end of love

Because of this accident, the airport highway was seriously congested, and there was no traffic for a while. When Bai Hao arrived, he told Jin Yan that it was too late, and they would come back the next day.

Although it was a false alarm, Jin Yan was still so frightened that he didn't fall asleep all night. If Bai Hao hadn't warned him not to pick him up, he would have put on his scarf and gloves and squatted at the gate of the nursing home at dawn. with.He used to be a glutton, he didn't even want to eat breakfast in the morning, he drank a cup of soy milk in a perfunctory manner, and didn't watch or play games on TV, just sat by the window and stared downstairs nervously, just like a Wangfushi appearance.

It was rare for Li Shuyi not to scold him. When he walked to the cabinet where he kept snacks, when he opened it, the veins on his forehead couldn't help but twitch.

He doesn't eat snacks, and he didn't care about it before, he just thinks this place is like a black hole, and Jin Yan can take out food from it at any time.He also knew that the items sent to Jin Yan by Bai Hao had not been broken since he left, but he really didn't expect it to be so spectacular, with three floors full, like supermarket shelves.Right under Li Shuyi's nose, there was a basket full of chocolates of different flavors and brands.

Li Shuyi rummaged through it patiently, and found out a packet of nutritious cereal biscuits, walked over and threw it into Jin Yan's arms, Jin Yan said with a sullen expression, "I have no appetite."

Li Shuyi's face turned cold: "I lost my appetite so I threw it away. Anyway, I didn't buy it, and it wasn't my money to spend it." As he spoke, he stretched out his hand to get it back.

Jin Yan turned around to avoid him, and said anxiously: "I, I, I suddenly have an appetite again!" Then he hurriedly opened the packaging bag, picked up the biscuit and gnawed it.Li Shuyi glanced at him speechlessly, fearing that he would choke and his mouth would dry out after eating too many biscuits, so he took a box of fresh milk, inserted a straw and stuffed it into his hand.

"Thank you, Uncle Li." Jin Yan bit the straw and turned his head back, staring out the window intently, for fear of missing a figure.Li Shuyi really wanted to type out the words "incurable" and stick it on his head, how could he be so stupid.And fortunately, God opened his eyes, so that Bai Hao, who didn't know which nerves in his mind suddenly made a mistake, returned to normal halfway, otherwise Jin Yan didn't know what would happen for the rest of his life.

When it was almost eleven o'clock, the person who had been guarding the window stood up suddenly, grabbed his coat and put it on indiscriminately, opened the door and rushed out without saying a word, Li Shuyi didn't even have time to make him run slower.

Li Shuyi got up and walked to the window, and sure enough, he saw Bai Hao walking towards the garden downstairs.It's just that he stopped suddenly and looked ahead nervously. Within a few seconds, he saw Jin Yan rushing into his arms like a ignited firework, knocking everyone back a few steps.

Bai Hao hugged him vigorously and kept bowing his head to say something to him, but the person he was hugging didn't move, he just buried his head in his arms and wrapped his hands tightly around his waist.Bai Hao smiled helplessly, and stopped talking. He patted his back lightly, and kissed him on the top of his head one after another.

Even though it is such a cold day, the scene in front of me is inexplicably warming, and even a little bit envious.It seems that the onlookers can also understand that it has never been destroyed, never experienced disappointment and injury, as if it is the first time to be moved, to like for the first time, and to rush to a certain person's feelings regardless of everything.

A faint smile appeared on the corner of Li Shuyi's mouth, and his eyes couldn't help but fell behind Bai Hao to search, but there was no familiar figure.There was a flash of disappointment in his heart, but before that feeling could make waves, he ignored it.

Bai Hao quickly brought Jin Yan back, and when Li Shuyi said that he hadn't eaten this morning, he didn't know whether to say "teach" or "coax" Jin Yan, and then he took off his short coat and looked for him. A long and thick down jacket was put on him, and she wanted to take him to the restaurant.He stepped out, then suddenly turned around and said, "Uncle Li, uncle still has something to attend to, and he won't be there until this afternoon." Then he led Jin Yan away.

