Ask for peace of mind

Xu Wei'an still feels uncomfortable, but he won't show it in front of the old lady.He doesn't need to do things like wipe the old lady's body, and he usually does some housework.

His parents had been here a few days before the old lady was injured, and they didn't return home until the old lady came back from the town hospital.At that time, the brothers and sisters got together to discuss that each family would spend some money to see the old lady.Brothers Sun Yucai and Sun Yucheng took the big head, and the two younger sisters took the small head, but they had to go to the town to take care of them.

The wheat was harvested, and the next crop of every family had already been planted. When Xu Wei'an was free, he and Sun Yan would herd the sheep together.Although the weather was hot, the rare leisure time made him very relaxed, and he couldn't help thinking about Wendi again.

He received a letter from Wen Di yesterday.Wen Di said that he had started to start a clothing company, and joked about him and Xu Qing.Finally, I would like to warn you not to taste the forbidden fruit casually, but to respect women.

Although he still doesn't know what the forbidden fruit is, he wants to be a man like Wen Di, and he must earn enough money before finding a wife.

Xu Wei'an sat leaning against the big tree, and talked to Sun Yan who was leaning against another tree next to him, "Sister Yanzi, let's pick pagoda seed tomorrow."

Sun Yan glanced at him and scoffed, "It's for Brother Wendi again, right?"

Xu Wei'an was not happy with her attitude, but nodded anyway.

Sun Yan straightened up and pounded Xu Wei'an with the branch in her hand, "I said, why didn't you think of sending something to your cousin?"

Xu Wei'an frowned and avoided, "Brother Lin Zi doesn't like that thing. He said he only likes coffee when he came back last time. And if he really wants to take it by himself, that's fine."

"An'an, I'm not talking about you, you can't kiss outsiders and relatives like this."

"Where do I have it?" Xu Wei'an didn't like being said that.

"Every time you buy something, you always say that you don't know if brother Wen Di will like it, and you never think about your cousin." Sun Yan became angry when she thought about it.

"I asked Brother Lin before, and he said that the quality of things in small places is poor." Xu Wei'an also muttered, "He also said that I have no taste."

Sun Yan didn't hear his last words, so she raised her chin: "My brother is right."

"That's why I didn't buy it for Brother Lin, he didn't like it."

"Then you can buy a more expensive one. Last time I saw a small knife at the consignment point in the town. It looks very good and the quality is very good."

Xu Wei'an curled his lips, "It must be expensive, and I can't afford it."

Sun Yan's eyes were full of disdain, "Brother Wen Di, too, his eyes are too narrow, so he wants all things that are not up to the mark."

Xu Wei'an really wanted to get angry, "Those bamboo dragonflies and water guns are all for his nephew to play with. Brother Wen Di said that people should save money, as long as the children are happy to play, there is no need to buy all expensive toys."

Seeing his frowning, Sun Yan didn't dare to speak anymore.She stood up and patted her buttocks and said, "The sheep ran away, I'll go and have a look. I'll help you pick Huai Mi tomorrow." Then she muttered, "You're too stingy, what's the point of being angry, why don't you just say something to him?" ?”

She was a junior high school student and ate a lot of Xu Wei'an's food, and she has a soft mouth for eating people. Although she is fierce and difficult to deal with, she has gradually lost her temper on Xu Wei'an.Who made Xu Wei'an hook up with the rich Wendi? If she wants to eat good food, she can't bully Xu Wei'an too much. Xu Wei'an has also lost his temper these years.

Xu Wei'an was so angry that she even said that Brother Wendi had narrow eyes, and he had never seen anyone better than Wendi.Sometimes when he made money selling waste paper, he would go around the town, and when he saw something fresh, he would buy two copies. Take it home for younger siblings to play with.Wen Di never disliked it, and the letter said that his nephew had a great time playing, and the little guy even shouted to thank him.

Thinking of such a nice and gentle Wen Di, Xu Wei'an felt better.Forget about him, anyway, I live on my own, tomorrow I will pick pagoda seed, dry it and send it to Brother Wendi.

Sun Lin is going to be a senior at the beginning of school, and it is imminent to find a job.At that time, there were few college students, and the state was in charge of the distribution, but Sun Lin didn't want to obey the distribution.He heard from his seniors who were a year above him that although the job assigned by the state is a solid job, but living in the city, there is not much surplus in that salary throughout the year.He is not reconciled to reading books for more than ten years but not being able to improve the extremely poor living conditions of his family.He also wanted to learn from Wendi to start his own business (the two of them had correspondence), but his family did not have the ability to provide him with start-up capital, and he had no idea what he was going to do.

Sun Lin's return aroused another round of cheers.Sun Yucai is very satisfied and proud of his son. At the beginning, he wholeheartedly supported his son to go to school, but Sun Lin lived up to expectations and became the only college student in the village.In his view, his son represents the future and hope of the Sun family, and is the only straw for them to get rid of poverty.

The son has seen the big world outside, has ideas and ability, and he wants to start a business. Of course, Sun Yucai supports it, but the problem is funding.

Because the son went to school, the family has already been in debt, and the old lady's illness made the family even worse.What's more, the old lady can't get out of bed yet, and the medical expenses needed for later recuperation will definitely be a heavy burden to his family.Although his elder brother's family can give him some turnover, but Sun Yang is old enough to talk to someone, and I am afraid that there is not much that can be lent to him.His little sister Sun Yuling's family conditions are worse than his family's, so after thinking about it, he can only go to Sun Yulan's family to borrow.

