deep love

On the second day, Qingqiu got up very early, because her work was over, she could go to bed early and get up early, and went to bed before ten o'clock last night.

She didn't need to go out, she had a plain face, and she was half-lying on the back of the recliner by the French window in the living room, with a laptop on her lap, watching TV dramas leisurely.

When Shi Honglang and Tang Jinghui came back from their morning exercise, they saw Shi Qingqiu like this, a rare leisure.The two elders were sitting on the sofa, one was reading the newspaper and the other was peeling an apple. Shi Qingqiu also turned off the computer and was about to go back to the room to read it again, when Tang Jinghui spoke.

"Qingqiu."

"Mom, what's wrong?" Shi Qingqiu asked in confusion.

Shi Honglang's glasses slipped down the bridge of his nose, he looked up from behind the newspaper to see the mother and daughter, as if he was waiting for the next conversation.

Tang Jinghui still hesitated about what she was about to say, but after all, it was about her daughter, especially after a few years, she was afraid that her daughter would think about it again, but she had to mention it.

"It's been so long, haven't you fallen in love with anyone?" Tang Jinghui took the peeled apple and sat close to the edge of the sofa, and handed it to Shi Qingqiu, with a worried look on her face.

"Why do you ask that..." Shi Qingqiu twitched the corners of his mouth, and withdrew his hand that was about to pull out the charger, took the apple and sat there quietly, looking at Tang Jinghui.

What happened several years ago was suddenly touched, Shi Qingqiu couldn't recover, and didn't know what to say for a while.How can it be so easy to fall in love with someone again?Every time she thinks that maybe the beginning is the end, she feels that there is no need to struggle if this is the case, but if there is even the slightest possibility of an unsatisfactory end, she doesn't need to devote any more effort.

It's been like this for the past few years. How could there be no one who likes her? It's just that she no longer has a heart, and she doesn't want to. When it is possible, she will stop the loss in time, so why do you like her?

Tang Jinghui touched Shi Qingqiu's head, sighed and said: "I know you don't like us always bringing you and Qinghan together, we have recognized each other for so many years, and it is not necessary for you two to be together But Qingqiu, people always have to look forward, it is impossible to stay in the past forever, and if that person wants to come back, she has already come back..."

She had no choice but to tell the truth that Qingqiu didn't want to face in the past. If a person wants to stay, then thousands of reasons cannot make her leave.Even if he left, six years had passed, if he wanted to come back, he should have appeared long ago.

How many six years can a person spend in his life?She watched Shi Qingqiu step into the entertainment industry after Qi Yue left, and after graduation, he was so busy that he couldn't see the end. Six years was really enough.

Shi Qingqiu froze for a moment, looking at his parents' concerned faces, his nose felt sore for a moment.Recalling that year when Qi Yue suddenly disappeared, she frantically called and asked every friend she knew, but no one knew or understood.

She seemed to have lost her soul and stopped taking half a step at home. Tang Jinghui hugged her and comforted her distressedly. She cried so much that she lost herself and couldn't say a word.Because she didn't know what she did wrong, so wrong that Qi Yue disappeared without a trace.

Shi Qingqiu, who was so eye-catching, attracted so many people, just because of Qi Yue who suddenly appeared in his life, he couldn't eat.In the first few weeks, many nights she dreamed that Qi Yue said in a gentle tone: "Qingqiu, I'm back, I'm not leaving, have you forgotten what I said? I won't abandon you .”

Shi Qingqiu stretched out his arms to embrace Qi Yue, and whispered her name next to Qi Yue's ear with a begging expression that he had never shown before: "Xiaoyue, Xiaoyue..."

But when Qingqiu opened her eyes, apart from the sweat and tears on the pillow and the sharp pain in her heart, she didn't get anything from Qi Yue.

Up to now, she can't even remember Qi Yue's appearance clearly, and even the initial pain in her heart has been blurred by the passage of time, or perhaps numb.If it hurts for a long time, it will indeed be numb.

Shi Qingqiu suddenly felt guilty, tightened his fingers holding the apple, and said in a low voice: "I know, Mom, I know, if I want to come back, I would have come back..."

Tang Jinghui shook her head, holding Shi Qingqiu's wrist holding Apple, she didn't know what to say.

Shi Qingqiu laughed suddenly, his eyes were a little red, and he put the computer aside with his other hand and put it on Tang Jinghui's wrist and comforted him: "But Mom, you think too much, I don't even know her appearance." I can't remember, but now I really don't have anyone I like. As for Qinghan, maybe nothing will happen between me and her."

Tang Jinghui nodded, and said with some regret: "After all, we watched Qinghan grow up, and we have known you for so many years, but there has been no progress for such a long time, and parents can't force him .As long as you stop thinking about the past, your parents will be relieved."

"I know, I made my parents worry." Shi Qingqiu raised the corners of his mouth, and without saying anything, he ate the apple given by Tang Jinghui bit by bit.

She is very satisfied with her current life, there is no relationship that needs to be maintained, and she does not want any changes.The relationship between Wen Qinghan and her has always been so ordinary, which invisibly provides a kind of guarantee, that is, they will not leave each other one day.

It's easy for a friend to develop into a lover, but it's no longer easy to go back from being a lover to being a friend. Why bother?

Thinking of Wen Qinghan, Shi Qingqiu hesitated whether to call her or not. It should be time to go to work, so just send a message.When Shi Qingqiu returned to the room and wanted to send Wen Qinghan a WeChat message, he just clicked on it and saw a profile picture jump to the top, it was Yao Rui's message.

