For the rest of his life

Going around along the expressway around the city, getting off the expressway and heading for the remote suburb, Lu Qiong's hand holding the steering wheel was a little trembling, once she thought of going back there to face the cold arrangement and her parents who were coming today, she would feel in her heart The breath could not be calmed down for a long time, Tang Yi called in the morning and said that he went to the airport to pick him up, but he would wait for a while and asked her to get ready.

Look at Xu Chenmu again, sitting in the co-pilot and picking his fingers, showing a harmless appearance to humans and animals. It was clearly not like this in the past. I remember that guy met his parents for the first time, when he was in graduate school——

This is the dimension of time...

Suddenly, I was in a daze. I was on the bus, on the way to meet my parents. People were crowded like canned sardines. Lu Qiong's legs were not very good, and her legs were prone to soreness when standing. Xu Chenmu propped his hands on the seat and surrounded her, without being crowded, he lowered his head and closed his eyes.

Lu Qiong self-consciously rehearsed what kind of flashy scene Xu Chenmu and her parents would meet, repeated explanations and notes, but faced with Xu Chenmu who was like a blank sheet of paper, there was no possibility of explanation. Xu Chenmu didn't think about anything, closed her eyes, and closed the windows of her soul. Communication became an obstacle. She felt a little anxious in her heart, but she still carried some joyful happiness.

After all, he brought someone back, not destined to be alone like he expected.

"Lu Qiong, I always feel that you are hiding something. I feel like I am going up the mountain of swords and down into the sea of ​​fire." Xu Chenmu instead became anxious, fidgeting, moving his buttocks on the seat, dangling back and forth, Turning her head, turning back to look out the window, she had already entered the community, the speed of the car slowed down, Lu Qiong slightly pursed her lips, and caught a glimpse of Xu Chenmu frowning thoughtfully from the rearview mirror.

"The mountain of swords and sea of ​​fire is here." She stopped the car, turned around, took her clothes, got up and went out.

The name of the mountain of swords and sea of ​​fire is taboo.

The lonely building was deserted, only a large concrete and steel truck was left. When she saw the truck, she wanted to express her emotions, but she choked in her throat and was speechless for a long time.

Xu Chen thought to himself, did he think wrong or what, did Lu Qiong tease him or was there some resentment?Suddenly the meaning behind these words became blurred, ambiguous and no one looked at the decision. With two choices in front of him, thinking about it, how did he enlighten her?It seems that there is no inspiration, so I have to rely on my body's own feelings to deal with it blindly, and follow Lu Qiong step by step, stepping on her shadow like a toddler, just lowering her head, regardless of whether she has already arrived. stop at the door—

Lu Qiong suddenly turned her head and held her head, pressing it against her chest and messing up her hair: "Xu Chenmu, I'm nervous."

"... Is there anything inside? I'll go to the mountain of swords and sea of ​​fire, why are you nervous?" Xu Chen muffled in Lu Qiong's arms, out of breath, his breathing was blocked by the heavy tension, and he secretly glanced at the door, without any hesitation. No movement, there will never be any ghosts sitting in it, or if they commit a crime, they will be the police as soon as they open the door.

"My parents are coming today." Lu Qiong let go of her, opened the door to change her shoes, her expression was indifferent as if it had been wiped off with an eraser, as if it wasn't her who was sweating nervously just now, Xu Chenmu remembered being violently punched just now The throbbing that was pulled into her arms, Lu Qiong had two fingers sticking to her ear, which was cold, which made her blush suddenly, and she could touch her ears casually.

It is her parents who are coming today to see how unbearable her current situation is. Memory is equal to dignity. It is the memory of education in the past that shaped a temperate and introverted character. The knowledge in memory makes people transcend class. Losing memory means nothing A child with the power of resistance has no memory, she has no memory of Lu Qiong's parents, as if there is nothing that can pull this string, she doesn't know how to say it.

The remnants of the light-like memory made her start a process in her mind. When she was with Lu Qiong, her parents must support her. Lu Qiong was nervous because she was worried that her parents would not support her——

They have been together for seven years.

Where do the memories of seven years come from, seven wet years or seven dry and warm years, no matter which image surprises her, they have been together for seven years, the seven-year itch, seven is an ancient cycle Suddenly, as if she had finished something, she raised her head, unintentionally followed her memory, changed her shoes and walked in, Lu Qiong disappeared without a trace.

But there is no sense of emptiness, Lu Qiong is in this room, even though she has not been in the same place as her for the past seven years, she sat on the side and glanced at the diary on the coffee table.

Unintentionally spying on something, she just opened the cover by chance, and on the title page were her and Lu Qiong's names, lined up side by side, like an oath, she saw her fingers resting on it involuntarily, twisting the footer to turn it up, the first page.Two kinds of handwriting.

Sunday

You forget what happened the day before, and you forget what happened the day before every day, and forget everything you have experienced day by day.Yesterday we agreed that I would keep a diary and read it to you every day. I didn’t have time to write down what happened yesterday. Today I wrote a little while you were still sleeping. Whether it is useful or not, it is a joint effort by everyone.

You ran away and didn't know me anymore, looking very flustered.

The character still hasn't changed, and he's back.

