twin stars

Lei Yi

"Wild child! Wild child!"

"Who are you scolding?" I waved my fist to demonstrate to a few children who were yelling in the distance.

"Lei Yi has no parents, he is a wild child that no one wants!" Several little boys stuck out their tongues at me and made faces, which completely irritated me.

"You nonsense! I have a mother, I have a mother!" I rushed forward to beat them up.

"Your mother doesn't like you because you're a weird kid! She likes your brother, your brother and your sister, but not you! She doesn't want you anymore!" They laughed and ran away, and they gathered again in the distance. Keep laughing at me.

"You are talking nonsense! You are talking nonsense!" Trembling with anger, I picked up a few small stones and threw them at them.Several children who were hit covered their heads and screamed "Wow".At this time, a tall figure appeared: "You little villain, you are throwing stones without parental discipline?" He lifted me up and let my hands and feet hang in the air.I waved my arms and legs and struggled desperately in mid-air.

"Dad, he hit me!" A little boy hid behind the tall man, pointed at me and complained to the man.

"Hmph, you dare to hit my son! See how I punish you!" The tall man stretched out his hand and threw me forward, throwing me into a big iron cage.I fell to the ground, skinned on my knees and arms.

The iron cage closed with a bang.I got up, grabbed the railing and yelled, "Let me out! Let me out!"

At this time, I saw my grandma standing outside the cage with her back hunched, and sighed, "Oh, why are you so naughty? Grandma can't control you! You should reflect on yourself!" After finishing speaking, she shook her head, wobbly out of my sight.

"Come and see, Lei Yi has been locked up! He deserves it! He deserves it!" All the children who laughed at me before ran back and continued to smile at me. "Dare to throw stones at us, let's hit him now!" As he said, small stones rained down on me.Some hit the iron railings and made a crisp "ping-pong" sound; most passed through the gaps between the railings and hit my head, arms, and legs.

I used my arms to protect my face, trying to pick up the small stones that fell to the ground and hit back, but I couldn't throw them far due to the constraints of the iron cage.The children throwing stones outside the iron cage were even more unscrupulous. They didn't care that my forehead, face, and hands were bleeding from the hard stones.

It hurts!I sat on the ground, hugged my knees and curled up, burying my face in them.Smash it, smash it, anyway, I'm a weird kid, anyway, no one likes me...

Suddenly, the noise was still there, but no small stones fell on me.

I raised my head in doubt, and saw a little boy who was a little older than me half-kneeling outside the iron cage, holding on to the railing with both hands, and sheltering me in his shadow, all the stones fell on his back.

"Who are you?" I looked at the kid in front of me in surprise. He has a pair of clear and clear eyes, which I seem to have seen somewhere.

"Don't be afraid, I'll protect you!" He smiled slightly, showing half of his canine teeth, looking childish and innocent, but also gentle and shy.

There is only one person with this kind of smile, and that is Ajie!

I rushed forward and shouted anxiously: "Get out of the way, it hurts to be hit by a stone!" But he just looked at me and smiled, just like when we co-produced a movie, he and I looked at each other countless times. same smile.

"Don't be afraid, I'll beat them away!" He shook my hand, turned around and rushed towards the stone-throwing children.The group of children ran away in fright, but soon, several children called the aggressive adults.They are dressed like gangsters, and they are still playing with foldable fruit knives in their hands.

The young Ajie is not their opponent at all!I yelled: "Ajie, run away, leave me alone, run away!"

In a blink of an eye, Ajie and I both looked like we were in our twenties.He performed Wing Chun, and knocked down the gangsters surrounding him with a few punches.But soon a large group of hooligan A Fei with knives appeared and attacked Ajie.

Worried that Ajie was alone and outnumbered, I anxiously shook the railing and shouted, "Ajie, open the cage and let me help you! I want to fight side by side with you!"

In the flash of the knife, Ajie is in danger.At this time, a little gangster stood behind Ajie and quietly took out a pistol.

"Be careful!" My heart rose to my throat, and I wished I could fly out and get behind him.

"Papa!" After two gunshots, the gangster who tried to attack Ajie fell to the ground.Zhou Zefa appeared chic and suave, biting a toothpick.He grinned at Ajie and threw him two pistols/guns.Ajie took the gun and turned into a 40-year-old.The two of them clasped fists in tacit understanding, and then back to back, they started a shootout with the underworld gangster who took out his gun.The gangsters were no match for them and were quickly repelled.

