I bend when you confess

"It's nothing, it's just a breakup."

Qi Shi never thought that he would get such an answer.For a moment, he didn't know what to say, after all, this was an area he was not good at at all.

From the very beginning, he knew that Duan Yao had a lover who was far away in the imperial capital. For so long, he often heard him calling and sending messages, caring and admonishing the other party, and sometimes acting coquettishly and making people happy. .Although he didn't really want to admit it, he knew that, as a lover, his deskmate was indeed a hard-to-find dating partner.He thought that the relationship between the two should be very good, but he didn't expect to hear such news at this moment.

Following Qi Shi's example, Duan Yao pulled a pillow over to hug him, and sat on the head of the bed, facing him.Maybe it was because Qi Shi was too reliable before, or maybe it was too easy for people to reveal their hearts in this situation, Duan Yao suddenly had an urge to confide.

He squinted his eyes, controlled the steam in his eyes, opened the bloody wound, and slowly recalled all the past word by word.It's just deliberately concealing the fact that Xiao Yingyue's gender is male, otherwise...it would be really embarrassing for two gays to lie on the same bed.

……

"It's not your fault, you are good enough. It's just that sometimes, people are too greedy, and they always think that they can get something without paying anything."

"She likes you and cares about you, but she doesn't care about you that much. She doesn't want to be bothered by you all day long, and she wants to continue to maintain a relationship with you, so she thinks she is smart and comes up with a brilliant idea, but she never thinks that lies always lie. One day it will be revealed."

Qi Shi looked into the air, his eyes unfocused.I don't know what I thought of, and said in a low voice:

"Human nature is selfish, especially in relationships."

"In the eyes of many people, the most important thing is always only yourself. You only want to get what you want, and never consider whether it will hurt you."

"Emotions are the most vulnerable things in the world."

Duan Yao originally just wanted to talk to someone, throw out all the puzzles and regrets in his heart, but he didn't expect Qi Shi to be so pessimistic about relationships.Even if he had just experienced a relationship that he devoted himself to but ended in failure, he would not have such thoughts.He always feels that the beauty of the world is the mainstream, and everyone will have a destined person waiting for him. The failures he has experienced before are all because he is not the right person.

"It is true that such people exist, but don't they support each other and care about each other all the way to the end?"

He retorted, frowned and looked at the other party, but the latter didn't answer, and ended the topic directly: "See, you're all right, go to sleep. Don't cry until the bed collapses in the middle of the night."

Duan Yao had no choice but to turn off the light and lie down.

Qi Shi smiled and watched Duan Yao move in the dark.Thinking back to the question just now, I sighed in my heart.Only this person with a pure heart can get a companion who loves each other, and he, is he pessimistic?certainly.Don’t talk about the past, what will happen in the future, you don’t need to think too much about it—you always guess the other party’s sincerity and hypocrisy, and you are as frightened as a bird when the wind blows, and you never give up your trust. .

Duan Yao turned off the light and lay back on his side, his cheeks touched a piece of wet pillow, he suddenly felt a little hot on his face, but he felt a little relieved in his heart, although his getting along with Xiao Yingyue in the last period was really not pleasant, but that boy The joy that once brought him is also indelible. That bright young man deserves such a big cry from him.

Pulling out the pillow and throwing it aside, he rubbed against Qi Shi's side, occupying the remaining half of the pillow with his head.

From Duan Yao's perspective, through the gap under the door, one can see the constant red light in the living room, which is the red lights on both sides of the portrait of Grandpa Qi Shi.Qi Shi said that human nature is selfish, and that many people only care about what they want, and don't care whether it will hurt you.

Although I don't know much about Qi Shi's family, but judging from the structure of this family, it should belong to the pattern of grandparents and grandchildren living together.From the heart, grandpa looked like an unusually amiable old man, and Qi Shi was also very filial—otherwise, he wouldn't have placed the portrait of the old man in the main hall after his death for more than a year, and wiped the surroundings spotlessly.It stands to reason that Qi Shi, who grew up in such a harmonious environment, should be a boy full of beauty and hope in his heart. Optimism and persistence are the main colors, but why...

Thinking suddenly.

He forgot the rumors in the school, and even in the whole Yijiang, about the person beside him.

"Qi Shi."

"Huh?" The person next to him moved his head and turned around.

"Do you just think that your relationship is unreliable, so you easily play with other boys?"

As soon as the words fell, Duan Yao stepped back a little, trying to avoid Qi Shi's attack range.However, the scene he expected did not happen.

"Did I treat you too well at the same table recently?"

The other party didn't even raise his hand, and just threw out such a gnashing sentence.Duan Yao didn't know that if it was someone else, Qi Shi would definitely cut off his relationship with him and never have any contact with him again.The current understatement reaction is just because in Duan Yao's tone, Qi Shi didn't hear a trace of temptation, contempt or disgust, and some were just teasing with a bit of a bad taste.

So, getting along with this person is very easy.

Duan Yao reacted well when he saw Qi Shi, and was motivated for a while, and asked him the reason for that incident.When this sentence was asked, the air in the room seemed to be completely stagnant, and Qi Shi fell into complete silence.

