Why is my love at first sight different from others

[Good question, this proves that you are dating a real person and not a virtual cardboard person. ]

Yang Le received his mother's reply, sighed, and his mother became serious again... In the middle of the night, he didn't want to disturb his mother anymore, so Yang Le put his phone aside and lay on his bed... What is Xu Qizhi really? What kind of mood did you tell yourself about this matter... Yang Le was a little puzzled. If he hadn't said it himself, maybe he would never know about it in his entire life, and he wouldn't quarrel with him because of it. Why did you tell yourself this at the risk of a possible breakup... Is it just to not hide from me...

Unable to understand why Xu Qizhi told him this matter, Yang Le turned his head and thought about what the two of them should do next. Can this matter be regarded as never happened?Can I accept Xu Qizhi who has had such an experience?Can the house he bought for seven years still be able to live in?Yang Le thought for a while, feeling a little irritable, he simply covered his head, turned back and forth on the bed several times as before, but fell into insomnia again...

Turning over and getting out of bed, I wanted to make a cup of chamomile tea. When I held the tea bag in my hand, I thought of Xu Qizhi again, so I put it back. This was the first time the two had quarreled since they dated for nearly two months. Yang Le forced I didn't think about anything, I lay on the bed until the early morning and finally fell asleep...

Woke up the next day to check the time. Seeing that he was going to be late for work, Yang Le didn't have time to worry too much, so he packed himself up and went downstairs to take the car, but when he got out of the unit, he saw Xu Qizhi standing Downstairs, Yang Le paused, but went up to meet him.

"Why are you here?" Yang Le saw that his mobile phone was carrying a pocket, so he knew what it was, but he still asked.Before Yang Le complained that he was very troubled to eat takeaway at the company at noon, and there was nothing delicious to choose from. Later, Xu Qizhi volunteered to prepare lunch for him.

"I prepared lunch for you, take it to the company to eat..." Xu Qizhi handed over the lunch box in his hand.

"Okay..." Yang Le took it over, "Then... I'll go first..."

After finishing speaking, he went to work by car, got on the subway, took out his mobile phone and checked the time, only to realize that Xu Qizhi had sent him a message in the middle of the night, so he clicked on it...

[Yang Yang, I'm sorry to tell you such a thing suddenly. Since we dated you, I have wanted to confess this matter to you many times, but I have never found an opportunity for you to accept it easily. Regarding the past, I have no ability to change it. But for the future, I will try my best to do well.I know it must be hard for you to accept it now, but can I continue to treat you well? ]

Looking at the time, it was sent after two o'clock in the morning, and now it's less than eight o'clock. When he went out at 07:30, he must have not slept well, and he got up early in the morning to prepare lunch for him. I didn't sleep at night, after thinking about it, Yang Le replied: I need a little time, let me calm down and think about it, during this period, I don't need to help me prepare bento anymore.

Open the chat interface with my mother again, enter: make an appointment for a psychological consultation with the big doctor at night

Mama Yang returns: double the night shift fee~

Yang Le smiled and put away the phone.

The night Yang Le left from him, Xu Qi stayed up all night, staring at the ceiling with his eyes open, and slowly typed the message with his fingers and sent it... Lying on the bed, he recalled the days when he just entered, young and frivolous, He thought it was just another place to sleep, and he would be accompanied by food, drink, and company, but he didn’t expect that once the prison clothes were changed and the door was closed, such a dark life would hit him like it would never end. He lay in the cell at night and opened his eyes. But I can't see my fingers...Desperately trying to see clearly...It's dawn in a trance...

Thinking of preparing lunch for Yang Yang at noon, Xu Qizhi was full of motivation again. He didn't sleep all night, but he didn't feel tired at all when cooking in the kitchen. As far as I know, he usually leaves the house at [-]:[-], so he changed his clothes and waited downstairs for Yang Le with his bento box...

It was a little later than usual, but at least it was time... Xu Qizhi looked at Yang Le's messy hair, resisted the urge to touch him, and just stepped forward to pass the rice over.But overnight, the two of them were full of embarrassment even when they spoke.

I don't know if Yang Yang has received that message...but...he is still willing to take this bento...he still has a chance...until he got home and received a text message from Yang Le...

What does it mean to calm down... want to break up?It must not be...Yang Yang said he needed time...then give him time...a day...two days...a week...even a year, as long as Yang Yang can accept himself...you can wait for as long...

He lived to be 27 and waited for a ray of light, as long as he can stand beside Yang Yang again, it will be worth waiting any longer...

It's just... all the hopes that Xu Qizhi built for himself during this period were lost bit by bit after reading a lot of Baidu... one day... two days... a week passed, and Yang Le didn't contact him. Baidu said, Once many people do not contact...they will gradually alienate until they become strangers...Xu Qizhi didn't believe it, so he continued to search and saw many posts from people who claimed to be authoritative, saying that the subconscious meaning of the other party's proposal to calm down for a while was to break up... Xu Qizhi felt so cold... hugged the quilt and fell asleep next to Lelewo again...

He wanted to continue to greet Yang Le carelessly so as not to lose contact, but he was afraid that Yang Le would feel annoyed, which would only increase his troubles, so he took the phone and repeatedly typed...withdraw...uncontrollable...finally he chose In order to open the chat interface with myself... Tell me what I miss in my heart...

[Yang Yang... miss you so much...]

[Have you had a good meal...]

[It looks good today...]

[Missing you...can't sleep...]

[I know you don't really want to separate from me...]

