too embarrassing

"Don't you understand? This is love."

--"Spirited Away"

Niu Keqing recently discovered that her mind is getting more and more complicated.

Like a hypocritical woman, he would think about many boring and trivial things, and consider many complicated and subtle things.And all of this revolved around Gu Yifaning.

For example, he is going on a business trip recently.

Recently, there was an exchange meeting in the medical field. As a representative of outstanding young doctors, Niu Keqing was sent by his superiors to participate in the field for about three days.

Niu Keqing thought about it, since he and Gu Yifening are stable bed partners, they need each other at any time, if one of them wants to leave temporarily, he should tell the other...

But he thought again, the business trip is considered a private matter, and he doesn't need to confess to Gu Yifenen. If he deliberately said it, could it be considered as sharing his private sphere with the other party?Will it appear to cross the line?

Just such a small matter made him tangled up for several days.

So annoying.

He finally told the other party, but it was only after he spoke that he found out that Dr. Gu had also been invited to the exchange meeting, but our departments were different, so we didn't know about each other.

Huh, that's quite a coincidence.

Guifenin was looking forward to it. He was like a primary school chick who was about to go on a spring outing with his friends. He said excitedly: "It's good. You and I haven't tried it in other places."

"..." Niu Keqing taught him seriously: "Doctor Gu, I hope you can concentrate on your work and don't think about other things."

"Life isn't all work."

"Life isn't all about making love."

"I want to make Dr. Niu a keychain and pin it on my waistband." Gu Yifening suddenly looked like a clingy man, and got into Niu Keqing's arms and arched twice, "I will go on a business trip alone in the future, I also want to quietly take you on the plane and high-speed train."

Niu Keqing's facial features shrunk: "Are you stupid?"

"Is it stupid to be reluctant to part with Doctor Niu?" Gu Yifenen teased the man as he wanted, "You say so, I am only stupid to you."

For Dr. Gu, making love is a very important part of his life and even his life, and the object of his making love is Niu Keqing.

This shows that Niu Keqing occupies a very important part of his life, which is indispensable and cannot be cut off.

It is quite dangerous for a certain person to play a very important role in one's life. If that person gradually becomes indispensable, the risk factor must be raised to the highest level.

—Guifenin was aware of this.

For him, Niu Keqing has become a necessity of life, but... There is always a substitute for everything, isn't there?

He said "I can't live without you", but Gu Yifening never thought that he could do without Niu Keqing. Instead, he thought that it would be easy to find someone who could replace Niu Keqing.

This confident man has always believed that he can grasp the scale and control the relationship with ease, and if something goes wrong, he can definitely get out of it cleanly.

On the day of the business trip, Niu Keqing and Gu Yifening never said a word even though they took the high-speed train and bus together.

They played the role of two completely unfamiliar plastic colleagues, avoiding suspicion and avoiding water.

Director Liang sat next to Dr. Gu, saw him poking his cell phone all the time, and kept his elders' concern for young people, and asked, "Doctor Gu, aren't you afraid of getting dizzy while looking at your cell phone in the car?"

Gu Yifenen raised his glasses, said with a faint smile: "There are some urgent matters at work, so it's okay not to reply to the message."

[Good evening]: Tonight?

[Bull]: I don’t want to, I’m so tired from the car ride

[Good evening]: You lie on the bed, I will give you a massage [smile.jpg]

【ox】:?

[Bull]: If you really want, you can requisition your "golden right hand"

【Good evening】:……

After taking the high-speed rail and long-distance bus for a whole day, it was already past eight o'clock in the evening when they arrived at the hotel. All the doctors gathered in the hotel lobby, waiting for the allocation of rooms.

Everyone gathered together densely, talking brokenly, but no one knew that there were two male colleagues who seemed to be unfamiliar with each other.

There was Director Liang between Niu Keqing and Gu Yifening, they pretended to look at each other casually, and in the next second, they asked each other's room number on WeChat.

Seriously flirting with flirting with Pao.This business trip was... like a couple on their honeymoon.

After the rooms were allocated, everyone pulled their suitcases and prepared to go upstairs to check in.

The elevators were boarded in batches. In order to avoid suspicion, Niu Keqing and Gu Yifening deliberately went on two separate trips.

Niu Keqing pulled the box and walked into the innermost part of the elevator. He was squeezed by the people who came in behind and couldn't stand still, his back was tightly pressed against the wall of the elevator.

"Drip-drip-"

"It's overloaded, let's go down two."

"Haha, let me play, I will take two with one."

"No, ladies first, I'll go."

"..."

Everyone was noisy and courteous to each other, and the elevator doors couldn't be closed for a long time.

Niu Keqing stood in the innermost place, almost being squeezed into a meatloaf. His gaze was stuck on Doctor Gu outside the elevator, and he couldn't move away at all.

Suddenly, he saw a girl approaching Gu Yifan, who looked very familiar, oh, it was the female nurse that Dr. Gu hid in the cafeteria before.

Niu Keqing seemed to see a moving peach blossom floating towards Dr. Gu.

That peach blossom... No, the female nurse smiled sweetly, and had a warm conversation with Guifenin. The two of them put their arms against each other, and they seemed to be having a good chat.

Niu Keqing looked a bit intrusive, but he felt uncomfortable, very uncomfortable.

Even though he knew that Dr. Gu wasn't interested in women, he didn't like anyone to touch his Dr. Gu.

