At sunset, the mountains are far away
Chapter 86
It was still the same in the next few days. The two got along very happily. From time to time, they chatted about the interesting things when they were together in junior high school. Qin Bingwan is very grateful for not going to ask.
Everything was going well, Xia Chengqi decided to persuade Qin Bingwan to go back to Chongqing to live with him, not to mention that Tao Yan was still angry with him, so he called Min Chen, who said Tao Yan hadn't come to the library for a few days , I couldn't help feeling a little worried, so I asked Min Chen to visit Tao Yan tonight.
"Xiao Qi, does Tao Yan know that you stay here like this?" Qin Bingwan tidied up the shelves and asked the absent-minded Xia Chengqi.
"I had a quarrel with her, that's why I came to Qinghai to relax. I didn't expect to meet Sister Qin, so I haven't told her yet." Xia Chengqi showed a pitiful expression, and his tone was a little regretful.
"Are you bullying someone?" Qin Bingwan stretched out her hands to pinch Xia Chengqi's face, with a playful expression on her face.Ever since Xia Chengqi accompanied her, day after day, her gloomy life of being alone finally ushered in some light.But she also knew in her heart that it was impossible for Xiao Qi to stay by her side all the time, and she only owed herself what she owed when she was 16 years old.
"That's right. She hasn't contacted me yet."
"Sister Qin, I will definitely apologize to her when I return to Chongqing and make up with her. Our wedding is coming soon, can you be my natal family? You also know that my father and I are only related by blood, and we are not related to each other. Familiar, but my mother has never contacted me before." Xia Chengqi shook Qin Bingwan's arm coquettishly, looking at the latter with expectations and requests in his eyes.
"Okay. But let Tao Yan know first, in case she is unhappy."
"I'll call her, I have one more request."
"Tell me." Qin Bingwan smiled faintly and looked at Xia Chengqi dotingly.She found that Xia Chengqi was much more cheerful than before, and she must have a great relationship with Tao Yan.
Xia Chengqi briefly stated that he wanted Qin Bingwan to live with her in Chongqing. Seeing Qin Bingwan's distressed face, he began to adopt tender tactics and begged, saying that he was an orphan without relatives by his side.
Seeing that Qin Bingwan's expression had loosened, she continued to play rogue again, threatening that if Qin Bingwan didn't go to Chongqing, she would stay in this small supermarket, otherwise Qin Bingwan would let her run away from marriage and kill her and Tao Yan's happiness Qin Bingwan had no room to refuse, so she had no choice but to agree. Xia Chengqi was so happy that she kissed the latter fiercely on the face.
"You are like this, Tao Yan will be jealous. Also, you have to get Tao Yan's consent. After all, I am not your own sister. Does Xiaoqi understand what sister means?" Qin Bingwan stroked Xia Chengqi's hair and said in a friendly voice Said.
"Understood." After Xia Chengqi finished speaking, he hugged Qin Bingwan, and kept calling "sister", "sister", "sister" in Qin Bingwan's ear, but Qin Bingwan refused to say; Jealous."
"She can't see." Xia Chengqi replied happily.
"Then tell her when I meet."
Hearing this, Xia Chengqi immediately let go, and said with a very serious expression; "Sister, my good sister, she has a small mind and a big jealousy, so she can't mess around."
"It turns out that Xiaoqi is a strict wife." Qin Bingwan pinched the tip of Xia Chengqi's nose naturally, just like they had repeated countless times many years ago.
"She is also a strict wife." Xia Chengqi replied proudly.Xia Chengqi acted like a baby, and for the first time in many years, Xia Chengqi opened up without any defense.Qin Bingwan's thorn in her heart that could not be eradicated for a long time was finally removed. The joy in her heart was indescribable. Now she just waited for reconciliation with Tao Yan and worked hard to get her consent.
The two made a table of mutton hot pot at home in the evening, and bought a few bottles of beer to cheer for the upcoming happy life.Xia Chengqi's drinking capacity was extremely poor, and he became dizzy after not drinking much, and was supported by Qin Bingwan back to the guest room and fell asleep. Tao Yan called, I miss her so much.", "She must be very angry.", "It's all my fault, it's all my fault."
Qin Bingwan took care of Xia Chengqi to lie down, sat on the edge of the bed and quietly looked down at Xia Chengqi's drunken red face, her eyes were tender and affectionate, and her heart was full of thoughts.Xiaoqi, why do you have to feel indebted to me?You were molested for many years when you were a child, and you were only in the freshman year of high school. You are so outstanding and have a bright future. How could I let those men ruin you?I have never regretted bearing the pain of that night for you.Maybe it was fate, I was pregnant, I hid you and went back to my hometown, but my parents hurriedly arranged to marry someone else, and from then on I began a miserable life that I can't bear to look back on.
And thinking of you is the only way for me to temporarily forget the pain in the long darkness.Forgive me, even if you don't know anything about this, I still can't face you calmly because of my wounds, but I am very happy to meet you again, and I spent the warm time with you these days, let I know my little Qi is very happy.
Qin Bingwan leaned over gently, and after leaving a deep kiss on Xia Chengqi's lips, she stood up quietly, and slowly closed the door with eyes full of nostalgia.
Compared with Xia Chengqi's busy, talking and laughing life in Qinghai, Tao Yan's life locked in the house is bleak and full of gloom.During the short parting, Tao Yan's heart was full of Xia Chengqi, and he always immersed himself in the deep-rooted yearning for the latter. Within a few days, he seemed to lose a lot of weight, and his plain face was pale and haggard.
"Ding dong ding dong"
Suddenly the doorbell rang, Tao Yan turned her face slowly, the joy in her heart gradually broke out, she strode towards the entrance with big strides, after hesitating for a while, she opened the door, but she couldn't help being disappointed and depressed, her heart sank again .
"Sister Yanyan, it was Sister Qi who called me and asked me to come here." Min Chen put on his shoes, carrying a few plastic bags in his hands, walked to the kitchen and started to work while talking to himself.
Tao Yan's heart moved slightly.Xia Chengqi is still worried about himself, but how long will he be willing to come back?Could it be that I was wrong again?Shouldn't she apologize for her words that hurt so much?
Tao Yan sat back on the sofa again, staring out the window in a daze.Min Chen glanced at the dazed Tao Yan, sighed slightly, and resumed his busy work.After Min Chen's meal was ready, he called Tao Yan to come over for dinner, but Tao Yan said that he had no appetite and didn't want to eat, so he let her eat by herself.
"These are the dishes you like to eat. Sister Qi asked me to buy them. Sister Yanyan, you can eat some. Sister Qi is very worried about you."
After Tao Yan thought about it for a while, he moved, walked slowly to the dining table, and glanced at the dishes on the table. As expected, they were all his favorite dishes. His appetite improved a little, and he picked up his chopsticks and started eating sullenly. .The atmosphere at the dinner table was very quiet. Min Chen rarely saw Tao Yan's indifferent and reticent look. Usually, Sister Yan Yan was very kind, liked to laugh, and was very kind.Seeing that the two were concerned about each other and kept silent, Min Chen felt slightly sad.
After Tao Yan finished eating, his energy improved a bit, and he took the initiative to take on the task of washing the dishes, but Min Chen snatched the bowls and chopsticks, "Sister Yanyan, go and rest. I'll be fine."