[I'm sorry... I really regret it...]

[Where is the regret medicine... I will definitely buy it back...]

[It's cooling down...wear more...]

[I'm so cold...do you want to hug me...]

[I came back very late these days... I worked hard overtime...]

[Lele misses you...do you want to come and see Lele...just take a look from a distance...]

[Do you want me anymore...]

……

In the next few days, Yang Le's work was not in a good state, and he was teased several times by Jin Jie, but fortunately, there was nothing wrong with his work.Xu Qizhi hasn't come to him these few days, nor sent him a message. Yang Le couldn't help but flipped through his Weibo, and even the daily good night inscription on Weibo hasn't been posted for a long time. As if disappeared, I can't help but feel a little worried, but I don't know how to speak... Obviously I said to calm down...

Finally, it was time to make an appointment with my mother. He was clearly his own son, but he couldn’t make an appointment for a consultation within three days... After waiting for a week, Yang Le was scratching his head... I wanted to let my mother untie it quickly I have a knot in my heart and immediately go to Xu Qizhi...

Picking up the video chat, Yang Le cut straight to the point, "Mom, what should I do?"

"What do you mean?"

"I'm not kidding, I'm serious, what should I do if I find that the other party is not as perfect as I imagined..."

"What's wrong with Xu?"

"Uh..." Mingming really wanted to know the answer. When Mama Yang asked about this, Yang Le didn't really want to tell her. After all...it's not a glamorous thing...

"Well, let me ask. It doesn't need to be regarded as any psychological consultation, it's purely for our mother and son to chat~" Yang Le nodded at the screen.

"Has he changed his mind?"

"No! How is it possible!"

"You found out that he was cheating on your feelings?"

"Qizhi is not that kind of person! Oh, let me tell you, mom, he was the one who told me frankly that he had been in prison..."

Mama Yang was surprised this time... "Really? Son, what crime?"

"Robbery, I have been in it for seven years."

Mama Yang frowned, "He used to be a robber?! I really didn't expect that."

"No, no, Mom! Don't say that...then what... he didn't do it, he admitted it for others..."

"He lied."

"Impossible." Yang Le retorted, "Qizhi never lied to me."

"Then why didn't you know about this before?"

"That's... that's... because I didn't ask..."

"Then how can you be sure that he didn't lie to you about this?"

"He...I've seen his eyes, I believe he didn't lie to me...and...he didn't have to lie to me...If he really wanted to lie to me, he wouldn't tell me about it..."

"So... now you two broke up?"

"No! Of course not, I just said that I need a little time to think about it."

"Son, do you want to hear Mom's opinion?"

"Yes." Yang Le nodded.

"Mom thinks this matter is really not easy for people to accept, but we can't generalize that all people who have been in prison are bad people, and we can't say that all people who have come out have not reformed themselves. Since you believe that he did not lie to you, then Just do what's on your mind."

"But in my heart..."

"How long have you known each other?" Mama Yang asked instead of answering Yang Le's words.

"Two months."

"What do you think he is like?"

"Gentle...considerate, steady...and cautious...quiet...no dispute with the world..."

"Sounds like advantages, can you say a few disadvantages?"

"Emmm" Yang Le thought for a while, and then said, "He really doesn't have any major shortcomings... If I have to say it, it might be a bit boring, and I don't have much passion with him..."

"People say that people who are in love have too much dopamine in their brain, and they fall into a situation where they are overwhelmed by love. Have you ever felt that way?"

"Don't talk about getting carried away... I don't even feel passionately in love... To be precise, I don't have the fanatical feeling of being in love. It's more like drinking a cup of hot tea in an ordinary life."

"If I hand you a glass of spirits now and ask you to give up this cup of tea, would you be willing?"

"Mom—" Yang Le changed his sitting position, "You know I don't drink..."

"You know that's not what I meant."

"There is no 'best person' in this world. There are always other wines and beverages. They may be more stimulating than tea, and may have better sales than tea, but only tea makes people have a long aftertaste. And , now that I have identified the tea, I will not taste the wine." After Yang Le finished speaking, he looked at the screen, and his mother had a clear expression.

"Da'er, tell mom honestly, is this really your first time in love?"

"Really... what's wrong..."

"It's a set of principles, and it doesn't look like someone who is in love for the first time."

"I analyzed blindly..." Yang Le scratched his head, a little embarrassed.

"When I was in college, I wrote a three-page letter of apology to my little girl, did I analyze it like this..." Yang Le's expression changed as soon as Mama Yang said the words...

"Mom... can you stop telling people's faults..."

"Okay, let's get back to the point. If you are unwilling to give up tea even when you have strong wine in front of you, then his dullness is not an unacceptable shortcoming to you. Your only hesitation is his past. Is it right?"

"For a while... I really can't accept it... Mom... If it were you, would you accept it...?"

"The person who lives with him is always you, not me. All Mom can tell you is that the past can no longer be changed. If you can accept it, then it will be fine. If you can't accept it, then we will separate completely."

Yang Le listened, lowered his head, he didn't want to separate... the past really couldn't be changed, he only wished he didn't know Xu Qizhi when he was alone, and stayed by his side...

……

When he hung up the phone, Yang Le already had an answer in his mind. Could it be that he really wanted to ask the current Xu Qizhi for an explanation for the past seven years of prison life... Opening the chat interface, without the slightest hesitation, he entered a sentence I sent the message to my mother, and then slept a rare good sleep during this time...

[I know the answer, I will take time off at the end of the year to take him back. ]