Cannot breathe in

Just when akatin made up his mind to express his thoughts, he found that mafu was missing.

For five consecutive days, he has always been in charge of this body, and there is no such thing as the previous situation of suddenly feeling weak and then sleeping for a long time.

From the strangeness at the beginning to the panic later, he was at a loss.

I have no idea why, where did mafu go?

Akatin sat on the sofa, staring blankly at the white mobile phone.

Next to the phone were scattered business cards and order sheets, Akatin fiddled with these absentmindedly.What's going on, this happened when I finally saw Mafu's thoughts clearly and was about to confess.

Suddenly, a transparent white business card caught his attention.

[-]-chome during the day is the time when work is busy, akatin came here for the first time, and he didn't know where to go for a moment.

Room 13, Building A1523.

The psychological counseling room is hung with beige curtains. When the bright sunlight shines into the windows during the day, it will make people feel relaxed. There are cute succulents everywhere in the room, and they can't help but soften after seeing them.

Ms. Reiko was entering medical records at her desk, taking a sip of the coffee on her right from time to time.

When the silver-haired boy stood and pushed the door open vigorously, she almost burned her mouth, "Ahem... Mafu-san? Why are you here now, I remember I didn't have an appointment this morning."

"Please," the white-haired boy approached her step by step, and looked at her pleadingly, "...Miss, please help me."

Reiko thought that she didn't have an appointment today, so she sighed and walked to the coffee machine, took a cup of coffee in a disposable paper cup, and put it in front of Akatin, "Okay, then why are you coming here in such a hurry."

Akatin took the coffee and held it in his hand, "It's like this, before mafu suspected that he had a split personality."

Although he felt that his expression was a bit strange, Reiko still nodded.

"Now, mafu is gone."

It was only now that Reiko realized, "You mean... Mafu's personality?"

"Yes, but mafu hasn't shown up for many days now."

For a while, I didn't know what kind of expression I should use, "Then...how should I call it?"

Akatin hesitated. "Hiro."

"Searching?"

"Yes." Akatin glanced around a few times, "Then I still ask you to help me with this problem."

Reiko handed him the medical record, and while looking at what he wrote on it, she asked, "When did you find out?"

"Five days ago... ah." Akatin looked up, "Sorry, I made a mistake in this column, can you give me a correction tape?"

Reiko handed him the correction tape, "Did it happen suddenly?"

Akatin began to try his best to recall the events during this time.In the beginning, each of them used this body for half a day, and then each of them used it for a day, and then it was mafu for one day akatin for two days, and mafu for two days and akatin for three days... But until now, there has never been such a long-term absence .

"In this case, it is the situation where the main personality is gradually being suppressed." Reiko pushed the glasses with a pen end in some annoyance. Controlled by your personality."

Akatin raised his head in surprise, "That means my existence may make mafu...disappear?"

"Theoretically, the existence of mafu's personality will become weaker and weaker, and eventually disappear."

"Is there any way...to stop this?" Akatin didn't dare to imagine the disappearance of Mafu, so he couldn't look directly into Miss Reiko's eyes.

If it was a general drug for treating schizophrenia, Reiko was still confident that the two personalities could be merged, but now that the sub-personality was sitting in front of him, she couldn't suggest that Akatin should use it.

After a while, Akatin saw that Miss Reiko didn't speak, and sighed softly, "So... is there any medicine for schizophrenia?"

"Well, there is," Reiko was a little surprised, "but with this kind of medicine, you will disappear."

"That's okay, this is his body."

The silver-haired boy closed his eyes, and his exquisite facial features revealed a sad expression, "Maybe I can continue to exist in another way."

Taking the medicine Reiko prescribed to him, Akatin returned to the apartment.

Sitting weakly on the sofa, he looked at the medicine bottle on the coffee table in a daze.

Treating yourself so casually is really a bad habit. If I really disappear, my mother and friends will be very sad...

But if mafu disappears...

Mafu treated him indifferently, broke his heart severely, and acted like a slap in the face.But even so, I still don't want him to disappear in this world, and even think of such a possibility, I feel a sudden pain in my heart.

Mafu.

Just by calling his name like this, the disappointment in my heart will be airtight.

But now it's different, mafu loves him.

This makes him full of courage, no matter what kind of road he dares to go on.

So ah, mafu.

If I disappear, please remember me.

Mafu felt that he hadn't woken up for a long time, and even felt a little powerless when he moved his fingers.

A long time ago, he found that his consciousness existed for a shorter and shorter time, and it would only appear once a few days later, which made him very sleepy and even scared.

