The Records of the Library

[Morning, Yisheng and I are ready to leave, have you gone out yet? ]

[He Ai? ]

[We go first.The weather forecast is rainy, remember to bring an umbrella. ]

He Ai turned over and stuffed the phone back under the pillow.The screen was off, and there was no light in the room. He just lay there in the darkness, staring at the ceiling above.

He's avoiding problems, and it's been two weeks since.Because I can't grasp the scale of being a friend like Lan Ting, and I can't face him, so it's better not to see him.Unable to stay in the dormitory, he moved back home, and he also spurned his own weakness.

But today I made an appointment early, and we will go back to the Fourth Middle School to attend the school celebration together, so we will inevitably meet up.

He took out his phone again.The content on the home page of the forum about the school celebration was festively popular. Alumni sent congratulatory messages from all over the country, as well as the program list of the cultural performance, and the list of outstanding alumni present.

Lan Ting was also invited to give a 2-minute brief speech.

He Ai sighed silently and sat up from the bed.

It was rare for He Qishan to rest at home on weekends. Seeing him with disheveled hair and haggard appearance going downstairs, he followed him: "Are you thinking about it or can't think about it?"

"I want you to go away." He Ai went straight to the door to put on his shoes.

He Qishan still unconsciously felt disgusted, and asked: "Where are you going?"

He Ai looked at the dressing mirror and pressed a handful of hair on the top of his head, but it didn't help. He replied flatly: "Go back to No. [-] Middle School to attend the school celebration."

He Qishan gesticulated on his cheek, and asked him: "Is that how we go? Don't need to change clothes and shave?"

"Too lazy to do it, no one likes me anyway." He Ai smashed the jar.

"Well, I can't control you anyway." He Qishan was very understanding, and his tone sounded like "you will regret it".

Recalling the tragedy that happened last time when she didn't listen to the old man's words, He Ai decisively took off her shoes that were only worn on one side, and went upstairs to tidy up before going out.

The sun was covered by lead clouds, and the air in early winter was faintly damp, which was a harbinger of rain.The performance was held in the auditorium, and every tree and every wall on the campus was the same as the memory, but it seemed much smaller for no reason. He Ai entered the room, and the new principal was speaking on stage. graduate.

He sat in the back and wrote back to Lan Ting: [I'm here, in the back row.Come on later?(ˊ?ˋ*)?]

Lan Ting returned a silly emoji smile.

He Ai glanced at the record above, and remembered the umbrella she had left on the bus, it was really a bad start.He picked a chair in the corner and sat down. Even so, a few junior sisters who were hiding in the back and playing with their mobile phones found out, peeked at him, and then discussed it secretly.

He Ai supported Yi with her right hand, and found Lan Ting among the people waiting in the front row. He was wearing a khaki-colored woven trench coat, and he was too far away to see his face clearly.Although there is heating in the room, will it be too thin to go out, and can it really block the wind?He Ai thought.

A girl leaned over in two steps and turned her head, patted him on the shoulder cautiously, and said, "Senior...is it the senior?"

He Ai turned her head, "Is there something wrong?"

"Well, if the senior doesn't have a girlfriend, I have a friend who wants your contact information." The girl said and looked back, but the others turned their heads and avoided seeing her.

"That's it." He Ai said, "Did you see the boy in the windbreaker in front? The one with a very fair face and a little delicate."

The girl followed his gaze and nodded without knowing what to say.

"It's my boyfriend." He Ai whispered, as if she didn't dare to reveal this secret.

"Ah?" The girl was stunned for two seconds, her eyes lit up, "Excuse me." After finishing speaking, she almost jumped up and ran back.

Male friends, referred to as boyfriends, can also take advantage of verbal advantages.He Ai continued to watch Lan Ting's movements, he was about to go on stage, He Ai turned on the phone camera, got up and walked forward.

Lan Ting calmly shared his experience on stage, and mentioned: "...I have a double degree in psychology."

He Ai stood against the wall, and suddenly felt him glance in her direction, feeling a little ominous in her heart, and Lan Ting continued: "Because I was molested by a classmate in high school, I want to help Come out by yourself."

There was an uproar.

He Ai put down the phone, removed the screen barrier, stared blankly at the people on the stage, Lan Ting looked back, he saw his mouth opening and closing, but there was no sound in his ears.