"What? It's not just a quarrel, it's not a breakup, I'm not abandoned." Tao Yan said, and took back the bowls and chopsticks without any further explanation.Min Chen stood aside, quietly watching Tao Yan wash the dishes, pursed his lips, and wanted to speak several times, "Sister Yanyan, to be honest, don't be angry. If both parties are holding their breath and don't compromise If you don’t, no matter how good the original relationship is, a small quarrel may end in a breakup, this is nothing new, and you don’t have to think that your relationship will be an exception.”
Tao Yan paused while washing the dishes, turned to look at Min Chen who was showing timidity, and after watching quietly for a while, turned back and continued washing the dishes, "Why do I have to be the one who compromises?"
"Because of self-esteem, both of them think this way, and the quarrel becomes more and more tense, and finally the water is unstoppable. It is because I can't let go of my self-esteem for a while, holding my breath and self-abuse, and even miss a person because of this, I still let go of my self-esteem for the time being, and find that person Finally, settle accounts with her slowly. Sister Yanyan, you have to weigh it carefully. Of course, if that person is dispensable to you, you will miss it if you miss it. It will be uncomfortable for a few days at most, and the rain will pass But if that person is very important to you, if you miss it, you may regret it for the rest of your life."
Min Chen still told the truth.After Min Chen finished what he wanted to say, he said goodbye to Tao Yan and went home.In fact, Gu Zizheng asked Min Chen to tell Tao Yan these two words.
After Tao Yan finished washing the dishes, he leaned on the stove and thought about Min Chen's words seriously, and then suddenly remembered the detailed explanation on how self-esteem works between lovers that Xia Chengqi had suggested to him.Tao Yan dried his hands, walked into the study, found the explanation in the drawer, and read it carefully.She had to admire Xia Chengqi's insight into human nature and subtle changes in people's psychology. Tao Yan looked at it, and suddenly felt relieved, with a relaxed smile on his face. , thinking about cleaning the house tomorrow, and then calling Xia Chengqi to apologize and ask for peace.
The next day, because Tao Yan let go of his thoughts last night and had a good rest, he woke up early, stretched comfortably, and then got up to wash. After washing, he began to be serious. Clean the house inside and out, ready to welcome Xia Chengqi back home.When he was working, he was full of energy, and he played brisk music in the room. After lunch, he began to clean the study room where Xia Chengqi often stayed, but he never thought that at this moment, Xia Chengqi would quietly Sitting outside the door, he has not entered the door for a long time.
In fact, early in the morning, the drunk Xia Chengqi woke up from the guest room of Qin Bingwan's house, opened his dim eyes, and after waking up for a while, got up and walked out of the guest room, but he didn't see Qin Bingwan who was resting at home by turns. He knocked on the door of the master bedroom, but there was no response, and his heart sank suddenly, as if he had expected something.
Xia Chengqi quickly opened the door of the master bedroom, moved the door of the closet, and what came into view was the empty closet, feeling cramped in his heart, turned around in despair, and saw the note left on the bedside table;
Xiaoqi, forgive Sister Qin for breaking her promise to live in Chongqing with you. After all, I still can't face you with my current gloomy face.But I'm glad we got back together.You and Tao Yan must be happy, and Sister Qin will take good care of herself.
Xia Chengqi held the note again for a long time, which meant leaving without saying goodbye.If the separation nearly 11 years ago may be the beginning of a future reunion, then don't be afraid that this will never be seen again in eternity.Sister Qin, why did I work so hard, pretending to be ignorant, and hurt Tao Yan at all costs to keep you calm when facing me, but in the end I still failed to keep you?
Xia Chengqi climbed onto the bed and lay down on Qin Bingwan's bed, trying to remember the breath left on the quilt.Fragments of that night flashed through my mind.She was roughly pressed against the wall from behind, her face was pressed tightly against the cold wall, blood was dripping from the corners of her lips, she was struggling desperately, watching Qin Bingwan being dragged into the van quietly with despairing eyes, but she didn't feel any pain at all. There is no way.The poignant smile on Qin Bingwan's face was deeply engraved in Xia Chengqi's heart, torturing her heart day after day.
If it wasn't for her immaturity at the time, and she ran out at night, Qin Bingwan would not have chased her, and everything would not have happened.Gradually, the gray pillow was soaked with tears of regret.
Xia Chengqi bowed his legs, with his head drooping, leaning against the door of his own house.She didn't want to face Tao Yan with her lost face, so she could only temporarily hide outside the door to calm down her emotions.
Tao Yan held the vacuum cleaner and was busy cleaning in the study room. He poked his elbow back and accidentally bumped into one of the bookshelves. He gasped in pain, but a book fell to the floor in response. superior.Tao Yan picked up the book, the title was "All the Nights in the World". She thought the title of the book looked familiar, and she flipped through it, but she saw a small book in a transparent bag between the pages of the book. key.Tao Yan picked up the key, looked it over carefully, and turned his eyes, and landed on the black lock hanging on the desk drawer.
She noticed very early on that whether in Xining, Suzhou, or Chongqing, there was always a black lock hanging on a drawer of Xia Chengqi's desk, but out of respect for Xia Chengqi's privacy, she did not question him in detail.But now the sudden curiosity induced her to pick the lock.
After hesitating for a moment, Tao Yan slowly opened the black lock, and took out all kinds of things in the drawer, but his face became more and more gloomy, until finally, he showed a helpless, self-deprecating and desperate sneer.With a wave of her hand, she threw the paper in her hand into the air, and the paper struggled and danced in the air, falling to the ground in bits and pieces.
If it is said that the items that Xia Chengqi loved when he was young and the information about Qin Bingwan's encounters in the drawer only made Tao Yan feel that Xia Chengqi was carrying his longing for his first love and deceiving him, then Xia Chengqi's handwritten , about how to irritate myself with several different sets of words carefully selected and carefully pondered, and achieve the Cold War separation without making this relationship irretrievable, so that I have enough time and reason to go to Qinghai to go to Qinghai. Taking back her sister Qin made Tao Yan feel like an idiot, who was bloody dissected by Xia Chengqi and allowed her to suture herself wantonly according to the effect she wanted.
That's right, Xia Chengqi is so wise and understands human nature. Even for a rational and mature person like Gao Lan, Zhou Runzhi can catch up with her if she puts her mind to it.
In front of her, the person whom she has repeatedly said is stupid, like a transparent person, let her play with her without knowing it.Tao Yan suddenly became frightened. How many masks did Xia Chengqi wear, and how many times he had been silently calculating in his heart how many times he would play insidious tricks in the future.
Tao Yan's heart was full of emotions.At this time, a figure stood at the door of the study.Xia Chengqi stared blankly at the scattered papers and Qin Bingwan's photo, and understood what happened.She walked into the study, bowed her waist, picked up the things on the floor one by one without saying a word, with a calm expression on her face, but suddenly said, "You shouldn't touch my things."
"I also hope that I didn't touch it. At least that way, I can still, as in your careful planning, accept your sister Qin and continue to live with you, a scheming person like you. What? Where's your sister Qin? No Take it back?" Tao Yan said sarcastically, her deeply hurt and bloody heart had been sealed by her at this moment, and she would never open it again.
Xia Chengqi held the things in his hands, stood up and looked at Tao Yan, "How do you want to deal with this matter?"
"You are so smart, don't you know what I want?"
Xia Chengqi didn't speak.She knows the great resentment that people feel when they find out that they have been played with, let alone the person she trusts and loves the most.
"On May 23, I, Tao Yan, formally proposed to break up with Xia Chengqi. From now on, we will be strangers and have nothing to do with each other." After Tao Yan stood up and finished speaking, he took off the ring on his left middle finger and put it on the desk. His deep eyes were firm, and he looked straight at Xia Chengqi, and then he walked around the latter to leave the study.
