too embarrassing

"All the emotions that let you sink into it are dangerous."

——Yukio Mishima

Guifenin took a step towards him, wondering: "Huh?"

The approach of the other party made Niu Keqing suddenly sober, and he paused: "I mean...do you want to go for a walk together?"

Slightly startled, Guifenin smiled, "Okay."

Anyway, he would stay by himself when he got home, he was extremely bored, and it was better for two people to pass the time than one alone.

He walked towards Niu Keqing quickly, and joked: "Tonight, I will get back all the dignity I lost on the WeChat step list."

"Actually, when you just had sex, you can tie your phone to your waist to guarantee that you will be among the top three in the rankings."

After all, Niu Keqing put his hand into the opponent's coat while no one was around, went around behind him and patted his waist and hips, jokingly said: "Right? Electric motor."

Doctor Gu who was molested in the street for the first time: "..."

The winter night is very cold, but fortunately there is not much wind tonight, so I won't be frozen to my face when I take a walk.

They walked on the deserted road, circled around the community, chatting without saying a word.The two gagged more than they had just talked in the noisy supper shop.

Seeing that his face was flushed with drunkenness, Gu Yifenen asked, "You can't drink much?"

"Well," Niu Keqing kicked the small gravel on the side of the road, "but I like to drink."

He didn't drink much just now, but the alcohol was so strong that his temples ached.Fortunately, I don't have to go to work tomorrow, so I can fall asleep when I go back tonight, and sleep until noon tomorrow to dry my butt.

"Will you be crazy when you're drunk?"

"Should...no," Niu Keqing said honestly, "At most, he is more courageous in speaking and speaks out the truth after drinking."

After listening, Guifenin raised his eyebrows, calculated some bad water in his stomach, and said thoughtfully: "Then I will make you completely drunk for a while."

"I don't have any secrets."

"Just set up a bank password."

Suddenly there was a gust of wind, and Niu Keqing was naturally afraid of the cold. The sharp cold wind pierced through his neckline, making him sneeze.

He sniffed his nose, feeling a little out of control, and mumbled, "...why did the wind come all of a sudden?"

Guifenin noticed it, and took off his coat and handed it to him: "Let's change our coats."

Niu Keqing: "Huh?"

"Your one is too thin. Mine has a hood anyway. You put it on to keep out the wind. Otherwise, if you drink alcohol and blow the wind, your head will explode tomorrow." In terms of gentlemanly demeanor, Dr. Gu is really useless. explain.

The act of changing clothes is purely his kindness, but this kindness has teased Niu Keqing and made him distracted.

"This..." Niu Keqing hesitated.

He's not being polite, it's just that changing clothes... It seems to be something that only couples do, it's a little too intimate, let alone a friend who needs to keep a certain distance.

Guifenin simply put the coat on his head childishly: "Can't we just change back after the walk?"

Niu Keqing: "..."

Without further evasion, he took off his coat and exchanged it with the other party.When he put on Gu Ifening's clothes, he smelled a scent that belonged to the other party, and felt wrapped in a warm warmth.

——It was the residual heat of Guifenin's body.

very warm.

Walking leisurely along the way, every household in the community is lit with warm lights, Niu Keqing exhaled a white chill, and raised his head to look.

He saw bright lights in the small squares of each house, with figures walking around from time to time, some glass windows were pasted with grilles, and some balconies were filled with potted plants.

He likes watching these very much, they are all the warmth that can be seen in winter nights.

When passing under the streetlight, two long shadows were cast on the two people standing side by side. Niu Keqing watched the shadow gradually shorten and then lengthen, like the frequency shortening and lengthening on the same channel at the same time. fantastic.

Over the years, he was used to being alone.He loves to go for a walk, but he always walks alone. It would be nice if he had another person to accompany him in the future.

This kind of desire to get companionship should be possessed by people who yearn for love.But now, this kind of mood actually appeared on him...

Thinking of this, Niu Keqing shuddered suddenly, but there was obviously no wind.

"Doctor Gu, I have a question for you."

"ask."

"Have you ever wondered what will happen next?"

"Ok?"

Niu Keqing was afraid that he would ask a question that was too personal, and stepped over the boundary that should not be stepped on, so he just asked half-blindly: "You said, people like us, who are over 30 years old and have been single all the time, after that Really...alone forever?"

"I like to live a free life," Guifenin said naturally. "I don't care, I don't care, I can play as I want, isn't it good?"

"Okay..." Niu Keqing said the word "good" quite confidently.

Then he heard Gu Ifening added: "However, it's not certain. Thinking this way now doesn't mean that you will think so in the future. After all, people are fickle."

"Yeah, people's hearts are changeable." Niu Keqing took up his hood and wrapped the clothes around his body. The residual smell was still evaporating, and the warmth seemed to become more obvious.

For the first time, he felt that the word "fickle" had a commendatory meaning.

Quietly turning his head, Niu Keqing glanced at the people around him.

Because of the cover of the edge of the hood, his eyes can be more unscrupulous, and he doesn't have to worry about being discovered by the other party, and he will say naively like a child: "I didn't peek at you."

He saw Guifenin wearing his clothes, and thinking about it, the other party was probably his closest friend.

This intimacy does not refer to the body, but to the relationship.

It's not that they have no intersection after leaving the bed, but eat supper together, walk together, chat together, and wear each other's coats with each other's breath.

Kind of weird.

The cold wind blew twice, and the smell of alcohol on Niu Keqing's body was blown away.After walking like this for a few more times, I will run around drunk.