What was he talking about, why did he bring up this matter again in front of everyone, Xue Li had been gone for so long, it was only in vain to open the wound, the only one who felt uncomfortable was himself.He Ai thought.If you feel bad now, you have to add me, I can't protect anyone.

He Ai even impulsively wanted to turn up on the stage, but once he met Lan Ting's eyes, he couldn't move his legs.He heard him mention "Xue Li" and "He Ai", and finally the microphone died, and a so-called malfunction occurred, and he had to step down early.

Several teachers surrounded him, some who were held accountable, and some who genuinely cared about him.

He Ai walked over, but was stopped by Su Yisheng on the way.

"Junior Brother He, that's exactly what I said last time. He didn't want me to tell you, saying that you would definitely not agree." Su Yisheng's eyes glinted, and he squeezed them back, "What he wants to do No one can stop it, it’s always been like this.”

He Ai said: "I know, don't blame yourself too much."

Su Yisheng nodded vigorously, and when he raised his head again, he had already collected his emotions: "He also said that he would pour Coca-Cola after he stepped down, but I have something to do urgently, can I trouble you to do it for me?"

He Ai glanced at Lan Ting, he was able to deal with several teachers with ease, and the situation seemed to be under control.

"No problem, delicious canned?"

Su Yisheng smiled, "That's right."

The canteen is next to the canteen, and it is still in business. The shelves are still crowded and there is no place to stay. He Ai bought two cans of Coke, one iced and one room temperature. , the hand that came out alone sent a text message to Lan Ting: [How is it?I want to take back my previous sentence. ]

Lan Ting replied: "It's all right.It is estimated that he will be on the school blacklist, so he no longer needs to prepare speeches, which will save a lot of trouble. ]

He Ai: [Then come to the cafeteria to drink Coke? ?(ˊ?ˋ*)?]

Lan Ting: [I can't leave for now, wait for me for 5 minutes. ]

Lan Ting: [Why did you suddenly start using kaomoji? ]

"Show cute. It can reduce the misunderstanding of tone in online chatting. It's a kind of low profile to seek intimacy... Tsk, this doesn't seem to work." He Ai recited silently while typing.

"He Ai?" Someone asked, somewhat uncertain between words.

He Ai raised his head, and a girl in casual clothes looked at him strangely. She looked familiar, probably a former classmate, but he couldn't remember the name for a while, but he remembered Lan Ting once said that it was called the tip of the tongue phenomenon.

"I'm Deng Yuan, and I'm in the same class as you in the first and second grades of high school." The girl introduced herself considerately, "But it's not important. I want to apologize to you. There is something I always wanted to tell you, but I didn't have the courage to say it at the time."

There are too many campus adventures today.He Ai stood up and motioned for her to continue.

"During the second year of high school, there was a rumor in class that you were gay, do you remember?" Deng Yuan asked.

He Ai: "Well, so you know why?"

Deng Yuan took a long breath, "Because a few boys took your letter. They saw someone writing to you in the mail room. There was no specific name on the envelope, but it was written from your friend L. They don't believe you have friends , I want to see what your friend is like. I opened the letter on my own initiative, and then read it to the whole class while you were away. They thought it was fun, so they added a letter writer for you and asked him to help with homework. Later, I found out that he is a man and still likes you, so there are such rumors."

"Where did the letter come from?"

"It seems to be... A major."

No wonder.He Ai thought.Lan Ting will not give a second chance to the person who made a mistake, even if this person is not him at all.He couldn't help but burst into a foul language.

The girl was taken aback by him: "Sorry, I'm sorry, they shared the whole process in the small group at that time, I think they did something wrong, but they didn't have the courage to stand against them. They told your friend very seriously In the end, I was deleted as a friend by him. I regret it in my heart, and I have never been able to forgive myself, so I think I must tell you this time if I have the opportunity, I am really sorry."

He Ai had no position to forgive others for Lan Ting, she just asked: "Are the chat records from that time still there?"

"Yes, I've saved it." The girl took out her phone, "I'll pass it on to you."

He Ai saw the malice and wronged sincerity on the screen, thanked him, and turned off his phone in time to prevent his violence and anger from rushing to the auditorium to beat people.

Deng Yuan was still blaming herself: "I'm really sorry, I should have said it earlier."

From the corner of his eyes, He Ai caught sight of Lan Ting walking to the avenue in front of the dining hall, and said, "There should be still time."

He ran over, and the soda can came out of his pocket and hit the concrete floor with a loud bang. He didn't bother to pick it up, and ran directly to Lan Ting.

