Rebirth of the Aspirations of Choucheng

In just a few minutes, my father's face turned from yellow to white, and then from white to blue. His hands and knees were trembling uncontrollably, which was pitiful.He looked to the left and then to the right, his eyes turned slowly, his eyes swept across the dark crowd, it seemed that he wanted to find the pair of sons and daughters who did not live up to expectations, but what if he found it?What was supposed to happen had already happened, even happened bit by bit under his nose, but he was still immersed in the drama of father's kindness, son's filial piety, and a happy family, without knowing it.

Originally, my father had always been in good health and knew how to keep in good health. He looked much younger than his peers. Maybe it all happened too suddenly. In just the blink of an eye, a handsome business tycoon quickly weakened into a weak man. The old man in Rong, if it wasn't for the support of his little mother Fang Yao, he might have fallen on the chair already.

Lu Xiaoyan strode up to his father, took advantage of the opportunity to support his father's arm and sent it towards the stairs, his face was full of concern: "Dad, let my little mother accompany you upstairs to rest, just leave it to me to deal with it .”

Those shrewd decisions of his father have long since disappeared. Hearing Lu Xiaoyan's words, he really moved his feet obediently, and he did not forget to support the guests and said: "Everyone, I am not greeting you well, let me go upstairs and change clothes, everyone. Just take care of yourself..."

For a proud man like his father, making a fool of himself in public is definitely a fatal blow, not to mention that this blow came from his proudest pair of sons and daughters.It wasn't that he was timid and wanted to escape, he was really afraid that if he didn't leave quickly, he would lose his composure in public again, and then lose all his remaining face.

After walking a few steps, my father seemed to think of something again, and he turned his head and said to the secretary who came after him: "Leave this to Xiaoyan, and you should deal with the media as soon as possible, no matter what method you think of, you must suppress the matter." !"

There was a hint of embarrassment on the secretary's face: "I... will try my best."

"I heard that a starlet committed suicide today," my mother carefully reminded me, "It was because of drug use."

The secretary was taken aback for a moment, and soon understood what my mother meant, and nodded quickly: "Okay Mr. Lu, Mrs. Lu, I know what to do."

Ling Xi was going to shoot a car chase scene that night, and the girl Lyle liked in the movie was about to go abroad. He asked him out to meet for the last time, and wanted to say goodbye formally, but he was late for rehearsal.On the way, he thought a lot about confessing and keeping the other party, but when he arrived, the girl had already got in the car and left. Lyle chased the car and ran for a long distance until she felt exhausted, then slowly stopped, watched the car drive out of sight, then turned around and walked back alone in despair.But what he didn't know was that the car stopped at the intersection in front of it. After getting off the bus, the girl sat on the platform and waited for a long time. Unfortunately, she never got to Lyle until another bus came. gone.

This is the most common intersection in the city, and it is also the most common intersection in romance novels. Romantic encounters, hand in hand, erroneous circumstances, parting ways, similar bridges are staged every day.Feng An said to Ling Xi, lyle, you see, life is very long, full of crossroads like this one after another, whether it is relatives, friends or lovers, maybe the moment you turn around is a farewell, maybe you just missed those few steps, But he gave up all his life.

At first Ling Xi couldn't figure out the effect Feng An wanted, he tried to imagine Lyle's feelings at that moment, was it regret?Or self-blame?Or was he angry after being teased by fate?It doesn't seem to be accurate, so I tried a few times before and it was not ideal.

Until tonight, he seemed to suddenly realize that, yes, it was helplessness, the powerlessness he felt deeply in the face of this complicated and volatile world.If it hadn't been for him impulsively standing up for himself in the backstage of the Golden Melody Awards, Cheng Che wouldn't have been videotaped and posted on the Internet, and he wouldn't have been kicked out of a drug scandal because of it. He wouldn't take his "competitor" seriously. If he hadn't warmly and proactively extended his hand to say hello when he first met, he wouldn't have accepted Cheng Che and Cheng Che as friends so quickly uncharacteristically, and naturally he wouldn't have gone to this place. The tragic ending is over, but unfortunately there is no such thing as "what if" in the world... For a small individual, you can't control others, let alone everyone. The only thing you can control is yourself, and even in many cases, you can't even control yourself. Can't control it.

In order to achieve the most perfect effect, Feng An pursued excellence in every detail. Just the simple running action changed the camera position and shot dozens of times. When Lu Xiaoyan and Lin Guangle arrived on the set, Ling Xi ran into a T-shirt They were all drenched, and they were squatting on the side of the road vomiting acid water.

Assistant Baomei stood far away, holding a blanket in her left hand and a water glass in her right hand, but she never walked over.Lu Xiaoyan looked at the side for a while, and gradually became a little displeased: "What are you thinking? Don't you have to work after receiving the salary?"

Baomei gave Lu Xiaoyan a blank look: "It's not you who pay me my salary."