Li Shuyi frowned.

He actually didn't really want to see Bai Jing at this time, he knew too well what kind of virtue he was.Because of what happened last night, Jin Yan would give Bai Hao an eager hug, and he would just scold him why he didn't stay in Jinhai well, causing him to call everywhere at night and disturbing a lot of people.

Uncle Wu said that he was not forgiving, and he admitted it, but this problem did not develop overnight.Since he was a child, he didn't know how to express his soft feelings like intimacy and liking, but he learned the most from Jiang Manqing's indifference and selfishness, so the last sentence he said to his father was: I don't want to hear your voice again .

I don't know why I suddenly recalled the past again.

Li Shuyi's expression became colder, he took out his phone and looked at Li Nian's photo for a while, thinking that no matter what, he would not be able to raise another Li Shuyi in this world.

When the door knocked in the afternoon, Li Shuyi thought it was Bai respecting them.He hasn't seen Zuo Mingyuan for a long time, and he planned to hurt him when he saw someone.

As soon as he opened the door and saw the person standing outside, Li Shuyi was stunned for a while before asking in surprise, "Uncle Zhao?"

Zhao Hui didn't expect him to open the door without asking, and explained a little awkwardly: "I, I'm here to see you." Standing behind him, Zhao Qingqing also poked her head out and looked at Li Shuyi curiously.

Li Shuyi came back to his senses, and hurriedly took a step back and invited him into the room.When he poured the tea and turned around, Zhao Hui was still standing restrained, and passed the tea to him, so that he would not look so tense: "Uncle Zhao, sit down."

Only then did Zhao Hui put down the bag of fruit he was carrying, and sat down on the sofa with tea in both hands.

Li Shuyi looked again at Zhao Qingqing who had been closely following her father, opened Jin Yan's snack cabinet, picked some candies and chocolate biscuits and put them on the tea table in front of her, squatted down to look at her, and said in a soft voice: "Your name is Qingqing, right? Brother..." He was stunned for a moment, then quickly realized, and smiled again, "Uncle, I don't know what you like to eat, can you choose it yourself?"

Zhao Qingqing is a lively and cute little girl, but she is a little shy of strangers. She has no impression of Li Shuyi who she met once more than a year ago. She only thinks that he speaks kindly and gently, shyly shrinking behind Zhao Hui, and then Gently nodded.

Li Shuyi stood up, with a gentle smile on his face, looked at Zhao Hui and asked, "Uncle Zhao, why are you here?"

Zhao Hui lowered his head and explained in a low voice.

Zhao Qingqing's grandmother's house is in a town called Tunpu under Longtan City. A few days ago, the old man accidentally fell and went to the hospital. Can't catch up with the old man for the last time.Fortunately, after rescuing the old man out of danger, the situation is now stable.Zhao Qingqing hadn't had her winter vacation yet, and Zhao Hui wanted to send her back to school, so he came over to see Li Shuyi before she left.

After listening, Li Shuyi said unexpectedly, "Uncle Zhao, how do you know I'm here?"

Zhao Hui didn't dare to look at him, his eyes dodged: "When Mr. Bai came to me to ask about your news, he gave me his phone number. I haven't been able to contact you for a year. I only found out by asking him that you are sick. , I haven’t woken up since the operation.” After he finished speaking, he probably felt that it was a bit hypocritical and shameful for him to come to express his concern just now, and said with a wry smile, “I should have come a long time ago. But all these years, how, how I treated you I don't even have the face to see you."

Seeing that Li Shuyi was silent, he clenched his teacup even more anxiously: "I have been in touch with that Mr. Bai, and I heard that you are all well some time ago. I still, I still want to take a look in person... I will also Completely relieved."

Li Shuyi had been listening to him in silence, but when he spoke again, he forced a smile: "Uncle Zhao, you are wrong..." He suppressed his smile, his voice hoarse, "I have no face to see you."