"Yanyan, I don't want to break up with you." Xia Chengqi grabbed Tao Yan's wrist, turned sideways, and looked at Tao Yan.
Tao Yan shook off Xia Chengqi's hand, turned his face, looked at the latter, and said firmly, "Don't call me that, I've already broken up with you."
Looking at Tao Yan's cold gaze, Xia Chengqi's heart sank little by little, and he stretched out his arms to hug Tao Yan tightly, pleading in his tone, "I beg you, don't leave me, I beg you, I only have you left gone."
"You know that I'm easy to be soft-hearted, so you use tenderness? It's a pity that I only have endless loathing and fear for you now. A person with a low IQ like me is not worthy of you, a profound wise man in the city. So, please let Miss Xia go." Pass me." Tao Yan spit out these words almost word for word, the sarcasm in his words was ear-piercing.
Xia Chengqi let go of his hand in despair, and asked in disbelief, "You hate and fear me?"
"Yes, you are too scary, I can't afford to play, and I don't want to play anymore." Tao Yan's face turned completely cold.
Xia Chengqi no longer begged or entangled. After looking at Tao Yan with nostalgia, he turned his face away and stood in front of the French window, watching the raindrops on the window, motionless like a sculpture, until a long time After that, the sound of the wheels of the suitcase rolling across the floor came from the aisle of the room. The sound gradually faded away and finally disappeared without a trace.
Xia Chengqi slowly raised his left hand, his fingertips slowly slid down with the raindrops on the glass window, and there was a vaguely wry smile on his lips.One wrong step, one wrong step, very similar to what happened to Qin Bingwan back then.Sister Qin, in my life of ups and downs, I can only leave alone in the future.
The silver ring on his left hand shone coldly, piercing into Xia Chengqi's heart.My dear, the promise of life and death that you said with your own mouth was broken, and in the end, we were still separated.
I'm so tired, so tired that no matter how hard I try, I can't break free, and I'm the only one left, whether it's many years ago or at this moment.
After the two broke up, Tao Yan went to the Netherlands and lived in the townhouse they bought, but deliberately did not inform Gao Lan who lived nearby, trying to let the strange atmosphere of the foreign country dilute the affection he had accumulated for Xia Chengqi over the years.She discarded everything related to Xia Chengqi, and she tried her best to forget, forget the person she loved so deeply.
In fact, when Tao Yan saw the portrait of Qin Bingwan when she was young, she suddenly understood that when she first met Xia Chengqi, the latter sometimes reacted in a daze, cold and hot, because she and Qin Bingwan had similar gentle smiles, Including the small dimples at the corners of the lips.
Although it took a lot of effort to restrain my yearning for Xia Chengqi that would burst out at any moment, but there are too many memories between the two of them, always inadvertently, inadvertently, come to Tao Yan's heart, let She couldn't help slipping down the sweet and warm past of the two.
Tao Yan is sitting at the gay bar where he used to be, and the resident singer is still the blond Carol. Carol recognized the lonely Tao Yan, but she didn't rush to say hello. Tao Yan's cold and sad aura made people daunted. She just called Gao Lan during the break and told her that she ran into Tao Yan who was alone.
Gao Lan was startled, and immediately understood.She had reminded Xia Chengqi early on not to let the past affect her and Tao Yan's present and future, but she did not expect that the two were still separated from each other, sad and depressed alone, she couldn't help sighing, feeling sorry for the two of them.
Gao Lan immediately dialed Xia Chengqi's phone number, wanting to find out what happened, hoping that the two could reunite, but was surprised that Xia Chengqi's mobile phone number became empty.It seems that the seriousness of the matter is beyond my expectation.
After Xia Chengqi separated from Tao Yan, he changed his number without telling anyone.The business of the library is still running well, and the profits from the business are credited to the accounts of the two on time and in proportion, but the two hostesses no longer have any ties or contacts.Xia Chengqi contacted Min Chen via email, wrote the list of recommended books and book reviews, and asked Min Chen to find someone to copy them. Apart from that, he rarely asked about the book hall's business.
Xia Chengqi traveled in various parts of China, including backward rural areas and remote areas, and became a freelance screenwriter.Some of the scripts she wrote before have been put on the big screen.Nowadays, I have enough time to write scripts and appreciate the great rivers and mountains of the motherland.
Different from Tao Yan's determination to forget, Xia Chengqi carried with him the photos of the two of them together for many years, and took them out to look at them from time to time, with a gentle smile on his lips.It's just that when people are lying on a strange bed in the dead of night, they will silently think of Tao Yan in the distance in their hearts, and let the tide of missing come to him and swallow him whole.
Gao Lan finally decided to go to the gay bar to have a good chat with Tao Yan, but when he saw Tao Yan's distraught, tear-stained face, he hesitated whether to intervene, after all, he was aware of Qin Bingwan's matter , and even an active participant.
"Tao Yan, I don't want to say too much, but I have a few words about my life, I hope you can listen to them."
Tao Yan heard the sound, turned his head slowly, focused his gaze, and waited for Gao Lan to speak.
"A person's life is actually a struggle with his own heart. Fear of being hurt, afraid of failure, afraid of not being responded to, and afraid of uncertainty. This kind of self-protection and strong self-esteem that is deeply rooted in human nature can easily make People choose to close their hearts and live alone by guarding their hearts, because then they are invulnerable, and they no longer have to be afraid of being hurt. In relationships, this principle is still the same. Sometimes, it’s not that you don’t love, but you can’t overcome your heart Oneself or the weakness of human nature."
After Gao Lanyu said these words earnestly, he looked up at Carol in the stands, then got up and drove home, leaving Tao Yan alone to digest the profound words.Tao Yan lowered his eyes, stared blankly at the blue wine in the glass, raised his hand and drank it down, and finally picked up the mobile phone and dialed the string of numbers he knew by heart, but only the phone number you dialed came back. The phone was the mechanical sound of an empty number, and he couldn't help laughing, feeling ashamed for an instant.
Gao Lan, I chose to overcome my inner self, but I didn't have enough courage to take the second step, so I left the ending with her to God, even if we were separated in one heart, and we were sad to end our old age, for the time being, we will regard it as a predestined relationship part...
In the blink of an eye, two years have passed.
Six months ago, Tao Yan returned to Chongqing and began to concentrate on running the Xiyan Bookstore.In the past two years, Tao Yan no longer hated Xia Chengqi.She had already figured it out when Gao Lan said that.Xia Chengqi was not wrong, the only fault was that he was discovered by himself.Her love for herself has never been adulterated, it is affectionate and pure, and she also has obligations and responsibilities that she does not know about Qin Bingwan.As Gao Lan said, it's because I can't overcome myself who is desperate and depressed after being fooled and deceived, and it's not that I don't love anymore.
Since legalization, homosexual-themed films have continued to be brought to the big screen.Tao Yan bought a ticket tonight to watch a same-sex movie about love in a junior high school campus. It is said that it is based on a real story. The poster and introduction are quite attractive.
Tao Yan raised his hand to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes, got up and went to the bathroom to tidy up his appearance, exhaled deeply in front of the mirror, and returned to the theater to continue watching movies.The night scene was being performed on the screen, the light was very weak, and the aisle leading from the theater door was extremely dark. Tao Yan lowered his head and carefully looked at the road under his feet, but accidentally bumped into a figure head-on.
The figure quickly reached out to support the staggering Tao Yan, and said softly, "I'm sorry."
Seeing Tao Yan motionless and speechless, the figure asked worriedly, "Are you okay?"