Facing the result of victory, Ajie and Zhou Zefa hugged each other like old friends they haven't seen for many years, and laughed heartily.Zhang Guorong, who plays Ajie's younger brother, also appeared at this time.Ajie put his arms around the two of them, smiling all over his face.The three of them laughed and walked side by side with their backs to me, walking further and further away.

"Wait a minute, Ajie, don't go! Have you forgotten me?" I grabbed the railing, my voice trembling.

Ajie didn't seem to hear my voice at all, he just talked and laughed with the brothers around him, and the three of them disappeared quickly.

After waking up from the dream, I stood on the street in a daze, looking at the large stills of Ajie on the billboard, and asked myself: because I missed him, will I have to accept punishment for the rest of my life?I can also die for A Jie, but now I don't even have the chance to die for him?Can't be his lover, and now can't even be a brother who lives and dies together?I can only restrain my jealousy, even if I see him getting close to others, should I pretend that nothing happened?

Because of the box office hit of "True Color Heroes", Xinyicheng started filming the second sequel in full swing. Ajie, Zhou Zefa, and Zhang Guorong once again staged a brotherly love on the screen. The success of "True Heroes" reversed Hangcheng's movie-watching habits dominated by comedies, and set off a wave of underworld hero movies with the value of praising friendship as the core.

I don't know what capacity I should continue to associate with Ajie. He is a popular star, but I'm just an ordinary director... I directed a light comedy about life. A Jie co-produced a comedy film about the story of a couple reuniting in Zhao's company.Her acting talent is very high. She has won the Best Actress Award at the International Film Festival and the Best Actress Award at the Golden Film Festival. It took a lot of effort to invite her to participate in my film "The Enemy".The movie tells the story of a 36-year-old unmarried "grandmother" who took in a father and daughter in righteousness. After she recognized the sanctimonious face of a member of parliament who pretended to pursue her, she and the taken-in male protagonist exchanged feelings and eventually got married.The cooperation between Xiao Fang and I was very smooth, but the two had differences in the way of acting.

"Director, if it were me, knowing that I was cheated and used by that congressman, that the actor's invention was plagiarized, that I couldn't get financial income and couldn't win the custody of my daughter, I would definitely cry and even smash things to vent. But you won't let me cry, I don't understand!"

I tried to explain to her: "Some sorrows are more borne, the more painful they are. The heroine is very self-reliant and independent, and she doesn't want to show weakness, so no matter how sad she is, she doesn't want to cry."

"So you let me cry silently while eating noodles after knowing that I was cheated; when I saw the male protagonist go out to sea and run a boat, I also suppressed my tears. Do you know that I can't even cry out? It's hard to hold back!"

I showed a bitter smile: I know, how could I not know?It is precisely because I have a deep understanding that I feel that this performance can better reflect the sadness of the heroine.

Xiao Fang finally accepted my opinion.In the following year's Golden Inlay Awards, she won the Best Actress Award for her performance in this film.

At the end of the film, the male protagonist finally came back from the boat, and the heroine's waiting was not in vain.Yes, life is not that hopeless, and everyone still likes to see comedic endings.I should be happy too, right?Anyway, Ajie is back!Even if we can't go back to the past, compared to those ten years of separation, meeting him is already a great luck!I shouldn't be so greedy, right?

"The Enemy" is waiting to be released, Xiaoer suddenly came to the set to look for me.He gained the attention of the industry with his first film "Bian Guy" and is considered a young director with great potential.He said that he was preparing to shoot the second movie "Hijacking" and invited Ajie to be the protagonist, and he also hoped that I would play the role of an agent.I've been looking forward to the progress of the film, but today he came suddenly, but his expression was a little strange.

"Brother..." He stammered and hesitated, a little afraid of me like before.

"What's the matter? Tell me something straight?"

"What happened between you and Brother Jie? He, he said he couldn't act with you, and he didn't let me ask why."

After being hit in the heart, I pretended to be calm and said, "You didn't tell him that I'm just a cameo, and I don't have many scenes with him?"

"I said it, but he still shook his head! Brother, did you have another misunderstanding? Do you want to ask Brother Jie in person? If you have a misunderstanding, explain it as soon as possible, and don't let the conflict deepen!" Xiaoer looked at me worriedly.

After Xiao Er left, I immediately called Ajie's house and repeatedly called for several days, but after Ajie's servants asked my name, they all replied that Ajie was not at home.

I asked Xin Yicheng's friends about his situation, hoping they would help me arrange a meeting with Ajie, but Ah Tim, A Sen and even Azhi showed embarrassed expressions again.

Why, why is it the same as before?

