Just A Bit Wrong

After Tristan left, Zach closed his eyes, trying to calm down the confusion.

He endured it for eight days, not letting himself bother Tristan.As a result, the little kid moved his finger and all his efforts were for naught-well, Tristan didn't just move his finger, he played a cheap trick.Zach's face was bitter. He didn't see each other for a few days, which was too fucking speechless.He's a 30-year-old adult, not a schoolboy, and it shouldn't be difficult for him to keep a distance from someone.

But it's really hard.

Zach had always thought of himself as a calm, rational man, but that was him.He had thought that his life might be easier without Tristan picking things up, but it turned out to be the opposite.When Tristan is around, Zach can also say that he has shaken his will. Who made this kid's eyes and lips so beautiful, who made him always have that smug, irritating smirk on his face?Now that Tristan has left, Zach's mood should have changed accordingly, but his miss for Tristan has never stopped.He wanted to see him, and everything about him in his mind turned into boundless thoughts.Every time Zach unburdens his mind, Tristan's pursed lips in a fit of tantrum flash through his mind, and his blue-green eyes, as Zach pumps inside him Eyes will be watery because of lust.

Damn, it's been eight days.When Donna was on a business trip to China, Zach rarely thought of her, but they hadn't seen each other for more than a month.

Donna.

Zach sighed.He didn't want to discuss this matter with Donna, not that he wanted to hide anything, but he would rather Donna was on a business trip in China than explain the ins and outs of this relationship to her.When Zach went to the airport to pick him up, Donna could tell at a glance that he was not in the right shape, and Zach knew he couldn't hide it.Although Donna didn't point it out immediately, she had been observing him thoughtfully.She knows Zach, so Zach's anxiety must not escape her eyes.

Zach took a deep breath.He glanced down to make sure the bump was inconspicuous.Then he followed Tristan downstairs.

"What's wrong?" Donna asked softly.She took his arm and led him toward the kitchen, obviously wanting to have a good talk with him, but Zach froze in place.Donna stopped. "Zack?"

"Come and watch a movie." He dragged her to the side where the sofa was not occupied.

"Ah! Please!" Nick rolled his eyes, "We don't need a babysitter, okay? I promise, you let us play by ourselves, we will never throw things around." He raised his eyebrows with a smile.

Zach's fingers clenched into fists.

Donna laughed. "Don't look at me, it's your brother who insisted on coming."

"Did you hear that?" Nick looked at Zach and shouted silently with his eyes: Get out of here, don't stop me from dating men.

Zach chooses to play dumb. "This is my home." He went to the minibar and took two bottles of beer, uncapped the bottle, and returned to the sofa with the wine. "If you don't like my rules, you can stay in another place."

"Okay." Nick replied slowly.

He and Donna exchanged glances.

Zach ignored their eye contact and handed Donna a bottle of beer.

"What are you looking at?" Donna asked, trying to ease the suddenly tense atmosphere.

Nick said something, and Donna answered him with a smile.

Tristan remained silent.

Zach sat down next to Donna, and he watched a movie, trying to relax.

"Can you tell me what's wrong with you?" Donna lowered her voice and asked in his ear.Zach didn't know what she meant by doing this: the explosions on the TV already drowned out the two of them talking.

"What's wrong?"

"I mean, you watch action movies with your brother and his boyfriend, don't you really hate action movies? We can do something more interesting." She stroked his chest lightly with her finger , "Your body is so tense. Didn't you go out to have fun while I was on a business trip?"

"He's not Nick's boyfriend. He's a former patient of mine."

Donna blinked and looked at him inexplicably.

"I know who he is," she said after a moment of silence. "As a dignified sports reporter, how could I not know Tristan Dewar? But they feel very close, you see."

Zach didn't want to watch it, but he had no choice.

Nick's arm rests on the back of the sofa behind Tristan, fingertips brushing lightly over his shoulder.

Zach clenched the hand holding the bottle.

"Zach?" Donna called him.

There's a patch of skin under Tristan's ear where Zac would hum tremblingly if he kissed it lightly there--now, Nick's thumb was inches away from there.

