long thoughts

After one night, Cai Yujing and I made up.

He would come to me and joke with me, never mentioning the cold war in those few months, and never mentioning Zhou Yirou.I let go of my heart and carefully hid my thoughts that I shouldn't have in my heart.

Zhou Yirou would also come to see me, but she was never at school, and would always coincidentally stagger when Cai Yujing was around.They died down, no longer confronting each other, and the relationship became delicate because of me.

I wanted to talk about this relationship with Zhou Yirou several times, but she took her off topic, so I had to put it aside for now.Saying that couples are not like couples, I feel more like taking care of a younger sister who is in a rebellious period. The occasional throbbing at the beginning is always quickly shattered, until the final heart is as still as water.

But after unraveling my knot, I started to be more and more presumptuous towards Zhou Yirou, not only dared to say no to her, but even dared to discipline her slightly.Because of this, Zhou Yirou often laughed at me for being more like her mother than her mother.Although I just hope that she should live more like herself, not to fight against anyone.

Zhou Yirou's parents are usually busy with work, maybe because of guilt, except for companionship, they are obedient to her in all other aspects, and naturally raised a lawless and rebellious girl.

I still don't intend to ask Zhou Yirou to "reform evil and return to righteousness", but I want to tell her to the best of my ability that "happiness" should not be about making someone you don't like sad and angry, but about making yourself or someone you like happy.

……

On the last day of the second year of high school, Zhou Yirou violated the agreement for the first time and approached me at school.I walked out in the face of the whole class's surprised or suspicious eyes, and closed the class door by the way to block the hot eyes behind me, and I felt relieved.

Zhou Yirou saw that I looked like I was facing a formidable enemy, and smiled unceremoniously, "As for you, I won't do anything."

Me: "It's not because of you, our class is too gossip."

Zhou Yirou murmured, "If you didn't let me come, they would have gotten used to it."

I thought for a long time and couldn't think of anything to refute, so I had to surrender, "It was my fault, so what's the business of Miss Zhou coming to see me today?"

Zhou Yirou crossed her arms and hummed twice, "I'll let you go today, little Xu, my aunt is here today to tell you good news——I'm going to drop out of school."

I:? ? ?

I don't know what to do with this "good" news.It is true that I am finally liberated, but when I say it from Zhou Yirou's mouth, I always feel that it is not the case.Moreover, suspending school sounds like a very serious matter, Zhou Yirou said it in a relaxed tone, and it instantly became as insignificant as being late for class.

I came back to my senses and asked the question: "Why do you suddenly have to suspend school? School punishment or...?" That's the question, but I don't believe it is the former whether it is rational or emotional.

Zhou Yirou turned around and lay down on the mast in the corridor. With her edges and corners put away, she was just a quiet little girl.Her faint voice came from the wind: "It has nothing to do with the school, and I have never committed such a serious thing. I took a break from school to go abroad."

It was the first time I heard her such a peaceful tone, but it was extremely peaceful, and there was a sense of sarcasm and indifference.

I thought about my words and asked as gently as possible: "Then do you want to go?"

Zhou Yirou has a good-looking oval face, with lively eyebrows and eyes, fair complexion, and her lips are even more colorful, exuding the freshness and beauty unique to girls of this age everywhere.At this time, she rested her hands on her pillow and looked at me sideways, reminding me of the always cute and beautiful heroines in comic books for no reason.

Although Zhou Yi is soft and cute, she doesn't match her at all.

Zhou Yirou raised the corners of her lips, "Xu Changnian, don't you understand? It doesn't matter whether I want to go or not, they think it's enough to be nice to me, anyway, I don't care. Only top students will worry about changing their environment. It doesn’t matter if you are not good or poor, you will always be at the bottom. Going abroad is to play in the country, and going abroad is to play in a place where you don’t understand the language, maybe it’s more fun.”

I suddenly understood where Zhou Yirou's rebellion came from.Just like she came to this key school, no one cared whether she wanted to come or not, her parents thought it was good for her, the school only charged money to do things, the teachers let her go, and her classmates were biased.

This is like an unsolvable deadlock, no one will bow their heads, no one will admit their mistakes, Zhou Yirou has always held the perspective of a bystander, living her life indifferently.Do what you want, and do what you don't want to do. It seems that if you make others unhappy, her unhappiness can be relieved.

I didn't say anything, I'm not very good at comforting people, and I know Zhou Yirou doesn't need comforting.But thinking about never seeing her again, I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Zhou Yirou raised her eyebrows, "So I'm here to say goodbye to you, Xu Changnian, why didn't you say anything?"

I said: "I thought I would be very happy..." Zhou Yirou narrowed her eyes dangerously, and I quickly turned around, "But actually not at all."

Me: "I can't change your parents' decision, and I can't help you. If you're leaving, I can only wish you the best of luck."

Zhou Yirou listened uncharacteristically, waited until I finished speaking, said "um", stood up straight, lowered her head and clapped her hands to shake off the dust.After confirming that her hands were clean, Zhou Yirou raised her head and looked directly at me, "Xu Changnian, you are a good person, but I am not."

"I think I should like you a little bit. Logically speaking, I should wish you happiness. But I don't like Cai Yujing, so I want to wish you happiness."

"In case you are unhappy someday, maybe you can come to a foreign country to seek refuge with me, but it depends on my mood whether I will take you in or not."

I looked at Zhou Yirou, and out of nowhere, I reached out and touched her head.Zhou Yirou had the expression of seeing a ghost.

I couldn't help smiling, "Before I leave, would you like a hug, Mr. Zhou?" After speaking, I opened my hands, waiting for Zhou Yirou's response.

Zhou Yirou was stunned for a moment, and immediately slapped my hand away, "Get lost! Who wants to hug you!"

I was beaten suddenly, and my sensational feelings were wiped out, but immediately Zhou Yirou rushed forward and hugged me tightly.It's July, and the clothes are thin, and the feeling of being wet on the chest is clearly conveyed.

"Xu Changnian."

"Ah."

"You miss me."

"it is good."

"Forget it, don't think about me."

"Oh."

"You don't ask me why?"

"why?"

"I don't want to sneeze every day! You're so stupid."

"Oh……"

"Oh hell! Why do you respond to what I say?"

"..."

A woman's heart, a sea needle.I bravely touched her head again, "You will be happy. In fairy tales, princesses always go through many hardships in order to grow up healthily and happily."

Zhou Yirou: "Childish, I never read fairy tales."

I:"……"

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