my roommate died in bed

ran back to the house.

I went back to school on the tenth day of the first lunar month, and classes would start the next day.

Lin Yu was waiting for me in the dormitory, and hugged me tightly when he met.

I suddenly wanted to ask: "Who are you?"

Lin Yu: "Huh?"

Me: "It's nothing, I miss you."

We slept together for one night.

The next day, in the afternoon, after class, I asked Lin Yu where he wanted to go.

Lin Yu said, "Go to self-study."

I said, "I'll go with you."

Lin Yu: "Aren't you going to the library?"

Me: "The library is too cold, I won't go, I will go to study three with you in the future."

There are several large classrooms on the third floor of the school, and classes are never arranged, and those who study by themselves can put their books on the seats.

Lin Yu took a seat here and has been studying here.

When school just started, there was no one in the classroom, but there were piles of things everywhere, books, cups and pillows, piled up from the table to the window sill, and the seats were full.

Lin Yu's seat was by the window, and he pointed to a seat next to him and said, "There is no one in this seat for half a year, so you can just sit here."

I nodded and said yes, and moved the messy things on that seat to the corner.

Halfway through, a pill bottle fell out.

【Prozac Capsules】

I looked down and felt a chill in my heart.

Lin Yu was sitting there turning on the computer, and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong?"

I said, it's all right, and kicked the medicine bottle into the corner.

Prozac, I checked, is an antidepressant.

Was that bottle of medicine hidden by Lin Yu?If so, I have to say that he hid it quite cleverly.

There are so many books piled up in the study room, his movements of hiding the medicine should not be captured by the surveillance. Even if the police go to the study room to search, they will only search for Lin Yu's things, at least they will not rummaging through other seats immediately.

Moreover, the police apparently did not search the study room.Are they negligent?Or just close the case casually for the sake of the closing rate at the end of the year?

The more I thought about it, the more I even wondered if Zhou Lei and Lin Yu had an affair, so Zhou Lei took the blame for Lin Yu...

The bottle of medicine is still buried in the pile of things in the corner. Every day I enter the study room, I can't help but take a look.

ticking time bomb.

I don't know when it will explode.

The Public Security Bureau closed the case, what about the Procuratorate?I was so anxious that I started to check the process of the case trial.

The procuratorate also has the right to investigate again, and can reverse the case at any time. Besides, Zhou Lei may also retract the confession.

I don't want to be so nervous anymore.

I want to ask clearly, no matter what, I have to ask Lin Yu clearly.

After asking clearly, no matter what the facts are, I will bear it with him. If he goes in, I am willing to wait for him.

If you don't know, it's better to break up.

On the Lantern Festival, on Friday night, Lin Yu wanted to watch the fireworks.

I said, "Okay, let me go to the study room to get something."

Lin Yu was waiting for me at the school gate. I went to the third floor of the school and got the bottle of Prozac.

Inside the bottle are green capsules.

I can almost imagine that Lin Yu bought a bottle of Prozac and another bottle of reserpine, crushed the reserpine tablets, and poured them into Prozac capsules...

Don't think about it, what is going on, just ask and it will be clear.

Lin Yu stood under the big locust tree at the school gate, wearing earphones, wondering what he was thinking.

I ran towards him, the bottle of medicine in my pocket.

Xiaonanhe Park was overcrowded, and the fireworks had been set up on the square, but they hadn't started yet.Elderly people hold small children, couples hold hands.

I said, "Let's go across the river."

Lin Yu said, "Okay."

We walked a long way along the river before we found the bridge, got on the bridge, and halfway there, the square began to release.The fireworks rushed to the sky screaming and exploded, simply pleasing the festivalgoers with their lives.

Lin Yu couldn't move his eyes, he said, "It's so beautiful."

I said: "Yeah."

The fireworks went off for a long, long time, and then we walked across the river and sat down, and the fireworks were still going off.

This side of the river is deserted and deserted, with no one there.

I kissed Lin Yu.

I said, "Lin Yu, what else do you want to say?"

Lin Yu: "I like you."

Me: "What else?"

Lin Yu: "I love—haha, do you dare to listen?"

I smiled and said, "Don't dare."

We were silent for a while.

Lin Yu looked at the fireworks in the distance and said, "What do you want to ask?"

I:"……"

Lin Yu: "Quickly ask, after today, I may not be able to say anything."

It seems that he knows it well, so let me ask.

I took out the medicine bottle and put it in front of his eyes: "Is this yours?"

"Hehe, it's mine." Lin Yu was smiling, the fireworks shone on his face, and he was smiling.

Me: "What's in it?"

Lin Yu: "What else? Medicine."

Me: "Is it really Prozac?"

Lin Yu took the bottle and unscrewed the cap: "Are you doubting me?"

