long thoughts

On the contrary, Zhou Yirou often came to see me.

I really don't want to get involved with her anymore, but the school is so big, there is no way to hide.In the beginning, I was able to walk with the chaos of going to and from get out of class, until Zhou Yirou personally blocked the classroom and the school gate, and I could only walk with her.This incident even alarmed the teacher. The teacher in charge talked to me intentionally or unintentionally a few times. The words inside and outside the words were all probing, and he was relieved after repeatedly confirming that I was not blackmailed and provoked.

I gave up and had no choice but to make an appointment with Zhou Yirou. I won't hide from her, and she can't blatantly look for me in school. If there is anything, I will call on my mobile phone.

We just get along abnormally like a pair of normal male and female friends.She would ask me to buy milk tea, snacks, and even sanitary napkins for her, without considering whether I wanted to or not.He would also force me to go shopping, eat, and have parties with her on weekends after class.

People who have a good relationship with her know of my existence, but they don't know anything about our relationship.It didn't take long for me to go from being embarrassed at the beginning to being used to it now. I even skillfully took away the topic when I encountered a question I didn't want to answer, and learned a new way to get along with her friends.

I gradually felt that I was divided into two people, one was responsible for acting as an ordinary student in school, taciturn and solitary.The other is responsible for confronting Zhou Yirou, drinking and playing games with her friends at the party.Sometimes I don't want to look in the mirror, afraid that one day I will see a completely strange Xu Changnian in the mirror.

Cai Yujing withdrew from Minecraft, while Zhou Yirou took over every inch of land, declaring her sovereignty with a domineering attitude that could not be refused.I wrote down what happened in the diary like a running account. It was so colorful that I had to write a whole page every day, but I didn't have the throbbing and impulsiveness that I would have when recording Cai Yujing.

I used to carefully figure out the words and sentences, just to write down the most real touch in my heart, even if I only have a few words a day, but every time I read it, I can feel the feelings at that time again, and I can recall the stories behind these words.Now it is just the opposite. I have written so many words, and I just feel that it is so when I see it.

Zhou Yirou seems to be addicted to this kind of role-playing, and her attitude towards me is getting better and better, and occasionally she will act like a baby in a creepy way, as if we are really a young couple who are together because we like each other.

This went on for several months until Christmas.

Christmas is a special day for me, but it has nothing to do with what kind of holiday it is, mainly because it is Cai Yujing's birthday.I usually send apples with gifts to celebrate this real shell-breaking day.But this year...I bought a gift and didn't know how to give it away.

I pushed Zhou Yirou's request to go out for two weeks, went to gift shops and toy stores all over the city to buy a figure of Cai Yujing's favorite anime character, and spent all the pocket money I had saved for a long time.

I know that Cai Yujing has a habit of having parties on birthdays, so I put my mobile phone fully charged on me early, and I click on it as soon as I get news, always holding an unrealistic expectation.But there was no movement from morning till night.

The last class was over, and the phone finally vibrated as expected. I was ecstatic and pressed the power button. Because I was too excited, I clicked several times before I clicked on the message. There were only four short words in the text message: Wait for me after class.It is clear at a glance, simple and clear.Before I had time to be happy, I saw the sender in the back - it was Zhou Yirou.

It's hard to describe this moment from ecstasy to loss, the heart is as uncomfortable as being tightly clenched, making people breathless.I thought about breaking up with Zhou Yirou countless times, and then went to Cai Yujing to explain everything clearly, but I didn't dare.

I can't bear the consequences of talking about it.I would rather he distanced himself because I was with Zhou Yirou and was disappointed and angry with me than because he was liked by someone of the same sex.

It's okay to break it, I thought.Cai Yujing is so nice, the more we get along, the more I can't control myself. Instead of getting stuck in this quagmire, it's better to just cut the buds neatly so that I can never think about it again.

I replied "yes" to Zhou Yirou, then threw the phone into the table, buried my face in my arms, and didn't want to think about anything.

After laying on the table for a while, I propped myself up to pack my things, hesitated for a moment before leaving, and took the gift I was planning to give to Cai Yujing, after all, I couldn't find a chance to give it away after all day.When I looked at the solitary figure, I felt an absurd feeling of sympathy.

Put the handle into the bag, zip it up, and was about to meet Zhou Yirou, but downstairs met two people who were in a tense atmosphere.

Cai Yujing: "Do you really think Xu Changnian likes you? I beg you, go wash your face and look in the mirror. If you can find something in yourself that can be called an advantage, I will lose."

Zhou Yirou: "None of your business, Xu Changnian likes me like you, are you not convinced? You are the best, you are full of strengths all over your body, so why doesn't Xu Changnian go to date you?"

I:"……"

Cai Yujing: "..."

I withdrew my stepping foot and turned around silently.

Cai Yujing and Zhou Yirou shouted in unison: "Stop!"