"It's okay." Tao Yan calmed down and replied, but his eyes stayed on the face of the other party who couldn't see clearly.
The figure bowed slightly, opened the door and walked out.Tao Yan turned around in the dark, meditating on that familiar voice in his memory.Cheng Kei, is that you?That's your voice.
Tao Yan walked towards the seating area numbly. After sitting down, he couldn't get into the film any more. He stood up suddenly, strode out hurriedly, opened the theater door, looked left and right, He ran to the ticket gate, "Hello, did a woman go out just now?"
After getting an affirmative answer from the ticket inspector, Tao Yan ran out of the theater in a hurry, looked around in the shopping mall, looking for Xia Chengqi, but saw nothing.
Tao Yan was a little agitated, afraid of missing out again, and the secret thoughts in his heart were overflowing at this moment. Tao Yan hurried to the railing, looked at the men and women on the escalator, suddenly fixed his gaze, and shouted loudly, " Xia Chengqi."
Everyone on the elevator looked at the sound, Xia Chengqi also raised his eyes to look at the source of the sound, and saw Tao Yan standing high beside the railing.Xia Chengqi went down the escalator slowly, looked at Tao Yan who was at a high place, lifted his foot to get off the elevator, and stood by the railing, the two of them silently separated the height of one floor, looked up and down with their eyes Standing still, neither words nor actions.
Today's film was written and produced by Xia Chengqi. It was adapted from the story of her and Sister Qin. The second half of the film was very abusive. She couldn't bear to watch it any longer, so she left the theater.
Now that two years have passed, she and Tao Yan reunited again, and for a moment, chaotic thoughts flooded her mind, and she didn't know how to react.
Do you still love her?still love.Did she forgive herself?Do you still love yourself?If you don't love it anymore, why would you call yourself back?Is she willing to start over with herself? "Is there someone beside her?
Xia Chengqi felt various uncertainties in his heart, and suddenly smiled in relief.When did she understand the weakness of human nature that is afraid of getting hurt, and she didn't dare to hesitate to take a proactive step?
Looking at Xia Chengqi with a smile on his face, the corners of Tao Yan's lips also curved in an arc.
I saw Xia Chengqi slowly raised his hands, caressed his chest, stretched out his hands and drew an arc in the air on both sides, made a heart shape with his hands above his head, then stretched out one of his hands, pointing at the Tao Yan from the heights.Tao Yan understood what Xia Chengqi said; I love you.
He burst out laughing.
Xia Chengqi continued to move his hands, pointed at Tao Yan, made a heart shape in the air, pointed at himself, and finally drew a big question mark in the air, asking Tao Yan; do you love me? ?
Following Xia Chengqi's method, Tao Yan stretched out his arms and made a heart shape above his head, expressing his love.
After receiving Tao Yan's gesture of showing love, Xia Chengqi first showed a big smile, then ran to the escalator that was moving down behind him, and quickly went up backwards.Tao Yan was a little worried, as he walked towards the escalator, he stared blankly at Xia Chengqi who was walking backwards.
Xia Chengqi stepped down the stairs, ran towards Tao Yan eagerly, stood still a step away from Tao Yan, panting and panting.
"Don't do that in the future, it's very dangerous." Tao Yan slightly blamed Xia Chengqi for his dangerous move going backwards.
Xia Chengqi smiled, and suddenly stretched out his hand solemnly, "Hello, I am Xia Chengqi, a freelance screenwriter and bookstore owner, 30 years old this year, owning a house but no car, sexually oriented female, currently single, and anxious to get married. You Woolen cloth?"
Tao Yan was taken aback by Xia Chengqi's actions, and then he stretched out his hand naturally, and shook hands with Xia Chengqi, "I'm Tao Yan, a full-time bookstore owner, 36 and a half years old, with a house and a car, sex Female-oriented, currently single and anxious to get married."
The two shook hands solemnly, Xia Chengqi withdrew his hand, and said again: "Then Miss Tao Yan, let's have a flash marriage."
Xia Chengqi raised his hand suddenly, stretched out his hand to take off the necklace around his neck, and picked up the ring hanging on the necklace, "I have always worn this ring that belongs to you, and now it will return to its original owner."
Xia Chengqi bent down slowly, knelt down on one knee in a bustling shopping mall full of people coming and going, looked up at Tao Yan affectionately, "Miss Tao, would you like to be my wife?"
Tao Yan covered his mouth in disbelief, although there were no flowers, no witnesses from relatives and friends, but there was deep affection from someone she missed so much, he nodded emotionally and stretched out his left hand; "I am willing."
Xia Chengqi showed a happy smile, ignoring the crowd who slowly gathered to watch the fun, put a ring on Tao Yan, stood up, pulled Tao Yan into his arms, and hugged him tightly.
The two embraced emotionally, venting their longing for each other and their lost and regained feelings in the past two years.
"Let's go home." Tao Yan said into Xia Chengqi's ear, glancing at the chattering crowd from time to time.
"What? Are you going to fight me for [-] rounds?" Xia Chengqi let go of his arms and joked.
"I would like to." Tao Yan suddenly approached and said in a low voice; "but my body doesn't allow it."
"Are you pregnant? Or are you postmenopausal?" Xia Chengqi didn't mind the trouble and began to mess around.
Tao Yan stretched out his hand and slapped the latter on the forehead, and said fiercely, "I will never change my nature."
The crowd of spectators gradually dispersed, leaving the two flirting and expressing their affection in place.
"But I think you like my cheap look very much." Xia Chengqi hooked Tao Yan's neck, with a mischievous smile on his face.
"I don't like your cheap look. I just... just... just like you." Tao Yan said, his voice became smaller and smaller, and he shyly turned his face away, his face was covered with a thin layer of pimples. flush.
Xia Chengqi looked at the older one, who was still blushing and shy, took Tao Yan's hand, suppressed the throbbing in his heart, and rushed home.He rushed home in a hurry, and as soon as he opened the door, he pressed Tao Yan against the door, kissed passionately without any explanation, and naturally stretched his hand into Tao Yan's clothes and wandered wantonly.
"Qiqi, I'm on my period." Tao Yan stopped Xia Chengqi's further actions.
Xia Chengqi was short of breath, and the confusion in his eyes hadn't faded away, he stretched out his thumb to touch Tao Yan's forehead, caressing Tao Yan's lips, and said hoarsely, "But I feel so uncomfortable, I really want it. "
Tao Yan suddenly laughed, with a villainous look on his face, "Xia Chengqi, it's true that a 30-year-old woman is like a wolf and a tiger."
How could Xia Chengqi be so easily laughed at? He replied calmly, "I want you, not for you to want me. What's more, physiologically speaking, a woman's sexual desire peaks at 40. You Be careful, Tao Xiaoyan, who is 36 and a half years old." After finishing speaking, he was still angry, pinched Tao Yan's chin, and continued; "If you don't obey me in the future, I will conceive a child when you are 39 years old. You, being pregnant again at the age of 40 will make you angry."
"Why are you so shameless? Xia Chengqi." Tao Yan was furious, squeezing Xia Chengqi's face with both hands.
Xia Chengqi didn't show any weakness, and stretched out his hand to squeeze Tao Yan's face. Seeing Tao Yan's wrinkled face and puckered lips, he thought it was very cute, so he took a bite and smacked tirelessly.
In the end, Xia Chengqi still couldn't help Tao Yan's 360-degree begging without dead ends, and obediently but unwillingly lay down on the bed, letting Tao Yan occupy the upper position, and he couldn't show his small complacent expression on Tao Yan who counterattacked, Tao Yan Start to work hard, add a bit of moving color to the plainness of the night...