"Are you at home? Want to go out for a drink and chat."

Shi Qingqiu thought about it, maybe it had been a long time, so he replied "OK", and then did not contact Wen Qinghan, and went out after telling his parents at noon.

Yao Rui was Shi Qingqiu's college classmate, and the relationship between the two of them was very good during college.Yao Rui knew about what happened during Shi Qingqiu's university days, and it was she who found out from other people that Qi Yue left City B and went abroad, otherwise Shi Qingqiu would still be kept in the dark without knowing why Qi Yue suddenly disappeared.

When Shi Qingqiu arrived at the appointed place, Yao Rui had already arrived ahead of time, and he stretched out his hand to greet Shi Qingqiu, who was wearing sunglasses, to come over, and then motioned for the waiter to come over, and the two ordered coffee.

Yao Rui is a relatively petite girl, so even though she is the same age as Shi Qingqiu, she still seems to be a year or two younger.But in fact, it was ahead of Shi Qingqiu. Two years ago, she married her boyfriend who had been dating for many years, and now she is a full-time wife at home.

"Qingqiu, when did you come back? Isn't the schedule very tight?" Yao Rui asked with a smile while stirring the coffee.

"I just came back yesterday. I wanted to rest for two days before looking for you, but I didn't think about it just now." Shi Qingqiu breathed a sigh of relief, took a sip of coffee, put down the cup and asked, "Why did you suddenly ask me to come out for a drink today?" Something? Is there anything you want to talk about?"

Thinking that there seems to be nothing interesting happening around them recently, Shi Qingqiu couldn't help being curious, why did she suddenly invite herself out to chat?

When Yao Rui heard Qingqiu's question, she pursed her lips and seemed to be thinking about something. She tapped the body of the cup lightly with her fingertips, smiled suddenly, and shook her head, "What can there be? It's just that we haven't seen each other for a long time. You are done."

As soon as the joke started, the atmosphere became much lighter in an instant, but Yao Rui was still thinking about whether to speak or not.

Yao Rui made the joke, Shi Qingqiu didn't think about it any more, raised his hand to pinch the small spoon in the cup, the smile gradually receded from his bright eyes, looked at Yao Rui after a while, and said: "In that case, let me take this opportunity to tell you about me."

The matter between her and Wen Qinghan will be made public sooner or later. After all, Yao Rui is a friend who is closer to her, so she should know in advance.

"Tell me." Yao Rui frowned, her intuition was not a trivial matter, otherwise Shi Qingqiu shouldn't be so serious, and it happened that after hearing it, she could consider whether to tell Shi Qingqiu what she knew.

"I registered my marriage with Qinghan, just half a month ago."

Qingqiu never regretted the matter of registering her marriage, nor did she have any extra thoughts, so her voice was extraordinarily calm, as if she was explaining a very ordinary and trivial matter.

She was calm, but Yao Rui was not.As soon as she finished speaking, the spoon in Yao Rui's hand slipped out of her hand, and it collided with the ceramic coffee cup, making a crisp sound that was not harsh but very clear.

"What did you say? Are you married? Do uncles and aunts know about this? Why did you suddenly get married?" Yao Rui stood up suddenly in surprise, and her tone was a little anxious. Ever since she met Shi Qingqiu, her throat was blocked. I can't even speak a single word.

When Shi Qingqiu is married, Yao Rui is not sure if she still wants to know what she heard.

Shi Qingqiu looked around amusedly, but fortunately there were not many people there, so he looked up at her again, reached out to hold her arm and said, "Xiao Rui, sit down first, and let me tell you slowly."

Yao Rui had no choice but to sit back again, stabilized her emotions, clasped her hands on the table, and planned to listen to what Shi Qingqiu had to say.

Shi Qingqiu leaned back on the chair, looked at the bustling scene outside the window, felt how small she was in the world, and at the same time raised the corners of her lips, and the low words drifted from her lightly opened lips to Yao Rui's ears Zhong: "Don't worry, I didn't get angry, and I don't regret it now."

She looked back at Yao Rui, and said softly: "Qinghan and I have known each other since childhood, and it is most suitable for us to be together. You see so many people come and go, has she ever changed? Even if we are friends , but who can assert that friends cannot get along for a lifetime?"

She spoke lightly, her eyes were calm, she had no love, she just spent time together.

Yao Rui tried to see a trace of regret or expectation in her eyes, but there was none.It was as silent and lifeless as stagnant water whose source had been cut off.

"Qingqiu, aren't you waiting?" Yao Rui still couldn't help asking this question, her eyes were fixed on Shi Qingqiu's face, but Shi Qingqiu didn't show any surprise because of being suddenly brought up old things.

"Qi Yue?" Shi Qingqiu's eyes were as deep as the sea, and he said with a light smile, "I have never waited for her. From the moment she gave up on me and left, we are over. I have searched for the answer before, But I'm not waiting for her to come back."

She never felt that after such a silent departure, she could wait for a sincere relationship. If she cherished it enough, she would not have such a decisive separation.So, wait, what's the use?She never waited.

Yao Rui breathed a sigh of relief, her straight back seemed to suddenly lose the strength to support her, and she finally leaned back.She hesitated for a few days about the matter that was stuck in her throat, and finally she didn't need to say it. Now Shi Qingqiu no longer needs to know, and can't know.