when i dress up as zhuge liang

My name is Leng Yuming.

This is probably a story about "unrequited love".

Ten years ago, I was 17 years old and Xiao Fei was 11 years old.One in high school and one in elementary school.

Before I met Xiaofei, I was a silent and somewhat sullen person, and my mother was overprotective of me and almost never let me go out alone.

According to the doctor, I have mild depression which stems from complicated family relationships.

Because I don't have a father.

Or rather, I once had a dad.

My mother was attracted by the handsomeness and romance of that young, brilliant man who had a modest but respectable job.The two came together regardless of their grandfather's obstruction, and lived an ordinary and warm life.But later, my dad was suppressed by his boss, and his work became more and more difficult.

Until one day, he was coaxed to light a cigarette laced with drugs.

My father loves my mother very much, even when he was tortured to death by drugs, he still loved her deeply.

He killed himself after being put in rehab so as not to be a burden to us, which made me even more dull.My mother was also nearly collapsed by the successive bad news, but she endured all the pain for me.

Thanks to the neighbor Uncle Xie for help during that difficult time.He stopped grandpa for my mother, and brought Xiao Fei to my side.

That was the first time I saw Xiaofei.

An 11-year-old child is so sensible that I feel ashamed.He read the story to me with a book in his hand, with almost no expression on his face.

No one understands him better than me.This child who lost his mother at the age of six is ​​much stronger than me.

His silence was not due to depression, but evidence of an active mind.That little head is full of interesting things, from alien life to ants on the dinner table, from the willow tree in front of the door to the stains on the draft.

Sometimes he would draw them down, and then secretly stuff them into his schoolbag after he finished them, like some kind of precious treasure, not wanting to be peeped by anyone.

But I saw it, and was pleasantly surprised.

What a beautiful thing, a secret that only the two of us know.

He hardly ever talks to me except to read stories.But every day after school, he will definitely bring homework to my house, lie beside me and write seriously; every night for dinner, he will definitely come over with a small bowl, and will give me the few meat dishes, with a clear expression in his eyes. Said: "Eat it quickly, if you don't eat it, I will bite you!"

Ha, braised pork is the favorite of silly kids, but they always keep it for me.

There is someone who just eats with me, reads books with me, and tells me stories so quietly. It is extremely simple and seems insignificant, but for me at that time, it was a kind of salvation.

I don't quite know what the feeling of soreness in my chest means, I just know that I look forward to seeing him every day.I want to see him wandering into the sky in a serious manner, and I want to hear his clear and tender voice.

We have been getting along in silence like this, we obviously don't say a word, but we know each other like family members.

Until one day, my grandfather found me.

My grandfather was a shrewd and wealthy businessman.He loves his daughter deeply, but has been unilaterally avoided for many years.After my father died, he wanted to take us back to the Tao family, but he never got his wish.

Uncle Xie's enthusiasm was misunderstood. In order to protect my mother, my grandfather talked to Uncle Xie alone.He promised to provide Xiaofei with a better educational environment and help Uncle Xie open a supermarket, the only condition is that he wants them to move.

Uncle Xie agreed to the request to move, but rejected his kindness.

Uncle Xie explained the situation of me and Xiao Fei to Grandpa.

Grandpa knew that Xiaofei was my only friend at present, and he was worried that Xiaofei's departure would aggravate my condition, so he explained it to me.He said that I will meet Xiaofei when I recover and become better, then Xiaofei will be very happy and I can become a reliable friend.

It was also from that moment that I realized that just being with you is not enough.I hope that I can become Xiao Fei's dependence, and even... occupy the rest of his life.

I didn't tell anyone about this selfish thought, but it kept fermenting in my heart.

On the day Xiaofei moved away, I spoke for the first time: "Will you recognize me when we meet again?"

The child tilted his head, his eyes against the light were like some kind of dazzling gemstones, he said: "Yes, I will definitely be able to call out your name by then, and you should remember me too, Brother Yuming."

It was a very small voice, but it was as gentle as a promise.

I nodded seriously.

However, after Uncle Xie moved, he never contacted us again, and Xiaofei disappeared from my world as if he had evaporated.

For ten years, I have repeated that sentence countless times.I look forward to meeting Xiao Fei again, I want to hug him tightly; I want to smile at him and say a lot of words; I want to tell him that my illness is cured... I want to be with him all the time.

This strong desire was released in a charming dream.

I couldn't see his face clearly, but I firmly believed that it was him.

I entered his body, listening to him softly calling "Brother Yuming" over and over again; seeing his slender legs dangling in front of my eyes, and beads of sweat dripping down his chest onto my face.

I tried to catch him, but I couldn't.

The overwhelming desperation was driving me crazy.

I love him, love to be at a loss, love to be unable to extricate myself.

My mother finally noticed my abnormality, but quickly accepted the news.Compared with that perverted love, she is more worried about my body.

