On one hundred ways of acting like a baby

"You know--

Every time I look at you, it breaks my heart! "

In a luxurious prime minister's mansion, in a desolate courtyard.

The five fingers with only the bones remaining are tightly clutching the front of the clothes, as if they wish to dig out the heart covered with many scars.

"I can't wait to goug your eyes and cut your throat, do you understand? Zijin." She smiled numbly. It was a beast in the desert that was blown away by the wind day and night, leaving a pile of bones .

Qi Qige trembled all over, his voice trembled, and he stubbornly stared at the world with hatred with bloodshot eyes.

Is Koudan my mother?

Kodan is your mother.

No need to ask, no need to tell.

I hate you, and spend my whole life hating you, a bastard.

Qiqige's eyes said so.

Yu Zijin saw it clearly, and he also looked back with clear eyes: But I'm not Mrs. Koudan, I didn't harm you.

"You are not Kodan." Qiqige rolled his eyes, and a line of tears fell, "I think about it day and night, you are not Kodan."

Kodan.

This name is catchy, just like the person's elegance for generations.

She died at this time nine years ago.

In another five years, Zhuangyuan Lang risked his life for his life, leaving her to live alone.

And she, she is like a maggot parasitic in this dark and damp little yard year after year.

Spring goes to autumn, summer is hot and winter is cold, day is drunk and night is dreaming, but I have never dreamed of the elegant and elegant Yu Shusheng, let alone the handsome scholar.

Those two never put her in their eyes.

Kodan has been here twice.

The first time she came back, she asked: "You and I are master and servant, are you willing to hide the next child for me?"

Qi Qige almost gritted his teeth, "Who's son?"

Kou Dan looked left and right, picked up a small bench and sat down, held the Eight Immortals fruit in one hand and threw it into his mouth, without answering.

"It's not his child, is it?" Qi Qige raised his eyebrows and asked sharply: "You have a wild child with others! You unruly woman, you have the face to ask me to keep him for you?"

"I didn't ask you." Kou Dan covered his stomach with both hands, and said softly, "Maybe it's his, maybe it's not, no one can say for sure."

Kou Dan just sat there, flourishing.

Her clothes are luxurious and her make-up is beautiful, her curly hair cascading down like a waterfall, protecting her fair face; there is a decadent color in her eyebrows and eyes, but her gorgeous color is not damaged by anything else.

Kodan is always so good-looking.And selfish.

This is the woman who is admired by all the stars, no matter how old she is, she cares about herself, and she refuses to be an adult at all, let alone a good wife.

Can't bear hardships, can't stand indifference, this is the woman who is the champion.

"I can't be a mother." Kou Dan paused his hands, fixed his eyes on the mud floor, and murmured in a daze, "I'm afraid that I... can't even love a child..."

Her voice was fragile, as if broken pieces were glued together with great effort, fearing that it would scatter and fly in all directions when the wind blows.

"Does he know that you are pregnant?" Qi Qige asked in a low voice, knowing that the number one scholar must not know.

Otherwise, how could Kodan come here alone?

Kodan muffled for a long time before saying a few words: "Sooner or later, I will know, if I know, I am afraid the child will not live.

——If you know

-I'm afraid the child won't live

These words reverberated in my heart and ears for a long time, Qi Qige closed his eyelids, the man who was like a clear bamboo in the dream was broken off at the waist, his limbs twisted and swayed, and a hideous face was stuck on his head.

The man she loves the most is forcing the woman in front of her to act differently step by step!

The long-term faint melancholy mixed with hatred weighed heavily on every inch of her body.

"Qiqige." Kodan said ignorantly, "I accept my fate, I don't love any man in the world anymore."

She said so with a brisk look and voice.

Qi Qige felt tens of thousands of cold hands climbing up her body, tightly grasping her flesh, dragging her straight to the eighteenth level of hell.

Why?

Why is Kou Dan always so happy?

Why was she the only one who was tortured?

No more tears flowed from the dry eye sockets.

"I'll help you."

Qi Qige heard himself say: "I'll help you hide this child."

Then she became a mother.

Countless times I have dreamed that there is a fruit of a night of spring night in my stomach, maybe a small fetus is conceived in it, it will be her and Heyue's flesh and blood, and she will be tied to him with blood.

Now that she has become the mother of Koudan Yezhong, how can she be a good mother?

Beating and scolding is common, and the situation is difficult for oneself.

But Kou Dan didn't care how she treated Yu Zijin, it had been many years since she came back for the second time.

The spring rain poured down all night, and large flakes of water leaked from the broken bricks and tiles, and gathered into a puddle without rushing.Qi Qige did not hide or dodge in such a night, even though the raindrops hit her, poured into her sleeves, and slid across her dry and dirty skin.

Koudan rushed in with wet hair.

"Qiqige." There was a difficult smile on the corner of Kodan's lips, and there was a faint light in his eyes that had been dead for many years. "I've made up my mind, tomorrow is my memorial day."

die...go...?

Qi Qige looked at her blankly.

"I would like to be you in the next life." Kou Dan said softly: "Don't want this skin, I would like to be you, love someone well, and never let me down." After saying that, she walked away,

Resolutely's back was deeply reflected in her eyes, which is still unforgettable to this day.