Duan Yao didn't dare to express his anger in the silence, and secretly warned himself not to talk nonsense just because the atmosphere is good next time.Just when he was about to expose this topic in embarrassment, he suddenly heard a sentence beside him:

"Perhaps it was indeed my fault."

Duan Yao, who was tortured by silence, completely forgot the warning he had given himself when he heard this sentence. He turned over and sat up, looked at Qi Shi in disbelief and exclaimed: "So you are really a scum?"

"Why, do you think it's very unlucky to be at the same table as a scum like me?" Qi Shi's voice was cold.

"No, that's not the case," Duan Yao hastily explained when he saw people misunderstood, "I just think you're pretty good, and you don't seem like someone who would do that kind of thing."

"Is it disappointing?"

Duan Yao rolled his eyes, and thoughtfully explained to Qi Shi, who was covered in thorns all over his body:

"Your ears at the same table are probably not very good at the moment. You understand, what I said is that I think you are very good."

"No matter what kind of person you were in the past, I know you now. You are very good now, and I am happy to be at the same table with you and make friends."

"Of course, I don't agree with your previous behavior. If you do this again..."

"As far as our current relationship is concerned, the two of us can only be at the same table as ordinary people."

"But if the relationship is better, I will try my best to persuade you. If I can't persuade you, then I will poach your corner. I ask myself that I am no worse than you."

"Of course, you who don't think it's important to be weak at all will naturally not break up with me for such a trivial matter, will you?"

"So you're implying that I want to treat you better?" Qi Shi buried his face in the pillow and laughed softly.

When he thought about it countless times later, he always felt lucky.He didn't know why he said such a sentence, but fortunately he said it, and his audience gave him the most perfect reaction.

Really, it's too warm.

Duan Yao waited for a long time, and when he got such a reaction, he was neither smiling nor angry, but when he heard his muffled low laugh, he breathed a few silent breaths and then bent the corners of his lips, and lay back.Squeeze people's heads for pillows like children.Qi Shi pursed his lips and gave up most of his position.

……

Freud said that dreams are the release of people's impulses and desires suppressed by moral and social constraints during the day at night.Qi Shi scoffed at this, what impulse and desire did he have for Zhuang Huaibi?

Perhaps because of the mention before going to bed, Qi Shi saw that person again in his dream.His body was torn apart, bloody and bloody, and he walked towards this direction step by step, with his mouth open, asking questions one after another.

"Why don't you come?"

"Why don't you come?"

"Why don't you come!"

From a calm inquiry to a hoarse voice full of hatred, other voices gradually overlapped.

"Why don't you go?"

"Why don't you go?"

"Why don't you go!"

The disdainful, indifferent, critical and contemptuous voices came from all directions. Qi Shiyou seemed to have returned to the past. He took a step back and covered his ears, trying to avoid these scolding and accusations, but this move had no effect, the sound penetrated the barrier directly It exploded in my mind, everywhere...

"Why did you even give up on me?"

The innocent voice like a child's was easily caught in the crowd of voices, Zhuang Huaibi tilted his head and reached out his hand towards him.He approached bit by bit, and the place he walked was filled with blood, turning into a turbulent swamp, full of bones and lifeless.Qi Shi wanted to retreat, but found that he couldn't move and was completely restrained in place. He could only watch helplessly as that ferocious face got closer and closer, and watched the hand with all the knuckles touch the corner of his clothes, gradually moving towards him. Climb up and down, and finally fall into the palm of his hand...

"I got you, Qi Shi."

"You are mine now, Qi Shi."

"Qi Shi..."

"Qi Shi..."

……

"Qi Shi!"

"Qi Shi, wake up!"

The body was shaken vigorously, and Qi Shi struggled to open his eyes.The harsh light made his eyes hurt, he subconsciously turned his head and looked aside.

His deskmate sat aside, visibly relieved to see him wake up.When the consciousness came back, everything that happened in the dream was gradually remembered, thinking of the cold and biting touch of the palm and the suffocation of being gradually submerged in the swamp, Qi Shi suddenly shuddered.

"Thank you." He said sincerely in a hoarse voice.

Duan Yao waved his hand, only when Qi Shi had an ordinary nightmare.He raised the book in his hand and put it in front of Qi Shi.

"I've finished reading the first book, is there any more for the second book?"

Qi Shi, who was still in shock, was at a loss for a moment, then glanced at the old novel in his hand, and nodded: "The second volume is in my grandfather's room, I will get it for you later, you have not slept in the middle of the night—"

The voice stopped abruptly, and only then did he realize that the sky was already bright, and judging by the glare of the sun, it might even be almost noon.No wonder Duan Yao started reading novels when he had nothing to do.

The author has something to say:

small theater:

Qi Shi: It's noon, no wonder Duan Yao starts reading novels when he has nothing to do.

However, later:

When it was time to do homework, Duan Yao was reading a novel.

When going to eat, Duan Yao was still reading novels.

When going to bed, Duan Yao was still reading novels.

When going on a date, Duan Yao was still reading novels.

When it's time to get married, Duan Yao... Okay, let's start writing novels.

Wei Jing: You are so naive.