【Mustard】Combined for a long time must be divided

Atsushi Nakajima didn't know what to say when he walked behind Akutagawa to the parking lot. He reckoned that the wound should be fine, but he insisted that it was worse than hot water; but Ryunosuke Akutagawa walked in front, there was no Looking back at what he meant, what he knew was Akutagawa Ryunosuke took him to the hospital, but those who didn't know thought Akutagawa took him to Tokyo Bay to bag and sink the body.

The atmosphere was still dull until the two of them got into Ryunosuke Akutagawa's Audi A6. Akutagawa turned the key and was about to reverse the car, when the beeping siren suddenly reverberated in the car.

"seat belt."

The dark-faced administrative manager finally spoke the first sentence that broke the silence along the way.

It stands to reason that Atsushi Nakajima will obediently fasten his seat belt at this time and it will be over. It is the most sensible not to make Akutagawa angry at this juncture; Didn't even mention seat belts, but mustered up the courage to say:

"Can you not go to the hospital?"

Akutagawa Ryunosuke really wanted him out of the car.But when he got out of the car, Atsushi Nakajima got what he wanted, and he would definitely run back to the office as if nothing had happened; the news must have spread by now, at this juncture of rumors, Akutagawa Ryu who took Atsushi Nakajima to the hospital But Zhisuke put the injured back in the blink of an eye——

What are they doing, playing a skit?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke's answer does not have a word of rejection, but the meaning of rejection is more thorough than every word that represents objection: "Report me the card number of the medical insurance card."

The seat belt alarm sounded endlessly, and Atsushi Nakajima also found it a bit annoying, and just pulled it from behind to fasten it; however, Akutagawa Ryunosuke's order made his heart tighten, he bit his lip and remained silent for a long time, and finally said: "I... …I don’t have a health insurance card.”

During the time he was silent, Akutagawa had already driven the car out of the underground parking lot, and the sunlight shining through the glass into the car made it feel a little dazzling, Atsushi narrowed his eyes slightly because of the momentary discomfort.This move involved the wound on his forehead, and he suddenly gasped.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke pulled over to the side of the road while he was trying to identify his injuries.As soon as the car stopped, Atsushi Nakajima noticed it. He turned his head to look at Ryunosuke Akutagawa, but he did not expect that the other party was also looking at him. His expression was not as scary as before, but eerily calm like the eve of the storm.

When he asked, he said concisely: "What do you have?"

Atsushi Nakajima lowered his eyes, and the thick eyelashes covered all the emotions flowing in the pupils.

"ID card, salary card," he replied quietly, "I have nothing except these two things."

"Really," Akutagawa Ryunosuke nodded, "Since this is the case, the company can't handle your problem without authorization. Contact your relatives to discuss follow-up compensation."

What he said was reasonable and calm, but Atsushi Nakajima's emotions were suddenly stirred up for some reason; he turned his head slightly to Akutagawa Ryunosuke's direction, and from the other party's perspective, he could just see the A bloodstain left by the dispute——

"As I said, manager, I have nothing but my ID card and salary card."

"—I have no relatives either. I have only myself."

After he finished speaking, he didn't even look at Akutagawa's reaction, so he pulled off his seat belt, opened the car door and got out of the car; but the direction he was walking was not the way back to the company. I don't know where his destination is.

Atsushi just kept his head down and walked forward, without noticing that the pitch-black Audi A6 was following him at a slow speed, until he reached the intersection facing the street, Ryunosuke Akutagawa speeded up a little and blocked his road.

Then he rolled down the window and signaled: "Get in the car."

Atsushi Nakajima didn't want to talk to him at first, but the weather in Yokohama is really not good today, the highest outdoor temperature is 37°, he felt dizzy just after walking on the street for a while; at this time, the Audi with the air conditioner on It looks particularly attractive, even if the driver is Ryunosuke Akutagawa.

So Atsushi Nakajima, who had just gotten out of the car for 5 minutes, sat back in the car with a sullen face.

When Ryunosuke Akutagawa started the car in silence, Atsushi Nakajima didn't ask him where he was going. He was sulking to himself, but he didn't know who the object of his anger was.It may be Takeda Shiro, it may be Akutagawa Ryunosuke, or it may be himself. He didn't think he needed to pay too much attention to these things, but for some reason, when Akutagawa Ryunosuke touched on this part of the secret, he felt helpless. Avoid anxiety.

