waiting for the flowers to bloom

On Monday morning, Sui Dong got a car somewhere and waited for Song Fanfan at the door.

Song Fanfan ignored it, and walked out of the intersection with his still sore feet, turned a corner, and there was a bus stop not far away.

Sui Dong knew that Song Fanfan still didn't want to talk to him, so he didn't force him in the morning because he was afraid of delay, and watched him get on the bus before driving home by himself.

In the afternoon, Sui Dong waited at the school gate again.

After waiting for more than an hour, I saw Song Fanfan limping out with a bag on his back.He hurried forward, "Does your foot still hurt? Let me take you home. I borrowed a neighbor's car?"

Song Fanfan was really annoyed by Sui Dong's behavior, "I don't need your help."

"But you still have injuries on your feet, so it's inconvenient."

"I can take the bus by myself."

Song Fanfan didn't want to talk nonsense with Sui Dong any more, so he limped towards the bus stop bit by bit.

Sui Dong didn't dare to grab him, so he had to follow him, "Don't be so stubborn, okay? Now that you have an injury on your foot, just pay attention, and I won't come to pick you up when you recover, okay? Doctor I told you that this is an old injury, and it has never healed, you should take good care of it now, and be careful not to let the wound become serious."

Hearing that Sui Dong can still say these words to himself without changing his expression, Song Fanfan feels even more ironic. "Sui Dong, do you think this is very interesting?"

"Why do you have to be so stubborn? Even if you don't want to see me, you can't make fun of your own body?" Sui Dong was also a little anxious.

Song Fanfan clenched his hands, "What right do you have to tell me this? I don't need you to worry about my health."

I don't know which word angered Sui Dong, he took out his usual strong approach, quickly followed Song Fanfan, and hugged him by the waist without waiting for the other party's reaction.

Song Fanfan never thought that Sui Dong would come out like this, but he didn't dare to shout, so he had to push him, "You're crazy! Let me down!"

Sui Dong ignored him, walked quickly to the front of the car and put him in, not forgetting to unload Song Fanfan's schoolbag to prevent him from getting out of the car.Then walk to the other side of the car in three steps and two steps.

Song Fanfan didn't want to argue with Sui Dong anymore, it was too ugly to be so angry on the streets of England, so he could only hold back his anger and sit on his seat, watching the street lights flashing backwards outside the window, feeling tired.He didn't know how to get rid of Sui Dong's hospitality, he said everything he could say, and expressed his meaning very clearly, but Sui Dong...

The atmosphere suddenly cooled down. Sui Dong's head just got hot, and he carried him into the car without thinking much. Song Fanfan was obviously angry.

"I'm sorry, I'm just afraid that your foot injury is serious. I won't pick you up when your foot injury recovers, okay?"

For a while, the car fell into silence again. In order to relieve the atmosphere, Sui Dong had no choice but to say again: "Yesterday the doctor said your foot injury was an old one? Did you get injured before?"

"Ah."

"How did it hurt? It's still not healed?"

Song Fanfan didn't say anything, he just rested his head on his back tiredly, and seemed not energetic.Sui Dong had no choice but to shut up and concentrate on driving.

The road was smooth, and it didn't take long to arrive.

At this time, the sky had already darkened, Sui Dong looked at the sleeping Song Fanfan facing out the window, revealing a small part of his long neck, it was rare to see such a relaxed Song Fanfan, he didn't want to wake up the sleeping person.

The surrounding was very quiet, and this small car was surrounded by night, Sui Dong suddenly felt that it would be nice to just sit and watch him sleep.

But it didn't take long before Song Fanfan woke up, but he didn't get out of the car immediately. After a moment of clarity, he asked Sui Dong: "Why do you have to do this?"

Sui Dong looked at him helplessly, "Do you still not believe what I said? I like you, and I want to be with you."

"Like me? You said the same thing when you were a freshman, but what happened later?"

Sui Dong knew he was wrong, so he didn't refute anything.

Song Fanfan sighed softly, and said, "It's been two years since I graduated, and we haven't had any contact, just like back then, isn't it great?"

"At that time, I was too stupid. I didn't dare to admit my thoughts. During that time, I went to Yijiang many times. I wanted to see you, but I was a little afraid of seeing you."

"It's your illusion. We shouldn't be together in the first place. I was too confused when I was in college. I didn't think about anything, so I fell into it in a daze."

"Do you regret it, at that time." Although he was afraid of Song Fanfan's answer, Sui Dong couldn't help but want to ask him.

"Regret. I regret going out with my roommate on the day the military training ended. If I hadn't gone that day, we probably wouldn't have had so many things later."

"You hate me so much?"

"I said, I don't hate you, it's just that there was no need to be so troublesome." Song Fanfan paused, "It's not exactly like this. I hated you before, but I hate myself even more."

"When I saw Zhao Chengfang for the first time in the hospital, I felt that I was cheated by you, but I couldn't help thinking about you. For more than a month, you didn't even have a shadow, so you finally came to me Yes, and my dad found out. In fact, I also regretted that time, why didn’t I listen to my dad and go home with him. If I gave up at that time and broke up with you, maybe all the things in the future could be avoided. But by the time I saw it, it was too late."

"I'm sorry," Sui Dong had said sorry to Song Fanfan countless times, and he felt very ashamed about what happened at that time.

Song Fanfan didn't accept his apology, and continued, "Zhao Chengfang also hated you after his death. He thought you were too much, so forget me. Why did you say that I had something to do with his death? Before that Even though I know you like him, I still try my best to take care of him in the hospital. Every time you and Brother Six are busy, I spend almost all day in the hospital. At that time, I just thought ...you can always see my heart..."

