Well, just take a look

In April, the wind in the old city is still chilly.

Taking advantage of no classes in the afternoon, Yan Qing tidied up slowly in the store.

Chunyi Bookstore is located at the junction of the old city and the new district, only one step away from the bustling, but it retains the reservedness and comfort that only belong to the old city.A three-story old Soviet building, the first floor was taken down by Yan Qing's grandfather as a storefront, with a total area of ​​less than [-] square meters. There is an old poplar tree at the door, and the thick branches on the top of the building are almost luxuriant in midsummer. It can cover up the red tiles tightly.Grandpa's house used to be on the third floor, and the elderly people had bad legs and feet. When Yan Qing got rich over the years, she simply bought the second floor and hired someone to decorate it. , to make room for the grandfather to live on the inside of the first floor, which is convenient for the elderly to walk in and out when they live alone.

Grandpa passed away a month ago, and Yan Qing, who had no other relatives, took over the store. Although the small bookstore was originally stained with the atmosphere of the times, although not many changes have been made, it has added a bit of youthful vitality.The repainted wooden tables and chairs and hanging basket swings are often dragged around by customers in the store, and they are simply put aside casually.A white shelf was added to the empty space, filled with all kinds of small potted plants adopted by customers and then taken care of by the store manager. The signature on the small label inserted in each flower pot also reveals the owner’s name. personality.

The naughty little chubby guy next door even hugged the chameleon Big Eye who was not allowed at home. Yan Qing found a few thick branches as decorations, but now it is convenient for Big Eye to walk leisurely.In addition, two new residents have arrived: Xiaohua, a wild cat who came here by herself, and Princess Sissi, a white cat spoiled by her grandfather.Occasionally, the temperature rises in the afternoon, and the two little guys compete to hold the big eyes with cold bodies, throwing their usual pretense ten miles away.

Rather than running a small shop, Chunyi Bookstore is more like a resting place for neighbors and friends.Yan Qing's grandfather was a high-level intellectual in that era, and everyone he knew liked to let the children come and nurture them whenever they had nothing to do. Even if they didn't study, they would be relieved to have someone help them with their homework.Especially knowing that Yan Qing is a teacher who stayed at the school after graduating from one of the top universities in the country. When she is free to help in the store, she is surrounded by enthusiastic parents and children.It is also thanks to the care of the neighbors that Yan Qing can maintain this small shop alone in the sadness of her grandfather's death.

Bit by bit of inadvertent little kindness has become the star point of hope that supports Yan Qing to move forward.He knew that these simple neighbors were afraid that he would be alone.

Since Xiao Yanqing's parents divorced and went their separate ways, both of them were unwilling to take care of each other, and soon they reorganized their families and started a new life. The Chunyi Bookstore more than 20 years ago was already a small shop of Yan's family well known to the neighbors, just like the old Yan in the shop, alone, soaked in the taste of the years.One day, this small shop with traces of time suddenly had a little guy, and the news was known to everyone in the first place.The little guy was very tender, his big black eyes were full of water vapor, but he never cried, quietly enjoying the coolness under the old tree in front of the door.When he gradually became literate, he followed Yan Lao to read and write.

Passing by on the road, everyone likes to say a few words to the boy of the Yan family, no matter how close he is, the little guy is so indifferent, asking a question, answering a question, polite and thoughtful, but never talking too much.Occasionally, when I see an elderly person carrying something, the little guy will help him silently.Everyone knows that a child suffers from being abandoned by both parents, and we understand that he is cold-tempered. Seeing other children making troubles all day long, on the contrary, we feel more sorry for the grandson of the Yan family. If his parents abandoned him, who would he show him?

I lived with my grandfather for 27 years, and my only family member passed away. Seeing the grandson of the Yan family still looking so indifferent, he managed the funeral all by himself, and there was no one who cried. Sleep.As for Yan Qing herself, it may be more of habit and... numbness.Life is always going on, this world pays attention to efficiency and profit, a man who is almost thirty is still crying?Not presentable.

Simply put together the things in the store, wipe off the floating dust that fell from the dust in the spring, holding the baby Big Eyes that the chubby guy forced into the store in her arms, Yan Qing sat quietly on the small sofa and watched the two cats play in the sun. Play around.

It was the season for catkins to dance, and the two energetic little creatures had a great time chasing catkins.The store was full of small potted animals that were forcibly placed in trusteeship, and the spring sun was streaming all over the place, but Yan Qing felt a big emptiness in her heart, and there was a slight chill in her heart.

People only know that his grandfather passed away, but they don't know that the senior brother he had been secretly in love with for two years, the man who knew his thoughts and had an affair with him for two years, finally couldn't bear the pressure of family and secular life, and married a well-matched woman on a blind date .

The oath that once joined hands until the end of life, heh, it's like a fart.

Grandpa has always known about Yan Qing, and the grandfather and grandson have always been frank.Although grandpa is the so-called "old antique" in this era, he once stayed abroad, and kept up with the pace of the times all these years. He opened Weibo earlier than Yan Qing, and played WeChat more smoothly than Yan Qing.The grandson likes the same sex, and he didn't harm others, and he didn't cheat, which is not difficult for the elderly to accept.Just as an elder who has experienced a lot and seen through a lot, I mentioned a few words to my grandson. After all, he is different from ordinary people and violates the ancestral precepts. It is much more difficult than ordinary people to persevere. It is not easy to get together. More like a luxury.

You can meet, but not ask for.

I don't know whether it's Yan Qing who can see it or whether he has no confidence in this relationship from the beginning to the end. He is not surprised that the senior chooses to get married. After receiving the news, he only has the expected things finally settled, which may be regarded as a relief in a certain sense. .Instead of constantly worrying that this relationship will eventually come to an end, this flash marriage was straightforward.