As a result, from the last time to now, I have been in a coma for a week.

Are you going to disappear?

Standing up tired, I wanted to drink some water.

On the dining table was the note Hiro left for him. He didn't have the strength to read it now, but he was afraid that he would lose consciousness all of a sudden without leaving any traces, so he sat down and read the note.

"To mafumafu-san,

I have a few questions I want to ask you, can you accept my questions?

The first question: Do you love life?

Second question: Do you like akatin-san?

The third question: will you remember him?

Question [-]: Are you serious?

You can think about it before answering.』

Mafu is very curious about how Hiro knew about Akatin, but considering that Hiro is his second personality, he should know.

Actually, I don't even have to think about it.

"Yes Yes Yes Yes"

If I used to be unable to figure out my own mood, then now I understand everything.

I am deeply in love with him.

If I am going to disappear from this world, I will keep my love for you throughout the rainy season of the century.

It's powerless again.

Stuck on the soft sofa, Mafu fell asleep again.

Originally thinking that he would not be able to wake up for a while, Mafu did not expect that he opened his eyes again not long after.

Subconsciously looking at the calendar, five days have passed.

It seems that I feel a little better than the last time I woke up, and I can control various parts of my body.

Only at this time did he realize that the note he was clutching in his hand should be a message note that he had been in constant contact with Hiro.

『I am very happy, and I hope that Mafu will also live happily in the days to come. 』

Looking at the words on the note, Mafu felt more and more like Akatin's strokes, but then he felt that his strange idea was ridiculous. If this is Akatin, then what is the one on the hospital bed?

Mafu rubbed his temples tiredly, he will fall into a coma again soon.

Accidents always happened one after another. Not only did he not faint immediately, but he also went to school for a day.

Looking at the long-lost Tianyue, he rushed over and hugged him, so scared that Tianyue patted his head and said, "Mafu, you have rabies! What are you doing holding me!"

"Tianyue... long time no see...!"

"Actually, we met 13 hours ago, do you think I've reached this level?" Tianyue was flattered, "Oh, yes, our geography teacher said to check the notes, please lend me your notes quickly !"

"Eh? But I haven't finished writing my notes..." Mafu took out his geography notes from his backpack and handed them to Tianyue, "You should take it and read it first, the rest of it should not be written properly, and my handwriting is very messy .”

Tianyue finished the notes and flipped through them, "What, you don't want to borrow me at all, isn't it well written?"

Mafu suddenly remembered that Hiro might have recorded it for him, looked at it, and froze there.

I still remember that it was the umpteenth time that Mafu was waiting for him to draw a map in Akatin's classroom, watching him draw the border of the map with double dotted lines, bit by bit slowly.

The golden sunlight hit Akatin's hair, which looked extremely soft.

"You, why do you have to use double dotted lines?" Mafu lay on the back of the chair, watching Akatin patiently complete the huge map of the project, "Isn't it okay to draw a frame directly?"

After changing pens of different colors, Akatin smiled, "Mafu, you look like a curmudgeon and a clean freak, but you are actually a big guy who picks your feet." As if thinking of Mafu's messy apartment, Akatin laughed crisply.

"It's very troublesome."

"It's very rewarding."

Mafu looked at the double dashed lines and free and easy fonts on his notes in front of him, and his head exploded.

Is it him?

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Mafu waited eagerly for the end of class all day, and rushed out of the classroom as soon as the bell rang.

"Ah, why is this person leaving in such a hurry?" Tianyue said to the boy wearing a mask with some dissatisfaction, "Didn't we agree to eat pudding together?"

The young man helped his mask, and complained while packing his books, "You are the only one obsessed with pudding, right?"

"Whispering!" Tianyue slapped the boy on the head, "Hurry up and tidy up for a while, the store is about to close!"

"You are really fierce... If this goes on, I can bear you..."

"Snapped."

When he arrived at the apartment, the panting Mafu walked directly to the tea table without taking off his shoes, picked up the guestbook, and opened the pen cap. At this time, his hands were still shaking, and the words he wrote were crooked.

"Tin...is that you?" tin? 』

After finishing writing, his hands were still trembling, really, what was he anxious about, what was he nervous about...he wouldn't run away.

After comforting himself in his heart for a long time, the trembling finally stopped, and Mafu felt surprisingly relaxed and soft all over his body.

So tired, so sleepy.

Sure enough, it is again...

