waiting for the flowers to bloom

Song Fanfan walked for a long time before he got a taxi. It was almost early morning when he got home, and his family had already gone to bed.

He was very irritable in his heart, and Sui Dong easily found out the things that he tried hard to forget.The old things were brought up again, and all kinds of unclear feelings were magnified in this dark night. Those things that he couldn't easily let go of and couldn't forget, were like mosquitoes in the middle of the night.

Half asleep and half awake, he felt vaguely that time was going backwards: that day, he was sitting in the small square waiting for Sui Dong, but in an instant he came to the hospital, where Zhao Chengfang was lying quietly on the hospital bed, while Sui Dong Called and said, let yourself take care of the people in the hospital bed until the new nurse arrives.

Suddenly, the door was kicked open, and Sui Dong walked in while pressing Tong Puhui.In order to give Tong Puhui a chance to escape, he fought with Sui Dong, but Sui Dong stepped on his ankle, and he felt a heartbreaking pain...

Song Fanfan woke up suddenly: he didn't know when his feet were hanging out, and he was cramping.

At this moment, I don't know what time it is. It's still dark, so it should be early, Song Fanfan struggled to retract his legs back into the bed, massaged and patted little by little, and before he knew it, the sky was gradually getting brighter.

The first snow of the year was quite heavy, and snow had accumulated outside overnight.Song Fanfan wrapped his coat and looked out the window. The field of vision was pure white, and the continuous snow seemed to cover the whole world.On the road, in the green belt, on a parked car, on the top of a low building, on the window sill of the opposite house, in front of my own window...

Wrapped in silver makeup, it adds a touch of beauty to this barren winter day.

Sui Dong didn't go back to Heng'an that night, but went to the villa by the Yijiang Lake.

After a year, the furniture was also covered with a layer of dust, and no one cleaned it for a long time. The whole villa was empty, without a trace of popularity, and a little lonely.

He took out a clean sheet from the cabinet and changed it, dragged his tired body and lay down.It was very uncomfortable to sleep with clothes on, and the room was cold. For the first time in my life, I felt a feeling of being forgotten.But at this moment, he didn't want to go home, he just wanted to find a quiet place, so quietly, let himself think about it.

He knew that Song Fanfan didn't want to see him, but Sui Dong never imagined that he was so unbearable in Song Fanfan's heart.To be honest, he really couldn't accept it.It turns out... Song Fanfan's words actually made him care and feel sad.

"why?"

Sui Dong suddenly thought of Meng Jianxian's words.

He has been to Yijiang several times this year, and Meng Jianxian asked him this when he was out drinking with Meng Jianxian and the others.

He remembered that he complained to Meng Jianxian that he didn't know where Song Fanfan had gone, and there was no news at all for several months. Meng Jianxian asked him what he was thinking, and why he went to find Song Fanfan since the trouble had already happened.

The results are good now, and those who should be punished have been punished accordingly.Although Song Fanfan is a bit innocent, it is not a bad thing to be separated from each other sometimes. For Sui Dong and Song Fanfan, this must be the best ending.

What did you say?He felt guilty on his conscience and wanted to apologize for what he had done.After all, the two of them had a good time before, putting aside Tong Puhui's matter, Song Fanfan was also quite a good person.

Meng Jianxian asked himself if he fell in love with Song Fanfan, but he couldn't let it go, he smiled and retorted how it was possible.He had never had such an idea, because he always felt that he probably would never forget Zhao Chengfang in his life. Although Song Fanfan was such a special existence, after so many things, he always felt that he owed more.

Maybe...not impossible, but he hoped from the bottom of his heart that it wouldn't be the case.

But today, he had some doubts.

Because he could feel the heartbeat when he saw Song Fanfan at the gate of the community, he could feel the discomfort when he knew that Song Fanfan was going on a blind date, he could also feel the anger and discomfort when Song Fanfan disliked him.He didn't know if he liked it or not. He hadn't figured out about love, and once he was sure about it, he didn't have a chance.

Sui Dong returned to Heng'an early in the morning of the next day. Because of the snow, he didn't dare to drive too fast on the road. It was almost noon when he arrived in Heng'an, so Sui Dong simply went home to eat.

At noon, Sui Xiang's family also came over. Sui Dong stepped forward and picked up the little nephew from his sister-in-law, "Has the little guy grown up again? It seems heavy after weighing it?"

"Really? I had a stomachache a while ago, didn't eat well, and lost two catties. I only made up for it in the past few days. What about Mom?" The sister-in-law asked as she put the bag on the sofa.

"It's in the kitchen."

"Okay, then you and your brother will look after the child first, and I'll help mom."

"Okay." Sui Dong held the child in one hand, and flipped through the bag that Sui Xiang brought back with the other, "What did you buy?"

