For the rest of his life

The dark dome pressed over, and there were foggy things shrouded in the chaos above his head. Xu Chenmu walked down the few steps and raised his eyes, and there was a group of children passing by on scooters in front of him. The hot steam from the layer of sweat was blown away by the cold wind, giving her the illusion that frost could form on the top of her head. She collected herself and raised her eyes. The sky was covered by thick fog and the starlight was drowned out.

Standing on the steps, she suddenly thought that she seemed to have come to a strange place, and looked at the place as if she had come to the world for the first time. Not far away, there were old people practicing Tai Chi, and people in a hurry were returning home. The days were short. There were many vehicles congested outside Yechang, and for some reason, he could hear the beeping of the horn.

Like coming here for the first time, she looked at everything here, whether it was the traces of paint under her feet, or looking up to see the setting sun on the opposite side was smudged to only a layer of golden light, what she heard was selling cooking in her ears The two uncles of corn and roasted sweet potatoes talked about their children's college entrance examination in their respective dialects. They lowered their eyebrows and walked down the steps. There was a small supermarket on one side. A group of old people surrounded there. Experience showed that there must be two old men playing chess. A group of people silently obeyed the four characters of watching chess without speaking. She walked past these old people and walked into the supermarket.

Buying a pack of post-it notes is just like holding a treasure in her chest. She passed by the rows of shelves, glanced at the dazzling array of products, and looked at them quietly, feeling that she seemed to be able to see something from the objects. Lu Qiong's shadow flashed across his mind. When Lu Qiong was standing in the kitchen, it seemed to be the same scene. Lu Qiong didn't know how to cook, and standing in the kitchen was as strange as it is now, but another In an instant, it evaporated like smoke again. In the white space, Lu Qiong lowered her head and cut vegetables quietly. Her movements were very slow, and a band-aid was stuck on her fingers. Through this band-aid, she suddenly remembered that Lu Qiong fell to the ground and was thrown by herself. When he fell over, his back was scratched, but he didn't see the wound.

It came suddenly, like a surprise, like a fright, followed by panic, pain like a bursting head for a few seconds, and peace returned.

She was stunned.

At this time, a little boy suddenly stood in front of her, aimed at her, stood there fixedly and raised his eyes, dressed neatly, but the collar and cuffs were crooked, his hair was combed neatly, about XX years old He was blocking the aisle in front of him, Xu Chenmu broke free from the state of selflessness just now, froze, and went to the shelf next to him, not fighting for the way with the children.

The child suddenly moved again, and stood in front of her again. His eyes were a little strange. She felt extremely familiar, but she didn't know how to express it in words. This child was also familiar, maybe it was an old acquaintance?

Like a correspondence, a picture appeared in her mind, a crooked house, two adults holding a child on it, she was stunned, children's simple strokes, flashed through her mind like a flash of light, and then recalled But it caused a pain in the forehead, a pain in the bone marrow.

"Hello..." She could only greet the boy with a smile, but the boy didn't answer, tilting his head, as if he was thinking about something, but his eyes were clearly not like a normal child's. He thought for a long time and pointed Pointing to her: "Auntie."

Who is your aunt, called sister.

Xu Chenmu's face was sullen, but he relaxed again in an instant. The ice and snow melted, and she could tell that this child was different from ordinary children, so she became patient and bowed down, but felt that it was inappropriate. This condescending posture was not good In the past, it seemed that someone told her that this was not good, and she didn't know whose voice was whispering in her ear, anyway, she followed the sudden message, squatted down, and kept her eyes on the same level as him: "Do you know Auntie? "

"There is another aunt." The child laughed, and happily came over to touch her eyes, touched her, and gently touched the tip of her nose, as if she had never touched anyone's face before, and jumped up in surprise, "Live, laugh! You laughed!"

……

What's the matter, I still can't laugh...?But she obviously didn't smile... Did she always sullenly look like Lu Qiong?Do not laugh or what?

But she suddenly found that the child seemed to really know her. Although she couldn't express it, she heard from his narrative that she and Lu Qiong had a place in the child's chaotic memory. She didn't laugh before.If the kid speaks reliably.

She nodded to indicate that she believed him, deepened her smile and became more cordial, and the forced smile that was pretending became more sincere in an instant. For some reason, the warmth that turned up in her heart was like the silt at the bottom of the water rolled up, making her feel at the other side Find your original intention in the same chaotic memory as hers.