Everything was going well, Xia Chengqi decided to persuade Qin Bingwan to go back to Chongqing to live with him, not to mention that Tao Yan was still angry with him, so he called Min Chen, who said Tao Yan hadn't come to the library for a few days , I couldn't help feeling a little worried, so I asked Min Chen to visit Tao Yan tonight.
"Xiao Qi, does Tao Yan know that you stay here like this?" Qin Bingwan tidied up the shelves and asked the absent-minded Xia Chengqi.
"I had a quarrel with her, that's why I came to Qinghai to relax. I didn't expect to meet Sister Qin, so I haven't told her yet." Xia Chengqi showed a pitiful expression, and his tone was a little regretful.
"Are you bullying someone?" Qin Bingwan stretched out her hands to pinch Xia Chengqi's face, with a playful expression on her face.Ever since Xia Chengqi accompanied her, day after day, her gloomy life of being alone finally ushered in some light.But she also knew in her heart that it was impossible for Xiao Qi to stay by her side all the time, and she only owed herself what she owed when she was 16 years old.
"That's right. She hasn't contacted me yet."
"Sister Qin, I will definitely apologize to her when I return to Chongqing and make up with her. Our wedding is coming soon, can you be my natal family? You also know that my father and I are only related by blood, and we are not related to each other. Familiar, but my mother has never contacted me before." Xia Chengqi shook Qin Bingwan's arm coquettishly, looking at the latter with expectations and requests in his eyes.
"Okay. But let Tao Yan know first, in case she is unhappy."
"I'll call her, I have one more request."
"Tell me." Qin Bingwan smiled faintly and looked at Xia Chengqi dotingly.She found that Xia Chengqi was much more cheerful than before, and she must have a great relationship with Tao Yan.
Xia Chengqi briefly stated that he wanted Qin Bingwan to live with her in Chongqing. Seeing Qin Bingwan's distressed face, he began to adopt tender tactics and begged, saying that he was an orphan without relatives by his side.
Seeing that Qin Bingwan's expression had loosened, she continued to play rogue again, threatening that if Qin Bingwan didn't go to Chongqing, she would stay in this small supermarket, otherwise Qin Bingwan would let her run away from marriage and kill her and Tao Yan's happiness Qin Bingwan had no room to refuse, so she had no choice but to agree. Xia Chengqi was so happy that she kissed the latter fiercely on the face.
"You are like this, Tao Yan will be jealous. Also, you have to get Tao Yan's consent. After all, I am not your own sister. Does Xiaoqi understand what sister means?" Qin Bingwan stroked Xia Chengqi's hair and said in a friendly voice Said.
"Understood." After Xia Chengqi finished speaking, he hugged Qin Bingwan, and kept calling "sister", "sister", "sister" in Qin Bingwan's ear, but Qin Bingwan refused to say; Jealous."
"She can't see." Xia Chengqi replied happily.
"Then tell her when I meet."
Hearing this, Xia Chengqi immediately let go, and said with a very serious expression; "Sister, my good sister, she has a small mind and a big jealousy, so she can't mess around."
"It turns out that Xiaoqi is a strict wife." Qin Bingwan pinched the tip of Xia Chengqi's nose naturally, just like they had repeated countless times many years ago.
"She is also a strict wife." Xia Chengqi replied proudly.Xia Chengqi acted like a baby, and for the first time in many years, Xia Chengqi opened up without any defense.Qin Bingwan's thorn in her heart that could not be eradicated for a long time was finally removed. The joy in her heart was indescribable. Now she just waited for reconciliation with Tao Yan and worked hard to get her consent.
The two made a table of mutton hot pot at home in the evening, and bought a few bottles of beer to cheer for the upcoming happy life.Xia Chengqi's drinking capacity was extremely poor, and he became dizzy after not drinking much, and was supported by Qin Bingwan back to the guest room and fell asleep. Tao Yan called, I miss her so much.", "She must be very angry.", "It's all my fault, it's all my fault."
Qin Bingwan took care of Xia Chengqi to lie down, sat on the edge of the bed and quietly looked down at Xia Chengqi's drunken red face, her eyes were tender and affectionate, and her heart was full of thoughts.Xiaoqi, why do you have to feel indebted to me?You were molested for many years when you were a child, and you were only in the freshman year of high school. You are so outstanding and have a bright future. How could I let those men ruin you?I have never regretted bearing the pain of that night for you.Maybe it was fate, I was pregnant, I hid you and went back to my hometown, but my parents hurriedly arranged to marry someone else, and from then on I began a miserable life that I can't bear to look back on.
And thinking of you is the only way for me to temporarily forget the pain in the long darkness.Forgive me, even if you don't know anything about this, I still can't face you calmly because of my wounds, but I am very happy to meet you again, and I spent the warm time with you these days, let I know my little Qi is very happy.
Qin Bingwan leaned over gently, and after leaving a deep kiss on Xia Chengqi's lips, she stood up quietly, and slowly closed the door with eyes full of nostalgia.
Compared with Xia Chengqi's busy, talking and laughing life in Qinghai, Tao Yan's life locked in the house is bleak and full of gloom.During the short parting, Tao Yan's heart was full of Xia Chengqi, and he always immersed himself in the deep-rooted yearning for the latter. Within a few days, he seemed to lose a lot of weight, and his plain face was pale and haggard.
"Ding dong ding dong"
Suddenly the doorbell rang, Tao Yan turned her face slowly, the joy in her heart gradually broke out, she strode towards the entrance with big strides, after hesitating for a while, she opened the door, but she couldn't help being disappointed and depressed, her heart sank again .
"Sister Yanyan, it was Sister Qi who called me and asked me to come here." Min Chen put on his shoes, carrying a few plastic bags in his hands, walked to the kitchen and started to work while talking to himself.
Tao Yan's heart moved slightly.Xia Chengqi is still worried about himself, but how long will he be willing to come back?Could it be that I was wrong again?Shouldn't she apologize for her words that hurt so much?
Tao Yan sat back on the sofa again, staring out the window in a daze.Min Chen glanced at the dazed Tao Yan, sighed slightly, and resumed his busy work.After Min Chen's meal was ready, he called Tao Yan to come over for dinner, but Tao Yan said that he had no appetite and didn't want to eat, so he let her eat by herself.
"These are the dishes you like to eat. Sister Qi asked me to buy them. Sister Yanyan, you can eat some. Sister Qi is very worried about you."
After Tao Yan thought about it for a while, he moved, walked slowly to the dining table, and glanced at the dishes on the table. As expected, they were all his favorite dishes. His appetite improved a little, and he picked up his chopsticks and started eating sullenly. .The atmosphere at the dinner table was very quiet. Min Chen rarely saw Tao Yan's indifferent and reticent look. Usually, Sister Yan Yan was very kind, liked to laugh, and was very kind.Seeing that the two were concerned about each other and kept silent, Min Chen felt slightly sad.
After Tao Yan finished eating, his energy improved a bit, and he took the initiative to take on the task of washing the dishes, but Min Chen snatched the bowls and chopsticks, "Sister Yanyan, go and rest. I'll be fine."
"What? It's not just a quarrel, it's not a breakup, I'm not abandoned." Tao Yan said, and took back the bowls and chopsticks without any further explanation.Min Chen stood aside, quietly watching Tao Yan wash the dishes, pursed his lips, and wanted to speak several times, "Sister Yanyan, to be honest, don't be angry. If both parties are holding their breath and don't compromise If you don’t, no matter how good the original relationship is, a small quarrel may end in a breakup, this is nothing new, and you don’t have to think that your relationship will be an exception.”
