without complaint

I have someone to miss, who is far away from me.I have something to feel, and it's deep in my gut.

——Bai Juyi "Night Rain"

Lu Li felt that the dean who named him was really far-sighted. A single name foresaw the first half of his life.Encountered, mottled; intertwined, bizarre.What a great name.

He couldn't remember how long ago, he had seen this grotesque world, even though it wasn't pretty, at least he could see it.It's been too long, he has almost forgotten what color the world is, whether the sun is warm or not, and a person, who is it?Can not remember.

Lu Li had a very small grocery store, which was tucked into an alley, and sold some handmade gadgets. Few people came, but it was not a problem to support himself.Lu Li felt very satisfied. The life he wanted was roughly like this, an ordinary life, working at sunrise and resting at sunset, like water.

"Boss, bring a bottle of water!"

"Okay, wait a minute." Lu Li stood up, holding a bamboo stick in one hand, slowly touched the refrigerator, took out a bottle of mineral water and handed it to the empty space, "Sorry, I've waited so long, two yuan, thank you."

The guest took it, and handed over a [-] piece, "The boss has it, it's [-], and give me a big bottle of orange juice."

Lu Li took the money, smiled shyly, and said, "I'm so sorry, the orange juice is out of stock, can the blueberry ones work?" He was too busy and had to find something to do. He squeezed all the juices in the grocery store by himself. , beautiful glass bottle, exquisite wooden stopper, very popular.

"It's all right, the bottle has to be taken away."

"Ok."

The guest took the water and juice and left. Lu Li listened to the footsteps of the guest walking away, and touched the smooth and dark yellow bamboo with one hand. The life is actually really boring. Do something you want to do. Sitting in the store when you are tired, doing nothing, seeing nothing, no disturbances, and no fun.Really boring.

The sun was shining, and the cicadas began to sing. Lu Li suddenly realized that it was already summer, and the sun shone on his body with drowsy warmth.

"Dang-dang--" The bell struck twelve times. It was an antique clock that Lu Li picked up at the end of the alley. People who can't see always have keen hearing. The clock can actually go. Lu Li picked it up. Come back and repair it to the master at the other end of the alley, and then you can go again.

This kind of weather is really warm like boiling frogs in warm water. It took a long time before the clock rang for Lu Li to realize that it was noon and he should eat.

Lu Li touched the signs under the counter one by one, took out one and hung it at the door, and replaced the old open sign with the words "The boss has eaten, please shout loudly" engraved on it.

Putting the sign back on the counter, Lu Li walked to the kitchen at the back of the store. He thought about it for a long time but couldn't figure out what to eat. It was too hot and he didn't have an appetite.After much deliberation, I thought I couldn’t abuse my stomach, so I chose green rice porridge for dessert in the refrigerator. It tastes light, moist, and nourishes the stomach. It’s good to eat in summer.

In early August, Lu Li suddenly found that there were not many bottles in the store. People were coming and going, and the grocery store was deep in the alley. Few people bought juice and returned the bottle. They came back to buy new juice. Then another bottle was taken away.Lu Li sighed helplessly, thinking that he might have to go out and order a bottle.I really don't want to go out.

There was a typhoon in the middle of the month, the wind might not blow into the alley, but the rain flooded up the steps.Lu Li closed the door a few days before the typhoon came, because the broken leg hurt so badly, it was like returning to the time when it was broken, even if Lu Li had forgotten how and by whom the broken leg was broken, then This pain is still firmly imprinted in the depths of my mind like a tarsal maggot.

When was that?

Lu Li was an orphan. He was thrown into an orphanage when he was very young. Except for his birth date and swaddling baby, he had nothing with him, not even his name.Lu Li was the name given by the old dean. It followed the old dean's surname. The name sounds good, but the characters are not good.Whether it was Li or Lu Li, it was full of sadness.

At the age of 15, Lu Li was admitted to a key high school, which was the end of a tragedy and the beginning of an elegy.

Orphanages have always been pitifully poor places. They are poor in everything. Being able to finish junior high school is already a favor of the national policy, and high school is just something to think about.But at that time, Lu Li didn't believe in evil. He was young and always thought that the world was full of opportunities, and it wasn't that difficult.Part-time jobs, scholarships, tips, everything you can think of is done, and it is enough to survive.

In the third year of high school, Lu Li met a man, a man. He met him when he was a waiter in a hotel. It was strange. After a first meeting, he served a meal. That man found Lu Li and wanted to make a deal with him.

The man was very good-looking, different from Lu Li's soft oriental face, with sword eyebrows and star eyes, deep and affectionate, and extremely tall.Lu Li didn't even know his name, and he followed the man's secretary to call him "Mr. Mu", but he didn't know which "Mu" he was.

This is a great deal, Lu Li will replace the man's sweetheart for five years, the man will sponsor him to finish college, and maybe he will have a job that no one else can grab.

Great isn't it?Lu Li is gay, he knew it when he had a wet dream for the first time, it was really a great deal, a quality man, a bright future.

At the end of August, before the last typhoon of summer, Lu Li decided to go out to buy bottles and other things when his leg stopped hurting.Lu Li's grocery store really has very few items, but he still eats a lot, except for the mineral water, he made everything by himself.It's been a long time since I went out to buy. The weather is fine at the end of August, and it's just right after it's cold and warm.

Lu Li carried a big bag on his back, put up a "Closed Business" sign, and limped out of the alley with a bamboo stick that he didn't know was a guide stick or a walking stick.