But after all, I have had a good feeling for two years, and the other party has been ambiguous with me for two years, so it is impossible to have no turmoil in my heart.

Yan Qing managed the funeral alone, and he didn't attend the senior's wedding. Other than that, he drove to T University when there was class, and came back to open the shop after class. Outsiders couldn't see any big changes.

A certain circle on the Internet exploded.

The master writer who has serialized novels on a well-known domestic website for nearly ten years and has never asked for leave of absence, "Yan Qing", stopped updating a month ago.

There was no explanation, no leave of absence, and no warning. If it wasn't for his occasional bubbling on Weibo later, thousands of fans would think that something happened to him.

To put it lightly, it is Yan Qing's pen name.

He knew that it was irresponsible for him to stop the update without saying anything, but... what should he say?

Say your family has passed away?This is not the reason for him to stop changing.

Said he was broken in love?Has he and his senior ever had a relationship?not at all.

He just couldn't write anymore.

"May the world treat you like spring", this is a work he wrote before the end of the new year. It is about the things between him and his seniors, or... it is something that he vaguely hopes to happen with his seniors.

For example, meeting in one spring, falling in love, quarreling occasionally, and holding hands for a lifetime.

But the other protagonist of the story is married.

and so……

The only relative, grandfather, passed away, as if a piece of flesh had been forcibly gouged out of Yan Qing's heart. With every beat of the heart, the wound was oozing with blood and painful.Years of calmness and self-restraint have prevented him from crying, and no one will hand him a glass of warm water while he is typing, no one will smile when he is distracted, and no one will be in the quiet afternoon. Quietly read his book.The days go by day by day, not much different from before.It's just that there is no one to care about anymore.And the first hazy love also ended in despair, Yan Qing didn't even think about redeeming it.The other party did not give him a chance to redeem.

The sun is getting warmer, with a premonition of summer.Princess Sissi and Xiao Hua rushed to the old tree at the door to enjoy the cool air.

The phone beeps four or five times in succession, crisp and short.

Putting Big Eyes back on the branch, Yan Qing picked up her phone and found out that it was @全球信息一个, @言白信息[-] in the WeChat group.Yan Qing couldn't remember how this WeChat group was added. Some of the members were familiar with the authors of his editor Lan Yuetao, and the remaining hundreds were almost unknown.I don't know when it was established and developed, and I also pulled myself in.The group leader is the familiar "Qian Xixi". She seems young, but she is forthright and straightforward, and has her own sense of propriety, making it hard to be annoying.Even a famous big ice cube like Yan Qing can be stuck to him for three days to keep in touch.In the circle, apart from Lan Yue, he is the one who can talk to Yan Qing the most. If anyone has something to talk to Yan Qing, if he can't get in touch with Lan Yue, he will be the first one to talk to Yan Qing.

As the name suggests, Qian Xixi can feel that her family background is good in her daily style and words, and she does things as she pleases within a reasonable range. To put it bluntly, she is the rich and willful type.Almost all the well-known authors under Lanyue can work full-time, earning money by writing conscientiously, and making ends meet.As for this young director who is said to be a family business, writing something is purely for entertainment.He writes well, readers enjoy it, and when he is interested, he will update the article overnight. The longest record of lack of interest has been broken for half a year.

In addition to Gengwen, Qian Xixi is also a boisterous personality, according to his words, he would hold a table with a few people who looked right to him and fill the table with three or five drinks from time to time, never returning home until he was drunk.It was mentioned before that someone would think of contacting Yan Qing when he was looking for him, and besides Yan Qing, everyone seems to be willing to find Mr. Qian who is chivalrous and devoted to his friends for everything, and they can always get help.Qian Xixi was like this, she was young, but she could afford to trust her.

The @information in the WeChat group was sent by Mr. Qian. Qian Xixi can guess it with her toes. Big Ice Cube’s words are light on the messages in the group, so she turns off the reminder, so she usually speaks freely and speaks lightly. They are not afraid of being found out, and they can chat or call in private if they have something to do.Today I deliberately posted a group, mainly to create momentum for light words.

At the beginning of last year, Yan Qing published the last part of the "Night Fire" series. The film and television works of the same name set off a wave of "Night Fire". At the end of the year, the game of the same name also entered the beta stage. beg.Mr. Qian, who got the news at the first time, is a light-hearted friend and also a game fan. At the same time, he is a patriotic gamer who claims to strongly support the domestic online game industry. He became a master of the internal test within a week. This is not enough, knowing that the public beta Delete the file, still throw heavy gold and various gemstones and runes upwards, refine it and then use an attribute appraisal hammer in a group of ten yuan and twenty in the mall.

Amid the questioning voices of "what are you drawing?", he looked at the finished products produced by hundreds of hammers, and said leisurely, "low-key." Seeing the rows of ellipsis, he couldn't understand his deep meaning, and added, " This is called wanting to prosper before suppressing. When my public beta comes out and becomes a great god, everyone admires me. Only you know my hard work and hardships during the internal beta. It’s useless to talk about it, so don’t worry about it.” There will always be those who committed the second grade for a few days, and they don't even bother to type the ellipsis after listening to it.At this time, let him indulge himself quietly alone.

Several consecutive @ messages are exactly the congratulatory telegram from Mr. Qian, Yehuo Public Tester.

XX17年4月27日15:00，夜火公测，震撼开服。

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Merry Christmas~

However, this article was originally intended to be written in spring, but it is actually...

Oh, it’s almost spring again o(╯□╰)o