Don't treat Omega as a man [Interstellar]

Ren instinctively reached out to pull his arm, but stopped a moment before touching it.He found that if Sheng Qingyu wanted to leave now, he couldn't find a reason to keep this person.

Sheng Qingyu grabbed his hanging hand, shook it firmly, touched Ren's cheek lightly, and said softly, "I'm not going out of this room."

He turned and quickly entered the bathroom, and there was the sound of running water.After a while, Sheng Qingyu returned to the bed with a wet towel.

"You took a cold shower just now," Sheng Qingyu said with a hint of distressed reproach, "cover the quilt and lie down."

Ren complied with his words and obediently let go of the quilt.The beds in the army are not as soft as those at home. Ren curled up in the bed after lying down, and his body felt extremely cold from the outside to the inside.

Sheng Qingyu tucked up the quilt for him, and put the wet towel in his hand on Ren's eyes.The towel was warm, with a strong moist breath, which irritated Ren's eyelids.

He cried too much just now, and his whole face was flushed because of his emotional fluctuations. Now when he relaxes, he feels all the blood rushing into his head.He felt a little confused, what he wanted to do and what he wanted to say became confused, and he could only let Sheng Qingyu fiddle with it.

Sheng Qingyu wrapped him into a "chrysalis" with a quilt, then took off his coat and lay on the bed, put his arms on Ren, and hugged him close to him.

Being treated like this, Ren's eyes turned red again.It reminded him of things from long ago.

When I was young, Renn had a period of time when he was so skeptical that he didn’t even dare to go to school. Sheng Qingyu took him to play every day, and when he was tired from playing, he went home to take a nap. That’s how Sheng Qingyu hugged him through the quilt to coax him. .Through the quilt, Little Ren will not be frightened by unfamiliar skin touches, and it is easy to find a sense of security in the tightly wrapped quilt.

Sheng Qingyu patted his hand unconsciously, as if coaxing a child who refused to sleep.This recognition made Ren even more ashamed. He twisted his body slightly and whispered, "Don't shoot..."

As soon as he opened his mouth, he knew how hoarse his voice was.Sheng Qingyu looked at him for a while, sighed softly, got up and poured water for him.

Ren lay on the bed, looked at Sheng Qingyu's tall back, and said softly, "Thank you."

Sheng Qingyu didn't respond, and continued to fiddle with the water glass on his own, but Ren knew that he must be able to hear him.

Sure enough, after a long time, Sheng Qingyu responded in a low voice, "Thank you for what."

In Sheng Qingyu's perception, it was his duty to appease Rennes, and he had to stand up when Rennes was hurt.He is responsible for the child's upbringing.

Perhaps hearing the awkwardness in Sheng Qingyu's tone, Ren grinned and smiled.His elder brother still likes to take care of people so much, and he hasn't changed since he was a child.

The cold body from the shower gradually slowed down, and before Sheng Qingyu turned around, Ren stared at his back almost greedily.Ren's head still couldn't turn his head, he just stared at the figure, as if he wanted to see something from it.

Looking at it, he suddenly remembered the wounded person who crawled to his feet on Noah's planet.At that time, that person was also staring at Ren with the same eyes. At that time, Ren didn't understand what he was looking at, but now he understood.It was a conditioned reflex after extreme despair, treating the person in front of him like a duckweed straw, unable to react strongly, but using his eyes to freeze the hope, as if he could get out of the predicament.Ren is in such a mood now. He looks at Sheng Qingyu's back and thinks that this person is here, which is already the most fortunate thing in the world.

Sensing his gaze, Sheng Qingyu turned his head and looked at Ren.Seeing Renn smiling, Sheng Qingyu was silently relieved.

Sheng Qingyu walked to the bed with a smile and asked him, "Are you tired?"

Ren shook his head.He didn't feel tired physically, but rather uncomfortable in his heart.But now after being comforted by others, it has become less sad.

He spread the quilt, stretched his limbs that had returned to normal temperature, and sat up.Sheng Qingyu brought him water, watched him drink it, then took the cup and wiped his moist lips.

Ren burst out laughing.

"What are you laughing at?" Sheng Qingyu rubbed his fingers and asked him with raised eyebrows.

Ryan said with a smile, "It's like taking care of a child."

"The child doesn't worry me as much as you do." Sheng Qingyu said with emotion while putting the quilt back on the table.

"Have you ever taken care of other children?" Ren was curious.

Sheng Qingyu shook his head, "You are the only one. You were much more interesting when you were young than now."

Ren knew that Sheng Qingyu was diverting his attention, so he was not annoyed, and followed his words, "You mean you don't want me to grow up?"