Tao Yan paused while washing the dishes, turned to look at Min Chen who was showing timidity, and after watching quietly for a while, turned back and continued washing the dishes, "Why do I have to be the one who compromises?"
"Because of self-esteem, both of them think this way, and the quarrel becomes more and more tense, and finally the water is unstoppable. It is because I can't let go of my self-esteem for a while, holding my breath and self-abuse, and even miss a person because of this, I still let go of my self-esteem for the time being, and find that person Finally, settle accounts with her slowly. Sister Yanyan, you have to weigh it carefully. Of course, if that person is dispensable to you, you will miss it if you miss it. It will be uncomfortable for a few days at most, and the rain will pass But if that person is very important to you, if you miss it, you may regret it for the rest of your life."
Min Chen still told the truth.After Min Chen finished what he wanted to say, he said goodbye to Tao Yan and went home.In fact, Gu Zizheng asked Min Chen to tell Tao Yan these two words.
After Tao Yan finished washing the dishes, he leaned on the stove and thought about Min Chen's words seriously, and then suddenly remembered the detailed explanation on how self-esteem works between lovers that Xia Chengqi had suggested to him.Tao Yan dried his hands, walked into the study, found the explanation in the drawer, and read it carefully.She had to admire Xia Chengqi's insight into human nature and subtle changes in people's psychology. Tao Yan looked at it, and suddenly felt relieved, with a relaxed smile on his face. , thinking about cleaning the house tomorrow, and then calling Xia Chengqi to apologize and ask for peace.
The next day, because Tao Yan let go of his thoughts last night and had a good rest, he woke up early, stretched comfortably, and then got up to wash. After washing, he began to be serious. Clean the house inside and out, ready to welcome Xia Chengqi back home.When he was working, he was full of energy, and he played brisk music in the room. After lunch, he began to clean the study room where Xia Chengqi often stayed, but he never thought that at this moment, Xia Chengqi would quietly Sitting outside the door, he has not entered the door for a long time.
In fact, early in the morning, the drunk Xia Chengqi woke up from the guest room of Qin Bingwan's house, opened his dim eyes, and after waking up for a while, got up and walked out of the guest room, but he didn't see Qin Bingwan who was resting at home by turns. He knocked on the door of the master bedroom, but there was no response, and his heart sank suddenly, as if he had expected something.
Xia Chengqi quickly opened the door of the master bedroom, moved the door of the closet, and what came into view was the empty closet, feeling cramped in his heart, turned around in despair, and saw the note left on the bedside table;
Xiaoqi, forgive Sister Qin for breaking her promise to live in Chongqing with you. After all, I still can't face you with my current gloomy face.But I'm glad we got back together.You and Tao Yan must be happy, and Sister Qin will take good care of herself.
Xia Chengqi held the note again for a long time, which meant leaving without saying goodbye.If the separation nearly 11 years ago may be the beginning of a future reunion, then don't be afraid that this will never be seen again in eternity.Sister Qin, why did I work so hard, pretending to be ignorant, and hurt Tao Yan at all costs to keep you calm when facing me, but in the end I still failed to keep you?
Xia Chengqi climbed onto the bed and lay down on Qin Bingwan's bed, trying to remember the breath left on the quilt.Fragments of that night flashed through my mind.She was roughly pressed against the wall from behind, her face was pressed tightly against the cold wall, blood was dripping from the corners of her lips, she was struggling desperately, watching Qin Bingwan being dragged into the van quietly with despairing eyes, but she didn't feel any pain at all. There is no way.The poignant smile on Qin Bingwan's face was deeply engraved in Xia Chengqi's heart, torturing her heart day after day.
If it wasn't for her immaturity at the time, and she ran out at night, Qin Bingwan would not have chased her, and everything would not have happened.Gradually, the gray pillow was soaked with tears of regret.
Xia Chengqi bowed his legs, with his head drooping, leaning against the door of his own house.She didn't want to face Tao Yan with her lost face, so she could only temporarily hide outside the door to calm down her emotions.
Tao Yan held the vacuum cleaner and was busy cleaning in the study room. He poked his elbow back and accidentally bumped into one of the bookshelves. He gasped in pain, but a book fell to the floor in response. superior.Tao Yan picked up the book, the title was "All the Nights in the World". She thought the title of the book looked familiar, and she flipped through it, but she saw a small book in a transparent bag between the pages of the book. key.Tao Yan picked up the key, looked it over carefully, and turned his eyes, and landed on the black lock hanging on the desk drawer.
She noticed very early on that whether in Xining, Suzhou, or Chongqing, there was always a black lock hanging on a drawer of Xia Chengqi's desk, but out of respect for Xia Chengqi's privacy, she did not question him in detail.But now the sudden curiosity induced her to pick the lock.
After hesitating for a moment, Tao Yan slowly opened the black lock, and took out all kinds of things in the drawer, but his face became more and more gloomy, until finally, he showed a helpless, self-deprecating and desperate sneer.With a wave of her hand, she threw the paper in her hand into the air, and the paper struggled and danced in the air, falling to the ground in bits and pieces.
If it is said that the items that Xia Chengqi loved when he was young and the information about Qin Bingwan's encounters in the drawer only made Tao Yan feel that Xia Chengqi was carrying his longing for his first love and deceiving him, then Xia Chengqi's handwritten , about how to irritate myself with several different sets of words carefully selected and carefully pondered, and achieve the Cold War separation without making this relationship irretrievable, so that I have enough time and reason to go to Qinghai to go to Qinghai. Taking back her sister Qin made Tao Yan feel like an idiot, who was bloody dissected by Xia Chengqi and allowed her to suture herself wantonly according to the effect she wanted.
That's right, Xia Chengqi is so wise and understands human nature. Even for a rational and mature person like Gao Lan, Zhou Runzhi can catch up with her if she puts her mind to it.
In front of her, the person whom she has repeatedly said is stupid, like a transparent person, let her play with her without knowing it.Tao Yan suddenly became frightened. How many masks did Xia Chengqi wear, and how many times he had been silently calculating in his heart how many times he would play insidious tricks in the future.
Tao Yan's heart was full of emotions.At this time, a figure stood at the door of the study.Xia Chengqi stared blankly at the scattered papers and Qin Bingwan's photo, and understood what happened.She walked into the study, bowed her waist, picked up the things on the floor one by one without saying a word, with a calm expression on her face, but suddenly said, "You shouldn't touch my things."
"I also hope that I didn't touch it. At least that way, I can still, as in your careful planning, accept your sister Qin and continue to live with you, a scheming person like you. What? Where's your sister Qin? No Take it back?" Tao Yan said sarcastically, her deeply hurt and bloody heart had been sealed by her at this moment, and she would never open it again.
Xia Chengqi held the things in his hands, stood up and looked at Tao Yan, "How do you want to deal with this matter?"
"You are so smart, don't you know what I want?"
Xia Chengqi didn't speak.She knows the great resentment that people feel when they find out that they have been played with, let alone the person she trusts and loves the most.
"On May 23, I, Tao Yan, formally proposed to break up with Xia Chengqi. From now on, we will be strangers and have nothing to do with each other." After Tao Yan stood up and finished speaking, he took off the ring on his left middle finger and put it on the desk. His deep eyes were firm, and he looked straight at Xia Chengqi, and then he walked around the latter to leave the study.
