twin stars

Feng Xiangjie

The most shocking event that happened in Air City this year was the joint statement issued by the government of country E and the mainland government, stating that the government of country E will return the control of Air City to the mainland government when the "lease period" of Air City expires. Whether it is "colonization" or "rental/borrowing", after nearly 100 years of running-in and adapting, Hangcheng people have long been accustomed to this kind of management model and cultural integration that combines Chinese and Western cultures, and rely on their own efforts to make Hangcheng The city will be built into the world-famous "Pearl of the Orient".Now the sudden change of management rights, coupled with various negative/negative rumors from the mainland government, made many people in Hangcheng full of uncertainty and worry about the future.

I don't want to leave Airtown, I don't want to leave home.My house is near Zhao's studio, and Zhao's studio has imprinted an indelible mark on my life, and I don't even want to leave.Immediately after the release of the joint statement of the two governments, Boss Zhao donated a large amount of money to the mainland, built teaching buildings in universities around the country, and vigorously supported education and charity.The company also organizes employees to visit the mainland, and I am one of them.At the end of the visit, I feel that although there are various backwardness and imperfections in the Mainland, it has been developing. Maybe we should have confidence in it and look forward to it becoming a proud country one day.So, I don't intend to immigrate.Guoshu, Mandarin, martial arts movies, and the classical poems and songs I have loved in recent years all remind me: I am a Chinese!I even agreed with An Ran to speak Mandarin one day a week.When Xiaobang grows up, I still want to take him to see the Great Wall, to see the magnificent mountains and rivers on that piece of land, and tell him not to forget his "roots".If you understand where your "root" is, you will not be confused or lost.

Although I miss Zhao's company very much, the martial arts film "The Sequel to the Coach" I made before was not a hit. The company greatly reduced the shooting plan of ancient costume martial arts films, so I had to switch to modern films.

The "national art" that I was once proud of is no longer useful. I am very depressed and want to talk to someone.But every time I go home after filming, An Ran is playing outside!For some unknown reason, Xiaobang burst into tears, and the nanny he hired turned a deaf ear to him, and did not take care of the child wholeheartedly.I was very angry and accused An Ran of not fulfilling her responsibilities as a mother.

"I went shopping with my friend, Meng Qingxia, you also know her. She is in a bad mood recently, I just want to relax with her." An Ran defended confidently.

"You hang out with your friends, and you don't care about your husband and children? Xiaobang pricked his finger and kept crying. The nanny doesn't care, and you, a mother, don't care?" I couldn't get angry.Your friend is unhappy, and you rush to comfort him; your husband is troubled, but you don’t even ask, and now you have left your child behind!

"If you go to accompany your friend, you are not afraid that I will find another woman to accompany me?" I threatened angrily.

An Ran didn't know that I really lost my temper. She shook my arm and said coquettishly: "I believe you won't! I also happened for a reason, so don't blame me! Of course I feel sorry for Xiaobang, let's ask another one to do his duty Let's take care of him! Qingxia is feeling frustrated and needs my comfort. As her best friend, I can't leave her alone!"

"Then you just leave me and the child behind and don't come back!" I shook off her hand and said angrily.

"How do you say this? It's not reasonable at all, it's not human!" An Ran raised her eyebrows and shouted angrily.

Am I being unreasonable?I reasoned with myself and others every day, but I actually said that I was unreasonable!

"Yes, there is no reason to talk to you! You can play wherever you like, and I don't care about you anymore!"

"I'm going to play outside, what's the matter? This is what happened!" An Ran raised her head and deliberately confronted me.

My rage grew hotter and hotter.The two started a new round of verbal confrontation. The more they quarreled, the more excited they became, the more quarreled and angry they became, and the words they said became more and more excessive.

"I am your wife, not your daughter, why do you always order me? You are a tyrant!"

Hearing this sentence, I was so angry that I almost wanted to shake my fist.He recalled that not long ago, Yue Hua quarreled with his wife, and accidentally pushed her. Because of his strong hands, his wife was slightly injured.His wife took Yue Hua to court in a fit of rage, and everyone knew about it.I was worried that if the quarrel continued, I would not be able to control myself from hurting An Ran, so I suppressed my anger and hurried into the bedroom, dragged out a suitcase, took An Ran's clothes out of the closet and threw them in the suitcase. Then dragged the suitcase in front of her.

