See Nanshan leisurely

The first snow of the year came quietly.

It's not the fluttering snow, but the fine snow like salt grains, caught in the cold wind, blowing towards the face, carrying the accumulated chill of this winter, making people shiver.

Chen Youran became sober instead.

In fact, there is nothing to say about this kind of thing, it is nothing more than a choice made by one who is willing to fight or suffer.Even if they were her biological parents, she couldn't control their thoughts.But no matter what, there is still some unspeakable melancholy and sadness in my heart.

However, these thoughts finally made her sober, and also made her realize that her emotions were of no help.

So Chen Youran stopped, "Let's go buy something to eat." She took the initiative to say, "It's been a night of trouble, and everyone hasn't eaten yet. We can forget about it ourselves. Auntie and uncle are busy, things are all They can't even eat a bite of their food."

She babbled at length, as if she was talking to Lan Shan and Chen Yanran, but more like she was talking to herself.

Chen Yanran didn't refute it. For her, the matter of her mother's childbirth finally changed from imagination to reality, and it was not without impact.She was still emotionally immersed in that atmosphere at the moment, and couldn't get away, so naturally she couldn't take into account the surrounding environment.

Lan Shan nodded and said, "It should."

So the three of them walked forward for a while.There are many food shops on the street in front of the county hospital. After all, the patients living here need to eat. Although the hospital has a canteen, the taste and nutrition cannot keep up.And as long as there is a market, there will naturally be people who see business opportunities and open stores here.

Chen Youran chose a home-cooked restaurant and walked in.She first ordered two dishes to eat in the store, and Lan Shan noticed that one was her favorite, and the other was Chen Yanran's favorite.Even at this time, Chen Youran did not forget to take care of others.I ordered two more to take away, and took them back for other people to eat. These two are hard dishes. After all, I don’t know what the other party likes, so I naturally bought better ones.

After ordering, the sisters fell into silence.

Lan Shan looked at this and then at that, but couldn't say anything comforting for a moment, thought for a while, stood up and walked into the kitchen, and discussed with the boss and cook for a while in a low voice.

It wasn't until the meal was finished silently, and when she went to check out to get the takeaway box, that Chen Youran discovered that there was an extra serving of brown sugar eggs.There is no doubt that this is for pregnant women.

Nowadays, supplies are scarce, and the only good things patients in the hospital can eat are meat and eggs, so these shops have a business of helping boil eggs. Lan Shan ordered a brown sugar egg.After all, Lin Xiuying is the hardest one today, and also the one who needs nourishment the most.

Chen Youran glanced at Lan Shan, grateful in her heart, but said nothing on her face, and went out with the box.

Lan Shan looked at her worriedly. It seemed that everything was going well for Chen Youran, but Lan Shan could feel that her mood was not high and she was always tense.Presumably, she was also greatly affected by this incident, but it was not easy to show it, and she didn't know when she would be able to recover.

After coming out of the shop, she walked beside Chen Youran, and lightly touched her arm as a comfort.

Seeing her worrying about herself so much, Chen Youran felt a little relieved, and said in a low voice, "Don't worry, let's deal with the matter at hand first."

Back at the hospital, everyone in the ward was still busy. Seeing that they had ordered food, my aunt and uncle breathed a sigh of relief and started eating.Chen Boping was more silent than usual, and he didn't seem to have any appetite. He picked up two chopsticks and put it down, and took out his wallet to give Chen Youran money.

On the contrary, when Lin Xiuying saw the brown sugar eggs brought back by Chen Youran, a sense of relief suddenly appeared in her eyes.After all, it is a girl who is caring and considers her needs at this time. How can other people have such thoughts?

Fortunately, she didn't say this, otherwise Chen Yanran would have pushed her back with just one word.

What happened to the sweetness of the girls?After all, if you are not a boy, you don't have any extra things, you don't have the ability to carry on the family line, so you are naturally inferior, so what's the use of caring?

In order to raise this baby, Lin Xiuying lived in the city for more than half a year, and lived in her aunt's house. She didn't have to worry about anything, just raising her. So this baby was raised very well, and she was born fat for nothing. Fat, weighing a whole catty, very auspicious.

Naturally, such a strong child does not need additional care from the hospital, so the nurse sent back the cleaned child after a while, and asked the parents to feed some water at their discretion, so that they can breastfeed tomorrow.

My aunt and uncle had finished their meal and were standing by the bed to amuse the children.Although the child's eyes were not opened, adults seemed to have a natural affection for children. The more my aunt saw the child, the more she liked him, and she kept praising him.