Where is the source of this anxiety?

They drove all the way to some sparsely populated suburbs, and Atsushi Nakajima became a little puzzled at this time, where did Ryunosuke Akutagawa want to take him?

However, when he saw the sparkling light in the distance, he suddenly remembered that this was the coastal park near the port.Akutagawa Ryunosuke should have dated Higuchi Ichiyo here before, he remembered this incident for no reason, and for a moment he didn't know how to react.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke paused for a moment, then took out a few tissues from the glove box and handed them to Atsushi Nakajima, who was stunned for a moment before realizing that Akutagawa asked him to wipe off the blood from the wound.

It was almost done, but he remembered?Dun slandered silently.

But the other party did not detect his thoughts, but then unfastened his seat belt and signaled him to get out of the car.Atsushi Nakajima hesitated for a moment, but followed him to the park entrance.

After crossing most of the park, they found a bench with an excellent view. The shade of the trees was just above their heads, and the sea in the distance could be seen at a glance.There was also a vending machine standing beside the stool. Akutagawa Ryunosuke walked over first, put two coins into the vending machine, and then took out two cans of iced coffee from the vending port.He handed a can to Atsushi Nakajima, and the two sat down on the bench, about a seat apart.

Akutagawa pulled up the iron ring of the can, and there was a crisp sound. The iced coffee was baked in the hot summer, and a trace of cold air floated into the air.Atsushi Nakajima didn't drink it right away, he stroked the coffee package with his index finger, wondering what he was thinking.

"Why don't you avoid it?" Akutagawa suddenly asked while drinking coffee slowly.

"……what?"

Akutagawa Ryunosuke turned his head, his eyes were calm: "It's easy to tell the truth from what you said. You don't think you can really fool my eyes and ears, do you?"

He was referring to this matter. Nakajima calmed down. Takeda Shirou was indeed just bluffing when he raised the tea set and threw it on his head, and he was fully capable of avoiding it. This is why the rich man was so flustered. .

But... Dun laughed indistinctly, and his tone was light: "Because I was taught so much, 'Don't hide, don't cry, don't act like a waste', then I couldn't move unconsciously. Under normal circumstances Of course I would want to avoid it, but I don’t seem to have that conditioned reflex.”

He also pulled the ring and threw it far away into the trash can. After taking a sip, he continued on: "It's true that I was the first to provoke. Although he said it a little harder .”

Akutagawa Ryunosuke responded shortly.

"Where did you live before?"

"Before?" Atsushi Nakajima didn't evade the question, "Of course it was an orphanage. Children who can't even find their parents or relatives can only be sent to that kind of welfare facility—then they were kicked out that year , living on the street, almost starved to death. If Mr. Dazai is not willing to help me, I don’t know what it would be like now.”

"...So you are not registered in the personnel department, is it because of this reason?" Akutagawa Ryunosuke remembered that when Nakahara Nakahara mentioned Atsushi Nakajima to him, he specifically mentioned that Osamu Dazai bypassed the personnel department and directly submitted his file. When I arrived at the business department, it seems understandable now that I think about it. If I follow the normal entry process, Atsushi Nakajima will definitely be rejected at the interview stage.

"Ah, about Mr. Sakaguchi and the others. Mr. Dazai owes a lot of favor to the personnel department because of this incident."

Atsushi Nakajima seemed to remember what happened back then, and smiled helplessly.

"I'm actually very lucky. I was able to be appreciated by Mr. Dazai, and I was able to work in such a good company. Even after I was transferred, no one made things difficult for me. Everyone is a very good person."

Akutagawa Ryunosuke declined to comment on his speech, but Atsushi Nakajima thought of something again and said to him: "There is one more thing... about the driver's license. I can't take the driver's license test because it seems that I was found during the physical examination. With vertigo, the doctor said it should be due to the irreparable damage left by the concussion when I was young, although I didn't feel it myself."

After Ryunosuke Akutagawa finished his coffee, he crushed the jar in his hands, and the iron sheet creaked as it compressed and twisted.

"So what? What do you want to say?"

"I want to say——I won't be able to get a driver's license in the future, Manager Akutagawa, do you think you should consider changing to a secretary now?"

