my joann

Chapter 66

Ren Youning drove the car to a small square with a little traffic, and Qiao An sat in the passenger seat with a dignified expression.

"Today is divided into two stages, the first is to hang out alone in the crowd, and the second is to ask people for directions." Ren Youning said, "If you can complete this without stress, you are basically fine. "

Qiao An took a deep breath. The square Ren Youning chose was a huge business district surrounded by many pedestrian streets.The task Ren Youning gave him was to cross the pedestrian street from here to the small central square.

Because this is a landmark building in the urban area, both locals and tourists like to go shopping here, and it is crowded with people from morning till night.

The pedestrian street outside is full of goods, and the snack shops inside also attract a large group of foodies. Therefore, as long as you get off the bus, there are almost no places where there are few people.

"Go." Ren Youning said, "You can."

Qiao An sat on the chair without moving. The last few missions Ren Youning gave him were relatively few people. This was the first time he faced so many people.

Just thinking about it makes your scalp go numb.

"Qiao An, you've been preparing for today for so long, it's time to give it a go." Ren Youning said, leaning over and helping Qiao An open the car door.

"I...I'm going..." Joan unbuckled his seat belt tremblingly, and then walked out of the car door.

After getting out of the car, the power of the crowd piled up on Joan more directly. He turned pale for a moment, but the next second he closed his eyes, began to adjust his breathing, and relax his muscles.

This was the first step. When Joan felt better, he opened his eyes and started to move forward.

This is one of the entrances to the pedestrian street. There is also a scenic spot ticket sales point next to the entrance. It can be said that there are crowds among the crowd.

Under the large arch at the entrance, there were many tourists in groups of threes and twos, taking photos to record in their memories, Joan walked past them lightly, without disturbing anyone.

The different kind of stimulation made Joan's heart beat faster all the time. In the past two months, he has stopped the medicine according to the doctor's advice. Although the withdrawal reaction was fierce, he survived anyway.Without the help of medication, he was on his own.

When his heart beats faster, he takes a deep breath; when his head is dizzy, he stands by the side of the road and slows down; Body muscles.

Little by little, Joan walked forward.

Just like a person who has never suffered from social phobia, he walked naturally and normally on this road full of shoulders.

Joan walked very slowly. It was still too difficult for him, but it was not invincible.He calmed down, looked at everything around him calmly, then put it behind him, and continued to walk forward at a leisurely pace.

He looked at the children chasing and playing around him, saw the affectionate couples, and saw many, many.On this road, he suddenly discovered that all the things he had been thinking about were actually meaningless.

I am just a passerby to them, and they are also a strange passerby to myself.

Joan walked all the way to the central square, small vendors enthusiastically attracted customers, tourists took photos excitedly, and a group of children laughed and made noise around the small fountain in the middle.

All these things are so close to him, yet so far away; they are closely related to him, yet have nothing to do with him.

Qiao An quietly stood aside and watched for a while before taking out her phone.Knowing that he was afraid of answering the phone, Ren Youning specially spent two weeks to help him overcome it. Although he still hates using this function, he is no longer as scared as before.

He called Ren Youning, "I'm at the central square," Qiao An said.

"Great Joan, now you can start the second stage at any time, come on." Ren Youning said, "This is a major cause of your social fear at the beginning. Fear of others' denial of you, now is the time to conquer him."

Qiao An and Ren Youning said a few more details before hanging up the phone.

As a teenager, the word Joan heard most was "no".It can be said that this word accompanied his entire growth journey, and it also led to his current fear.Ren Youning asked him to ask for directions, just to let him understand that not everyone would say "no" to him, and hoped that he could overcome his fear and take the initiative to contact people.

It was really difficult for Joan to ask a stranger for directions. He stood there in a little confusion, not knowing where to start.

Or ask an old man, the old man should be more enthusiastic... Joan thought so.

He looked around and silently calculated a few targets in his mind. After many observations, Joan chose an old man who was sitting and drinking tea under a big tree.

He walked slowly in that direction, the more he walked, the more he felt guilty, the closer he got, the more he wanted to escape.

Joan stopped, lowered his head and closed his eyes, stood on the spot to cheer himself up, brainwashed, and did a lot of dialogue exercises in the brain. When he felt a little sure, he continued to move in that direction.

Huh?Qiao An took a closer look, where was that old grandpa just now?Qiao An searched around and found that the person was really gone, probably leaving when he was already preparing.