"Yanyan, I don't want to break up with you." Xia Chengqi grabbed Tao Yan's wrist, turned sideways, and looked at Tao Yan.
Tao Yan shook off Xia Chengqi's hand, turned his face, looked at the latter, and said firmly, "Don't call me that, I've already broken up with you."
Looking at Tao Yan's cold gaze, Xia Chengqi's heart sank little by little, and he stretched out his arms to hug Tao Yan tightly, pleading in his tone, "I beg you, don't leave me, I beg you, I only have you left gone."
"You know that I'm easy to be soft-hearted, so you use tenderness? It's a pity that I only have endless loathing and fear for you now. A person with a low IQ like me is not worthy of you, a profound wise man in the city. So, please let Miss Xia go." Pass me." Tao Yan spit out these words almost word for word, the sarcasm in his words was ear-piercing.
Xia Chengqi let go of his hand in despair, and asked in disbelief, "You hate and fear me?"
"Yes, you are too scary, I can't afford to play, and I don't want to play anymore." Tao Yan's face turned completely cold.
Xia Chengqi no longer begged or entangled. After looking at Tao Yan with nostalgia, he turned his face away and stood in front of the French window, watching the raindrops on the window, motionless like a sculpture, until a long time After that, the sound of the wheels of the suitcase rolling across the floor came from the aisle of the room. The sound gradually faded away and finally disappeared without a trace.
Xia Chengqi slowly raised his left hand, his fingertips slowly slid down with the raindrops on the glass window, and there was a vaguely wry smile on his lips.One wrong step, one wrong step, very similar to what happened to Qin Bingwan back then.Sister Qin, in my life of ups and downs, I can only leave alone in the future.
The silver ring on his left hand shone coldly, piercing into Xia Chengqi's heart.My dear, the promise of life and death that you said with your own mouth was broken, and in the end, we were still separated.
I'm so tired, so tired that no matter how hard I try, I can't break free, and I'm the only one left, whether it's many years ago or at this moment.
After the two broke up, Tao Yan went to the Netherlands and lived in the townhouse they bought, but deliberately did not inform Gao Lan who lived nearby, trying to let the strange atmosphere of the foreign country dilute the affection he had accumulated for Xia Chengqi over the years.She discarded everything related to Xia Chengqi, and she tried her best to forget, forget the person she loved so deeply.
In fact, when Tao Yan saw the portrait of Qin Bingwan when she was young, she suddenly understood that when she first met Xia Chengqi, the latter sometimes reacted in a daze, cold and hot, because she and Qin Bingwan had similar gentle smiles, Including the small dimples at the corners of the lips.
Although it took a lot of effort to restrain my yearning for Xia Chengqi that would burst out at any moment, but there are too many memories between the two of them, always inadvertently, inadvertently, come to Tao Yan's heart, let She couldn't help slipping down the sweet and warm past of the two.
Tao Yan is sitting at the gay bar where he used to be, and the resident singer is still the blond Carol. Carol recognized the lonely Tao Yan, but she didn't rush to say hello. Tao Yan's cold and sad aura made people daunted. She just called Gao Lan during the break and told her that she ran into Tao Yan who was alone.
Gao Lan was startled, and immediately understood.She had reminded Xia Chengqi early on not to let the past affect her and Tao Yan's present and future, but she did not expect that the two were still separated from each other, sad and depressed alone, she couldn't help sighing, feeling sorry for the two of them.
Gao Lan immediately dialed Xia Chengqi's phone number, wanting to find out what happened, hoping that the two could reunite, but was surprised that Xia Chengqi's mobile phone number became empty.It seems that the seriousness of the matter is beyond my expectation.
After Xia Chengqi separated from Tao Yan, he changed his number without telling anyone.The business of the library is still running well, and the profits from the business are credited to the accounts of the two on time and in proportion, but the two hostesses no longer have any ties or contacts.Xia Chengqi contacted Min Chen via email, wrote the list of recommended books and book reviews, and asked Min Chen to find someone to copy them. Apart from that, he rarely asked about the book hall's business.
Xia Chengqi traveled in various parts of China, including backward rural areas and remote areas, and became a freelance screenwriter.Some of the scripts she wrote before have been put on the big screen.Nowadays, I have enough time to write scripts and appreciate the great rivers and mountains of the motherland.
Different from Tao Yan's determination to forget, Xia Chengqi carried with him the photos of the two of them together for many years, and took them out to look at them from time to time, with a gentle smile on his lips.It's just that when people are lying on a strange bed in the dead of night, they will silently think of Tao Yan in the distance in their hearts, and let the tide of missing come to him and swallow him whole.
Gao Lan finally decided to go to the gay bar to have a good chat with Tao Yan, but when he saw Tao Yan's distraught, tear-stained face, he hesitated whether to intervene, after all, he was aware of Qin Bingwan's matter , and even an active participant.
"Tao Yan, I don't want to say too much, but I have a few words about my life, I hope you can listen to them."
Tao Yan heard the sound, turned his head slowly, focused his gaze, and waited for Gao Lan to speak.
"A person's life is actually a struggle with his own heart. Fear of being hurt, afraid of failure, afraid of not being responded to, and afraid of uncertainty. This kind of self-protection and strong self-esteem that is deeply rooted in human nature can easily make People choose to close their hearts and live alone by guarding their hearts, because then they are invulnerable, and they no longer have to be afraid of being hurt. In relationships, this principle is still the same. Sometimes, it’s not that you don’t love, but you can’t overcome your heart Oneself or the weakness of human nature."
After Gao Lanyu said these words earnestly, he looked up at Carol in the stands, then got up and drove home, leaving Tao Yan alone to digest the profound words.Tao Yan lowered his eyes, stared blankly at the blue wine in the glass, raised his hand and drank it down, and finally picked up the mobile phone and dialed the string of numbers he knew by heart, but only the phone number you dialed came back. The phone was the mechanical sound of an empty number, and he couldn't help laughing, feeling ashamed for an instant.
Gao Lan, I chose to overcome my inner self, but I didn't have enough courage to take the second step, so I left the ending with her to God, even if we were separated in one heart, and we were sad to end our old age, for the time being, we will regard it as a predestined relationship part...
In the blink of an eye, two years have passed.
Six months ago, Tao Yan returned to Chongqing and began to concentrate on running the Xiyan Bookstore.In the past two years, Tao Yan no longer hated Xia Chengqi.She had already figured it out when Gao Lan said that.Xia Chengqi was not wrong, the only fault was that he was discovered by himself.Her love for herself has never been adulterated, it is affectionate and pure, and she also has obligations and responsibilities that she does not know about Qin Bingwan.As Gao Lan said, it's because I can't overcome myself who is desperate and depressed after being fooled and deceived, and it's not that I don't love anymore.
Since legalization, homosexual-themed films have continued to be brought to the big screen.Tao Yan bought a ticket tonight to watch a same-sex movie about love in a junior high school campus. It is said that it is based on a real story. The poster and introduction are quite attractive.
Tao Yan raised his hand to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes, got up and went to the bathroom to tidy up his appearance, exhaled deeply in front of the mirror, and returned to the theater to continue watching movies.The night scene was being performed on the screen, the light was very weak, and the aisle leading from the theater door was extremely dark. Tao Yan lowered his head and carefully looked at the road under his feet, but accidentally bumped into a figure head-on.
The figure quickly reached out to support the staggering Tao Yan, and said softly, "I'm sorry."
Seeing Tao Yan motionless and speechless, the figure asked worriedly, "Are you okay?"
"It's okay." Tao Yan calmed down and replied, but his eyes stayed on the face of the other party who couldn't see clearly.