Zhao Hui froze, raised his head to look at him, but couldn't speak for a long time.

For so many years, he had never had a good look at Li Shuyi's appearance.In my memory, he was still a boy with a bad temper, who liked to be alone, but was extremely smart and assertive. He was still the boy with a thin back after saying goodbye to them at the airport. He is still tall, and he is a mature man who can advance and retreat well in his work.

He is nothing like the Li family.Not as simple and honest as his father, nor as optimistic and cheerful as his aunt.Although he had tried his best to restrain himself when facing him, Zhao Hui could still feel a certain aura from him—it was the killing decision of a person who had been tempered by the world and had been stained with blood.

At the beginning, their good family fell apart. Facing the sudden blow, he was scared to death, threw out all the responsibilities and sins, and comforted himself that he was just an ordinary person with no power and no power.Li Shuyi, who was less than 20 years old, was left alone, with three lives on his back, to fight against a behemoth that could crush him.

That's why Zhao Hui didn't want to see him later.As soon as he saw Li Shuyi like this, he couldn't help but think about what he went through later, turning from a willful and immature boy into a sharp knife that stabs people.At the same time, I had a new lover, a new family, and lived a stable and happy life.Only when I dream back at midnight, will I remember that there is a lonely Li Shuyi in Jinhai City.

Zhao Hui's eyes were red, and the more he thought about it, the more guilty he felt.But what should be said, I have already said to Li Shuyi more than a year ago, if I always say sorry, it seems to be just to comfort myself and seek peace of mind.

Zhao Hui took a sip of tea, blinked away the wetness from the corners of his eyes with the steaming heat on the teacup, and after calming down, put down the teacup and stood up and said, "I told Wenying before that she and elder brother are too used to you. Not good." He smiled, "In the end, she pissed her off, and told me, 'My calligraphy is good everywhere, and I will be able to do better than anyone else in the future, and I will be more promising than anyone else'."

Wenying... Li Wenying.

For a long time, Li Shuyi hadn't heard anyone mention this name again, and he froze in place for a moment.

"It seems that your aunt knows you best." Zhao Hui shook hands, and finally mustered up the courage to pat Li Shuyi's arm. His face was like that of the elders in ordinary families who are pleased to see the younger generation grow up.

He pulled Zhao Qingqing up: "Then I won't disturb your rest, Qingqing and I have to go to the station."

Li Shuyi seemed to have just regained his sanity, and went to get the coat anxiously: "I'll give it to you, and I'll give it to you."

Zhao Hui had already reached the door, and it was cold outside, fearing that Li Shuyi would chase him out and catch cold, so he hurriedly opened the door and waved his hands repeatedly: "No need, no need... When we came, Mr. Bai sent us here, so I don't want to trouble you." He probably thought that Bai Jing and Li Shuyi had a good relationship, and accepting his kindness was equivalent to accepting Li Shuyi.

Unexpectedly, when he opened the door, he saw two people standing on the corridor, Bai Jing and Zuo Mingyuan.

Zuo Mingyuan and the others were bored waiting, and when they saw Zhao Hui, they showed a friendly smile: "Mr. Zhao, the bus is downstairs, and I will take you to the station."

How dare Zhao Hui bother him twice, but Zuo Mingyuan is the best at watching people order dishes, and the place is remote and it is difficult to find a car, and the weather is cold, and children are not cold, Zhao Hui hesitated, followed to the door Li Shuyi at the side answered: "Uncle Zhao, let him see you off. I don't feel at ease when it's so far away."

As soon as he made a sound, Bai Jing, who had been watching them tugging at the side, raised his head, and his eyes fell on him...and he couldn't look away.

He was wearing a white shirt today, the hem of which was tucked into straight suit pants, outlining a narrow waistline.Sitting in a wheelchair before, he could only look up at people. He found it difficult and didn't like being inferior. He usually had no expression on his face and was too lazy to communicate with people.Now he is healed, no longer wearing hospital clothes, not much shorter than Bai Jing, the way he talks...is the same Li Shuyi from before.