A little frustrated, but it didn't stop Joan from continuing to search. He looked again and saw a very kind old aunt.In order to ensure that the old aunt would not leave early this time, Qiao An didn't hesitate any longer and walked over with a high hanging heart.

There were still five steps, and Joan stopped. He was already feeling very anxious, and he had to stop and relax at this moment.

Control your breathing and relax every part of your body, from your feet to your head.

Joan made two back and forth, and took two steps.

Only three steps away from the old aunt, Joan began to think wildly, and all kinds of bad endings played in his brain one after another, like a huge palm stopped him, preventing him from moving forward.

Qiao An touched his face. He knew that his expression must be very bad. Ren Youning once asked him to practice smiling every day. It was different from the kind of smile in the etiquette profession. Ren Youning wanted him to feel the smile on his face when he smiled. The rhythm of the muscles.

It was a whole-body uplifting feeling. The moment the corner of the mouth was raised, a signal appeared in the brain, telling Joan that he was happy, positive, and fearless.

two steps.

Joan moved the corners of his mouth, all the way up. He did this action countless times in two months, but each time he could feel a different amount of positive power.

He took a deep breath, and the noisy sounds around him could no longer be heard clearly. Only the sound of his own breathing remained in Joan's ears, and the subtle experience of the gas entering the body and leaving.

step.

Joan finally stood in front of the old aunt. His whole body trembled, he tensed his whole body for a second, two seconds, and then relaxed.Relaxation after extreme tension will put people in a truly relaxed state. Looking at the old aunt, Joan opened his mouth and forgot the words.

No, still no.

Joan turned around and ran away in embarrassment.He still can't do it, still can't take the initiative to talk to people.

He crouched under a tree, panting.Many times, a small shadow in my heart will soon turn into a huge ink blob, swallowing all positive emotions.

As Christmas approaches, the entire square is decorated with lights and festoons, filled with all kinds of Christmas trees, elks, red socks, candy canes and so on.Everywhere you go, the singing of "Jingle Bells" will be cheerful and moving into everyone's ears.

Qiao An covered his face and squatted under the tree for a long time. When he stood up again, he almost fell forward because of his numb feet. Fortunately, he helped the big tree beside him in time.

Leaning against the tree for a while, Joan took a breath of warm air into the palm of his hand, covered his face and rubbed it vigorously, and then walked forward without hesitation.

There were still a lot of people in front, men, women, old and young. Qiao An didn't pay attention so much, he walked straight forward, walked up to the first person he met, took a deep breath, and said ,"Hello."

After speaking, Joan noticed that what he stopped was a beautiful lady in a red dress. Seeing her hurrying, she should be in a hurry to go to an appointment.

People who are too busy will definitely refuse their own conversations. Joan regrets a little, regrets that he did not observe carefully on the spur of the moment, regrets that he was too reckless, and before he finished regretting, the lady in the skirt asked, "Hello, what's the matter?" ?"

Joan was a little panicked. He took a sharp breath and wanted to speak, but he hiccupped in fright.

Joan: "..."

The woman was also taken aback, and then said with a smile, "Don't worry, just say what you want."

"I, I think..." Joan got stuck when he said two words, he took a breath in his mouth, and his face was puffed up. Doing so would tense the muscles of the face, and let the air out later , you can achieve facial relaxation.

Although the lady was a little anxious, she still waited patiently for Joan to speak.

"Excuse me, where is East Street..." Joan finally said it, his face flushed, and he looked at the lady in red, feeling uneasy.

"Over there." The lady in red pointed the direction to Joan. Before Joan could thank her, the lady left.

Joan watched the lady go farther and farther, and when she was too far away to see, she walked back under the big tree silently. He squatted at the corner of the tree, hugging his knees.

There were still people coming and going in the square, no one noticed the young man squatting under the big tree, and no one cared how much courage it took him just now to walk up to a stranger and speak.

Everything was the same as usual, just an ordinary day.

Joan squatted under the tree, covered his mouth after a long time and let out a sob. His eyes were slightly moist, but his face seemed more determined.

He sniffed and stood up again.After the first time, it will be much easier to do the second time.

He walked forward again and stopped the first passerby he met. His voice trembled indistinctly, but his words were clear and forceful.

It was the second, and then there was the third, and then the fourth.

There is also a future.

The author has something to say:

Lu Yihang: I am not included in today's book, but I know you will always remember me

Joan: Mmmmmmmm, you're the one with the big face.

Notes of Lu's Beloved Wife 66

The future is a future with you and me.

emmmmm, what I'm talking about is the plot point~ about the car, we are Qingshuiwen~