People around me can see him at any time, only I can't see him even if I try my best!

No, no!It won't be the same as before, Ajie is back, he won't treat me like before!Will not!

Ajie, let me meet you!Am I doing something wrong again?Made you mad again?

Is it because of the previous jealousy?

I figured it out, I'm not jealous anymore, I'm not jealous anymore!I'm not jealous of who you get close to, I just look at you from a distance, isn't it okay?

You have been hiding from me for ten years, is there another ten years?Or, is it a lifetime?

impossible!impossible!

The production of Xiaoer's "Hijacking" is completed, and the TV station is broadcasting the film's promotion meeting.As the leading actor, Ajie was interviewed by the media together with an important supporting actor.The supporting actor in his 20s is Ah Wei, one of the "Infinity Five Tigers", a former TV star.Xiaoer said that because he felt that he was very similar to me when I was young, I specially used him to shoot "The Bump".And because of his outstanding performance in the film, he was used again this time to perform with Ajie.

Seeing a person who looks like me standing next to him, watching him smiling under the spotlight, my heart slowly constricted, my chest felt stuffy and painful, and it became more and more difficult to breathe.

"Boom", I fell to the ground, unconscious...

Feng Xiangjie

Asen and Xu Ke broke up!

The second part of "True Heroes" started filming before the script was completed, and the original cast is still there.It's just that A Sen and Xu Ke split the film into two parts because of major differences on the shooting theme, and one person directed the other part.Ah Sen wanted to film Brother Sheng and Xiao Kai's growth experience and friendship process, while Xu Ke wanted to make a film that would encourage Ah Tim.Ah Tim was cooperating with others in the filming of the island, but was framed by others and almost got involved in a lawsuit.Because of the blow, he began to have the idea of ​​leaving the film industry.In order to cheer him up, Xu Ke wrote a script about Sheng Ge, Xiao Kai's twin brother and A Lian helping Tim, played by Ah Tim, regain hope in life.A Sen finally compromised, but he and Xu Ke still had a huge rift due to different shooting concepts, and there were many incongruities in the film itself.Ah Sen said that after the filming of this movie, he would never cooperate with Xu Ke again.

"My friend is nothing more than that! Although I want to help Ah Tim, it is actually more for the box office. I pursue artistic standards in filming, and he also regarded art as his pursuit in filmmaking. We were like-minded at the time, but now he completely worships him. At the feet of money. Years of friendship, even the love of sharing weal and woe is vulnerable!" Asen was indignant.

"You are pursuing art, and he is pursuing box office. I don't think there is anything wrong! Without box office, wouldn't the film company go bankrupt? But without art, the film will not look good. You don't care who is right and who is wrong, just have different positions. Think about it from the perspective of the other party, and the problem might be solved. Even if you really don’t cooperate, then don’t even be friends!” I persuaded patiently.Ah Sen and Xu Ke have cherished each other for many years, and they are each other's nobles. When they were filming the first part of "True Heroes", they were also "brothers are of one heart, and their profits cut gold". I really don't want to see them fall out.

"Then why did you and Xiao Yi fall out? Everyone was looking forward to your reconciliation, and you finally reconciled, but you didn't communicate with each other in a blink of an eye. How many friends' hearts have been broken! Part of the reason for Tim's depression is also I was hit by you. Oh, I really feel disillusioned!" He said with a frown.I was choked all at once.

"You can all break up, let alone me and Xu Ke?"

I lowered my head, not knowing how to explain: "We... haven't seen each other for a long time, we're already strangers to each other, and we have nothing to say when we meet..."

"If you have nothing to say, you don't need to avoid him, right? Xiaoyi really wants to see you, but you haven't even seen him... Sigh, haven't you forgiven him yet?"

"There is no forgiveness or non-forgiveness between us, it's just... the fate is over, there is no need to involve each other."

"Then Xu Ke and I are at the end of our fate, let's go our separate ways from now on!" He turned his head to leave the office, and when he reached the door, he suddenly turned his head and asked earnestly: "If you and Xiao Yi can reconcile as before, I will see you again." Believe in 'friendship is priceless.' Can you? Are you really going to never see him for the rest of your life?"

I stood at the table in a daze, unable to say a word.He waited for a moment, sighed, shook his head and walked out of the room.

I can't help them, and I can't help myself.

I recently started to read Buddhist scriptures and saw a few words:

Dependent origin is gone, and conditioned birth is empty.