"Go, go to your mother! I don't want to see you these days!"

I bought a big house in the west of the city for my father-in-law and my mother-in-law, and asked An Ran to live there until we all calmed down.

"You! You!" An Ran was so angry that she couldn't speak: "Just leave! Do you think you are great?" She grabbed the lever and angrily walked towards the door.The trunk gears rolled "squeaky" and made harsh noises.

After An Ran left, I dismissed the nanny, hired a new nanny, and called my mother back from my sister's house to help take care of Xiaobang.

"Bring An Ran back! It's normal for husband and wife to quarrel over trifles, but don't quarrel for so long, it will hurt your relationship!" My mother advised.

"Hurt feelings? She didn't care about my feelings at all!" My anger was still there: "Where did she care about me? She doesn't even know if my career is going well."

"Oh, you have always taken care of her. She is used to taking care of her, but she still doesn't know how to take care of you. You have to give her time and wait for her to mature slowly!"

"When she matures? What should I do now?"

"You have always been very measured and assertive in doing things. You have never worried your mother. Mom believes that you can handle your own affairs well. Don't bring your work emotions home. This will cause a lot of family conflicts."

My mother already said so, what else can I say?Just stop complaining.But I still don't want to see An Ran for the time being, I still need to calm down.

I can only talk to my friends about my career troubles. I found my old friend Xu Shaoqiang.We have collaborated in several Gulong martial arts movies such as "Chu Xiangshuai", sometimes playing friends and sometimes playing enemies.He has portrayed many classic heroic images in several TV series he starred in.A few years ago, A Zhi had pulled him and Xiao Yi to star in two kung fu comedy movies, and they were also very good friends.I really want to get news about Xiaoyi from him, but like everyone else, he deliberately doesn't mention Xiaoyi in front of me.

"Ordinary bars are boring, let's go to nightclubs?" Although Xu Shaoqiang has played many righteous heroes like me, he has a lot of girlfriends. Bai Li, the younger sister of Hua Dan Bai Xue, lived together and gave birth to a child. After the divorce, she did not remarry with Bai Li, and often lingered in romantic places.

"I just ended a marriage, and I don't want to be bound by marriage anymore! Besides, why don't a man have a wife? A man should be unrestrained, and don't be too restrained on himself. A man like you, go home after work honestly, never You don't drink flowers and wine for entertainment, but in the end, your wife doesn't care about you! You should give your wife some sense of crisis and make her afraid of losing you, so that she will stare at you every day!"

His words seemed to make sense.An Ran said she trusted me, so I went to find the dancer to stimulate her.

"Come, come, let me introduce you a caring one. This is Yinsha, the famous "Jieyuhua" here, who is understanding and tender, and she will keep everything you say to her." Xu Shaoqiang put a The teenage girl pushed against me.

"Brother Jie, I toast you a glass of wine!" Yin Sha raised the glass with a smile.She had long hair draped over her shoulders and beautiful eyes. Other dancers were dressed gorgeously, but she was wearing a simple and elegant white dress. Her figure was as slim as a white rose.I took the glass and drank it down, only to find that everyone else quietly left the private room after drinking.

"Brother Jie, you can tell me what's bothering you, and I can untie it for you!" She said in a melodious voice while pouring wine: "My 'Jieyuhua' is not a waste of money. false name."

"How do you know I'm troubled?"

Yinsha covered her mouth and smiled: "Your thoughts are written on your face, even a fool can see it! Seeing your frown, I really want to help you smooth it out!" My forehead was soft and cold, and I turned my head away in fright.

"I, I only chat!" I was embarrassed.

"You're actually blushing!" She giggled softly: "It's so funny, a married man can still blush!"

"I, I came here just to annoy my wife, I have no other ideas!" I held the wine glass with both hands, only dared to stare at the glass, not her.