When he was in the factory, listening to the factory manager fooling around, Lu Li suddenly ordered a series of unknown things, from jars to jars, from small to large, in addition to bottles, like a ghost.It was already two o'clock in the afternoon after completing the formalities, and Lu Li's stomach was throbbing from hunger after he hadn't eaten lunch.The factory is in the outskirts, with a radius of ten miles, you may not even see any people.

The factory employees sent Lu Li to the bus stop and left. Lu Li waited at the bus stop for half an hour before he got the bus.

In the evening, the factory and other material stores sent all kinds of materials. Lu Li didn't tidy them up until early in the morning. It started raining again in the middle of the night. It hurts like a pinprick.

The next day when Lu Li got up, it was already past nine o'clock, the rain was still falling, and someone downstairs was knocking on the door.

"Boss! Boss! Boss! Are you there?"

Lu Li heard that the voice was very familiar. He found a bamboo stick by the bed, limped downstairs, walked to the door of the grocery store and said, "Hi, I'm sorry I don't open the door today." The voice of the person outside the door listened. It's a man, he shouldn't be very old, Lu Li thought, maybe it's some guest.

The man outside the door became more anxious when he heard Lu Li say this, "Boss! Help me! Anything is fine! Sell it to me again!"

"This..." Lu Li felt very strange, how could it be as if he couldn't wait to buy something?Lu Li opened the door of the store and said with a smile, "Then come in and wait a while, what do you want to buy?"

Lu Li couldn't see, didn't notice that the man outside the door was stunned in the rain without even holding an umbrella, so he stepped aside and invited the man into the shop. "Okay, okay, thank you!" The man walked into the store. There was no place to sit in the grocery store, and the man stood stiffly.

"Sorry, the shop is small." Lu Li took out a folding stool from behind the counter, "By the way, what do you want to buy?"

"It's all okay," the man glanced around, and said nervously: "Master, it's mainly me, my daughter wants to eat, children..."

Lu Li was rummaging in the refrigerator. Hearing what the man said, he replied, "Is that so? Can Huimo crisps and lotus root starch osmanthus cake be okay?" Lu Li's grocery store is in the old town of H City, and he is the only one who sells cheap handmade Chinese pastries. , a lot of repeat customers.

"Anything is fine." Seeing that Lu Li couldn't see it, the man secretly wiped it on his forehead.

Lu Li smiled, put the plate on the counter, and took out a large glass box containing cakes. Inside were glutinous rice cakes fried into a lace bag.Lu Li took the tongs and put the Huimo crisps and lotus root starch osmanthus cake into a sugar cake bag, three in each bag.Put it all in a glass container.Lu Li thought for a while and took out a bottle of grape juice from the refrigerator, and put it together with the glass food container, "Mister, it's 25 yuan in total. If you return the lunch box, you can get back [-] yuan. This is grape juice. You can buy it if it rains." It’s not easy to run around, it’s a gift. Take it well.”

The man stood up, took the things in a hurry, and stuffed a piece of one hundred yuan into Lu Li's hand, "You don't need to look for it." Before Lu Li could react, the man ran out, holding the money in his hand, and touched it carefully. It doesn't look like a fake either, is there such a hurry?

September 23, the autumnal equinox, finally passed the summer when it rained as soon as it rained, and there were only a few days of warm days, it was an autumn rain and a cold.As the old saying goes: In August, the gate of geese opens, and the geese bring frost under their feet.Before it was cold, Lu Li's legs were dying. It wasn't pain, but just sore, so sore that he couldn't even stand up, he would rather hurt.

"jingle--"

In autumn, Lu Li's spirit was not very good at the beginning. Afraid of neglecting the guests, he made a wind chime and hung it by the door. The big wind chime will ring for a long time, and he is not afraid that he can't hear him. "Hello, what do you want to buy?"

"The boss is me! Scar sect, the owner of the scar flower shop." The person came about 26, about the same height as Lu Li, sloppy, with a cigarette in his mouth, a scar slanted across his right eye and bridge of nose, with several The potted flower came in, "Boss, didn't you say you wanted to come to pick up the potted plant last time? I saw that you hadn't come, so I sent it to you."

The original name of Scar Sect was Xu Jianzong, a gangster in this area. Later, the knife on the face woke him up. Since then, he has changed his ways and opened a flower shop. He has a good life. He named it Scar because he hoped he would not forget it. In the past, live a good life.

"It's you? I'm sorry, but I told you to make a trip." Lu Li stood up and touched the counter to walk over, but the Scar Sect hurriedly said, "Hey! You are sitting, and I will move it for you wherever you say. Yes Well, besides the thousand chrysanthemums you asked for, I brought you a pot of jasmine, and this," Scar sect stopped here and took out a small white potted plant, and pushed it to Lu Li's hand, "Guess what? ?”

Lu Li stretched out his hand to touch it, but it didn't bloom, and he couldn't find it. He picked it up and sniffed it, then chuckled softly, "Gardenia?"

Scar Zong bit his smoke and smiled, "Oh, your nose! It's gardenia! I'm giving you this little thing. Take good care of it!"

"Okay! I will take good care of it!"

On the day of the last typhoon at the end of August, the man who bought things in Lu Li's shop finally delivered the things to the top floor of Mujin Building.

The handsome man with profound features gently picked up the bag of glutinous rice sugar cakes containing pastries, and asked softly, "What's the name of that shop?"

"It's weird, the boss is blind and lame." The man said respectfully.

"Lu Li?" The man's heart suddenly beat faster.

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The author retaliates against the pit created by the society~~~~~~~~