【Bottle Evil】Arranged Marriage

It seems that Zhang Qiling lost his temper when I casually stepped on the small stool, because this is the second time I have done this because of what I ate.

In fact, I don’t have any obsession with food, and I don’t like it very much. I am the only one in the dormitory who is not interested in these things. The drawers are always clean, and at most there are instant noodles.

But it's strange, everything changed when I was pregnant, I especially wanted to eat, if I couldn't eat, my whole body would feel bad, it was terribly uncomfortable, as if a hundred little hands were scratching my heart.

He lost his temper, and I was very wronged. I was fine at first, but I was also scared, that is, I would get dizzy after staring at something for a long time, otherwise I would have gone to play games long ago, why are you pestering him.

The more I think about it, the more sad I feel, and I don't know what I'm doing. I should be happy and prepare for the summer vacation. If I'm not pregnant, or even married, I won't be so selfless. A coquettish mop bottle.

Now I have no value of existence at all. I don’t know what to do or what to do when I open my eyes every day. Is my life just like this? I spend it in confusion and chaos, repeating [-] days and nights .

Seeing me curled up on the edge of the sofa, Zhang Qiling came over to hug me, clasped my arms and pulled me up, saying: "Don't press your stomach."

With tears in my eyes, I said, "Don't worry about me, you'll be happy if I fall to your death."

Lao Zhang pinched my mouth and said, "What's more? Will I be happy?"

I watched him cry more fiercely, he hugged me, patted me like coaxing Xiao Chengzi, and said: "Blame me, it's not your fault that you are in a bad mood."

"I feel useless." I grabbed the clothes on his shoulders and choked up, "I don't know how to live in the future. I have nothing to do. I want to be useful. Everyone is useful. Now I don't look like I don’t know what to do, I don’t know who I am.”

Zhang Qiling wiped away my tears for me, and said: "You are Wu Xie, you are yourself, and you are also my wife."

He coaxed me for a long time before I got out of this drowning feeling of unreality. When I was off work, Zhang Qiling drove me to a very strange place. After entering, I realized it was a psychiatrist's clinic.

I didn't want to go in, and asked him if he thought I was crazy, Zhang Qiling said no, he was just worried about my prenatal depression, so he came to take a look, it was not official.

Prenatal depression? When I was pregnant with Xiao Chengzi, things were more and I was not depressed. This is the second one. Could it be because of hormones that cause depression? Then I am too miserable.

After sending me in, Zhang Qiling was invited out. With him around, I might not be so relaxed, nor would I be able to tell the truth.

The doctor asked me some simple questions, and asked me when I felt useless and fell into this negative emotion.

I thought about it, and suddenly remembered what Lu Xianxian said at the celebration banquet. It seems that since that time, ever since she said that I was mentally retarded and pretended to be cute, I was always thinking about something.

I really didn't expect that the stranger's joking words would stay in my heart for so long.Maybe it's not what she said, but I doubted myself a little earlier.

After hearing this, the doctor told me that it is very, very normal for pregnant women to have such useless thoughts. First of all, I have to correct my mentality, don't question myself, and don't hide myself.

Because of the special physique of pregnant women, many things will lead to weakness. This is undoubtedly a blow to an adult with sound hands and feet. Pain and discomfort will also constantly hit the spirit.

In addition, I was still young when I got married, and it was just when I was thinking about life, I suddenly hugged the two for three years. During this period, it was almost seamless. Socializing, my friends are all moving forward, but I feel more and more stagnant. While wanting to capriciously attract attention and vent my emotions, I also feel that it is too naive to do so, why did I become like this.

These emotions are intertwined, and they don’t know how to excrete, and they accumulate more and more, so when others talk about it, they will doubt themselves and life.

The hormones of pregnant women will make people more sensitive than usual. If the mentality cannot be corrected and allowed to develop, the possibility of depression will be very high.That's why I was able to digest my first pregnancy but not the second.

When I'm in an environment where everyone is busy and useful, the appearance of any completely different person who can control his own life will amplify the useless argument in my heart.

I understand a little bit, but not very much, but I probably understand it. The doctor asked me if my husband didn't pay enough attention to me.I don't think so, he is very nice and cares about me, maybe it's because I think too much.

Zhang Qiling waited for me outside for an hour, saw me come out and quickly greeted me, put a straw into my mouth, I looked down, it was a bottle of Coke in a soda can, although it was not particularly cold, fortunately it was not at room temperature of.

Holding a Coke, I took his hand and got into the car. He asked me if I was feeling better, and I nodded without saying a word.

He drove through the streets in the evening, and there was a section of the road that was congested, and the people next to him walked much faster than us. I saw many, many people, and they all had their own lives.

Such a scene suddenly calmed me down, I was like waking up from a big dream, yes, I am me, why should I use other people's standards to demand myself?What kind of life I want to live is my own business.

In the same way, how I want to be a wife is my own business. I have done well and have always been good.

I rubbed my belly and asked our old Zhang, "Dumb dad, are you happy?"

Zhang Qiling touched my head with one hand and said, "Happiness."

No, your surname is Zhang, I thought of a very cold joke, and thought it would spoil the atmosphere, so I resisted saying it, and continued: "Why is that?"

The car moved slowly, Zhang Qiling put it in gear, and said seriously: "Because of you."

"Me too, I love you so much." I closed my eyes, let out a sigh of relief, and muttered, "You should love me very much too."

Love more than anyone else in the world, love more, and absolutely can't change, love like this forever is good.