Atsushi Nakajima's expression made it difficult to tell whether he was joking or sincere. He just looked at Ryunosuke Akutagawa, but he could only tell that he was not really waiting for an answer.

"I know I'm really bad, and sometimes I feel that I'm completely useless for a useless person, so I hate myself; but even if I hate myself, I will try to love myself-because I only have If a person doesn't even love himself, no one else will love me at all."

If you just look at it from the outside, the negative emotions mentioned by Atsushi Nakajima are really well hidden by him. He has never shown this kind of negativity in front of others, but tried his best to spread goodwill to everyone; When he was alone with Akutagawa Ryunosuke in the office, the two had conflicts due to the subtle difference between loneliness and aloofness. Atsushi Nakajima confronted him seriously for the first time—probably also because he remembered the past.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke is unwilling to comment more on other people's past, but Atsushi Nakajima seems to bring back some of his memories, such as the trauma he suffered when he was young, the loneliness he felt when he was alone, and even the kindness he felt when he felt that he was not capable enough. Not to be reconciled, he was able to empathize with everything.

But they have been hurt, but they are moving forward now.Don't indulge in the painful past forever, whether it's people or things, make up your mind to take steps in a new direction, and let go of what you have experienced; don't sympathize with yourself, if you sympathize with yourself, life will become endless nightmare.

Akutagawa murmured and said: "You are indeed very bad, you don't even need a driver's license, and even low-level mistakes such as missing items are endless; as my secretary, you spend a lot of time fooling around with other office workers every day, even doing business. His level is not even as good as that of Higuchi who just took over—”

Nakajima Atsushi was a little dumbfounded: "What is fooling around? Am I really that bad?"

"—But I still thank you for your efforts on behalf of the Administration Department."

Akutagawa Ryunosuke continued.

He didn't specify what he was grateful for, and he didn't specify whether he was also grateful for Atsushi Nakajima's arrival. He was vague and vague, but Atsushi Nakajima froze in place because of this simple sentence.

One's own efforts are meaningful, and the value of one's own existence is affirmed.

When he realized this, his eyes turned red instantly, and the tip of his nose couldn't stop the sourness: that's all, he was happy enough to cry.

It's just that crying in front of Akutagawa Ryunosuke is really embarrassing, Atsushi hurriedly wiped the tears away, although there were still a few teardrops still falling to the ground, But Atsushi Nakajima finally controlled his emotions steadily, and he didn't even make a choked voice when he spoke again.

He sniffed: "You can really talk, manager."

Akutagawa Ryunosuke snorted, got up and threw the can into the trash can as well.

"Going back to work."

Nakajima Atsushi followed Akutagawa step by step as he did when he came, and set foot on the return journey. On the way, he stretched very comfortably and made a comfortable sound like a cat.Then he suddenly approached Akutagawa Ryunosuke: "You missed your work all morning because of me, Manager Akutagawa, what should you do with the loss?"

Akutagawa Ryunosuke didn't blink: "It will be deducted from your salary."

"...??? My monthly salary is less than five thousand after tax. How can I deduct it for you?? Do you still want me to live?"

"It depends on how much compensation you can get from the Taketa family," Akutagawa Ryunosuke's tone sounded like he really disliked his stupidity, "I can give you half a day off today, and you can take care of the wound and clothes yourself .”

This is a human saying, Atsushi Nakajima thought, so he is telling me to kill Zhutian Enterprise?But it's not unreasonable, he was thrown a coffee by Taketa Shiro for no reason, even for his own consideration, of course, the more medical expenses he cheated, the better.

After he figured this out, his mood finally brightened up, and even after getting into the car, his usual gentle smile appeared on his lips.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke inadvertently turned his head to catch a glimpse of Atsushi Nakajima's smiling side face while lighting the ignition, and stopped for a moment.

Atsushi seemed to realize that Ryunosuke Akutagawa hadn't moved for a long time, and looked over suspiciously while tugging on his seat belt: "What's wrong?"

"...It's nothing," Akutagawa Ryunosuke was slightly distracted, "Let's go."

He just had an idea suddenly, it was an unspoken word, but it might become a reality, and it contained some kind of wonderful feeling that even he couldn't explain clearly——

He thought, maybe Atsushi Nakajima could be more than just one person.

TBC