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Going down the stairs with a guilty conscience, the other leg of school uniform trousers was brushed, eyelashes vigilantly looked left and right, and the shiny little hands that grabbed the bag protruded fine knuckles, and waited until the small pavilion next to the playground in front of the teaching building , Xia Ningxin took a few breaths, opened the bag, and found a rectangular gray-black short-haired notebook.

Dong Mingcan's diary.

Xia Ningxin never thought that she would become a thief. Even during the winter vacation, she secretly took her house key and went into Dong Mingcan's room. When she saw the notebook on the guest table, she didn't touch it. Although she wanted to see her What was written, only slightly opened a corner of the page, and quickly put it down.At that time, Cancan's behavior of pulling her into the blacklist made her timid. If she found it, she said in the diary that she really didn't like and hated herself. Except for the tree covering the sky above her head, the newsstand behind her that can cover her body, and occasionally a few students who are far away from her, there is no one else.

The thin sunlight shone on her fair cheeks, and the blush gradually faded. Xia Ningxin put the notebook on her lap, took a deep breath, and wondered whether she knew that she had taken her diary, would it be worse? Hating myself, I quietly turned to the first page.

2006. 8, 25

Cancan said that she wanted to speed up her integration into Beijing, and that she met someone who was prettier than Wang Shujin.

I guess Cancan should be talking about herself, but who is Wang Shujin?

April 9

Xia Ningxin is quite interesting, but a little silly.

Where are you stupid!Automatically ignoring the part where Dong Mingcan said she was stupid, the paper rustled, except for her blaming her for her unsatisfactory grades, Xia Ningxin didn't find any other content besides excluding her, but most of them were records of playing with her .

2007. 9, 9

It was the first time to take a bath in the big bathhouse today, and they seemed to be used to it.I still can't get used to seeing Xia Ningxin's whole body by accident...she was crying, I can't stand girls crying, she doesn't like Chen Xue, so try not to talk to her in front of her from now on.She must be the only one who started to develop in the sixth grade.Xia Ningxin felt quite comfortable in her arms.

Can't remember, Xia Ningxin only knows the feeling when she leaned against the door and hugged her, the warmth has never changed.Even when she was crying, she was happy because she knew that Cancan would definitely comfort her.But when did she not even have the courage to cry?

2007. 9, 25

I fed ice cream to Xia Ningxin two days ago, I didn't expect it to be so painful when she was a big aunt... never in the future!

April 9

She looks a little better today.Qiu Bohao popularized new knowledge to me, and my new deskmate had a very good personality.

April 9

Xia Ningxin said that I wear a hat like a Japanese devil...

April 10

a Deep understanding of homosexuality b Birthday at the same table c Meet new friends d Xia Ningxin seems to like that boy, she also stared at him during the military training e had a quarrel, and will not leave her alone in the future.

Gently stroking the wetness in the corners of her eyes, Xia Ningxin looked down in sequence, and stroked each strong and powerful word with her fingertips. When she wrote her name, the strokes were coherent and smooth, just a few of them were beautifully written The three words completely wiped out the grievances of the past few days.

April 10

Fortunately, I found the note she gave me, and lied to her that I lost the box. She spent a few days looking for it for me.

April 10

Xia Ningxin's bladder doesn't seem to be shy at all... It's the first time I feel so shameful, listening to other people's urination...

The cloud-like memories flew over Xia Ningxin's head, condensed in the eye sockets and flowed over her pale pink cheeks. She vaguely remembered the scene of sharing the bathroom with Cancan at that time. The hotter temperature covered the two strands of blood on her cheeks. She knew that she was shy at the time, and couldn't even get up when she squatted down, but she thought it was Cancan, her close friend since the fifth grade, What's the matter?But, now, Bai Qiao's ears were burning red, she breathed out slowly, and continued to look down.

April 11

He's a little fool, he gets angry when he can't solve the problem.Are all first-year girls like this?She is also growing very fast, her breasts are soft, the touch feels like water waves, there are no hard lumps, I don't know where she said it hurts.I'm not ashamed to ask her carefully, anyway, Aunt Luo will tell her.

Sniffing, Xia Ningxin raised her eyes and looked around. There were a few students lying sporadically on the playground, basking in the sun.The corners of his mouth were pursed into a grin, and he slowly turned to the next page.

But seeing that her name hardly appeared in the next one, I couldn't figure out what Cancan did at that time, but Zhang Pan'er's name appeared once.Having used a diary for several years, and recorded very few things, Xia Ningxin generously pursed her lips into a line to embellish her mood when she saw Zhang Pan'er's name.

2008. 7, 15

Wang Shujin hoped that the summer vacation would be longer, but I didn't tell her that I wanted to start school tomorrow.When I have nothing to do, I play erhu, read books, and spend time with family and friends, but something is always missing.

