lost snail

I finally understand that I am the snail in the story. I have traveled thousands of mountains and rivers all my life, only to realize at the end that what I have been looking for and chasing all along is actually on my back all the time, within easy reach.

—— Chi Ning's diary

Please, congratulate me, I'm getting married tomorrow.

Sitting in the middle of the crowd, drinking colorful wine, talking nonsense with a big tongue, all kinds of friends around me are laughing.

On the last night of singles night, be sure to cheer up!

The young people hugged and twirled, the music was loud and noisy, the ceiling light beams twirled, but the crowd of tables and chairs gradually began to twirl.I felt dizzy and headache, my mind was in a trance, my body gradually began to lose control, and a wave of fear enveloped me.

After rushing out the door, I couldn't help but vomited in the dark while hugging the roadside greenery.

Shen Feng, come and pick me up, okay?I want to go home.

I staggered to the side of the road, opened the door of the taxi waiting for the red light at the intersection, and threw myself into the back seat of the car, not knowing who I was.

However, the story after that is unknown to Chi Ning.Shen Feng, who was sitting anxiously in the car, was also taken aback by this sudden accident.He was notified that his father had a critical heart attack in prison and was being rescued in the hospital. When he anxiously took a taxi to go there, while waiting for a red light, the person who rushed in was a person he never expected, Chi Ning.

He seemed to be very drunk, after throwing himself into the car, he gave Shen Feng a blank look, whispered Shen Feng's name, and fell asleep.The taxi driver didn't know how to deal with it, and asked him what to do with this drunkard?He could only smile wryly, help the drunken man up, and signal the driver to continue driving.

In the car, he didn't sleep very well, threw up all over Shen Feng, and then fell asleep again.After getting off the car, at the entrance of the hospital, Shen Feng originally wanted to send him to a hotel to sleep overnight, but he was afraid that there would be no one to take care of him and he himself would be insane. He carried him to the door of the operating room and let him sleep on the bench beside him.But the plastic blue chairs were a bit hard, and he couldn't sleep very soundly.Shen Feng could only help him up and let him fall asleep leaning on his body. Afraid that he would catch a cold in the cold weather, he took off his coat and put it on him.

During the long night, the red "in operation" light on the door of the operating room was always on, and Shen Feng was flustered by the red light.

When I gradually woke up from the sweet dream, I felt that my shoulders, back and waist were hurting in a daze, but the sleeping mat next to me was solid and warm, and even the smell was good.I wanted to get up, but I leaned on it lazily and got confused.

As if aware of my movement, the "sleeping pad" moved a little, sat up a little, then pulled my quilt up to my neck and tucked it in.

This action was so familiar that I woke up in surprise even though I was unconscious.

"woke up?"

"Ah."

If I hadn't seen the environment clearly, I would have thought that the two years of separation were just a long dream I had. After waking up from the dream, Shen Feng's smiling face was still so gentle and beautiful.

The body is stiff, but the mind is running extremely fast.I should be drunk, yes, I thought I drank too much last night, wanted to go home, and then took a taxi to the hospital?No, even if he took a taxi to the hospital, what happened to Shen Feng next to him?Can't remember at all...

While I was in a daze, a human voice came from the corner of the corridor.

"Well, it's just ahead, and turning a corner is the operating room."

"Thank you nurse."

Then there was the sound of people walking quickly. When I turned the corner and came within sight, I saw a middle-aged man and a 20-year-old youth coming.The Shen family looks like they were carved out of the same mold. Although this is the first time I have seen the Shen family other than Shen Feng, I still feel intuitively that this should be Shen Feng's uncle or Shen's father and his younger brother. .Could it be that the people in the operating room were Shen Feng's family members?

When you see someone, your eyes meet.

Except for Shen Feng who stood up and said hello with a tired face, the other three people were all stunned on the spot.

"Second uncle."

Before the middle-aged man could reply, the young man couldn't restrain his anger and rushed forward:

"Brother, why are you still with this bitch?"

I think the "slut" that cousin Shen Feng said seems to be referring to me.

"Is he fucking worthy to wait outside my uncle's operating room?" The young man rushed up and grabbed my neck collar, and he was about to strike, "Get out of here! Quick!"

Shen Feng was so startled that he quickly leaned forward to block me, grabbed his cousin's wrist, and pulled his hand away with all his strength. I also staggered backward due to the reaction force, and the coat I was covering fell off. on the ground.

"Shen Yuan, let go!" Shen Feng said angrily.

