i saw a bear

At night, Yu Duoduo took out those picture albums again, lying on the bed and flipping through them one by one.Most of these paintings have two people, a child and a woman.Sometimes only the child is playing alone, and when the child is alone, there is always a bear by his side.

"This is me." Xiong pointed to the bear in the painting.

"It doesn't look like that at all." It was a bear cub, about half the size of a child, painted brown.

"It doesn't look like much." Xiong retorted.

"I grew up."

"Duo Duo has grown up, and I have grown up too."

Yu Duoduo was a little confused, "Will the teddy bear grow up too?"

"Of course, if you don't grow up, you won't be able to protect Duoduo."

Protection, hearing this word again, Yu Duoduo exploded, this word is meaningless, no matter whether it is Li Xuan or Xiong, no one can protect him, the only one he can rely on is himself.

"It's all fake, you will all go, no one will stay with me forever..."

"I will," Xiong hugged Yu Duoduo sadly, "As long as Duoduo needs me, I will always be there."

"Why are you only showing up now?"

"Because..." Xiong's voice was very low, "Duo Duo can't do it anymore."

Yu Duoduo didn't quite understand what Xiong meant, so he shifted his attention to the painting in his hand. He could see clearly, and wrote the word "Mom" neatly next to the woman in the painting.Thinking about tomorrow, he is nervous and excited, will everything go well?

He got up from the bed and took out a piece of paper from his school bag, on which the circuit diagram was densely written.He answered Qin Zhenzhen's mobile phone and checked every step of the way there.Yu Duoduo turned a picture book to the back, and wrote with a pen while reading, "Take No. 11 first, then transfer to No. 24, and get off at the bus station... Well, there is a bus at 04:30, too late. I have to take No. 05 The class at :30..."

It was after seven o'clock when we got there. Yu Duoduo thought that he could find a place to live nearby, and go there by car after dawn. Who would be there? Would they be happy to see him?

"Mom, will mom be there?" Yu Duoduo turned to the bear on the bed and asked, "If mom sees me, she will be happy, she will be happy!" It's not so much a question, but a self-comfort .

Xiong lowered his head and put his palm on his lap, "Duodo..."

"You'll be happy, right?"

"A lot..." Hearing Yu Duoduo's expectant tone, Xiong still couldn't say what he wanted to say, "I'll be happy."

"Sure..." Yu Duoduo repeated with a smile, but his heart was empty, without any sense of reality.He was really afraid that this was just a dream, or that he would end up with nothing.He clearly knew that, out of reason, he'd better not report even the slightest hope. An address ten or twenty years ago might have moved long ago.However, he just couldn't control his delusions.

Yu Duoduo looked at the words written on the album. This album was thicker than the others, and he hadn't finished reading it yet.Yu Duoduo looked from the middle, the colors gradually became monotonous, and most of the time there was only the child alone.The cheerful scene gradually became dull, and then a man appeared.

The man is drawn very tall, far taller than the child, the whole person is black, and a red smiley face is painted on his face.Yu Duoduo's first feeling was that this was Yu Feng, a familiar unpleasant feeling.This man doesn't appear often, every time he stands very close to Yu Duoduo, and the child doesn't have a smile on his face.

After the man appeared, the woman appeared less often, only a few sporadic pictures of her standing with the man.Yu Duoduo quickly skipped over these paintings, and soon turned to the last one. The entire drawing paper was painted in red, chaotic red in different shades.After that, it is all white drawing paper.

The more Yu Duoduo turned back, the more uncomfortable he felt, and the joy and excitement before was gone.He tried hard to pull out a little memory from his mind, trying to know what happened, but there were only some shadows that could not be traced.

In the last exam, Yu Duoduo looked up at the clock in front of the classroom every few minutes, his mind was in a mess, and he didn't even know what he wrote on the paper.But his behavior is not too strange. After all, the exam is over and there will be a holiday, and many students are not thinking about the exam.

As soon as the exam was over, Yu Duoduo found Qin Zhenzhen.At this time, Qin Zhenzhen was still arguing with Jin An about the answer to the last question, and when she saw Yu Duoduo approaching, she seemed to have caught her savior.

"It's just in time," Qin Zhenzhen pulled Yu Duoduo past her, "Say, how did you do the last question?"

Yu Duoduo did not answer this question, on the contrary, his first sentence surprised Qin Zhenzhen.Yu Duoduo said: "I think, please, you have one thing."

Yu Duoduo looked around, feeling a little nervous.Qin Zhenzhen froze for a moment, then smiled and said, "As I said, you can come to me for help if you need anything."

Yu Duoduo nodded, and slowly said his request.It was just a small favor, but it was really strange for Yu Duoduo to make such a request.

"There's nothing wrong with that, but where are you going?"

"Go to see, one, very important, person." When Yu Duoduo laughed, he looked like a child, very innocent.