April 8

When Xia Ningxin rushed towards me, it reminded me of the hometown that Xu Wei sang, her dress was flying, gentle as water, flopping in her arms, like hugging a bubble, if you grasp it tightly, it will burst, if you don’t touch it, it will fly, and then I can’t think of it So much, get stuck in the bubble.

April 9

I thought I was gay, just like Wang Shujin didn't think she was straight.Accept it naturally, it would be nice to have a girlfriend in the future.

On the second day of junior high school, it was the second day of junior high school, when she locked her brows tightly, Xia Ningxin's chest felt tight, and she hurriedly turned backwards.

April 9

I seem to really like girls, this does not hinder the present and the future.I seem to have a girl I like, but what am I not?I seem to like Xia Ningxin, but she is Xia Ningxin, I can't, I can't.

But why not?

The handwriting was scrawled, the back of the double-sided page, Xia Ningxin caressed it carefully, and flipped it over as if in the air. Her name was all in sight. It felt like being tied to a spring bed, and her limbs were pulled back fiercely. , bang, gravity threw her high into the air.The mist covered in the water-colored pupils gradually disappeared, and she wanted to grab Dong Mingcan's collar and ask her: Why didn't you tell me then!If it had been said, they would not be what they are now!

There were more than ten pages left, Xia Ningxin looked towards the bright second floor of the classroom behind her, and hurriedly unfolded it before looking back.

2009. 5, 20

I'm used to it, and it's fine to like her like this, without letting her know.

April 9

I want to remember every moment I spent with her: a. The back of the ginkgo leaves when I touched the ground with my feet. cHer hands are so small, only three-quarters the size of mine.Curved, the knuckles are round and boneless, and the warm pulse in the hand seems to be transfusing blood to oneself.It is also very comfortable to be touched by her little hands. D deliberately teased her to say what she thought she had fantasies, she blushed, and I knew it was only because of my words, not because that person was me...

There are many more, Xia Ningxin can't see it, the sun is noon, but there are groups of diligent students walking into the teaching building.Wiping away two handfuls of scorching tears, she stopped her blurred vision and panickedly sucked air into her lungs.

April 10

Seeing that boy, I don't want his name to appear in my diary.Xia Ningxin obviously likes him, I, I kissed her while she was asleep... Chen Xue is right, so, I can protect her when I step up and have the ability, but the uncontrollable factors before that are fear She likes him more and more.

2010. 6, 25

She is really stupid, she can take jokes seriously, and even cried in front of everyone.She obviously wants to save face, but I still have a lot of weight in her heart.But this weight is misplaced on the friendship side.Still, her love end was empty.

April 7

The family traveled to Harbin.In fact, the scenery can be seen in books, but when Xia Ningxin is standing, the charm is different.Her face was softer than her mouth, and her lips were icy cold to her lips, so tender that she could only desperately suppress the desire to swallow it... It seemed that it was becoming more and more uncontrollable.

Rubbing her face back and forth with the back of her fair hand, Xia Ningxin straightened her back and blinked her wet eyelashes.

April 8

The weather is fine today, but there is an extra boy in Happy Valley, the scene of Xia Ningxin hugging him is a bit dazzling.Once love comes, it is so overwhelming that it cannot be suppressed.The Ferris wheel blinded her thoughts, and everything she selfishly plundered is a bit ridiculous now.

As the clouds turned overcast, the students on the playground got up and scattered, and sprinkled speckled light from the gaps in the trees, slightly sweeping away the haze, and pinched Xia Ningxin's heart fiercely.The following scribbled and forceful strokes were like a train speeding past, dragging her into a scene that she didn't want to recall. It seemed that something between her and Cancan had changed since then.

April 8

Xia Ningxin said that I was jealous that someone liked her, and wanted to say that she was ridiculous, but when I got to my lips, I realized that I was even more ridiculous.It was ridiculous why I fell in love with such a childish person.The ridiculous confession has reached a critical point, and I still hold back.I can hold back too much, relying on strength to get to the present, I'm a little tired, but I obviously didn't do anything, I just like her.

April 8

Show Xia Ningxin yesorno today, the first tentative step.

April 9

What to be afraid of, this is similar to the situation where you have a premonition that the teacher will wake you up and ask questions.He also gave her a pair of bracelets. Xia Ningxin Space had long expressed her liking for this necklace, and everything she didn't pay attention to was stolen by others...

The collarbone is empty, and the clear and bright beads are placed on the innermost layer of the dressing cabinet, and they have only been worn for a while.

With her toes stuck to the ground, Xia Ningxin shrunk her thick and fluffy coat, and lowered her head to see clearly that her tears fell on the shadow of a person.