But the remaining twos and threes still stimulated his nerves, made him excited, and said some things that he would not say when he was sober.

For example--

"Doctor Gu, you people in the anorectal department appreciate chrysanthemums every day, don't you have a feeling of looking down on the world?"

"You have to pay attention to the health of your gums. There are more and more oral diseases now, and it costs money and you suffer from it."

"Your eyes are very recognizable, like the glass stones in the fish tank in my office, two for five yuan."

"..."

Chattering, chattering.

Guifenin: "......"

"Also—" Niu Keqing stopped, looked at him sideways, and asked in a neutral tone: "Why did you carry me to the infirmary instead of carrying me?"

"What?" Guifenin didn't respond.

"I'm talking about the incident in college. You took my princess, who was knocked unconscious, to the infirmary. This incident caused me to be laughed at by my classmates for a long time." Speaking of which, Niu Keqing still complained a little.

"Ah... you said this."

"Princess hugs are rare among men, right? If you carry me on your back, at least you and I will look more manly."

Guifenin deeply recalled his state of mind at that time, and finally came to a conclusion with only three words: "I'm used to it."

"What do you mean?" Niu Keqing unconsciously clenched his hands in his pockets, and he let himself ask as naturally as possible: "Do you...do you often hug others?"

"When I was in college, I was in the drama club. At that time, I was rehearsing a drama, and there was a scene where the prince hugged the princess. I practiced this way every day, and I got used to it over and over again. Later, when I saw that you were knocked out, I didn't think much about it, so I hugged you subconsciously."

"...prince and princess?" Niu Keqing smiled helplessly.He almost blurted out, so why don't you just wake me up with a kiss?

Niu Keqing became interested, and continued to ask: "Hey, when I woke up that day, I only saw the note you left, but the person disappeared, so you sent me to the infirmary and left right away?"

"No, 10 minutes."

"10 minutes...you still remember it quite clearly," Niu Keqing was a little traumatized, "So urgent, there is class that night?"

"No," although it was many years ago, Guifenin remembered it quite well, because——

"I made an appointment with a zero from the school next door that night, and it was the first time I had meat, so that day was quite memorable for me."

Niu Keqing: "......"

He felt an indescribable sour feeling. The day he met the other party for the first time was actually the day the other party slept with someone else for the first time.

The man continued to walk forward, the hand in the pocket gradually loosened, and the palm with the red marks pinched by the nails hurts intermittently, and it is not known if it is bleeding.

He stopped chattering and nagging, and he didn't talk much for the rest of the way.

There is a lot of waste stuffed in my mind, and I can only digest it silently before dumping it out.

Will there be love at first sight in the world?Yes, at least for a good-looking face.

Niu Keqing remembered that many years ago, there was a face reflected by light and shadow, leaving traces of a few seconds in his youth.

But the story of love at first sight and deep love for many years probably only exists in romantic love novels.As a realist, Niu Keqing does not believe in those so-called utopias.

Have you ever been moved?

The heart beat, but only for a moment.

The spring breeze leaves no trace.

Over the years, he had long forgotten the blue-eyed man, the man for whom his heart fell for a moment when he was young.

Now, looking at this face again, which is not inferior to that of the past, and even more handsome, it seems that... the childish throbbing in his heart is no longer there.

He will think more, weigh the pros and cons, and take into account the consequences.After all, adults are more practical—

Such as sex, such as hormones.

"It's better to be practical..." He murmured to himself, the voice was so small that only he could hear it, and it dispersed when the wind blew it away.

The two walked for almost an hour, and when they reached the fork in the road, they changed back to each other's clothes and said good night to each other in a unique way.

Niu Keqing raised his glasses, looking like a gentleman, "Sweet dream."

"Compared to a good dream," Guifenin raised the corner of his lips, "I would rather have a dream with Dr. Niu around."

Niu Keqing was already immune to his flirtatious words, he was not ashamed or ashamed, and nodded seriously, "Okay, then I will sleep naked tonight, and try to find you in your dreams naked."

The secret romance spread, accompanied by ambiguous words in the moonlight, like a dark fragrance.

The two stopped the itching in time, turned around, and went back to their respective homes.

One night a few days later, Niu Keqing went to the Cantonese-style supper stall again.

Not because of hunger, not because of gluttony, and I don't know why.

At that time, he had just got off the night shift, and when he returned to the community, he parked his car, followed the road he remembered, and soon found the night snack shop.

When Niu Keqing walked into the shop, there were only a few tables of guests inside and outside, and he could see everything at a glance, and there was no figure he wanted to see.

"It's a lie to say that you come here often." The man muttered in disappointment.

He originally thought of a lot of "coincidence" rhetoric——

"What a coincidence, Doctor Gu?"

"Share a table together?"

"Going for a walk after eating?"

These typed manuscripts are all invalid because someone is not here.

Niu Keqing still found a table and sat down, and shouted to the boss according to the menu in his memory: "Uncle, here are two bowls... no, a bowl of boat porridge, green onion and ginger. A dry fried beef river, less Oil. A bottle of beer, cold."

In the end, he changed his mind after thinking about it, "Forget it, I don't want cold beer."

Surrounded by a thick smell of oily smoke, Niu Keqing sat alone in the corner, with the familiar Tingzi porridge and fried beef river on the table, wrapped in the delicious pot gas, the taste was still attractive.

All kinds of messy thoughts were disturbing, he tasted the thing in front of him, but it seemed...it didn't taste that way anymore.