Fate is the cause and effect of previous life, acquaintance is the arrival of fate, and forgetting each other is the separation of fate. (Tangyang Gyatso's "Ask the Buddha")

Maybe the moment I met Xiao Yi, the ending of today was already doomed.I thought I had it, but it was just a mirror image.The reason is determined by God, and the part is human-made.I have nothing to do with him in this life.

The Buddha said that there are eight sufferings in life: birth, old age, illness, death, parting from love, resentment and hatred, not being able to ask for it, not being able to let it go.

The Buddha said that life is like being in the midst of thorns. If the heart does not move, people do not move rashly. If they do not move, they will not be hurt;

The Buddha said that there are three stages for a person to realize the Tao: "explore, let go, and be at ease." A person must let go before he can be at ease. (Tangyang Gyatso's "Ask the Buddha")

It's a pity that I can't find out, can't let go, can't get at ease, and can't escape the pain!

When I was filming Xiao Er's "Hijacking", I saw the young actor A Wei who co-starred with me, and I was convinced again: I can't forget Xiao Yi!The melancholy in Awei's eyebrows is very much like him when he was young.I once took a photo of Xiao Yi gazing into the distance with his eyebrows fixed. His expression made me want to heal his sorrow and block all his troubles and sorrows, leaving only happiness and joy.But now, I can't do anything!I can't even save myself, so how can I heal his sorrow?

After the success of "True Color Hero", countless film appointments flew to Ah Fa and me.Ah Fa accepted more than a dozen film contracts in one go, and was busy all day socializing with dignitaries, as if he was dazzled by success.I reminded him: You have to be clear about what you are after, and don't lose your way!A few days later, he told me that he had calmed down and figured it out. He still had to continue to hone his acting skills. He would choose high-quality scripts to act in and reject some low-quality film contracts.Being able to stay sober when successful means that there will be higher achievements waiting for Ah Fa. I am very pleased for him.

It's just that he didn't lose his way, but I lost my goal and direction.There is nothing left to motivate me to continue working hard in my career, and my whole body seems to be empty.

Some producers approached me and said that the match between me and Ah Fa is a perfect match, and they hope that we will continue to cooperate and continue the film mode of "Twins" or "Double Heroes".But when I heard the words "twins" and "two heroes", I was terrified.This only reminds me of Xiaoyi, Zhao's company used words like "Twin Stars" to build me and him many years ago, I remembered Zhang Dao comparing us to "long-term" and "short", and I remembered all the sad things. past.In order to attract people's attention, the media always like to insinuate my friendship with Ah Fa as "gay", which caused me to be ridiculed by Xiao Yi, so I can no longer partner with Ah Fa, so I can only try to refuse:

"It's not that I don't want to cooperate, but we are both movie kings. Who will be ranked first and who will be ranked last? Ah Fa has a lot of ideas in filming. He likes to change the role of the scene to make himself more prominent. If I also want to change the role of the role, the two What if there is a conflict?"

The producers were surprised.He probably didn't expect me to care about rankings and roles so much, but when I fell out with Xiao Yi, the nominal reason was conflicting roles, so this reason should be justified, right?

Except for A Sen's films, A Fa and I have only worked together again in the films of Sun Zhong, a director from Zhao's company who I know well.It's just because Sun Zhong's temper is more irritable, and my temper is too stubborn. We had fierce conflicts because of our different understanding of the roles.Sometimes the more familiar a friend is, the more unforgiving the attitude of the other party.I thought I helped him, but I didn't expect him to be so rude to me.Think about Asen and Xu Ke, they probably broke up for the same reason, right?Afterwards, I apologized to Sun Zhong, because I didn't want to lose an old friend for many years because of a small conflict at work.

Asen seems to intend to continue the tradition of director Zhang's "Double Heroes" films.He took Ah Fa and A Rong to make films together, and then paired Ah Fa with Ah Xiu, who is good at filming police and gangster films, and made many successful gangster action films.

It's just that the popularity of gangster movies has had some bad effects.The movie beautifies the brotherhood of the underworld, creating some false impressions on young people in society, and making them yearn for the underworld.It wasn't a situation I wanted to see, and I started shooting gangster movies as little as possible.At this time, because of the prosperity of the film industry, people and capital from the underworld in Hangcheng began to infiltrate the film industry in large quantities, which brought a great impact on the conventional film industry and filmmakers. Examples of celebrities making movies to collect money or even laundering/money.

"As long as you are willing, I will help you with Xin Yicheng and the others."

