance between us , I began to intentionally reduce our dates, trying to keep you from appearing in front of you when you didn't think of me as much as possible without letting you notice, I learned not to look at you when you were eating...try to put my Emotionally controlled to the point where it doesn't make you uncomfortable, and starting to hope that one of us gets closer to that balance someday..."

"But four years later, I realize that things haven't changed, you don't know, I lost, and I'm at my limit."

"So I decided to give up."

Zuo Yan didn't speak any more.

After a long time, Duan Linzhi first called out, "Xiaoyan," and then asked, "Do you still want to listen?"

He was still looking at the ceiling, his eyes a little absent-minded, as if he had finally finished a protracted battle, lying on the battlefield full of bones and artillery fire and looking at the sky, his voice was hoarse after the war.

After Zuo Yan came out of that room like a deserter, he heard the sound of playing mahjong downstairs.

He didn't listen.

He didn't ask, Duan Linzhi, why didn't you tell me this earlier?

I didn't ask again, Duan Linzhi, I like you, and you like me too, why aren't we together?

He knew that he should give Duan Linzhi some dignity.

He remembered Qiao Ning's words again, "... I didn't hear clearly at first, I just heard him call 'Xiaoyan', 'Xiaoyan', thinking what he was talking about, and then he said 'Don't eat raw', I suddenly I remembered when we went to eat Japanese food for the first time, you ate sashimi, he kept looking at you, but you were like a child playing with a temper, the more he refused to let you do something, the more you wanted to do it .”

"I also thought I was wrong. The second time was at the cinema last winter. There was a cartoon, what was it called? Anyway, you were with a girl. After we said hello, he was in a bad mood after that day. Always distracted. Later, he never wanted to go to the movies there again." Qiao Ning seemed to be talking about other people's affairs, "We don't like to care about each other, and we don't pay much attention to it. But he drank too much and called your name. , I'm right now..."

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