Although Bai Jing had seen him in the photos, but when he saw him standing in front of him like this, he could almost hear his heart beating violently in his chest.

Zhao Hui couldn't hold back Zuo Mingyuan's enthusiasm, so he had to follow others, and walked a few steps in a panic, it was Zhao Qingqing who pulled his hand and said something, and he stopped.

Li Shuyi was still standing by the door watching them, thinking there was something wrong, and was about to ask, when Zhao Qingqing ran back and stood in front of him, opened the small rabbit-shaped satchel by her side, and took out something from inside , handing him some embarrassing hands.

Li Shuyi bent down to take it, and was about to ask her what it was, when she raised her head, her round eyes were wide open, a small dimple appeared at the corner of her mouth, and her voice was clear and sweet: "Bye, brother!" Then she turned her head and ran away, The two shofar braids throw out a lovely arc, and the strawberry hairpin behind the head can be seen.

Li Shuyi's face froze because of the smile brought out by talking to her, and his hands shook unconsciously, his mind went blank as if disconnected, and he didn't even know when he was brought back to the room by Bai Jing.

When he calmed down and opened the envelope in his hand, a greeting card was revealed inside.It’s almost Christmas, and the cover of the greeting card is a smiling Santa Claus, who is driving reindeer to fly in the night sky, and there are a bunch of small animals in Christmas clothes sitting beside him, all smiling and squinting their eyes , holding gifts and cheering.

Li Shuyi opened the greeting card carefully, and wrote a sentence inside with colorful watercolor pens, the font was a little immature: I wish Li Shuyi's brother a speedy recovery.At the end, the words "Zhao Qingqing" were left, and a big smiling face was drawn beside it.

Li Shuyi was stunned, holding the greeting card blankly, reading the words on it word by word, over and over again, until his eyes were blurred and he couldn't see the words clearly, and he was still saying "Brother Li Shuyi" silently.

From that gray afternoon, he hurriedly opened the door of the house, searched all the rooms, and only saw two cold urns, a part of Li Shuyi was imprisoned there forever.Imprisoned in a cramped corner, he regrets and blames himself all day long, and is in pain.To this day, when Zhao Qingqing waited for her brother, it was as if another girl, a girl with his aunt's eyes and a smiling face, also called him through Zhao Qingqing's voice, and then told him: Brother, you should go out.

The softest part of my heart seemed to be pricked by needles, and even my breathing felt a dull pain.Li Shuyi heard someone calling him, he raised his head ignorantly, the whole world was soaked in a circle of dangling tears, and he could only see a whole figure.

Before the tears fell completely, someone clasped the back of his head with the palm of his hand, and then he was pressed into a warm embrace.

The person who was holding him was wearing a woolen coat, probably because he had stood outside for a long time, and there was still a bit of cold moisture on his clothes. His voice was also so cold that there was no emotion, and he only said one sentence.

"Li Shuyi, you are not wrong."

The man saw his tears without surprise, without contempt, just pressed his head into his arms, just as he did when he saw his tears for the first time.He knew that he didn't need to be cherished and comforted at this moment, so he helped him to hold back his tears and gave him quiet company just like at that time.

The previous sentence "Li Shuyi, bear with it" was almost all the support for him to survive when he took revenge.Now, this person saw the knot in his heart, so he told him again: Li Shuyi, you are not wrong.

Li Shuyi tightly clenched Bai Jing's clothes with both hands, tears spilled out almost completely uncontrollably.

There were many voices in his ears.

Jin Yan said, we all understand you.Fu Ying said, as long as you live well.Old Butler Wu said, Wanwang, you must take good care of yourself.

... In the end it was Bai Jing who told him that you were not wrong.

Those wounds from the past, the wounds left by Jiang Manqing, the wounds left by himself, all the painful regrets and self-torture that have been drilled into the horns... finally began to heal, and finally waited to be relieved.

Li Shuyi has never been so relaxed and relieved like this moment in his life.

The last shackles on him also fell.

He could finally, finally move forward.