His is really pretty, so Qin Zhenzhen didn't continue to ask, "You should go home early!"

"En." Yu Duoduo agreed, and left with his schoolbag on his back.After walking a certain distance, Yu Duoduo stopped, waved to Qin Zhenzhen, moved his lips twice, and Qin Zhenzhen recognized that he was saying thank you to her.

This back view is no different from every time Yu Duoduo left, alone, alone, but there are some subtle differences, this time he seems to be heading towards the light.

"People have gone away, what are you looking at. I'm really angry." Jin An said this, but Qin Zhenzhen didn't hear much anger.

"I always feel that Yu Duoduo is a little different today." After Qin Zhenzhen finished speaking, she added, "Don't laugh at me."

Jin An didn't smile, he followed Qin Zhenzhen's line of sight, and Yu Duoduo was no longer in sight, "I have the same feeling, it seems like it's been a long time since we saw each other."

"A winter vacation is not very long..."

"makes sense."

Yu Duoduo boarded an unfamiliar bus by himself and headed for an unfamiliar place.This is the first time he has traveled so far alone.It's ridiculous to think about it. After living for so long, he has been going back and forth between two places, the school, and a place that he doesn't know if he can call it home.

Yu Duoduo was pushed into a corner by the crowd. This was a very novel experience. He tossed and tossed along with the crowd, and one of them lost his footing and almost fell down.The person in the seat next to him stood up and said to him, "I'm getting off the bus, you sit down."

Facing such kindness, Yu Duoduo was at a loss for a moment, looked at the man and kept shaking his head.

"Sit down, kid. Seeing how pale you are, are you sick?" The aunt on the side pushed Yu Duoduo toward the seat, "It's not easy for students nowadays."

Yu Duoduo sat down under the persuasion of the two, and expressed his thanks in embarrassment.

"That's very polite. It's not like my little bunny at all."

"Yes..." For some reason, the people around started chatting.

Yu Duoduo listened to the conversation in his ear, looked at the various faces around him, somehow, he was a little happy, the outside world was like this, full of popularity and comfortable atmosphere, maybe he should come out of the house early.

Yu Duoduo stared at the paper in his hand, and listened carefully to the bus stop announcement. There were still two stops, and he had to go to the next stop to transfer.When he heard the name of the station that he had already memorized, Yu Duoduo stood up and said to the person next to him, "I'm about to get off, you, sit down."

The man smiled and said thank you to Yu Duoduo, and sat down.

Yu Duoduo was very happy until the next shift, but his seat was given up by others, it was just such a simple thing, but Yu Duoduo couldn't control the corners of his mouth.

"Where are you going?" asked the conductor.

Yu Duoduo took out the paper, carefully read it twice, and for the first time read out the place name aloud, "Yuanhu."

"How many?"

"One, one piece."

"30."

Yu Duoduo responded for a moment, then quickly took out the money from his schoolbag and handed it to the conductor.His funny behavior made the conductor laugh, "Is it a holiday?"

"Ah."

"Going home?"

Yu Duoduo took the ticket, looked at the two words clearly printed in ink on the ticket, and replied vigorously: "Yes, go home!"

"Be careful on the road."

After Yu Duoduo got the ticket, he was very restless. He didn't know where to put the ticket in his hand. He was afraid of dropping it in his hand, and afraid of being stolen when he put it in his bag. He walked back and forth for a long time.In the end, he decided to hold it in his hands. In such a cold weather, Yu Duoduo's palms were sweating a little.

Yu Duoduo didn't dare to enter the waiting room. He felt an inexplicable timidity at the moment. At this moment, he had the urge to turn his head and walk away, fearing that his hopes would be dashed.Yu Duoduo stood for a while, found a seat outside and sat down with his schoolbag in his arms, watching the information of the buses on the big screen in the middle of the hall scrolling, watching the bus he was going to take appear on the screen, and There is half an hour.There are a few of his picture books in his schoolbag, my mother will have an impression, maybe this is what my mother watched him draw.

Would you be happy to see these?Will be happy!What if he didn't recognize his mother? Yu Duoduo became worried. He couldn't even remember what his mother looked like now. If he didn't recognize her when she appeared in front of him, her mother would be sad.Yu Duoduo stood up again and started pacing back and forth.

Is it okay to keep the bear at home? Yu Duoduo couldn't help feeling guilty when he thought of the sad expression on the bear's face in the morning.But the bear is too big, he can't take it away, if he can settle down later, he can come and take the bear away, and he can also make a new pair of eyes for the bear, what if the mother doesn't like the bear...

Seeing the time getting closer and closer, Yu Duoduo thought more and more, but he has reached this point, do he want to retreat?Just get in the car and don't think about anything else.

Yu Duoduo took a deep breath and took a step forward.

"A lot!" someone called him.