"What are you doing in a hurry, I won't run away." Lan Ting said with a smile, bending down to pick up the can of Coke.He took off his windbreaker, and put away his loose sweater and underwear during his movements, revealing a white and slender waist.

"are not you cold?"

The opening remark of the meeting is such an ordinary sentence, but there is no way to talk about the thousand words in my heart at this moment.

"It's not cold."

Lan Ting took the Coca-Cola under the faucet to rinse, and then went to the canteen to get a straw.He Ai followed him step by step, Deng Yuan left, waved to him outside the window, and made another cheering gesture.They sat back in their seats with iced Cokes.

Lan Ting asked: "Do you drink it frozen or at room temperature?"

"You pick the rest."

Lan Ting gave him the frozen jar, with a malicious smile on his face: "Have you read the forum? Fourth Middle School forum."

"not yet."

He Ai climbed up and took a look. Someone moved the Weibo that foreign students complained about. Xue Li was stalking a certain girl abroad and almost caused a sexual assault case. Single-handedly squeezed out the hot search for school celebrations.

The posting time happened to be right when Lan Ting was stepping down.It's purely the heat from eating melons, He Ai doesn't believe it.

Lan Ting bit the straw to read the reply, looking in a good mood.

The thunder surged, the draft swept through the overhead floor, the drink boxes in front of the canteen rustled, and dense raindrops appeared on the dry ground.

"Let's go back before the rain is heavy." Lan Ting said.

"Are you still drinking?" He Ai asked, seeing him shaking his head, picking up the two of them's coke cans and pouring them into the sink, before throwing them into the green trash can.

He Ai walked beside him, watching him take out an umbrella from his bag, it was still dark blue with eight ribs, but it was brand new.Lan Ting also remembered something, raised his face and smiled at him, and put the umbrella in his hand.

"You are taller."

They walked out from under the eaves and stepped into the rain. The raindrops dripped on the umbrella cover, making a rustling sound.The same section of the road, two people, no one spoke.

In front is the teaching building of the first year of high school, and the auditorium is about to turn around. He Ai stopped at this fork in the road and grabbed Lan Ting's elbow.

"I haven't received L's letter."

Lan Ting didn't respond: "What?"

"I didn't receive L's letter." He Ai repeated, "My classmates opened it up, and they pretended to be me to chat with you. It's impossible for me to say those words, let alone hide from you."

Lan Ting was stunned for a long time, completely in a state of ignorance, He Ai easily took his hand and pressed it to her chest, where there was a heart beating wildly for the person in front of her.

"Because last time, my heart was beating as fast as it is now."

"I have thought about your words for a long time. Fear of losing is not about not wanting to get it. It is never going from the beginning to the end. It is this moment, the next moment, every moment you need me, and I will be by your side. My forever. And as long as you don't say goodbye to me, this is our forever."

"Brother." He Ai handed the umbrella into his palm, "on the count of three, I will kiss you again. Brother's tenderness is too cruel to me, if you still want to be friends, you can leave me here and go by yourself Bar."

"I..." Lan Ting was so anxious that he didn't know what to say. He Ai's few words shattered the basis of his judgment all the time. Now his mind is in a mess, only the heartbeat surpasses all logic, getting faster and faster, and the movement is getting more and more more distinct.

He Ai started counting: "One..."

Lan Ting threw away the umbrella, stood on tiptoe to hold his face, and pressed her lips gently to it, like the soft rain falling.

The rain, falling heavily on their hair, soaking their clothes, and the crackling of everything like a thousand whispers, are insignificant things.

Lan Ting wraps his arms around his neck, like He Ai wrapping his arms around his waist, they tentatively absorb the love from each other's lips and tongues, their breaths intertwined disorderly.

"Xiao Ai, I like you, I won't say goodbye again."

The author says:

①The original text is about sexual assault. The use of this word is not intended to disgust readers. Sexual assault generally refers to all kinds of sex-related behaviors against other people's wishes.Exposure and indecent assault all belong to the category of sexual assault, and it is not necessary to achieve the so-called last step.The author and the comment area have different conceptual cognitions, so it is easy to understand, and this is changed to "obscene".If you still feel disgusted after the change, you don’t need to tell me in the comment area if you abandon the article, thank you. (Weibo @绢红FH posted an easter egg that can’t be put here, and I’m humbled to ask for some comments at the end???????)