There is only one in her own family, and she has grown into a demon king. Naturally, she wants a daughter in her heart, and occasionally envies Lin Xiuying.But seeing her go to such lengths for a son, I can't help but feel cold for her, and I don't know exactly what's on her mind.

After teasing for a long time, she finally asked, "By the way, have you decided on the child's name?"

Chen Boping said casually, "The number Jin is so auspicious, let's call it Jin."

"What nonsense are you talking about? How can a girl be called that name!" the aunt scolded.

Seeing her looking at her, Lin Xiuying said hastily, "Oh, didn't you say it was snowing outside just now? I was so scared that it was Mi Kexue. If so, the child's nickname might as well be Mi Kexue, which just fits the occasion."

Occasionally!Chen Youran was listening by the side, her heart skipped a beat, and she almost laughed outright.What kind of name is that?When it snows outside, it is called snow, and when it rains, it is called rain. If it is really a knife, does it have to be called a knife?It's still about parents and mothers, so perfunctory.

Does she have to be grateful that Lin Xiuying didn't look forward to her son so much when she was born, so she didn't just give herself a name to prevaricate?

Just from this casual name, it can be seen that although the two parents seem to be looking forward to this child, they probably haven't really put their heart into it.

——Maybe they did it with care, but they were all boys' names, which were not suitable for this child.

It wasn't until then that Chen Youran knew what she was sad about.Not for myself, not for the future, not for Chen Boping and Lin Xiuying, but for this infant child.

A girl, just born, it is doomed that her parents will not love her.

This family has become unrecognizable now, and everything may be what people like them should suffer.But this child is different, she is innocent, she has just been born, she doesn't know anything, she doesn't understand what kind of fate she is about to face, so Chen Youran feels sorry for her.

The birth of this child is actually not worth worrying about, because this is just the beginning of all the troubles.

But life is full of helplessness. Chen Youran felt sorry for her, but she didn't have the ability to help her, so she struggled and tried to save herself.

Lin Xiuying had a normal delivery and was discharged after staying in the hospital for two days.

She can't stand the wind now, confinement is still sitting at her aunt's house.Lan Shan and Chen Yanran were going to class, and this kind of thing was bullshit, so Chen Youran didn't ask them to worry about it. He rode his bike back and forth between Yun County and Wu Town every day, just doing his best.

Not for Lin Xiuying, but for the child who was neglected by her and often couldn't even get enough milk.

After Lin Xiuying was discharged from the hospital, Chen Boping started racing again, and never returned home at night.Was it really so busy that she didn't have time to come back, or did she go to another house, so she couldn't take care of this side? Maybe Lin Xiuying had already guessed in her heart?

The emotions of pregnant women after giving birth are inherently unstable, not to mention the reality is so bad, how can Lin Xiuying care about the child?What's more, Mi Kexue is well-raised, with a strong body and unlimited energy, and she howls loudly at every turn, which is really annoying.

Fortunately, my aunt is a full-time housewife, and she doesn't need to go out to work. She can also help take care of the child so that she won't really abuse the child.

Several times, Chen Youran actually wanted to say that she took the child away.But she is very clear that she is totally incapable of giving this child a normal living environment, and she doesn't know how to take care of the child. Taking it away will harm her, and she can only hold back.

It's just that every time I come to my aunt's house, I will buy more things, such as clothes, shoes and socks, diapers, milk powder for children, and supplements for adults.It made my aunt feel embarrassed, but she couldn't help but sigh in her heart. The parents are unreliable, and the child grows up quickly. The little girl who is not yet twenty has already started to worry about these things.

Thinking about it this way, I feel more pity.

A month passed quickly, and Lin Xiuying couldn't live in her aunt's house all the time, so she had to go back to Wuzhen.

The child had already been born, and Chen Boping went to the town government to pay a fine of 2000 yuan, and then completely exposed the matter.The child is full moon, and it stands to reason that we should make some arrangements and entertain relatives and friends to come and see.But in the current situation of the Chen family, the couple are not enthusiastic about this matter, so they just informed relatives and friends who are close to each other, and asked them to come and see Lin Xiuying and the child. There are no banquets.

Even so, Lin Xiuying's face was gloomy from the beginning to the end, and she obviously didn't like this child, which made the relatives feel unavoidable.

It's like fighting for your life to have a son, isn't it a fight?There is no life without a son, and no matter how much effort is spent, it is just another girl.

They didn't say this in person, but Lin Xiuying could guess, and her heart became more and more unhappy, and she didn't even like looking after her children.Sometimes when the child is hungry and cries, she just looks at it indifferently, but she doesn't reach out to hug her at all, and she doesn't intend to feed her.