Qi Qige took a deep breath and shattered the illusions in front of him one by one.

She didn't want to think about it any more.

I don't want to think about the envy and hatred with Kou Dan, and I don't want to think about what will happen in the afterlife.

Not to mention that Heyue only came to see her once and said goodbye to her.

But the past is still floating in front of my eyes.

"I haven't seen you in years."

"I have wronged you all these years."

"If you want, you can leave this yard any day."

"Tomorrow, I will be buried with Kodan."

Sentence hit her ears, every word weighed heavily.

How sad and angry was she then?

She shouted sharply: Do you know that Yu Zijin is the son of Kou Dan who had an affair with someone else? !Such a bitch, you still want to be buried with her?

He Yue was stunned for a moment, neither sad nor happy in his eyes, faintly, as if seeing through the world of mortals.

"It doesn't matter." He replied, "She doesn't love me after all. Love is a human thing. I was confused. Otherwise, she should have been set free."

"Maybe she won't either..." He pondered.

They never put her in their hearts.

Qiqige thought: never.

She imitated Kodan's giggling, and every time she slid on the blade, blood dripped.

"You are not Koudan, but you are so similar to Koudan, I—"

"How can I not hate you?" She asked Yu Zijin back, "Your mother stole my love and disdains her, hurt him and me, how can I! No! Hate! You!"

Yu Zijin didn't know anything about the past, he saw Qi Qige's expression turn vicious, and he took several steps back.

He looked at Qi Qige in doubt for a long time, and realized later: this is not his real mother, so it's no wonder he couldn't find a loving mother and deep love in her.

So the slightest complaint and puzzlement in my heart dissipated casually.

"I'm leaving." He blinked.

This time, there will be no return day.

Needless to say, both of them knew it well.

"No! Don't go! Don't go!" Qi Qige was stunned, suddenly changed his expression, and desperately moved his hands and feet like bony sticks to climb up, as if to hug Yuzijin.

Yu Zijin opened his eyes wide and backed away, refusing to be caught by this seven-part ghost and three-part man.

"What else are you going to do?" he asked.

"Can you... bury me with the No. Today, I have only one wish in this life, to sleep in the same coffin with him."

"If you hate me, you can beat me! Just ask me to be buried with him!" Qiqige reached out and slapped himself in the face viciously, tearing the messy hair ruthlessly, and shouted with tears and smiles: "I love you all my life!" One person, one person loves his whole life! Even if he doesn't love me! He doesn't have half of me in his heart! I just want to love him to the end! He pestered Kou Dan to chase him to the underworld, and I will go too!"

"What am I afraid of? How could I be afraid?" Qi Qige tightly grasped his collar as if he wanted to squeeze his heart tightly.She laughed: "I've been waiting for four full years. I want to die day and night all the time. I'd rather die than live. But I can't die—"

"I can't die, if I die easily, how can I be buried with you?" Her voice gradually lowered, deep and cold.

"If I can't be buried with you again in this life, wouldn't my love really seem like a joke?"

Qi Qige prostrated himself on the ground, pressed against each other, his lips moved slightly, but he didn't utter a word.

Yu Zijin thought she had died like this, so he stood in a daze for a while, then walked out with his legs wide open.Before he took two steps, he heard a clear and melodious singing voice behind him.

"Ask what love is in the world, and teach you the promise of life and death. There are people from all over the world, and the old Chi has been cold and hot..."

Yu Zijin looked back, she was lying quietly on her side on the dirty ground, her eyes were tender and sad, her hair was disheveled, and her body was dry.Like a sad and beautiful poem.

He walked out of the small courtyard and saw many people standing not far or near, standing upright, stopping their work and listening.They looked solemn, as if a funeral song sounded in their hearts together.

From this, Yu Zijin was convinced that he would never step into the prime minister's mansion again.

He stood at a fork in the road and thought hard, raised his eyes and glanced at the path leading to the study, then turned his head and walked towards Kodan's room, which had been covered in dust for many years.

squeak-

This was the second door that was pushed open today, and a layer of flying dust was thrown up.

Yu Zijin covered her nose to see clearly in all directions, walked around again, and found the dressing table.

He sat down and opened a small box with old jewelry in it; opened another one with a jade hairpin in it.Pulling open the largest grid, a stack of yellowed letters was revealed.

Yu Zijin carefully picked out one by one, opened them up and read them all, and only recognized the characters 'bei' and 'death' on a few pieces of paper.He folded them neatly again, and stuffed them in earnestly, with a serious look on his childish face.

——This is his mother.

Mrs. Kodan, whom she had seen from far and near several times many years ago, flashed in her mind, and Yu Zijin thought: This is his mother.

The mansion of the number one scholar belongs to his elder brother, and his mother's letter belongs to him.Yu Zijin calculated clearly, no one could fool him.He walked out of this room with the letter, and saw servants everywhere.

Most of the people in this mansion are elderly people, and every time they look at Yu Zijin, they seem to be staring at someone or something from a long time away.This made Yu Zijin feel uncomfortable.

Never again.

He pressed his upper and lower lips together unhappily, and ran to find Xuanbei.

The author has something to say:

ending! !

I don't dare to blindly branch the line anymore.

My procrastination has to be corrected! !

can't suck

Let me think about how to sweeten my heart