Brother Huo, whom I hadn’t seen in more than ten years, pushed a box of banknotes in front of me with a cigar in his mouth, a thick gold chain and several gemstone rings.He used to be a gangster on Sha Tsui Street, but later switched to serious business such as real estate. Recently, he intends to invest in a film company to make movies to make money.Many years ago, Xiaoyi's friend got addicted to drugs and was hunted down. I took Xiaoyi to seek help from his people, found Xiaoyi's friend, and successfully helped that friend quit drugs.

"Brother Huo, I'm sorry, since I signed a contract with Xin Yicheng and the contract has not yet expired, I can't break my promise and tear up the contract." I pushed the money back.

"You fucking don't know how to flatter!" A younger brother behind Brother Huo suddenly made an attack, took out a pistol/gun from his pocket and pointed it at me.

"Back off!" Brother Huo yelled: "Brother Jie is the one you can threaten? When he helped me block the knife back then, you were not weaned yet!" Brother Huo shouted back the younger brother, and then said to me with a pleasant face: "Okay Well, since you don't want to, of course I can't force you. But someday you are willing, you can come to me anytime!"

After Brother Huo left, I couldn't help sighing: the world is too chaotic, being popular is not necessarily a good thing!Brother Huo is quite a moral guy, he doesn't touch drugs and has his own bottom line, but now there are at least dozens of gangs raging in the film industry, with complicated composition and extreme methods.If I am targeted by them, the consequences will be unpredictable, and I don't want to go out of my way to help them film.However, I once knew some friends from the police, and they said that they would warn these gangsters and try not to let these gangs harass me.Colleagues who are still working hard in the film industry either have to find a powerful gangster company to attach to, or have to cooperate with them in filming.It is very difficult to maintain integrity in troubled times, so I further reduced the number of films I made and the exposure rate.

Ah Fa finally found his love destination and married a rich girl whose name coincided with his ex-girlfriend's name.He shouldn't have completely forgotten his ex-girlfriend, but he also let go of the past, let go of his embrace, and accepted new feelings.I wish I could be like him!

An Ran is a good wife, but why can't I let her go?Is it because you "can't ask for it" that you can't let it go?It is useless to say the truth a thousand times or ten thousand times.

With less work and more free time, I often felt lonely. I began to watch movies and eat alone, and I didn't want to associate with people in the circle.Even if someone came to me for a film, I refused.

Maybe, it would have been better if I hadn't met Xiao Yi...

Lei Yi

When I woke up, I saw a doctor's white coat in front of me.

"The patient is awake, and the family members can come here." The doctor greeted the people behind him, and Yu Shan's half-happy and half-concerned face appeared on the bedside.

"What's going on?" I stood up in confusion, and Yushan hurriedly helped me sit up.

"Oh, you are in ischemic shock caused by a heart attack. After taking the medicine, you are fine for the time being." The doctor explained.

"Heart attack? How could I have a heart attack?" I was surprised, I always thought I was in good health.

"There are many causes of heart disease. In addition to high cholesterol, high blood pressure, diabetes and other diseases, bad living habits such as smoking, drinking, staying up late, and overworked fatigue can also cause heart disease. In addition, psychological factors are also important reasons. : Excessive long-term mental stress, depression, irritability, anxiety, and anger will all lead to increased heart load and induce heart disease. Therefore, maintaining good living habits and maintaining a peaceful mind are necessary conditions to ensure heart health. You are only in the early stages Symptoms, as long as you take good care of them and don’t make the condition worse, it shouldn’t have much impact on your body in the future.”

I lowered my head, thought for a while, and said, "Probably... I was too tired from filming before..."

"Also, you smoke and drink, and you don't go to bed until midnight every night. I've tried to persuade you, but you didn't listen!" Yu Shan complained.

Yeah, it's been a long time since I fell asleep before midnight.I am very tired and want to rest very much, but I can't fall asleep all the time, what can I do?

In fact, it’s good to fall asleep like before and not wake up again, so I won’t be so tired that way!

"Xiao Nan and Xiao Xi are arguing for their father at home!" Yu Shan's words woke me up.

I looked at her angry and worried face, and thought to myself: I can't have anything to do, the whole family is still counting on me to support them!I'm gone, what should they do?

"It's nothing serious this time. Don't tell others about my fainting. Don't tell my mother, second brother, and Xiaoer either. I'm afraid they will worry."

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1987 "It's Not Enemies Don't Get Together" "Heroes of the People"

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A man after middle age often feels lonely, because when he opens his eyes, he is surrounded by people who rely on him, but there is no one he can rely on.

(Excerpt from Zhang Ailing's "Half Life")