Chen Youran met with her a few times, and then she simply put the child by her side and made milk powder for her to drink, so as not to make her suffer.

Sometimes Chen Youran thinks about it, and feels that maybe from this moment on, this child is doomed to be so wronged and restrained in the growth process, and always...not to be on the stage.

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When Lin Xiuying came back, Lan Shan planned to move out from the Chen family, but was stopped by Chen Yanran desperately, as if I couldn't live if you left.Chen Youran didn't put on such an exaggerated attitude, but just followed her all the time, guarding against her suddenly packing up and leaving, and expressing all kinds of hints to tell her to stay at ease.

Lan Shan's bed was given up to her roommate long ago, and now she can only squeeze in with others when she moves back. She doesn't have her own bed to sleep in, so Chen Youran will naturally not agree.

It is better to squeeze with yourself than to squeeze with others.

Fortunately, Lin Xiuying really didn't care. When Chen Youran said it, she answered casually and took the matter over.

Later, I saw that Lan Shan was the cook at home, and her dishes were so delicious that even my aunt who was good at it couldn't compare to her, let alone Lin Xiuying, who had half a bottle of water.After enjoying the appetite, naturally he would not say anything more, anyway, he just stayed at home and had an extra mouth.

In the past, Lin Xiuying lived in Yunxian County. First, it was convenient to travel nearby. Second, she needed to take care of her child while she was pregnant. Whenever Chen Boping rested, he would always visit her.Now that he returned to Wuzhen, it was obviously his home, but he came less often.

With Lin Xiuying's current situation and not being able to go to him, she became more and more anxious every day. Lan Shan would occasionally hear her lose her temper with the sisters.

That night, Lan Shan drank too much water and got up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet.As soon as he walked through the door, he heard voices coming from outside.Listening carefully, it turned out that Chen Boping came back and was talking to Lin Xiuying.

The couple hadn't seen each other for a long time, but when they met, they had resentment towards each other.Lin Xiuying complained that Chen Boping had been away from home during this time and didn't care about the children at all. Chen Boping said that he was very busy with business and did this for the family, but Lin Xiuying didn't understand him.

The two insisted on their own words, and both were a little impatient with each other, and their voices became louder and louder.

Naturally it was inconvenient to go out at this time, so Lan Shan had to stand at the door and passively listened to the quarrel.

But in such quarrels, Lin Xiuying can never take advantage.Because she hasn't worked since she got married, although she looks at the store at home, this store was also opened by Chen Boping with money.Living dependent on her husband, she naturally has no right to speak at home.

So at the end of the quarrel, seeing that Chen Boping got really angry and was about to slam the door to leave, she subconsciously softened again and began to beg.

In the beginning, it was just reminiscing about the old relationship, and then pulling out the child to play the family card, and then it gradually became unseemly, with self-pity, accusation and sorrow, "I know you just blame me for not having a son, don't you? I also There is no way, do I want to have a daughter? This kind of thing is not my problem, if you can't give birth, you can't rely on me!"

"When did I say it was for this?" Chen Boping said impatiently, "You are not in good health, so you should rest more and don't think about what you have."

"I'll have another one when I take care of my body, and the next one will definitely be a son!" Lin Xiuying turned a deaf ear to his words, already a little dazed, and said to herself, "Even if the next one is not, the next one will definitely be. People It is said that if the first two give birth to daughters, then a table full of four-legged girls will be born to have a son. I have already given birth to three, and the next two will definitely give birth to a son!"

"What kind of bastard talk is this? I think you are crazy!" Even if you want a son like Chen Boping, you will subconsciously feel uncomfortable when you hear this, "They say I am not for this, don't think too much. things are busy..."

"What's the matter?!" Lin Xiuying was hysterical, "Isn't it just that the little bitch outside gave birth to a son for you, do you think I really don't know?"

Hearing this sentence, Lan Shan almost regretted that she woke up at this time.This kind of private talk is obviously not suitable for outsiders to hear. She turned around quickly, but she saw at a glance that Chen Youran on the bed had woken up at some point, and was sitting on the bed in a daze.

She heard it, and Lan Shan knew it.

This kind of thing is unimaginable.Only when those words from the closest relatives are turned into knives and pierced in the heart one by one, can you feel the breathless pain.

How sad she must be now!

Lan Shan walked back subconsciously, climbed onto the bed, and stretched out her hand to hug Chen Youran into her arms.

Soon she noticed that the small piece of fabric against Chen Youran's eyes was getting wet gradually.Her body trembled slightly, but she tried her best to endure it without making any sound, because she couldn't let the two people outside find out, and she didn't want to show her embarrassed side to Lan Shan.