Lu Xiaoyan didn't bother to get angry with a little girl, so he simply took the water glass from Bao Mei, planning to go out in person, but Bao Mei quickly snatched the water glass back: "Don't make trouble, the director will scold you later." Feng An, who was sitting behind the monitor, glanced at it, and muttered in a low voice, "The director doesn't let the staff get in touch with him too much, for fear of spoiling the mood. Besides, it's better to work hard now than dragging the retakes one by one."

Lu Xiaoyan turned his head to look at Feng An, coincidentally Feng An was also looking at him, his eyes met, Lu Xiaoyan smiled shyly, and had no choice but to go over to say hello to Feng An.As for the purpose of this trip, he just put all his efforts on Lin Guangle's head. Anyway, Century Star is the film investor, and it is understandable for the big boss to occasionally come to inspect the project.

Because of his mother Kong Fanzhen's relationship, Feng An has always been kind to Lu Xiaoyan, treating him like his own junior.Perhaps seeing the dissatisfaction and resistance in Lu Xiaoyan's heart, Feng An said with a smile: "You see, I am in my 40s, and I am in my prime, but I only found out when I went to the old school reunion a few days ago. A classmate passed away early. One of them was at the same table as me when I was studying. He was on the school basketball team. He was as strong as a bull. I heard that he had made an appointment with his friends to go fishing the day before, but he fell asleep that night. I feel, people just left without making a sound."

Lu Xiaoyan didn't understand Feng An's implication for a while, so he just pursed his lips in embarrassment and didn't answer.

Feng An picked up his teacup and took a sip, then said slowly: "Life is short and impermanent, the most important thing is not to waste every day, especially if you are in the entertainment industry. It can be seen that you and President Lin care about Ling Xi very much. You should figure out one thing, what is really good to him, what is 'what you think' is good to him, if you want to fulfill him, just do everything as I said, I can guarantee that his hard work will not be in vain waste."

Feng An's words were unintentional, but Lu Xiaoyan inevitably listened to them. He smiled unnaturally, and tried to pretend to be a brother who loved his younger brother in an excuse: "After all, he is young, and it's his first filming..."

"After all, he is a man and an adult, and he can bear much more than you imagined." Feng An sighed with emotion, "Oh, 20 years old is indeed young, but Xiaoyan, there are many things you don't understand. Do it now, and wait until the opportunity slips away before it's too late."

Lu Xiaoyan frowned slightly, his eyes wandered to Ling Xi, and he murmured to himself and repeated: "Yeah... I didn't do it at the time, and it will be too late to regret it..."

Soon, Ling Xi walked over by herself, silently took the water cup from Baomei's hand and rinsed her mouth, then took the blanket to wrap herself around her body, then stood behind the director silently and watched the replay together.From the beginning to the end, he didn't look sideways, and didn't notice Lu Xiaoyan's existence at all.

Everyone was satisfied with this one, and it finally passed. The director began to direct the staff to prepare for the next scene. Get your hair done.There were two huge dark circles under Ling Xi's eyes, which couldn't be covered by several layers of foundation, and the eye sockets were also sunken. When everyone left after busy work, he just stood there blankly, not knowing what he was thinking.A gust of wind blew by, and the wide T-shirt fluttered back and forth, and it hung on his shoulders with difficulty. He was obviously a tall person, but it seemed that he was only supported by a skeleton. read.

Sitting on the next step were two extras who had changed their clothes and were waiting for the scene. One was fat and the other was thin. Because they were bored, they played and chatted with their mobile phones.The fatter one seemed to have found some big news, so he quickly elbowed his companion: "Hey, did you see that Golden Melody Award newcomer jumped off the building?"

Another thin and tall man stretched his head and leaned over to take a look: "What's your name, is your surname Cheng? This kind of self-inflicted person deserves it, is he dead?"

The fat man looked down and fiddled with the phone: "I don't know yet, but the noise is so loud, it looks like hype."

The thin and tall man nodded in agreement: "Now it's who will hype who is the most popular, hype when love changes, charity hype, suicide hype, and someone with a lot of scandals like him probably wants to gain sympathy points." , When the limelight passes, you can continue to cheat money again."

Ling Xi stood not far away, and heard the conversation between the two clearly. Suddenly, he interjected expressionlessly: "Cheng Che didn't commit suicide, he was just dancing. He accidentally fell down the stairs. He doesn’t like hype either.”

The tall, thin man who seemed to have a prejudice against Cheng Che didn't take it seriously: "You know? He knows people and faces but doesn't know his heart. This kind of person takes drugs and fights, and is not clear about being involved with rich women. It's not a good thing, maybe even the prize was bought, those old women are willing to spend money on the little boy, I guess the villa sports car must be..."

Before he could finish speaking, Ling Xi had already rushed over and kicked the other party to the ground: "He was not taken care of by others! He got the award for his ability! He only fights to stand up for his friends!"

After shooting the car chase scene all night, Ling Xi's physical strength has already been exhausted, and her voice is also hoarse. At this moment, her voice is a little louder, and she is extremely hoarse, like a hunter who has accidentally fallen into the ordinary animal cage of a hunter. Animals that can't escape.