"Zack?"

Has Nick touched there?

"Zack!" Donna pinched him.

Zach snapped back to his senses and looked back at Donna. "What's wrong?"

She stared at him, frowning, and then at Tristan. "I feel like I'm missing something. What's going on at home?"

Zach took a sip of his beer, and now he only wanted something stronger than beer in his mouth. "nothing."

"Then why do you look like you want to hit someone?" Donna touched his stiff arm. "What’s wrong with you?"

He can't lie to her.

"I slept with him."

Out of the corner of his eye, Zach saw Donna's mouth open.

"Ah." After a long time, she finally squeezed out a word.

Zach looked at her, surprised by the discomfort in Donna's voice.In the past, she didn't react like this when they exchanged "records".

Donna smiled, but Zach understood her.Facing his confession, she hesitated a little.

Zach frowned.Donna is not homophobic.She knew early on that Nick was gay and had always supported him.

"You're upset," he said.

Donna looked bitter and embarrassed, and she didn't even make an excuse to refute Zach. "Sorry, you know I'm not that kind of person, but..." She smiled and shook her head. "Damn it, I'm still an open-minded modern woman, why would I... ah, I'm so stupid. I'm not the kind of narrow-minded person, I really am not. This kind of thing should be no big deal—"

"But you care." Zach continued calmly.He understood Donna and wouldn't blame her for her reaction.It's one thing to be open-minded to others, but to your fiancé... After all, the public always has some bad stereotypes about gays.It's bullshit for Zach to say that, but he also knows that not everyone can think the same way as he does.

"I won't look down on you because of this," she said quickly, "You're right. It doesn't matter who you've slept with, whether it's a man or a woman, I don't mind, it makes no difference to me."

That's not entirely true, but Zach didn't call it out.Donna was clearly bothered by how much she cared about it.After all, she's an open-minded, practical, non-judgmental person, and she's always been proud of it.So, if Donna wanted to hide her displeasure about Zac having an affair with a man, Zach let her do it.

"I think you caught me a little off guard," she said. "You never told me you liked men, too."

"I didn't say that, because generally I'm not interested in men," Zach rubbed his eyebrows. "When I was in college, we hadn't dated at that time. I tried a few times with men, and it was nothing special." feeling. He's—he's an exception."

"why?"

Zach was reclining on the couch, drinking a beer with a slight smile on his face. "You are a perceptive person, can't you guess why?"

"Bullshit," she said, "you had a lot of handsome guys in your previous patients."

Zach shrugged. "But he knows how to piss me off." That's definitely an understatement, and he takes a swig of his beer. "It doesn't matter anyway. I slept with him, and it doesn't matter after sleeping."

"It doesn't matter after sleeping? Then why are you so annoyed by Nick chasing him?"

"I do not have."

"Okay," she said dryly, "if I hadn't known you for so long, I would have thought you were jealous."

Zach gritted his teeth, his face was a little hot. "Nick doesn't know Tristan, and Tristan just treats him like a toy and throws him away when he's done playing with it."

"Nick is 23 years old, he can handle his love life. Besides, you don't care about his old friends with benefits, do you?"

"They're not friends with benefits." He gritted his teeth.

He could feel Donna watching him.

"You've got nothing left to do." Donna finally said, she didn't sound angry - she was surprised, but more upset.After all, this was the first time this kind of thing had happened, so it was no wonder that she was upset.The two have been dating for a long time.Sometimes, two people in different places will go out to have fun separately, and when they reunite, these fun become the talk of their dinner: This relationship should be like this, at least for the past ten years, it has been. came over.Many people don't understand how Zach and Donna can accept this kind of open relationship, but they can, because their hearts are like mirrors, sleeping with others is just for fun, and being with each other is their own final destination.

So, whether it's Zack or Donna, it's breaking the rules if you don't get involved with someone else, especially since they're getting married in a month.

"You're still attached to him," she repeated quietly, "Zach—"

Zach put the bottle on the ground. "It doesn't matter, I'm just an asshole. I'll restrain myself."

Liar, a voice whispered in his head.Liar, liar, liar.