The next recovery will be three days later. After reading the calendar, Mafu quickly ran to the living room, and couldn't wait to open the guestbook on the desktop.

"I'm Hiro, you know that. 』

pat.

The guestbook fell to the floor, and Mafu fell down on the bed with some disappointment, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

The expectations in my heart fell through, and even my limbs were full of disappointment.

After lying like this for about two hours, he didn't even turn over, and his back was a little numb from the pressure.

Suddenly the doorbell rang.

Mafu moved a little bit, his knuckles creaked, and he got out of bed half a minute later to open the door.

"Your courier, please get your chapter ready!"

Mafu watched the courier move a long box into the house with some doubts. After thanking the courier for sending him away, he opened the box.

It is a fishing rod.

Who sent it wrong? Mafu looked at the courier slip suspiciously, and the sender's column was impressively mother's name.

Confused, Mafu called his mother.

"A fishing rod? I sent it to you. When you came to Venice last time, didn't you ask around for fishing places? You also asked your father to borrow a fishing rod. This time, I saw an event in the fishing tackle shop and bought something for your father. When I was here, I took your share with me... What's the matter, isn't it to your liking?"

"Ah... no... I like it very much."

After hanging up the phone, Mafu looked at the open fishing rod box on the ground for a long time.

I like fishing, no matter where I will consider fishing first.

Hiro, are you really not akatin?

Just when Mafu was about to write a message to ask for clarification, the cell phone in his hand rang.

"Hey, mafumafu-san?"

"I am, you are..." Mafu looked at the contact notes displayed on the phone, "Is that Miss Reiko?"

"Yes, Mafu, if you are over there, please come to my counseling room."

Thinking it might be a very important matter, so Mafu put aside the matter of wanting to leave a message to Hiro, called a taxi and rushed to Miss Reiko's psychological counseling room.

"It's like this Mafu, Hiro-san came here to ask me for help when you were unconscious." Reiko sat opposite him, holding the medical record in her hand. "I gave him a sedative."

Mafu frowned "Sedative?"

"Yes, in a sense, it is internationally recognized as a drug that can stabilize mental illness, and it can be said to have a significant effect in weakening and suppressing the second personality."

"You mean... Hiro will disappear after eating it?"

"Mafu, the existence of this kind of personality is inherently pathological, so you don't need to pay too much attention to it." Reiko looked at Mafu who was agitated, and said with some comfort.

"Sick...?"

"Yes, theoretically this kind of second personality shouldn't exist. He has already suppressed your personality as the main personality. If things go on like this, you will..."

"Then you gave him that medicine?!" Mafu stood up suddenly, his eyes widened. "Shouldn't you also ask for my opinion? It's up to me whether to make him disappear or not!"

"You..." Reiko seemed to be frightened by his sudden burst of aura.

"Besides, didn't you say that there is no cure? How come there are medicines, why are there medicines all of a sudden?!" Mafu's mental state was extremely poor today, but now he seems to have vented completely, his wine-red eyes seemed to be All trembling in the atmosphere.

Suddenly, he saw the case record in Reiko's hand.

In the name column, the correction tape has been redacted and mafu's name has been written on it.

Mafu snatched up the case.

Reiko was also a little displeased, "Mafumafu-san, you are going too far!"

"blade."

"……what?"

"Please lend me the blade."

"Hey, don't do something stupid." Reiko protected the pen holder on the low chair.

But mafu looked anxious "If you can't lend me the blade, can you give me some tools to scrape off the correction tape?"

Reiko handed over the pin without knowing why.

After mafu took it, he carefully scratched the medical records.

Reiko looked at him like a neurotic patient, and was a little worried about this young man, "Mafumafu-san..."

Mafu ignored him and concentrated on scratching the correction tape.

Slowly, the words hidden under the white powder appeared.

"To be honest, most of the reason why I noticed Tin Sang at the beginning was because of the beautiful calligraphy."

The two were walking on the way home from school, and Akatin took a bite of the popsicle bought by Mafu, "Hahaha, thank you for the compliment."

"It's really beautiful. It's not that it's neat and beautiful, but it's casual and has the free and easy charm of the Edo period."

"The evaluation is so high!" Akatin smiled even more happily, the glistening afterglow of the setting sun dappledly cast highlights in his eyes, like the beautiful stamens of kapok.

In the name column of the medical record, after scratching off the correction tape with mafumafu written on it, the original written text was exposed.

This kind of font is really very beautiful, not because it is neat and beautiful, but because it is casual and has the free and easy charm of the Edo period.

Patient: akatin