The food production is not high and it is cheap. Every family does not have much spare money. A dozen or so 20 yuan change is very good.Sun Lin raised funds everywhere, borrowing from relatives and friends over and over again to raise more than 100 yuan.This made the old lady very anxious, thinking that her illness hindered her grandson's development, she felt guilty, and wished she could sacrifice her flesh to support Sun Lin's entrepreneurship.Xu Wei'an couldn't see that grandma was anxious, so he thought for a while and added the money he had saved to Wen Di, the total was more than 60 yuan, and lent it all to Sun Lin, only saying that Wen Di gave it to buy school supplies, and he was not willing to spend it , saved up.

Sun Lin accepted it without saying anything, but he couldn't help but mutter in his heart that Wen Di was really generous. With more than 200 yuan, there was nothing to be done, so Sun Lin had to follow Sun Yucai's suggestion and go to his aunt's house to borrow it.How about his aunt, Sun Yulan?At home, Sun Lin can be said to be crowned like stars and moons. Everyone in the family regards him as a treasure, but in front of Sun Yulan, he can feel that he is not welcome, which is why he is warm to Xu Wei'an. One of the reasons for not getting up.

The results of the senior high school entrance examination are coming soon. Although Xu Wei'an feels that he did well in the exam, he is still a little worried.He cut bunches of pagoda seed from the branches and spread them on the sheets made of clean snakeskin bags to dry. He wondered how much Brother Lin Zi could borrow at his home.He knew that his family didn't have much money, otherwise he wouldn't be worried about not being able to go to school.

Brother Lin Zi has been away for two days, and I don't know if he can come back this afternoon.Brother Wen Di said in his letter that he will be running around in the second half of the year, and his address is uncertain, and he may not have time to reply to his letter.I estimate that the high school entrance examination will be more than 540 points. According to the practice in previous years, I can go to No. [-] middle school. I don’t know if the score line will rise this year.Sigh, I don't know what Brother Wendi is doing, is he really that busy?You can't even come and see yourself.Xu Wei'an's thoughts were flying wildly, and for some reason, he felt a little melancholy.

In the evening, Xu Wei'an had just put away the half-dried pagoda seed when he heard Sun Yan's cry from outside the courtyard: "An'an, your high school entrance examination results are out."

Xu Wei'an's heart skipped a beat, he stood up nervously, and asked, "How many points?"

"242 points, hehe, not as much as me." Sun Yan said proudly.

Xu Wei'an was stunned and couldn't believe it. His face was pale, and he asked repeatedly: "You, what score do you say?"

"242 points." Sun Yan looked at his pale face, couldn't bear it a little bit, felt guilty for her gloating just now, but still said: "I won't lie to you, my brother said it, or you can ask him again."

Without further ado, Xu Wei'an ran out of the courtyard to his uncle's house. He didn't believe it. He obviously did well in the exam. Why his score was so low? It was definitely not his score.

"Brother Lin Zi, me, how many points did I get?" Xu Wei'an asked anxiously, running into the yard without being out of breath.

Sun Lin, who was cleaning the yard, dropped the wooden pole in his hand, and said with an unnatural expression: "242 points." Seeing that Xu Wei'an's face was pale and precarious, he turned his head as if to resist the turbulent guilt in his heart, hesitated and said: "An'an , I know that you may not be satisfied with your scores, and neither are your parents, but they promised me that they will support you to repeat your studies, and you still have a chance to go to school."

Xu Wei'an didn't know how he got back to the old house. He sat beside his grandmother's bed, but couldn't say a word.He felt his years of hard work as a joke, laughing at his wishful thinking.But he was not reconciled, he obviously felt good, what went wrong.

He wanted to cry, but his eyes were sore and painful, and he couldn't shed a single tear.He wanted to talk, to talk about his grievances and pains, but his throat was so dry that he couldn't utter a single word.His heart ached, but he couldn't beat his chest enough to suppress it, because his whole body had lost all strength.He could only press his chest, howling dryly with a hoarse voice, howling his despair for the confused future.

The old lady probably heard Sun Yan's words, and when she saw him looking like the sky was falling, tears flowed from her heart, she hugged him in her arms and stroked his back over and over again. "An An, be good, it's not uncomfortable, we are not uncomfortable..."

Xu Wei'an nestled in the old lady's arms, clutching her skirt with both hands, still howling.

The old lady didn't know what to do, so she hugged him and shed tears.

During the rest of the summer vacation, Xu Wei'an lived in a daze. Except for the things he was going to send to Wen Di, he either herded the sheep or was in a daze every day.Sun Yan couldn't see his lifeless appearance, and didn't want to stay with him.So either shepherd the sheep alone, or play with Sun Kai next door.

Sitting on the meadow where Wen Di once stayed together, Xu Wei'an hugged his legs, buried his face in his knees, tried to recall the time with Wen Di, and wanted the warmth to wrap his confused and helpless self.But when I looked up, there was only the wind and myself on the quiet river slope.

He knew that he had no chance, and with his score, even if his parents agreed to let him repeat for a year, his grandma would not agree, and in order to avoid family disputes, his father would definitely not allow him to study again.

Blinking his sore eyes, he thought about writing a letter to Wen Di.Wen Di will definitely support him to go to school, but how can he explain his poor grades.Xu Wei'an shook his head, he didn't want to think about it anymore, he decided to tell Wen Di the truth, and let Wen Di decide whether to help him or not.

Two weeks before the end of the summer vacation, he wrote a letter to Wen Di and asked Sun Lin, who had returned to school after the summer vacation early, to send it out.He waited anxiously day and night for Wen Di's reply, but after Sun Yan had reported to the Fifth Middle School, he still hadn't received Wen Di's reply.