end of love

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If you don’t like it, just abandon the article. This article has not been signed, and everyone has not invested in it in the early stage. You don’t have to wait for an ending to read it, and you don’t have to express your opinion because you can’t remember the previous plot. Please respect the author. .In fact, after returning to the room from outside and calming down, Li Shuyi was terribly disappointed in himself, and even lost his mood.He hated the self who turned over old scores with Bai Jing, hated the self who turned out those memories stuck in his throat, confronted Bai Jing and quarreled like a resentful wife.How many times have I said that I want to be relieved, and I have talked to others about being friends without shame, but it was just a coincidence, a coincidence that even Bai Jing couldn't understand, and he just exploded like this, angrily telling others Complaining about how much wronged and sad I have suffered before... It's really, it's too ugly.

He said he was not Ning Yue.Even he himself didn't know how to explain such a nonsensical remark, so how could he expect Bai Jing to understand.So he didn't find it strange at all about the other party's initial reaction.The two of them have always been like this, quarreling can't get to the point, they are always talking to themselves, neither of them will stop to listen to what the other wants to express, it seems to be more ugly and excessive than anyone else's words, more hurtful.No one will admit their mistakes first, and both parties will be exhausted physically and mentally until the next new conflict breaks out, just such a vicious circle that repeats itself.

So after he questioned those words, he waited for Bai Jing's reply as in the past, and he could even guess what the other party was going to say. For example, the relationship between them was originally unclear. First leave without permission, for example, he insisted that he went to the bar after he was injured... He thought a lot, because he knew Bai Jing too well, the way the two people get along with each other, and the pain points of each other, so he understood them As long as we face each other for a day, we can only blame each other for liquidation, and we have to go back to the beginning to figure out who was wronged by whom, and who was wrong first.

But I didn't expect to wait and wait until Bai Jing apologized.

It's not like this person didn't ask him to forgive before, but in Li Shuyi's view, it was more like comfort and tolerance to force him to undergo surgery.From knowing Bai Jing to the present, in so many years, it was the first time he saw him seriously say with such an expression and posture, I did something wrong and I failed you.

It is a picture that I would never have dreamed of when I had extravagant hopes.The best result I have ever thought of is nothing more than forming a tacit understanding with each other, reluctantly, and reluctantly living through this life.Who would have thought that one day, a person who has always been high above others and looked at others like ants would carefully bow his head, babbled about his life past, and explained to him the problems he had dismissed before, just to ask for his forgiveness.

Li Shuyi didn't know how to respond for a while.

Moved?How could it be unaffected.Only he knows how hopeless he is to Bai Jing.After running so far to come here, it's not like he plausibly said, I'm bored when I see you.I ran away because I wanted to see him, because after waking up, I knew that this person had guarded me for a year, and I realized that those emotions that had been suppressed with difficulty began to move around again, and I ran away because I was afraid that everything would come back again.

There are so many unresolved knots in his heart, if Bai Jing didn't take the initiative to speak, he would never ask in his life, let these things lie between them, and never look back.But this person seemed to suddenly know how to "deal with" himself, how to break down these barriers, and he was not even given a chance to escape.

Seeing that Li Shuyi remained silent, Bai Jing shook his hand even harder, and his palm was even slightly sweaty from being too nervous.

"You're right, no one forced me with a gun, so from the day I took Ning Yue back, I'm not qualified to explain to you." The words are clearly expressed, "I have never dared to speak these words. I am afraid that you will not be patient to listen to them, and I am also afraid that you will be disgusted. I feel that I am deliberately making excuses for myself... But I saw you so sad today, and I was afraid that I would not say it again. You are still brooding and don't let yourself go."

Li Shuyi looked away, her heart throbbing slightly.Yes, he just kept worrying about it all the time and couldn't let himself go.He just hated himself for being incompetent, hating himself for being humble, hating himself for taking the same path as his father.He withdrew his hand forcefully, and said lightly: "Okay, I'll let myself go. If I said that, I would have given up a long time ago. I don't want to be with you anymore. I also want to try another life, and I want to love someone who makes me happy." People who are not so 'hard', what do you want? Can you let me go?"

The already empty hand clenched unconsciously, and the expression on Bai Jing's face froze for a moment, as if he couldn't believe that he really heard from Li Shuyi that he wanted to take back the definition of "love" that he had always given himself. give others.

"I..." He frowned and murmured hesitantly, and he didn't finish the rest of the sentence for a long time, with a rare look of bewilderment in his eyes.

Li Shuyi laughed at himself in his heart, why didn't he feel happy at all looking at Bai Jing like this.There seemed to be two people pulling in the body, one was moved by Bai Jing's apology, and the other couldn't help being aggressive and wanted to stab him after he made it clear that he had the ability to influence and hurt Bai Jing.

What's even more ridiculous is that even Li Shuyi himself didn't know what answer he wanted to hear.

He wanted to stop there, but before he could open his mouth, the door was suddenly slammed open with a "boom". Jin Yan stood at the door, holding a bag in his arms that completely covered his face, poked his head out from behind, and shouted loudly. Said: "Uncle Li, I'm back! I bought you a lot of food! Are you surprised hahaha...ha...ha..."

The smiling face gradually froze after seeing him and Bai Jing.

He silently put down his things, greeted Bai Jing politely, and planned to leave, but was called back by Li Shuyi.