The figure bowed slightly, opened the door and walked out.Tao Yan turned around in the dark, meditating on that familiar voice in his memory.Cheng Kei, is that you?That's your voice.
Tao Yan walked towards the seating area numbly. After sitting down, he couldn't get into the film any more. He stood up suddenly, strode out hurriedly, opened the theater door, looked left and right, He ran to the ticket gate, "Hello, did a woman go out just now?"
After getting an affirmative answer from the ticket inspector, Tao Yan ran out of the theater in a hurry, looked around in the shopping mall, looking for Xia Chengqi, but saw nothing.
Tao Yan was a little agitated, afraid of missing out again, and the secret thoughts in his heart were overflowing at this moment. Tao Yan hurried to the railing, looked at the men and women on the escalator, suddenly fixed his gaze, and shouted loudly, " Xia Chengqi."
Everyone on the elevator looked at the sound, Xia Chengqi also raised his eyes to look at the source of the sound, and saw Tao Yan standing high beside the railing.Xia Chengqi went down the escalator slowly, looked at Tao Yan who was at a high place, lifted his foot to get off the elevator, and stood by the railing, the two of them silently separated the height of one floor, looked up and down with their eyes Standing still, neither words nor actions.
Today's film was written and produced by Xia Chengqi. It was adapted from the story of her and Sister Qin. The second half of the film was very abusive. She couldn't bear to watch it any longer, so she left the theater.
Now that two years have passed, she and Tao Yan reunited again, and for a moment, chaotic thoughts flooded her mind, and she didn't know how to react.
Do you still love her?still love.Did she forgive herself?Do you still love yourself?If you don't love it anymore, why would you call yourself back?Is she willing to start over with herself? "Is there someone beside her?
Xia Chengqi felt various uncertainties in his heart, and suddenly smiled in relief.When did she understand the weakness of human nature that is afraid of getting hurt, and she didn't dare to hesitate to take a proactive step?
Looking at Xia Chengqi with a smile on his face, the corners of Tao Yan's lips also curved in an arc.
I saw Xia Chengqi slowly raised his hands, caressed his chest, stretched out his hands and drew an arc in the air on both sides, made a heart shape with his hands above his head, then stretched out one of his hands, pointing at the Tao Yan from the heights.Tao Yan understood what Xia Chengqi said; I love you.
He burst out laughing.
Xia Chengqi continued to move his hands, pointed at Tao Yan, made a heart shape in the air, pointed at himself, and finally drew a big question mark in the air, asking Tao Yan; do you love me? ?
Following Xia Chengqi's method, Tao Yan stretched out his arms and made a heart shape above his head, expressing his love.
After receiving Tao Yan's gesture of showing love, Xia Chengqi first showed a big smile, then ran to the escalator that was moving down behind him, and quickly went up backwards.Tao Yan was a little worried, as he walked towards the escalator, he stared blankly at Xia Chengqi who was walking backwards.
Xia Chengqi stepped down the stairs, ran towards Tao Yan eagerly, stood still a step away from Tao Yan, panting and panting.
"Don't do that in the future, it's very dangerous." Tao Yan slightly blamed Xia Chengqi for his dangerous move going backwards.
Xia Chengqi smiled, and suddenly stretched out his hand solemnly, "Hello, I am Xia Chengqi, a freelance screenwriter and bookstore owner, 30 years old this year, owning a house but no car, sexually oriented female, currently single, and anxious to get married. You Woolen cloth?"
Tao Yan was taken aback by Xia Chengqi's actions, and then he stretched out his hand naturally, and shook hands with Xia Chengqi, "I'm Tao Yan, a full-time bookstore owner, 36 and a half years old, with a house and a car, sex Female-oriented, currently single and anxious to get married."
The two shook hands solemnly, Xia Chengqi withdrew his hand, and said again: "Then Miss Tao Yan, let's have a flash marriage."
Xia Chengqi raised his hand suddenly, stretched out his hand to take off the necklace around his neck, and picked up the ring hanging on the necklace, "I have always worn this ring that belongs to you, and now it will return to its original owner."
Xia Chengqi bent down slowly, knelt down on one knee in a bustling shopping mall full of people coming and going, looked up at Tao Yan affectionately, "Miss Tao, would you like to be my wife?"
Tao Yan covered his mouth in disbelief, although there were no flowers, no witnesses from relatives and friends, but there was deep affection from someone she missed so much, he nodded emotionally and stretched out his left hand; "I am willing."
Xia Chengqi showed a happy smile, ignoring the crowd who slowly gathered to watch the fun, put a ring on Tao Yan, stood up, pulled Tao Yan into his arms, and hugged him tightly.
The two embraced emotionally, venting their longing for each other and their lost and regained feelings in the past two years.
"Let's go home." Tao Yan said into Xia Chengqi's ear, glancing at the chattering crowd from time to time.
"What? Are you going to fight me for [-] rounds?" Xia Chengqi let go of his arms and joked.
"I would like to." Tao Yan suddenly approached and said in a low voice; "but my body doesn't allow it."
"Are you pregnant? Or are you postmenopausal?" Xia Chengqi didn't mind the trouble and began to mess around.
Tao Yan stretched out his hand and slapped the latter on the forehead, and said fiercely, "I will never change my nature."
The crowd of spectators gradually dispersed, leaving the two flirting and expressing their affection in place.
"But I think you like my cheap look very much." Xia Chengqi hooked Tao Yan's neck, with a mischievous smile on his face.
"I don't like your cheap look. I just... just... just like you." Tao Yan said, his voice became smaller and smaller, and he shyly turned his face away, his face was covered with a thin layer of pimples. flush.
Xia Chengqi looked at the older one, who was still blushing and shy, took Tao Yan's hand, suppressed the throbbing in his heart, and rushed home.He rushed home in a hurry, and as soon as he opened the door, he pressed Tao Yan against the door, kissed passionately without any explanation, and naturally stretched his hand into Tao Yan's clothes and wandered wantonly.
"Qiqi, I'm on my period." Tao Yan stopped Xia Chengqi's further actions.
Xia Chengqi was short of breath, and the confusion in his eyes hadn't faded away, he stretched out his thumb to touch Tao Yan's forehead, caressing Tao Yan's lips, and said hoarsely, "But I feel so uncomfortable, I really want it. "
Tao Yan suddenly laughed, with a villainous look on his face, "Xia Chengqi, it's true that a 30-year-old woman is like a wolf and a tiger."
How could Xia Chengqi be so easily laughed at? He replied calmly, "I want you, not for you to want me. What's more, physiologically speaking, a woman's sexual desire peaks at 40. You Be careful, Tao Xiaoyan, who is 36 and a half years old." After finishing speaking, he was still angry, pinched Tao Yan's chin, and continued; "If you don't obey me in the future, I will conceive a child when you are 39 years old. You, being pregnant again at the age of 40 will make you angry."
"Why are you so shameless? Xia Chengqi." Tao Yan was furious, squeezing Xia Chengqi's face with both hands.
Xia Chengqi didn't show any weakness, and stretched out his hand to squeeze Tao Yan's face. Seeing Tao Yan's wrinkled face and puckered lips, he thought it was very cute, so he took a bite and smacked tirelessly.
In the end, Xia Chengqi still couldn't help Tao Yan's 360-degree begging without dead ends, and obediently but unwillingly lay down on the bed, letting Tao Yan occupy the upper position, and he couldn't show his small complacent expression on Tao Yan who counterattacked, Tao Yan Start to work hard, add a bit of moving color to the plainness of the night...
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