The child sniffed, tilted his head and became confused again, pushed her away, turned and walked away.

...?

Xu Chenmu watched the child run out from the entrance of the supermarket. She didn't know what was going on, so she suddenly painted her face a few times, said something that she cared about, and then ran away. She felt itchy in her heart that something was about to explode. Ya'er, but without the triggering conditions, I couldn't remember anything.

Could it be a prank?But she didn't think so, and her intuition told her that the child spoke seriously, knew her very well, and his IQ was much lower than that of ordinary children. A series of information was automatically laid out in his mind, and the information circled in circles incessantly. It seemed to swirl into a beam of gloomy light, and the source of that beam of light was the brilliance of the sun, which penetrated through such a large and clear glass, and then hit his face.

At that time, I didn't smile, and put my fingers on the hospital gown, silently looking at my pale fingers and my increasingly slender ankles.

It seems... When was this scene?As if it was a long time ago, or not long ago, time became chaotic, she was like a lost fish in the middle of rows of shelves, swimming in the torrent, not knowing where to go, not knowing where to go Go back to where you spawned.

She is trying to let herself sprout out and bloom into her original appearance. The lack of memory seems to uproot her. She doesn't know where to migrate. She waits on the iron car, wandering without a sense of belonging. This kind of feeling, fearful and worrying about gains and losses, Lu Qiong is like a weeping willow on the other side, stretching out its tough and fragile branches, and she is gouged up and thrown to an unknown place.

Lu Qiong, she has feelings for Lu Qiong.

But there was no crisis, and nothing happened obviously. She felt depressed and wanted to cry, but she didn't know where this emotion came from. Going here or going there seemed to lead to a foreign land.

She couldn't wait to buy a pack of post-it notes and patted them on the counter, as if she had patted a pack of cigarettes, her expression was savage, her thoughts went back and forth, she handed out five yuan, grabbed two steel coins and ran out, in a hurry Patiently rushed upstairs, slammed open the door and walked in. Lu Qiong just put down the phone, threw it aside, and turned around.

"You ran back, are you in danger?" Lu Qiong frowned.

"I...I," she panted, running back in such a hurry, as if Lu Qiong disappeared after coming back later, she felt that she was so inexplicable, clearly Lu Qiong was sitting here peacefully, what? There is no danger, there is no danger of being stupid enough to cut her hands if she is not cooking, she has not cut her hands since she was cleaned out of the kitchen a long time ago... She remembered such details, and felt that her chest was very painful and dull. Feeling depressed, out of breath, so uncomfortable, Lu Qiong is clearly here, the years are quiet!What's wrong with me?Why did he become like this when he was stimulated by an unknown child in the supermarket for no reason?Such an emotion is really embarrassing, blushing and lowering his head, his chest is still heaving, "I, I—"

She "I" didn't say a single sentence for a long time. She bent down and pressed her knees, unable to breathe, feeling aggrieved, and wanted to cry before she could say a word. It hurt so much, she spread her palm and handed over the remaining change.

Lu Qiong threw the money aside, pulled her into a corner of the sofa, and patted her on the forehead.

"What's the matter? Tell me." She frowned and regretted why she let this fellow run away, wouldn't she be like a disabled person without memory!How could she throw her out?Don't worry so much, don't you know that people's hearts are sinister, if something bad happens and scars are left in your memory, how will you face her in the future?

The left hand was on her back to breathe, and the right hand reached out to check if the clothes on her body were in good condition. There was no wound on her body, but she was very cold and shivering. I don't know what happened, maybe it was a mental blow?But there are no enemies around here... Could it be that those people who wanted to keep silent threatened her?

She blamed herself more and more, look, you are really useless, why are you so irresponsible, she trusts you with all her heart!What are you doing!How stupid!

"I, I don't know, I'm just very sad, nothing happened, I just suddenly thought that you seemed to be leaving, not alone, with a man, and left me regardless of me, I was very sad I’m sad, I think, I want to be with you, I’ll dance when I’m old, I’ll dance square dance.” She sobbed and buried her face in her hands, not knowing why she was crying like this, a silhouette of a man appeared in her mind, a tall shadow Lu Qiong's shadow was shrouded behind Lu Qiong, and the sun and moon behind him could not illuminate such a thick darkness.

Lu Qiong froze for a moment, and breathed a sigh of relief in her heart. She turned her face and kissed her forehead lightly. The scar there was small and extremely hideous.