Jin Yan reluctantly stopped, not knowing why Uncle Li wanted him to be a light bulb. When he turned his head, he accidentally glanced at Li Shuyi's bandaged hand, and immediately rushed to the bedside as if his butt was on fire. Wanting to hold it up to look at it but afraid of touching the wound, he scratched his ears and scratched his cheek anxiously and asked, "What's wrong!"

Li Shuyi made up a random reason, saying that he accidentally fell.

"How could you be careless! It's not that no one is taking care of you! Mr. Bai said that he will always be here, so I decided to come back today!" He frowned as he spoke, looking very unhappy, but he didn't dare to blame It was too obvious, so he sneaked a glance at Bai Jing.

Before Li Shuyi answered, Bai Jing stood up and said to Jin Yan, "Sorry, I didn't take good care of him."

Jin Yan suddenly panicked, looked at Li Shuyi, lowered his head and faltered, not knowing what to say.

Although Li Shuyi's question has not been answered yet, the atmosphere in the room is obviously not suitable for further discussion. Bai Jing said: "I'll go back first, you should rest well." Then he looked at Jin Yan and told him, "His hands can't touch the water, you Be more careful."

Li Shuyi didn't speak, but Jin Yan felt that it was not good to ignore people, so he nodded.

When Bai Jing walked to the door and closed it, he heard Jin Yan murmuring through the crack of the door: "But I have been taking care of Uncle Li for more than two months, and I haven't hurt a single finger of yours. Ah! Then..." He couldn't hear the words behind him, he was stunned, and stood in the corridor for a long time before he lifted his legs and walked to his room.

It was not time for dinner yet, and when he returned to his room, he received a routine call from the workbench, asking if he needed to prepare dinner for him.

Bai Jing really didn't have any appetite, so after hanging up the phone, he walked to the brighter balcony and sat down.

The wind in the evening is very gentle, it doesn't make people feel stuffy, and there is not much coolness.But he didn't look relaxed at all, he pinched the bridge of his nose, looking a little tired.Then, as if he suddenly remembered something, he reached out and rummaged in the pocket of his jacket. When he lowered his head, he saw some spots of blood on the collar that had dried up and turned into brown, and the movements of his hands slowed down again.

When he took his hand out of his pocket, there was a small ring between his thumb and index finger.I see Li Shuyi a lot in the past few days, and I have to take it off before meeting, and put it on after returning to the room, as if secretly fighting a guerrilla war.But he didn't think it was too much trouble, he was already used to it.Only Li Shuyi didn't have to dodge like this when he was in a coma, but at that time, he would rather the person on the bed would wake up and grab his ring and throw it out.

Bai Jing was holding the ring, not in a hurry to put it on, staring at the place where his and Li Shuyi's names were engraved inside the ring, and unconsciously touched it with his fingertips.Every sentence Li Shuyi said today echoed in his mind.Although he never expected him to forgive himself immediately after waking up, Bai Jing never thought that his approach would cause Li Shuyi such pain.

Do you want to give up?

Bless him generously, as he said, the two of them may still be able to keep in touch with each other as friends, and have a meal together in their spare time, and mentioning the past is just a young and ignorant joke.Then when he fell in love with someone else, he would indulge and tolerate that person in every possible way, and Li Nian, who was always sleeping softly against the side of his neck, was also hugged in that person's arms——Bai Jing couldn't bear it just thinking about this scene. Stop having many violent and dangerous thoughts.

It was like being splashed with a basin of cold water.

Yeah, just thinking about it.He just thought about it, even if he didn't know whether this person was a man or a woman, or what he looked like, he could go crazy with anger just because of the silhouette of a nothingness.As for Li Shuyi, he experienced it himself, facing a real Ning Yue himself, and also faced suspicion and accusations from him, Bai Jing, and contempt and ridicule from strangers.

How desperate do you have to be to seek comfort from those who have passed away, and rely on the cold tombstone?Thinking of the past, Bai Jing thought of the man curled up sleeping in the rain, his face was washed pale by the rain, and his jaw was tightly tightened, so he managed to maintain his expression.

He used to be so arrogant that he thought that spending time on Li Shuyi could make up for past mistakes.Jin Yan's words may have been unintentional, but they succeeded in making him feel ashamed.He had only been with Li Shuyi for a few days before he got hurt again.How can there be such a ridiculous person as him, apologizing and admitting mistakes while ignoring the wishes of the other party and making his own claims.If he doesn't even do anything, he can force Li Shuyi to lose control, force Li Shuyi to collapse, and force the other party to say, can you let me go.Then why should he ask Li Shuyi to forgive and start everything again.

Is it really necessary to lock a person up and ruin the second half of his life after ruining the first half of his life?

The sky outside gradually darkened, and the street lamps on the path were turned on one by one. Because the lights in the room were not turned on, light and shadow fell on Bai Jing intertwined, making him look a bit lonely.

He sat there motionless, and he didn't know how long it had been. It wasn't until the loud laughter sounded downstairs that he suddenly came to his senses, raised his hand, and seriously put the ring on the ring finger of his left hand.Then he stared silently for a long time before closing his eyes and pressing a very light kiss on them.

Thinking about not being able to say that again in the future, and never having the right to say that, Bai Jing's fingers trembled slightly, and when he opened his mouth, the smile on the corner of his mouth couldn't cover up the choking in his voice.

"My Li Shuyi."