This handwriting is gentle and graceful, as if seeing the words, the ink dripped slowly to describe Lu Qiong's face little by little. Lu Qiong wrote a diary alone in a dark shadow, and it is placed here, it is Sunday.

What day of the week is it?Time suddenly returned to my mind, as if I finally found my place to freeze, following this point and line, I can go back to the past and freeze my own existence itself.There is no time to record here, no desk calendar or anything like that, she caught a glimpse of the mobile phone that Lu Qiong dropped on the sofa.

That's Lu Qiong's.

She frowned and went to get it by herself, which was disrespectful to Lu Qiong.

So he pressed the question about time and looked down.

Another kind of handwriting, the same as my own handwriting on the post-it note.

Turn over page by page, from Sunday to Tuesday, Wednesday is a blank, Thursday is also blank, not to mention Friday and Saturday.

She saw a diagram of the relationship between characters in the diary, connecting here and there in an almost childish way. From here, she saw a person named Lao Xu and a person named Tang Yi, who could awaken some things and submerge others. Something, when she saw the latter, she felt a sharp pain in her heart, as if she had been stabbed by a knife, such an intuitive feeling, but she had never seen this person before, so she felt that she was a little nervous, thought for a long time, and suddenly reacted , Today I am very depressed, I don't want to say anything, and teasing is like a shriveled self-comfort.

is this herIs this the complete Xu Chenmu?

How many personalities did Xu Chenmu combine?

She didn't understand, she just felt that this was not like her usual self, and seemed to be exactly her usual self. She examined her inner self and everything that was proud of her, and found that she still couldn't laugh, with remaining worries and unease, Swirling faintly.

Old Xu wrote there, keys and key chains.Draw a dotted line on the frame, it seems to be a memo, but it doesn't indicate what it is, she can't touch the key, Lu Qiong's pale fingers will hold the key, and she hasn't looked at it, she thinks , the initiative was given to Lu Qiong, and she acquiesced to everything over there, but suddenly had a headache for a few seconds, and the pain subsided like a tide.

Turning to the back of the diary, there is a portrait of a person, with a side face, and it can be seen at a glance that it is Lu Qiong, with deep eyes and a bit of meanness, but she knows that it is loneliness.

As if she knew a lot about Lu Qiong personally, she pursed her lips and looked at the portrait, with a hand on her shoulder, and when she raised her eyes, Lu Qiong was looking at the painting.

Like being caught by the class teacher while playing with her mobile phone in class, she hastily closed the diary to hide it. After hiding it for a long time, she didn't know where to hide it, so she had to cover it in her arms and looked at Lu Qiong shyly. It was clearly just a picture I don't know why I dare not show Lu Qiong a look.

"Your guests will come in a while, and my parents should come in the afternoon." Lu Qiong glanced at the phone, and she held it in her hands as casually as if she were holding cards. "Let me tell you what happened."

"Lu Qiong, what day is it today?" She hurriedly interrupted Lu Qiong's narration. Lu Qiong frowned and thought for a while, as if she couldn't remember clearly, as if she had been eroded by the long time and had forgotten the time. Therefore, he turned on the screen and glanced at it, pursed his lips: "Thursday, what's wrong?"

"What am I doing on Wednesday, I didn't keep a diary." She handed over the notebook, "I didn't mean to let you read it, I think my drawing is ugly..." She shrank her shoulders as if that was the case, respectfully Pass it over.

After waiting for a while, Lu Qiong didn't take it away. She sat beside her, sighed, buried her face in her hands, and arched her waist, looking very fragile.

"..." Xu Chenmu was also silent for a while, grabbed the pen next to the diary, wrote a few words, and handed it to Lu Qiong, "Here."

Let's go fishing.

"You still remember this!" Lu Qiong smiled lightly, raised her eyes to regain her spirits, and rubbed the back of her neck. Xu Chenmu hurriedly went over to massage her shoulders, thinking for a while: "I don't know, what's going on in my mind? Think about it."

"You're about to remember everything." Lu Qiong said a very self-righteous inference, "After you remember, you don't have to pester me endlessly. You see, my emotions are so out of control——" Lu Qiong Pulling out a very pale smile, "It's good that I'm a normal person."

"Who says you're not normal?"

"Let's not talk about this issue, okay?" Lu Qiong smiled at her, but Xu Chenmu felt that she was smiling very reluctantly. She was like a phantom sitting opposite, full of sadness and self-denial all the time, " Let me tell you what kind of guest is here today."

Lu Qiong froze, the words came out, but she didn't know how to start. She licked her lower lip to relieve the tension that filled her body, but she found that Xu Chenmu's eyes were passing by her. Those eyes were not like the usual eyes. The usual Xu Chen Mu has smiling eyes, once she looks at herself, she will definitely come over to bother her affectionately, but at this moment she becomes silent and unfamiliar, she glances over at herself and looks at the spider plant she replanted. The corner by the wall stood there without any sense of existence, while Xu Chenmu stared at it for a long time, then turned his face to the side, and smiled gently: "Why don't you talk about it?"

The cell phone rang in response, and the doorbell rang too. The Sun family couple arrived, and the child stood outside the door, eager to see through.