I gritted my teeth: "It's not that I suspect, I just want to, don't hide things from each other..."

Lin Yu bowed his head and said, "Scumbag."

I:?

Lin Yu laughed straight, like he was mocking: "I have no father or mother, and I was raped. I hide antidepressants. You don't worry about me having depression, but you suspect that those who have or don't .”

I am completely speechless.

Lin Yu poured out two capsules, put them in his mouth, and swallowed them.He said, "Scared? Afraid that I'm a murderer?"

Me: "I'm not afraid, this matter, no matter what, don't blame you."

Lin Yu: "Hahahahaha, you are really good."

Me: "If there is anything, I will take care of it with you."

Lin Yu: "I know, you will definitely help me...you have already helped me."

Me: "What?"

Lin Yu laughed again: "Gu Yingming's death was also yours, don't you know?"

I:"……"

Lin Yu: "In the last two days, how miserable he was moaning on the bed. You kept pretending you didn't hear it. Have you forgotten?"

Me: "...Impossible, I..."

Lin Yu: "Zhou Lei pretended not to hear, and I pretended not to hear. When you returned to the dormitory, he would yell at you desperately, crying for hunger and discomfort, but what about you? You also pretended not to hear."

I said, "I really didn't hear..."

Lin Yu: "Have you selectively lost your memory?"

Me: "Really, those few days I didn't go back to the dormitory until 11 o'clock in the evening, and I fell asleep when I got back. I didn't hear him shouting anything!"

Lin Yu shook his head: "You can really lie to yourself."

I:"……"

Lin Yu: "Think about it, don't you have any impression?"

... My eyes went dark.It would be a lie to say that I have no impression at all.I only remember those few days when Gu Yingming was moaning on the bed, slurring his speech, which was very annoying, Lin Yu was wearing earphones, and Zhou Lei was playing games all the time, but there was no response.I also put on the earphones, listened to the music casually, and fell asleep.

At that time, I felt that it was natural to do so. Gu Yingming was annoying because he smoked in the dormitory all day long, so what if he was isolated for a while.

What's more, he has harassed Lin Yu, so I don't want to talk to him very much.

The fireworks were still going off, reflected in Lin Yu's eyes.

I took his hand and said, "I ignored him at the time, mainly because of you."

Lin Yu nodded: "I understand. I know you too well. You are like this. You are good at showing your heart and soul to those who are close to you. To those who are not close to you, you can pretend not to see them by closing your eyes."

My heart trembled and I couldn't speak.

Holding the medicine bottle, he poured two more pills into his palm and handed them to my eyes: "Don't be too sad, take two pills, it's anti-depressant."

I don't know what to say.

Lin Yu: "This is really Prozac."

I gritted my teeth, took the two pills, put them in my mouth, and swallowed.

Lin Yu smiled: "Good boy."

I said, "So, you haven't changed Gu Yingming's medicine?"

Lin Yu blinked: "Guess."

……

He went to the river, poured all the medicine into the river, and threw the bottle into it.

I suddenly felt dizzy and my mouth was dry.

He turned back and patted the dust off his sleeves.

I said, "We are all guilty."

Lin Yu: "Yes."

Me: "Let's keep it a secret."

Lin Yu: "Okay."

Me: "From now on..."

Lin Yu: "Needless to say, I understand."

I thought to myself, as long as you understand.

Lin Yu: "Let's break up."

……

I was dizzy and dizzy, and I couldn't breathe.

Lin Yu said: "Break up, people like you are too disgusting."

I leaned on my knee and asked, "Why? We're the same, aren't we?"

Lin Yu sneered: "No, you are too good at lying to yourself, we are different in this regard."

I don't understand, looking at him gasping.

He said, "Think about it carefully, why did you want to be with me in the first place?"

Me: "I want to take care of you..."

Lin Yu: "Wrong, you feel sorry for me."

Me: "What?"

Lin Yu: "You feel guilty, the time I was raped by Gu Yingming, you were outside the door, you saw me, I saw you, and then you left."

I shook my head vigorously, no, there is no such thing.

Lin Yu: "Haha, so you are very good at lying to yourself. Less than a week after school started, Gu Yingming pressed me on the cabinet to take off my clothes. You took a look outside the door through the crack of the door and slipped away very fast. .”

... After he said that, I actually got a little impression.

Lin Yu added: "It's understandable, since school just started, you didn't want to offend anyone."

I said, "No, listen to my explanation, I thought you did it voluntarily..."

Lin Yu: "God tm volunteered."

I:"……"

Lin Yu: "The funniest thing is that you can forget about it completely, and after a while, you still come to remind me to stay away from Gu Yingming."

Me: "...forgive me."

Lin Yu said: "I forgive you, you are so kind to me, I have forgiven you a long time ago."

I will……"

Lin Yu: "Go away from now on, goodbye."