"Just to annoy your wife? It seems that you are very devoted to your wife!" Yin Sha half teased and half sighed.

Her words touched my heart, and a feeling of melancholy arose spontaneously: "I also hope... I am very devoted to my wife..."

"Why?" She asked in amazement: "Could it be that you have moved on? I really can't see it!"

I hurriedly explained: "No, no! Before I met my wife, I always... liked someone, but he didn't like me and only regarded me as a friend. After getting married, I really wanted to forget him, but I couldn't... Drop!" I drank the wine in the glass and poured myself a few more glasses.Yinsha listened to me quietly.

"I know it's not right. I've tried very hard to restrain my feelings, and I haven't even seen him for many years, but I miss him more and more. My mother and my wife always feel that I am very strong, and I always feel that I don't need Consolation, as if I can handle everything by myself, and I don’t need them to worry about it. Why are they so relieved of me? I don’t want them to treat me as a good person! I’m really working hard! I really want to indulge… ..."

"I know...the stronger a person is, the greater the pressure he will bear. Because he doesn't know how to ask others for help, and others can't think of helping him." Yinsha took the wine glass in my hand and poured me a glass of warm water. "That person...you really can't forget?"

I nodded.

"If you want to indulge, then you can treat me as that person, say what you want to say, do what you want to do!" Yinsha held my hand, her eyes sparkled with encouragement and temptation.

Her eyes made me lose my mind for a moment, but after seeing the person in front of me clearly, I smiled wryly: "No, no one can replace him! I don't want to betray my wife either."

Yinsha showed a disappointed look. After a moment of silence, she asked quietly, "Do you love your wife?"

I thought about it, and nodded: "I love it too. It's just that the love for that person... seems to have penetrated into my bone marrow, engraved into my soul, and I probably won't be able to get rid of it in this life!"

"Actually... how to do it, you already have the answer in your heart, don't you? You just want to speak out what is in your heart. Speaking out is also a kind of release. Otherwise, if you keep holding it in your heart, you may have something wrong with your brain!"

I looked at Yinsha and suddenly realized.

Yes, I have known for a long time: to love someone, you don't have to possess him.If you can't get it, then you can only bury this love deep in your heart, as deep as you can hide it!There will always be a day when life will end, and there will always be a day when the soul will rest in peace. Sooner or later, it will be liberated...

"I envy both the person you like and your wife. One gets your love and the other gets yours. I'm afraid there are many people who can neither get your love nor yours. ..." Yinsha suddenly pointed at herself playfully: "For example, me, huh! There is nothing perfect in this world. Who dares to say that they can get everything? There are many people who look perfect or seem very successful. Things you can’t ask for. It can only be said that God is not really partial. The more things he gives you, the more likely he is to take away your important things at the same time.”

The fact that I went to the nightclub to find Miss Wu was exposed by the media.An Ran called the next day and asked to move back home.

"I didn't do anything to be sorry for you!" I solemnly explained to her.

She said she believed it, but she wanted to open a clothing store, and she wanted to be independent in the future and no longer depend on me.I'm relieved, it's better than her doing nothing all day.Her attention to me has also increased. In fact, I also need her to help me restrain myself.I can no longer chat with Yinsha. I usually only read more books and read more newspapers.Look at other people's opinions more, as if you have found a conversation partner for yourself.I often cut out useful articles from newspapers and paste them in my notebook, just like how Xiao Yi collected Huang Yu's movie materials back then.The scrapbook he gave me is still in the basement of my brother's house.

The family crisis was resolved, but the career crisis was unexpected.I didn't start work for more than half a year, and I didn't have any new films to shoot. Several films I made were suppressed by the company due to poor expectations and were not released.Afterwards, Zhao's company proposed to me: Terminate the contract.

I wanted to talk to Ms. Dong, but she avoided me.Her secretary told me: "Zhao's film company is declining and cannot make ends meet. It is about to close down. How can we renew the contract with you? Everyone has to find another way out. Ms. Dong will take over the TV company of the Zhao Group, so you go to her It's no use either."