"Fuck!" Shen Yuan seemed very surprised, and became even more angry for a moment, "You fucking protect this bitch!" He pointed at me with red eyes, staring at Shen Feng and said,

"Have you forgotten how he harmed you, how he harmed the Shen family? When the rumors about the two of you are spreading, have you considered how the uncle will meet people? No one is stupid, the uncle originally wanted to Tolerate you until you graduate, and let you go abroad after the college entrance examination, you still have to stay and fly with this bitch! If it wasn't because you insisted on staying, how could you go back and sever ties with your family, how could the uncle have a heart attack? Okay , you fucking know that bitch is a scourge, but you are still obsessed with it, then you will torture each other with him! If you hadn't been kicked by him, and you had a car accident because of it, how could the uncle take the company's activity funds? Come out to save you, why did the company go bankrupt, and how did the uncle go in? If it wasn't because of..."

"Enough!" Shen Feng roared, interrupting Shen Yuan's words.And the second uncle of the Shen family also pulled over his impolite son.

At this time, the door of the operating room opened, and a young nurse walked out.

"The family members keep their voices down. This is a hospital. If there is any problem, go outside to solve it."

Then, regardless of everyone, he turned and went back to the operating room.

That, that dream, is, true!

He really had a car accident...

I could hardly control my emotions, and felt that my heart was about to jump out, tearing and gushing blood in front of everyone.

"Shen Feng."

My voice was already hoarse, and when I tried to speak again, my world was spinning and my head was light.

The eyelids slowly closed, and the voice in the ear gradually faded away.

"Chi Ning, Chi Ning... Doctor! Doctor..."

When I woke up again, I was lying on the hospital bed with the infusion on my left hand.The twilight of the morning slowly parted the clouds, and the young man sitting on the side of the hospital bed looked decadent. Seeing me wake up, he hurriedly sat up and asked:

"how do you feel?"

"Shen Feng."

"The doctor said that your stomach has been vomited, and you haven't eaten seriously for several days, right? Now you are giving you glucose."

"Shen Feng!"

Seeing my blunt tone, he pursed his mouth and stopped talking.

"You told me you would never lie to me."

"Ah."

"You were in a car accident, 10 minutes after we broke up. Where are you hurt?"

"NAC." He said while pointing to the approximate location of the wound on his finger.

As a software engineer specializing in artificial intelligence, I am well aware of the place and role of NAC.Due to the complex structure of the human brain, damage to the NAC region is likely to affect learning and memory, and most importantly, it may affect the regulation of emotions and changes in emotions.

I couldn't help but took a deep breath, frowning, suppressing the severe pain in my heart.

"So, your mood and emotions are affected?"

"Well, I feel..."

"You lose your intense mood and emotion, don't you?"

From the first reunion after the breakup, I only saw that the tenderness in his eyes was gone, but I ignored that there was no violent emotion on his face.I thought it was normal, I thought it was because you had no love or hate for me, so you were indifferent and flat, why didn't I think it was because of your injury?

"Why didn't you tell me!"

"We broke up, my business has nothing to do with you anymore."

"Shen Feng, you fucking bastard!"

He lowered his head to look at the shoes again, without saying a word.

"I, let me ask you again, why didn't you tell me that you came out of the closet and severed ties with your family? We didn't break up at that time!"

"..."

"Speak up! Then how did you support our food and drink expenses in college?"

I began to gradually remember that it was my inadvertence and missed many clues.When we were in high school, he would always visit me on weekends and rarely stay overnight.But after studying at university, he basically lived in our home during the winter and summer vacations.Moreover, after going to college, he seems to be much busier than before.

"Working part-time, I still have some savings."

"Why didn't you tell me, why didn't you tell me, why didn't you tell me..."

I murmured and wept.When he saw me, he was anxious and distressed. He reached out to wipe away my tears, but I waved them away.

"Shen Feng, I'm getting married today."

I stared at him with tears of sadness and hatred in my eyes.He looked at me blankly, not knowing what to do.

At this time, a cell phone rang, which just relieved the embarrassment.He turned around and found the phone in the pocket of yesterday's clothes I changed, and handed it to me.

I took it, "Qi Yunfang" was displayed on the screen of the phone, and the corner of my mouth raised on one side, and I turned the phone interface to Shen Feng.

"My fiancee."

With a smiling face, I pretended to look at him affectionately, then I threw the phone into the water glass on the bedside cabinet, and then watched the phone ringing and bubbling under his surprised eyes, and then slowly poured in the water The screen dimmed.

"Shen Feng, I ruined everything about you, and I ruined everything about mine, I will accompany you."

"Ningning, listen to me..."

"Shen Feng," I interrupted him, "I want to go home. I don't want to be lost like a snail all my life! After you graduate, you can move back home too. If you have anything to say, we can slow down at home. Slow down." I lifted his chin, let his eyes fix on me, and said to him with burning eyes:

"For a lifetime, it's still long."