The man who had been stubborn for 20 years finally bowed his head to his grandfather.When we returned to Tao's house, the old man hugged us and cried like a child.

Not long after, I finally found Xiao Fei.

My little fly.

He has grown into a handsome young man, with gentle eyebrows and eyes, calm and steady, but still reticent.

He likes to play a competitive mobile game. Whenever he hears this, his eyes light up and the corners of his mouth turn up.

I also made an account and played pretty well.

Originally, I didn't intend to appear in front of him so soon, but that day I happened to go to their school as the invigilator of the English Level [-] exam, and I happened to meet him again.

However, he didn't recognize me.

The cautious look in his eyes clearly regarded me as a stranger.

I was very sad, so I put on a serious face subconsciously, but when I saw him bowing his head and looking aggrieved, I regretted it.

Originally, I wanted to go to him the next day to explain everything, but was brought into the game by a bright light.

I crossed over and became Zhao Yun.

Unlike Xiaofei, this is Zhao Yun's active request, so I can communicate with him.

It turned out that his sweetheart Zhuge Liang had seriously damaged his spiritual power because of his excess knowledge.In order to protect him, the system selected Xiao Fei with stronger mental power, and wanted him to temporarily take over Zhuge Liang's body.

As much as I love Xiao Fei, Zhao Yun loves Zhuge Liang as much.

He couldn't face a lover who changed consciousness, so he brought me in without authorization.He firmly believed that I would do my best to protect Xiaofei, and naturally I also protected Zhuge Liang.

I agreed.

The condition is that I can leave the game and return to reality at any time, and they must compensate Xiaofei.

The cooperation was quickly reached.

As expected, Xiao Fei was brought here.

In the game world, he complains more and his expressions are more realistic.I originally wanted to tell him who I was, but seeing his blushing face, I held back silently.

Maybe he really likes Zhao Yun?Whether it's a kiss or a hug, he blushes and accepts it.

Obviously it was exactly the same words, but I made him cry when I said it myself, but I got a hug when I said it as Zhao Yun.

I'm so jealous.

After several stimulations, the system finally confirmed that Zhuge Liang's consciousness had completely fallen asleep.

Soon after, we are transported 100 years ago.

Zhuang Zhou has a very terrifying ability, all his dreams will become reality.

The so-called 100 years ago is actually a dream of Zhuang Zhou.He recalls history in his dreams, and those dreams become reality, independent of the game world.

Not only the world of kings, but even the world we exist in is probably just a dream of Zhuang Zhou.

But I don't care.

Why do you have to see so clearly whether it is true or false?I just firmly believe that where I am is real, and no matter where I go, I will definitely be with the people I love.

We started to search for the heavenly book, and met one hero after another.

Both the system and I have selfish motives, so this trip, which was supposed to be very short, was lengthened several times and lasted for a whole year.

During this year, I gave Xiaofei everything I could, and only went out twice.

Once after we left the Qin Palace, and once in Changbanpo.

I have never killed anyone.

So when the viscous blood splashed on my face, my mind trembled like thunder.

At that moment, I only had one thought: I can't let them hurt Xiao Fei.

That's my little fly.

I waved my arms mechanically, flesh and blood flew, and the screams echoed in my ears, but I couldn't see anything.

In the end, I was the only one left on the battlefield.

When Xiao Fei woke up, my consciousness was still very chaotic, and I was eager to prove his existence.I kissed him like crazy, kneaded his body, almost couldn't help wanting to penetrate him.

But he responded.

He comforted me carefully, licking me like a little beast with the soft tip of his tongue, and I regained my senses almost instantly.

This is my Xiaofei, he can always warm me in his own way when I am most painful and helpless.

Whether it was ten years ago or now, he is my salvation.

Zhao Yun likes Zhuge Liang.

But I like Xie Xiaofei.

After the dust settled, Zhuge Liang's mental power finally recovered.

Zhuang Zhou sent Xiaofei back to our world and told me that he would most likely forget everything that happened here.

Will you forget?

It doesn't matter, I just remember.

"You are Zhao Zilong, right?" Xiao Fei asked me like this.

"No." I said so.

Of course I am not Zhao Zilong.

How could I be that stupid guy with a negative EQ?

He has been secretly in love with Zhuge Liang for more than 100 years, and it has already become a well-known thing in the canyon. Even Zhuge Liang himself acquiesced in their relationship.But that idiot thought he had concealed it well, and continued his "secret love" life like an idiot.

100 years?

No kidding, ten years is the limit for me.

I am Leng Yuming, and I love Xie Xiaofei.

Now!immediately!Gotta tell him right away!

No one wants to stop it.

The author has something to say:

Teacher Leng was pulled in by Zhao Yun, they belonged to the py transaction, so Teacher Leng knew everything, and could return to reality at any time.Xiaofei was selected by the system from the very beginning, it has nothing to do with Teacher Leng~

There's another update tonight, okay?