Seeing that his companion suffered a loss, the fat man immediately became annoyed, shouting: "What are you doing! What are you doing!" He got up and wanted to do something.

Not to be outdone, Ling Xi raised her fist and went straight to meet him.Luckily, everyone rushed over after hearing the news, pulled them aside in time, and tried to persuade them, but Ling Xi seemed to be crazy, violently irritable, and his strength was several times stronger than usual, and even the circles under his eyes were swollen. Red, Baomei and Lin Guangle could not help him when they teamed up together.

Lu Xiaoyan realized that the situation was wrong, so he ran over a few steps and surrounded Ling Xi from behind, and at the same time whispered comfortingly in his ear: "Stop Ling Xi, be good, stop... Be good... It's okay, it's okay..."

When Ling Xi calmed down a bit, Lu Xiaoyan dragged him back to the nanny's car, threw him into the seat, turned around and pushed Lin Guangle who came after him out of the car, and kicked his ass: "Follow around What, tell those two people to shut up, and then the money is sent, go!"

There was hot coffee prepared in advance in the car, Lu Xiaoyan poured a cup and handed it to Ling Xi, Ling Xi didn't realize Lu Xiaoyan's existence until then: "Why are you here?"

Holding the paper cup for a long time, seeing that Ling Xi didn't intend to take it at all, Lu Xiaoyan simply grabbed the other's hand and stuffed it in forcefully: "Do you want to add sugar? Drinking something sweet might make you feel better."

After being silent for a full 5 minutes, Ling Xi never spoke again, nor did he drink the cup of coffee that Lu Xiaoyan poured for him, but just stared at the white steam rising from the hot coffee in a trance.

"Don't think too much..." Lu Xiaoyan had no choice but to bite the bullet and comfort Ling Xi, "The road is his own, and no one needs to be responsible for anyone. Whether he committed suicide or fell from a building, there is no other way. There is no difference, if he hadn’t touched those deadly drugs, he would not have come to where he is today, failure and death are all caused by him, it has nothing to do with you, and you don’t need to blame yourself.”

Ling Xi raised his head and looked at Lu Xiaoyan blankly for a while, then turned his eyes to the cup of coffee again: "He left with a misunderstanding of me... until he died, he blamed me..."

Lu Xiaoyan walked up to Ling Xi, leaned over with his hands on the seat, and stared at Ling Xi condescendingly: "I assure you, if it is finally found out that Mu Xia did it, I will make him pay for your life."

Ling Xi shook her head: "What's the point?"

Lu Xiaoyan frowned and exhaled heavily: "Then what do you want?"

Ling Xi thought for a long time: "I want Cheng Che to come back to life."

From Lu Xiaoyan's point of view, there was no way to continue the conversation so far, he turned around and opened the car door and walked out, then slammed the door with a "bang".

Although he was angry and wanted to just leave, he didn't really leave. Feng An's words were like pressing the loop button, and they kept circling in his ears... Yes, there are many things that don't happen right away. It's too late to do it... In his previous life, he didn't cherish Ling Xi and missed Ling Xi. In this life, he looks forward and backward. Will he miss Ling Xi again?Originally, the alienation and refusal was to protect Ling Xi, but in fact, doing so did not have any effect.In the final analysis, he has no way to really leave Ling Xi. Ling Xi is his strong and fearless confidence, his obsession with reincarnation, and the only consolation for his tragic fate of rebellion. The love and possessiveness in his heart are getting stronger and stronger. , he couldn't hold it anymore, and couldn't pretend anymore, he really couldn't let Ling Xi go, not even for a second...

Leaning on the car door and smoking a cigarette quietly, Lu Xiaoyan turned around and got into the car, sat down solemnly opposite Ling Xi and cleared his throat: "Listen Ling Xi, I'm not that capable of bringing the dead back to life. How good and important to you, can I replace him? What can he do to you, what do you need him to do, I will replace him."

Ling Xi stared blankly at Lu Xiaoyan for a while: "Can you sing on stage with me?"

Lu Xiaoyan moved his mouth, he was so full of emotion that he couldn't even utter a word.

"We agreed that when the other party held their first concert, we would be guests and stand on the stage together. He said that he would sit on that kind of golden throne and descend from the stage, surrounded by white feathers. , there must be tens of thousands of fans waving light sticks below... At that time, I laughed at him for being too involved in his dreams... He even thought out the opening and choreographed the dance, and he just won the newcomer award ...Now those dreams he has will never come true..." Ling Xi looked down at the cup of coffee, a drop of tears fell into the cup, splashing circular ripples.Taking advantage of not being discovered by Lu Xiaoyan, he quickly raised his sleeve and wiped his eyes, pretending nothing happened.

"When you have a concert, I'll be your fan, help you wave the light stick, and accompany you in the audience, is that okay?" Lu Xiaoyan struggled for a while, then decided to go all out, "From now on, I'll be with you —as long as I live."