Just A Bit Wrong

Zach pushed open the door, and the house was pitch black, with no sound at all.He locked the door, turned on the light, and went straight to the minibar for a bottle of whiskey.He unscrewed the bottle cap and took a sip of wine.

"Drinking alone at night?"

Hearing Nick's voice, Zach froze. "It's so late," he said curtly, "go to bed."

"I'm so old, don't you need to set a bedtime for me?"

Zach took a swig from the bottle. "It's three in the morning, Nick. I'm too tired to hang around with you."

"I can tell," Nick said dryly, "you haven't been in a good mood tonight, since—"

"Where are Ryan and James?" Zach remembered that he left the door after twelve o'clock, when the two were still in the living room.

"You really don't turn the subject at all abruptly," Nick said, "and if you cared about them I could tell you they're upstairs sleeping as soundly as babies. But It's odd they didn't share the same bed. So, about—"

Zach walked out of the living room.

But Nick was still the same. He didn't receive Zach's hint, but followed him directly to the terrace.

Zach ignored him.He sat down heavily on the recliner, and drank his whiskey in sips.He closed his eyes and listened carefully as the wind howled through the branches.

"You know what? I was really pissed at first," Nick said. "Sure, when was the last time someone hurt me like that? I don't even remember. The hot guy I spent the night with first let me Get out, and then look at my brother affectionately, do you think I am miserable?"

Zach opened his eyes. "Stop thinking about him," he said with little interest.

Nick lit a cigarette, "If I didn't know you well, I would have thought you were interested in him." He puffed on the cigarette, "Do you know that some people say that homosexuality can be inherited through genes. Before, I think this is all nonsense. You see, I always thought I was the only gay in our family, but maybe I was right. But it’s hard to say, you may be straight." He smiled "After all, he is such a hot man, and he has a pretty face. If he wants to seduce anyone, even monks can't stop him. But a pretty face is one thing. His temper is really hot, but the hotter the more Interesting. There is a kind of man who looks like a whore and is very crazy, but they are also very powerful in bed. For example, he may be the kind of wild cat man who will greet you with his little claws and fangs when he is doing it— —”

Zach gritted his teeth. "You're not going to have a chance to sleep with him anyway, so stop fucking talking."

He felt Nick eyeing him curiously.

"When other men hooked up with Donna before, I didn't see you so angry." Nick took another breath, "I know you two are an old couple, but to be honest, sometimes I think you I don't like her that much, are you crazy about her? No. I definitely support your open relationship, but..." He let out a laugh from his nose, "There must always be something in our hearts Animal instinct, right? If anyone dares to upset us, we can become savages in a second."

"Nick," Zach said quietly, "go to bed."

Nick sighed, "I'm most annoyed that you talk to me in this tone. Well, you can continue to be angry with you, I'm leaving." Nick walked to the door and stopped again, "Tonight, I really didn't I respect you as a big brother, but... you are my brother after all." He sounded rough and a little embarrassed, "You know, I love you, and I will always respect you. For us, You are always doing the right thing. But sometimes the right thing may not make you happy, so what you have to do now is not to follow the logic, but to follow the intuition, so don’t make a wrong choice.” Nick pinched Put out the cigarette butt and leave.

Zach looked at the darkened sky.Follow your intuition?

He thought of Donna's confident smile. She had already become a part of his family, and she always looked relaxed and effortless when getting along with others.Donna is a good friend he has known for 20 years.She had been a part of Zach's life, and he couldn't imagine himself without her.

Then he thought of those seductive blue-green eyes, and that pouty mouth.His body was instantly filled with frustration and heart-pounding longing.There's nothing "easy" or "effortless" about being around Tristan, not to mention he's a closet star, and that alone brings Zack a whole lot of extra trouble.

No matter how you look at it, Donna is the right person, Tristan is not for him.

Also, Zack didn't even know if Tristan was an option for him.If Tristan really had any plans for him, Zack had no idea what he wanted.After all, Tristan's previous attitude had been very clear: he didn't want to see Zach again.

Zach bit his cheek hard, Tristan's voice echoed in his head.When he told Zach to get out, there was anger and hatred in his voice, but Zach also heard Tristan's fear, pain and helplessness, and these emotions almost tripped Zach up. .He wanted to kiss Tristan, wanted to kiss him away bit by bit.He would do anything to make Tristan feel better.However, it was this thought that made Zach feel scared in his heart, so afraid that he ran away from Tristan's house.Hell, he was worse than any of the guys Tristan had used.At least those people don't know the real Tristan; but Zach does, so he has no reason to treat Tristan like this.He once had the idea of ​​running away from marriage. Even if this man never responded to Zach's feelings, Zach did think about breaking up with his girlfriend who had been with him for many years. He must be completely crazy.If Tristan had revealed even the slightest thought that he wanted to have a serious relationship with Zach, Zach wouldn't be in such a dilemma.

He let out a harsh laugh.Who is this lying to?So what if he knew Tristan liked him?When Tristan was indifferent to him, he could lose his mind and let himself step into the muddy pit of emotion.If Tristan admits that he wants to be with Zack, then Zack knows what he's going to do without even thinking about it.He never had a choice.

together with him.

These five words filled Zach's heart with longing, and he gritted his teeth and cursed.God, since when did he actually go further and further down this road?

What is "this way"?Tristan's slightly mocking voice sounded in his head.What a coward, can you just speak up if you have something to say?

Zach closed his eyes, trying to block out the sound, but he failed.

It only takes a few days to lose face, and it's better than marrying a man who only has someone else in his heart.Wait for us... I mean if we're going to get married, I don't want the wedding to be forced out of your sense of responsibility and guilt and other shit.Zach, think about it.What kind of partner do you really want?

Zach drank the rest of the wine in one gulp.

Yet the night is still long.