Solitary

"Would you like to come and eat with me?"

When Lin Shu lay on the table unable to hold back her tears, her phone vibrated, and it was He Jiqing who sent another WeChat message, along with a photo of the table full of delicious food.Lin Shu recognized the dishes on the table. It seemed that there were sweet and sour pork ribs, which was his favorite dish.He replied almost without hesitation: "Yes."

"I'll pick you up." He Jiqing said.

Lin Shu replied quickly: "No, I'll take a taxi there." He thought, it would be faster this way.

He Jiqing took a deep breath and wandered around downstairs, not knowing what to do.Until I saw myself in the mirror, unkempt, like a homeless man.Startled, he ran upstairs quickly, rushed into the bathroom, wet his face, applied shaving cream faster than usual, picked up the manual razor, and shaved his side cheeks and chin carefully but quickly .He didn't have time to wait for the cold water to run out, and he had already taken off his clothes and stood under the current.The cold water hit the body, and the skin was irritated with goose bumps.He Jiqing faced the water on his back, until the water became warm and his restless heart completely calmed down.He began to smile, the corners of his mouth rising uncontrollably.He took a shower as quickly as possible, quickly dried his body, dried his hair, and changed into clean home clothes.He kept picking up his phone midway, for fear of missing any message from Lin Shu.

It took Lin Shu less than 5 minutes to run from the study room of Wentian Pavilion to the place where he can take a taxi on Xikang Road.After getting in the taxi and seeing the pull-back shoes on his feet, he began to regret that he should go back to the dormitory and change clothes.He turns on his phone and checks himself in the selfie lens, with oily hair and a new zit on his chin.He looked down and found that the army green padded jacket he had worn several times had dirt rubbed against his chest. He was actually wearing cotton wool trousers today, and the edges of the uppers of the pull-back shoes had turned yellow.He regretted not going back to the dormitory to take a shower and change clothes, but he didn't regret taking a taxi to He Jiqing's home.He raised his arm and sniffed the cuffs, then pulled off the cotton jacket and sniffed the neckline. Fortunately, there was no unpleasant smell.

He sent He Jiqing a WeChat message.

"I got a taxi," he said.

He Jiqing said, "Okay."

He said: "The driver is an aunt from Nanjing."

He Jiqing replied: "Yes."

He said: "I encountered a traffic jam as soon as I set off."

He Jiqing said, "Yes."

He said, "I have arrived at Xiaolingwei."

He Jiqing said, "Not bad."

"It's blocked again," he said.

He Jiqing replied: "Yes."

He said, "I have arrived in Xianlin."

He Jiqing said, "Okay."

He Jiqing replied very shortly and quickly, which made Lin Shu feel at ease.

After the car passed through the streets crowded with students in Xianlin University Town, the middle-aged female driver said, "We're almost there."

Lin Shu told He Jiqing, "I'm almost there."

After He Jiqing finally calmed down, his heart became confused again.He rearranged the dishes on the table, and took out the celadon rice bowls and pine handmade chopsticks he brought back from Japan last year.He dug out the expensive red wine given by his friend, and felt that Chinese food was not suitable for drinking, so he put the wine back.He suddenly found a dirty spot on the chest of his clothes, about the size of a small fingernail, and it had been washed to a light level. He didn't even have time to change his shoes, so he rushed back upstairs with bare feet, and changed into another set that he didn't usually wear. White loungewear.Standing in front of the mirror, he always felt that the white color seemed a bit too dazzling.

The courtyard doorbell rang, a drawn-out jingle.

He Jiqing took a deep breath, went downstairs slowly, and slowly pressed the button to open the door.He stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows and watched the side door next to the main door open in a mechanical slow motion.

The person standing at the door did not come in immediately.He Jiqing watched him squat down from the surveillance camera, as if he had re-laced his shoes, and got up again to straighten his clothes with his head bowed.Lin Shumai, who was so nervous that he bit his lower lip, came in. He saw him from a distance, and he stopped at the door again, slowly raised his arm and waved to him.

He waved at him too.

Lin Shu stepped on the lawn and walked in. He found that the lights in the yard were turned on, and the shadows of two maple trees spread on the grass, and the maple leaves seemed to be redder.There are maple leaves floating on the surface of the pool, and the light at the bottom of the pool illuminates the whole pool in a warm orange color. The reflection of the maple leaves shines through the clear pool water, falling on the bottom of the pool and rippling with the wind.

He Jiqing stood in front of the French window and watched him.He walked slowly, and finally came to the door. The door was half open, and he entered the room and took off his shoes.

He Jiqing came over, today he was wearing a white home clothes, the same pair of gold-rimmed glasses, his half-length hair was tied behind his head, he looked like a commercial star.

He put the rebound shoes he took off on the shoe rack.

He Jiqing asked him: "Wouldn't it be cold to wear these shoes?"

He put on light-colored house slippers, and said in a small voice, "It's a bit cold."

"But I'm used to it. My hometown is not cold in winter." He added.

"Where is your hometown?" He Jiqing asked.

"In Fujian, there is a place called Dongshan Island." Lin Shu told him.Although his Mandarin has been practiced and his pronunciation is accurate, his accent still has the softness unique to the southern Fujian region.

He Jiqing liked this soft tone, it sounded very gentle.He tilted his head slightly, and repeated in doubt: "Dongshan Island?"

"It's a small island, many people don't know about it." Lin Shu smiled sheepishly.

He Jiqing also laughed, he had been to Fujian, but he really didn't know about this place.But he had silently remembered the name of Dongshan Island in his heart, which was Lin Shu's hometown, and he thought it must be a beautiful place.