Niu Keqing took out his mobile phone, opened the WeChat chat box with Gu Yifening, and quickly entered:

"Is that girl interested in you? Do you want me to play a scene with you like last time? I'm good at driving away rotten peach blossoms. Need help? No money."

The text was typed quickly, even a little impatiently, Dr. Niu's fingers soared at the speed of life and death, and afterimages flew by.

He made up his mind that if the other party replied "Yes", he would immediately sweep away the group of people in front of him, and rush down the elevator to block Dr. Gu's love.

But immediately, the man's typing fingers stopped.

He suddenly realized that his thoughts were so absurd, and he made the biggest logical error——

Doctor Gu is not his.

Since it wasn't his, why should he interfere with Dr. Gu's dealings with others.

Niu Keqing realized his stupidity at this moment.

Regardless of whether the female nurse has feelings for Dr. Gu, or whether Dr. Gu is interested in others, as a bed partner, he has no right to interfere.

No matter how uncomfortable he felt, it was just that he deserved it, and he felt possessive and greedy towards a person who did not belong to him.

That's right, he shouldn't think about it. Once he has an idea, it proves that he has put his expectations on the other party.

But this is what scares friends the most.

Before he couldn't control himself, Niu Keqing forced himself to calm down. He deleted all the texts he was going to send and closed the WeChat chat box.

The elevator door closed slowly, and when there was only a gap left, Gu Yifening suddenly raised his head and happened to meet Niu Keqing's eyes.

There were several people between them, but the eyes that looked at each other conveyed as if no one was there, until the door was completely closed, and they could no longer see each other.

Niu Keqing lingered in Niu Keqing's heart with a feeling of disappointment.

The second day was the medical exchange meeting. The meeting was held in a stepped auditorium, and all the leaders and new forces in the medical field were sitting in it.

Dr. Niu and Dr. Gu represented their respective departments, wearing white coats without any wrinkles, sitting on both sides of the conference hall.

"In the past year, there were 127 patients with septic shock and acute kidney injury who came to our hospital for treatment, among them..."

When a representative of a physician was speaking, Dr. Gu took a short errand. He distractedly looked around and saw Niu Keqing who was listening carefully.

[Good evening]: Doctor Niu, look to the right

The phone vibrated, and Niu Keqing saw the message.

Looking up, he met those recognizable blue eyes at a glance.

There were rows and rows of people between them, but they found each other all of a sudden, and their eyes met seamlessly in the crowd.

Blessed to the heart, Niu Keqing suddenly remembered the scene when he and Gu Yifening met for the first time——

Across the scorching lights in the square, there are countless faces of passers-by, but you are you, so unique that you can pass through all obstacles, and hit my eyes at once.

With those blue eyes, suddenly fell to my heart.

The speech reverberating in the venue hummed and gradually became blurred and subtle. At this moment, Niu Ke could clearly hear some unusual voices.

"Boom", "boom", "boom".

A surging heart jumped from the chest to the brain, the frequency was not normal, a little too fast.

He touched the pulse on his wrist, and it seemed that it was not normal. The blood rushed like a river, making him feel hot all over.

With so many people around, he could only see Guifenin.

Since meeting this person, Niu Keqing has experienced many embarrassing things, but he also began to meet romance, secreting endless dopamine.

This relationship between people is often so wonderful.There are some effects that you can only have with someone, not him.

Guifenin seems to be the "he".

At this moment, Niu Keqing suddenly understood what the sense of emptiness in the elevator last night represented——

Greed, jealousy, disappointment, possessiveness...these are all signs of love.

It turned out that he couldn't turn back a long time ago, he was already trapped in this game and couldn't extricate himself, he was both sober and not sober, he wanted to withdraw and sink at the same time.

He really fell in love with Dr. Gu, hopelessly, even, love.

"Oops, Oops, Oops..." Niu Keqing finally saw his heart clearly, but mumbled "Oops" several times at once.

It's just the arrival of love, but he is like an ant who realizes that the disaster is coming, fearful, confused, and helpless.

You can like anyone, but you can't like Gu Yifenen. If you like someone who is self-interested, the end is doomed to be sad.

Accompanied by enlightenment, there was a sentence that sounded in his mind: "Doctor Niu, if one day, either of us likes the other, it's time to end."

Niu Keqing was instantly terrified, this was not what he wanted.

He could predict his own fate, if it really fell into the hands of Gu Ifnin, even Holmes would not know how he died...

How to do it?How to do it so that there is no way out?What can I do to keep the relationship from ending?

There is only one way to cover up the liking.

"Doctor Niu?" The male colleague next to him patted him and asked kindly, "Doctor Niu? Are you okay?"

"Huh?" Niu Keqing came back to his senses, only to realize that he was holding the document in his hand tightly, and the flat white paper was crumpled into messy wrinkles, which looked particularly glaring.

"Oh, I'm fine..." He smiled at his colleague and smoothed the white paper in his hand awkwardly.

The moment he realized that he liked it, Niu Keqing decided to hide the like, pretending not to like it, pretending not to be moved.

He has never been so convinced of one thing: as long as he pretends not to like him, he can stay by that person's side longer, longer.

As everyone knows, a shaken heart is like a crumpled piece of paper, even if you try to smooth it out, the creases on it cannot disappear.

It is no longer the original blank sheet of paper.