"But that night, you really made me feel very sad. I complained, why you only think of him in your heart, I even complained about Zhao Chengfang, why is he so important in your heart? Come out of the blow, something happened to Xiaohui. Whether it’s hating or complaining, I don’t have the qualifications. If it wasn’t for Xiaohui, you might have been together a long time ago, and it’s my turn, all my dissatisfaction , resentment is like a joke."

Song Fanfan smiled softly when he said this, as if mocking himself. "Xiaohui... I guessed that you would definitely not let him go, but he is my younger brother... In fact, I really don't care what you did to me later. I thought at that time, if you really want to use me To replace Xiaohui, I will not resist, if not for my parents, I would not be able to live now."

Sui Dong didn't expect that Song Fanfan would tell him these things. He thought that Song Fanfan would never want to mention those painful pasts.At this moment, he could hear Song Fanfan say: "Actually, from a certain standpoint, I have no right to hate you. I don't know what you think about Zhao Chengfang's matter now. Xiaohui has... Although the time for the sentence is not That's too long, but if you agree, we'll be settled."

"Yeah." Sui Dong's voice was a little hoarse, and then he said: "At that time, I went too far..."

"That's not what I meant. You really, don't need to apologize to me. It's just that it's over and I want to move on. Maybe you don't remember what I said before. I thought about what I wanted That kind of life. And it's been so long, I don't blame you, I don't hate you, and you don't owe me anything, but I just want to be strangers with you."

Song Fanfan's words were a little heartless, Sui Dong listened quietly, but didn't know how to respond, the most he said was "I'm sorry." But it was so pale and powerless.

"The relationship between people can actually become very simple. If we want to put it nicely, the lives of the two of us should be two intersecting straight lines. Although there has been an intersection, but after that intersection, we are already We should go farther and farther. In fact, you and I both understand that we... are not the same kind of people, and even without Zhao Chengfang's incident, we probably wouldn't be able to go far."

Song Fanfan thought for a while, and finally said, "I know that I have nothing to attract attention. In fact, if it weren't for Zhao Chengfang, we probably wouldn't have known each other, right? But after so long, I still don't feel that I Where does it look like him?"

Song Fanfan didn't hear Sui Dong's answer, he was a little tired, he talked too much, and brought out all the things hidden in his heart again, which made him a little uncomfortable.It is a lie to say that there is no feeling in his heart at all. The person in front of him was once the most beautiful fireworks in his life, and also the most suffocating gunpowder after the fireworks.

Sui Dong was thinking, calming down, Song Fanfan didn't move, waiting for Sui Dong to tidy himself up and give himself an answer.

The two were silent for a long time in the night.At this time, someone knocked on the car window, breaking the silence in the middle of the night.Sui Dong lowered the window and saw an old lady with gray hair in front of her. Although she was thin and small, she was very capable.

"Mrs. Maisel!" Song Fanfan recognized it first.

"Oh, Fan, is this your friend? Messer was obviously a little surprised, and then quickly changed his expression, and glanced at Sui Dong ambiguously, "Or your boyfriend?Handsome boy! "

"This is?" Sui Dong was a little surprised.

"Oh, this is my landlord, Mrs. Messer." He opened the door and got out of the car, and walked to Messer, "Mrs. Messer, long time no see. This is my friend, Sui Dong."

"My God, what's the matter with your feet?" Mrs. Maisel noticed that he was walking unsteadily.

"It's okay, I twisted it a few days ago. It's not serious."

"Really, you are so unfortunate, I hope you get better soon."

Sui Dong also got out of the car at this time, stepped forward and lightly shook Mrs. Messer's outstretched hand, "Hi, I'm Song Fanfan's friend, Sui Dong. Just call me Sui."

"Hi, I'm sorry I didn't know you were in the car. Thought it was another nasty guy parked in front of my house and thought I'd puncture his tire if nobody was there." May Mrs. Searle said very indignantly.

"It was my fault, please forgive me. It won't be like this next time." Sui Dong apologized very politely.

"Mrs. Messer, did you just come back?" Song Fanfan took the luggage from Mrs. Messer's hand and put it back in the house.

"God, I get angry when you mention this. Do you know Joseph? He even forgot to book a hotel for us, so we got off the plane exhausted and had no place to go. What's even more annoying is that there are so many tourists now. We couldn't find a place to live at all, so we had to come back overnight, and I haven't eaten anything yet."

"Thank you, go back first, I'll make you something later?"

"Fan, you are so kind. I wonder if there are any more noodles you made last time. I miss you so much!" Mrs. Maisel asked him with a smile, and walked into the room.

Song Fanfan smiled: "Of course."

"Fanfan...how about..."

"Let's talk about it tomorrow, you pay attention to safety." After speaking, Song Fanfan helped Messer carry the suitcase and walked into the house.

Although he was driven away, Sui Dong was a little glad that he didn't have to make a decision tonight, so he started the car and gradually disappeared into the night.

From the window, Mrs. Messer saw Sui Dong driving towards the far side of the road a little lonely, put down the curtains, picked up the teacup and walked to the kitchen, looked at Song Fanfan's busy figure, and said, "He is your boyfriend, yes Bar?"

Song Fanfan turned around uncomfortably, "No, just ordinary friends."

Mrs. Maisel raised her eyebrows, "I can see that he likes you very much. I also had this feeling when I was young. It was my first love. He is just like your 'friend', tall and handsome. , Many girls in our campus are secretly in love with him, although we didn't get together in the end, it was really beautiful."

"That... is really good, great memory."

"Is he the same in your heart?"

Hearing what Messer said, Song Fanfan was a little dazed, and couldn't help but think of the past, and that time was not all painful memories.At least during those few years in college, he couldn't imagine how he would survive without Sui Dong.

He smiled helplessly, "Maybe a little bit."

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