Lin Shu took off the backpack on his back, looked at He Jiqing and whispered, "I'm hungry."

He's here for dinner, with his new good-looking boyfriend He Jiqing.He can't wait.

He Jiqing nodded: "Me too."

The two of them walked in together. Lin Shu walked beside He Jiqing and found that he had just reached his neck. He could see his ears half covered by his hair. They had a nice silhouette. The earlobes looked soft and there were no ears on them. Hole.

"How much taller than 1.8 meters are you?" He remembered the friend post he wrote on Douban, he said he was taller than 1.8 meters.

He Jiqing looked down at him, and replied hesitantly, "9 centimeters."

Lin Shu said "oh", He Jiqing said, "My parents are not tall."

"Then why are you so tall?" Lin Shu looked up at him with envy and admiration in his eyes.

He Jiqing thought back seriously: "Probably, I drank a lot of milk when I was in elementary school."

After he finished speaking, he laughed. Lin Shu looked at his smiling face, and the sense of unreality that had been forcibly suppressed finally invaded him without any resistance. He couldn't figure out why such a good-looking person would agree to be his boyfriend.

He Jiqing saw the sudden worry and doubt in his eyes, and asked him, "What's wrong?"

Lin Shu lowered his head and replied, "Nothing."

The dishes on the table have been reheated.Three dishes and one soup, blue porcelain plates lined up in a row.At the end, there is a small vase with a thick round waist, and a maple leaf branch is inserted in it, with sparse red maple leaves hanging on it.

He Jiqing served Lin Shu rice in a blue porcelain bowl. Lin Shu took the rice bowl and found that there were light smoke-like lines on the bowl, and delicate and delicate patterns were engraved on the place where the fingers of the chopsticks were held together.

He Jiqing sat across from him.

"Why don't you eat?" he asked.

Lin Shu put a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs into his mouth, the outside was charred and the inside was tender, and the taste was sweet and sour.

He Jiqing watched the dark sauce stain the corner of the boy's mouth, the boy stuck out half of his tongue and carefully licked it away.

Lin Shu blushed gradually when he saw it.

"You, you eat." He urged.

He Jiqing picked up the chopsticks and picked up a spare rib for him.Lin Shu thanked in a low voice, put it in his mouth carefully, and observed He Jiqing who was opposite him while eating.

He Jiqing's gesture of grasping the chopsticks was very standard, and his chewing movements were very small.He also picked up the sweet and sour pork ribs, chewed the meat gracefully, and picked up the extra bones with his chopsticks and put them on the flat plate for the leftovers.

"Is it delicious?" He Jiqing met his scrutinizing gaze.

Lin Shu nodded again and again: "It's delicious."

He Jiqing smiled: "My brother's craftsmanship is recognized by the whole family as good."

Lin Shu was surprised: "You didn't do it?"

He Jiqing smiled and shook his head: "No, I'm not good at cooking."

Lin Shu thought that he would start to learn how to cook.

After finishing their meal, the two stood side by side in the kitchen to tidy up.Lin Shu was in charge of washing the dishes, and He Jiqing was in charge of drying them, obviously there was a dishwasher imported from Germany next to them.

Neither of them spoke, Lin Shu looked at He Jiqing secretly, he didn't seem to have any intention of asking him why he suddenly said those words on WeChat, didn't he think it was strange.

After washing a bowl, he handed it to He Jiqing.When he took the bowl, he smiled at him.

Lin Shu's heart was beating wildly again, and he asked in a daze of excitement, "Why didn't you ask me anything and just agreed to me?"

He saw that He Jiqing stopped cleaning the dishes, turned around to look at him, and asked slowly: "Then why do you want to fall in love with me?"

Lin Shu looked at his pretty face and serious eyes, and answered him in his heart: "Because I don't want to leave regrets, I want to create a good memory." He will spend the rest of his life relying on this memory.

He was very sad, and also felt that he was despicable. He didn't have the courage to tell He Jiqing the truth.Before making such a bold, arrogant, and selfish request, he had already thought of many ways, such as telling He Jiqing straightforwardly that he would fall in love with him until the end of senior year.In other words, sign a love contract with a time limit, during the contract period, no matter what he does to him is fine.However, he couldn't offer reciprocal terms in exchange, He Jiqing looked so outstanding and perfect, he even dared to say those requests with the heart that he would definitely be rejected.If he told the truth, He Jiqing would definitely reject him without hesitation, and even think he was sick.

He is so good, he must have been in a lot of relationships a long time ago, it is probably not difficult for him to end a fruitless relationship, he will soon have a new lover and love, and he will have a good life in the future.He is different, he only has this one chance.Therefore, it probably doesn't matter if he is selfish, and it doesn't matter if he doesn't tell the truth, anyway, He Jiqing will soon forget him.

"I think you are a very nice person, and I want to give it a try. I didn't expect you to agree." Lin Shu also spoke the truth.

He Jiqing smiled softly, Lin Shu looked at the corners of his raised mouth, and silently recorded the curvature of his mouth with his eyes.

"I think you're very nice too. I want to fall in love with you." He Jiqing looked at him and answered seriously. How much he wanted to tell him frankly that he was the first one to take the initiative to be his boyfriend.No one has ever done that before, or even said anything like it.Many people say they like him, but no one approaches him.

Lin Shu secretly made up his mind that before this relationship ended, he must treat He Jiqing very, very well, because he was worth it.At the same time, he also selfishly hopes that with these insignificant benefits, he can make up for a little bit of the mistakes he has made.