I have rejected invitations from many film companies. I don't care about the salary. I just want to die in Zhao Film Company. I never thought that Zhao Film Company, a huge ship that once dominated the world, would sink one day!

I lost the asylum of Zhao's company and was thrown into the rivers and lakes to experience the baptism of strong winds and waves again.Only then did I realize that I was so out of touch with the outside world that I didn't even know the call machine was born.The film companies that once offered me an olive branch have all changed their faces and rejected me as a "gone star".After being shut down many times, I have a deeper understanding of what it means to be warm and cold in human relationships and to be indifferent to the world!

Although financially self-sufficient, I was anxious and I lost my sense of self-worth.This feeling is familiar.When I starred in "Blind Spot" for the first time and suffered a disastrous failure at the box office and word of mouth, and was hid by the company for several months, I also fell into serious "self-doubt". I even thought that I had chosen the wrong path and wanted to give up.How did you survive that time?

At that time... Xiao Yi was by my side!

He didn't want me to leave the company, he got two supporting role opportunities, he encouraged me to hone my Mandarin; he saw that I was depressed, so he took me to gamble/gamble in the secret place of Dragon and Tiger Warrior, he and A Zhi cheated Let me win a lot of money; someone ridiculed that my arm was broken and disabled, he came forward to fight for me, and was almost hidden by the company; he got a chance to be upright, I was very happy for him, and I was full of energy; he stole A small jar of ketchup was given to me, and I was caught. He said that "props" should not be wasted, and that he would leave a copy for me if he had any good things; he sat on a three-meter-high branch and waved to me.I came to the tree in confusion, but he jumped down with a "whoosh", knocked me to the ground, sat on me, crossed his legs, and smiled triumphantly at me: "This is a secret, wait for me!" I can only tell you when the time comes!" After that, we co-starred in "The Bodyguard" together, and the film was a huge success at the box office; after that, our careers were like a rocket, and we kept climbing... With Xiaoyi, every day All full of hope and joy!

Now, all the glory of the past has evaporated, and I have fallen hard to the bottom.I no longer have his support and encouragement by my side, I am the only one left... I have always hoped that Xiao Yi could rely on me, but it turned out that I was so dependent on him psychologically!

"Brother, brother, save me!"

I heard my younger sister calling for help. My eighty-nine-year-old sister was being surrounded by a group of teenagers to snatch the bucket.In this slum, we have to carry buckets to the mountains to line up to fetch water every day.On the way home, punks often come to grab water.I rushed forward with a bucket in my hand, trying to break up the older children besieging my sister, but I was only eleven or twelve years old, so who could I beat?Six or seven older kids started turning around and besieging me.They punched and kicked me. Although I resisted desperately, I was outnumbered. I received many punches and kicks on the head, stomach, and legs, which made me grin my teeth in pain.At this time, the younger sister's bucket was kicked over during the snatching process, and a child leader said angrily: "The water has been spilled! Hit me!"

The crying of the younger sister came, and she was also beaten!

I was so anxious that I wanted to save my sister, but I was blocked by a human wall and couldn't get through!

At a critical moment, a little boy about ten years old suddenly rushed to his sister, and with a desperate force, he broke up the older boy who was beating his sister.The older children let go of their sister and began to surround the younger boy.

I don't know that little boy, but he seems to have known him.We broke through our encirclement respectively and leaned side by side.

"Who are you?" I asked confused.

"I want to fight by your side!" He grinned at me.

Scenes from many movies kept flashing. Facing powerful enemies coming like a tide, I have fought side by side with one person countless times!

"Is it you? Xiao Yi?" I asked with a trembling voice, "You came to my dream... help me?"

In a blink of an eye, we all became what we grew up to be.

It's him!It's still that smile, a little sloppy, a little careless, but also very bright, as if nothing can trouble him!

"I want to fight side by side with you!" He stretched out his right hand and held mine tightly, just like we often do in movies.

I knew it was just a dream, I knew I was alone, but I still pulled him into my arms and held him tight.Let me continue to dream of "fighting side by side", even if it is illusory...

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This chapter was written hastily and may need to be revised later.It hasn't been updated for several days, so I'll send it out first