"Diapers, and milk powder." Sui Xiang sat on the sofa and loosened his tie.

"What is this?" Sui Dongti slipped a piece of colorful cloth.

"I don't know. Your sister-in-law bought it for Cancan."

Cancan is Sui Xiang's son, and his first name is Sui Can. This is the name decided by more than a dozen members of the family after discussion. Of course, Mr. Meng chose it in the end, because the word "can" has a good meaning, which means bright, brilliant, and resplendent. , It sounds energetic.

Sui Dong felt that this word was too difficult to write, and it had the same pronunciation as "miserable", which was too unlucky.If this is his son, he will be in the back row according to his name, Sui Xiaoxi, Sui Xiaonan...

"I heard from mom that you haven't come here these days. Are you busy in the west of the city recently?"

"It's okay, something happened in Yijiang these two days. I just came back."

"You went to Yijiang again?"

"Oh..." Sui Dong hesitated a little, "Um...brother, may I ask you something?"

"Ok?"

"When did you meet my sister-in-law?"

"With your sister-in-law? We have known each other for a long time. Our college classmates met in the United States. What's the matter?"

"Then you fell in love with my sister-in-law at that time?"

"Not at that time, after graduation. We only got to know each other at the graduation ceremony, and we hadn't been in close contact with her before. Later, I thought your sister-in-law was very nice, with a good temper, and she didn't put on airs. After getting in touch with her a lot, I wanted to try it. Try it."

"Oh."

"Are you... someone you like?"

"No, I'll just ask, I'm curious."

"Sui Dong, we are brothers, you don't have to hide anything from me. Back then... I was reckless about Zhao Chengfang's incident. I told Dad without thinking it through. I actually regretted it. I also met a lot when I was in school, but I still wanted to change you back then. Later, something happened to Zhao Chengfang, and I was always very sorry. If you really have someone you like again, I think your parents should will support you."

"En." Sui Dong nodded.

"You have changed a lot in the past few years. You may not have noticed. But we are all very happy. We have matured a lot. We are very pleased that you can let go of the past. Although Dad didn't say anything, he was happy in his heart. You go to the army After that, he blamed himself a lot, and he had thought about it for so long. If you come across someone you like, take it home and have a look. Don’t keep looking for those dirty people outside, it’s too dangerous , it’s better to find someone to settle down.”

"I see, why are you so wordy." Sui Dong said while hugging Sui Can and got up, "Cancan, let's not listen to your father's wordiness anymore. Second Uncle will take you out to play..."

Sui Xiang watched Sui Dong carry his son to the yard, and smiled softly.

He Ming|Hui came over with a plate of fruit and put it down, "What are you laughing at?"

"Sui Dong, I guess I have someone in mind, I'm sorry to say it."

"Really? A boy?" He Ming|Hui also knew something about Sui Dong from Sui Xiang, but she is a very open-minded person, and she accepted it after only 2 seconds of surprise.

"He doesn't like girls. I guess he hasn't written his horoscope yet."

"Is Cancan in Dongzi's arms?"

"Well, let's go to the garden."

"You go and ask them to come back. Mom and auntie have finished the meal and it will be on the table right away."

After Christmas, New Year's Day is just around the corner, and the company will have a holiday.In the past few days to catch up with the end of the year, Sui Dong is also very busy, so he also took time to go to Yijiang.I thought that when I saw someone, I would apologize for what I had to apologize for, and I would make amends for the sins I should make amends, and that would be fine.

But he always felt in his heart that this matter couldn't just end like this, it couldn't be done like this!

He hadn't slept well these past few days, and this was the first time he arrived at the company early in the morning. The front desk hadn't arrived yet, and the curtains were still drawn in the office.

Usually people come and go, so I don’t think the office is too big. Sometimes there are too many things, and there is no room to sit in the office when talking about things.But at the moment the office is empty, the desk, the leather chair, and the black sofa all look cold.

Sui Dong leaned on the chair alone, a little dazed, what happened to him?

Why did he always think of that night, the back of the man who walked away wrapped in a scarf made him feel irritable, helpless, and panicked.

Thinking about it carefully... For more than a year, there is not much difference from before, life is the same free and casual.But why, I always feel very empty and can't find anything to fill it.

Sui Dong played with his mobile phone, looking at the contact in his address book.

He knew that the other party no longer used this number, but he never deleted it.

Maybe... I've been wrong all along.

What Ma Qian said was right, he was not a kind person, his conscience was disturbed, his apology was all nonsense.

Meng Jianxian was also right, he hadn't let it go, and he couldn't let it go for a long time.

He has been to Yijiang so many times, thinking, say sorry to that person, and even if he never sees him again, it can finally make him feel at ease.

In fact, it's not just that, he just, he still, vaguely, by luck, doesn't want to end like that.

The author has something to say: people's names are framed... I really don't understand it! !