"It would be nice not to grow up," Sheng Qingyu sat beside him, gently rubbing the top of his hair, "Look at you, how much you cry."

As soon as he said it, Ren was surprised that there were still tears on his face, so he quickly picked up a towel and wiped it carelessly.Sheng Qingyu looked at him quietly from the side, his eyes were so gentle that water dripped out.

Ren raised half of his face from the towel, and looked at the people around him with reddish ears, "What are you looking at?"

Sheng Qingyu, after thinking about it, still asked, "Are you still uncomfortable?"

He was asking about the heart, not the body.Ren could understand what he meant, paused for a while, and nodded silently.

It would be a lie to say that it is not uncomfortable, Renn still feels like his heart is being pinched by something, it hurts and sore.The existence of Sheng Qingyu can relieve his pressure, but it can't completely bring him out of the shadow of war anyway.

Ren vaguely felt that what he felt on the battlefield this time would follow him for the rest of his life.Every time he trains or goes out in the future, he will remember this desperate first time.

Sheng Qingyu leaned back, put one hand on Ren's shoulder, and said, "The first time I went to the battlefield was in the third month after leaving the new barracks."

"At that time, the environment we were in was not as good as you are now. The chief at that time didn't have the energy to manage our group of recruits. He was busy allocating manpower to the front line. The front line wars in those years were very tragic. You can ask the army Old people, they must have an impression of the tragedy at that time. I was sent to a small planet on the edge, and the team was short of manpower. It will be regarded as the main target of attack by the enemy."

He put his arm around Ren's shoulder, and Ren leaned against him, listening quietly.

"At that time, there was an insider in the Imperial Army, and it was hidden very deeply. It could be said that the border troops were under attack from both sides. They had to consider the enemy's attack, and also worried about whether the orders passed down from above were really beneficial to the troops. The first time I When we went to the battlefield, it was the local chief who made a mistake in his judgment and took the wrong information as correct, and brought all of us to support the most intense planet.

"Our spaceship was shot down before we even saw the landing site. Fortunately, the pilot managed to land safely and saved our lives. But that was the time. A group of our army encountered the enemy's elite mech unit, almost I was being strafed head-on. I was a recruit, sitting at the end of the spaceship, and before I got out of the spaceship, I saw the veterans in front of me fall down one by one. That's not fighting, that's massacre|slaughter."

Sheng Qingyu took a deep breath, and tightened his grip on Ren's hand, "At that time, the battle was already at a fever pitch, and our group of soldiers with no combat effectiveness couldn't stimulate the enemy's appetite. The rest of my comrades and I hid I only escaped unharmed in the aircraft. Later, we found our troops after a lot of hard work. At that time, there were only less than 98 people around me, and there were [-] people in total before we set off."

"I watched them fall," Sheng Qingyu said, "I watched the veterans I knew were shot through the heart by a mecha in the air, and I watched the comrades who had just finished speaking were half cut off by stray bullets the next moment. Legs. At that time, I was in no mood to care about whether to fight or not. My only belief was to find the local troops and go back alive.”

"If it weren't for the officer who misjudged, I might have been folded in that war. He blocked a shot in the back for me, and said to me before he died, 'I'm sorry.'."

"And I didn't even know where his body was. When the war was over and I went back to clean up the battlefield, I found that I couldn't find the way I came here. My mind was confused, and I couldn't remember where I had been until the end. , the remains of our troops have not been recovered.”

Finally, Sheng Qingyu asked Ren, "Do you think I am a deserter?"

Ren shook his head desperately.He saw the pain in Sheng Qingyu's eyes, so he stretched out his hand to touch Sheng Qingyu's eyelids.

Sheng Qingyu was amused by his way of touching a small animal, grabbed Ren's hand and held it in his palm, and said, "But, I think I am. This idea has always been hidden in my heart, even after the battle With improvement, I was transferred to the special forces unit, and I also felt that I was a deserter during the first few days on the battlefield."

"But does that mean I'm not a qualified soldier now?"

He looked down at Ren, and said slowly, "War itself is a very cruel thing. In this environment, no matter what we do, it is impossible to achieve perfection. Ansel told me about your The task was completed very well, which is an affirmation to you."

"But..." Ren wanted to say something, but stopped when he opened his mouth. He didn't know what to refute.

Finally he said, "Someone died."

Sheng Qingyu smiled helplessly. He raised his hand to touch Ren's earlobe, pressed it lightly, and managed to make Ren feel strangely called out. Then he said, "There will always be sacrifices. We do it at the border. The sacrifices made are to make the life of the people inside more stable. But you have to learn not to let yourself suffer unnecessary injuries, this is your own responsibility.”

"I..." Ren paused, "I don't know what to do."

"Believe in yourself," Sheng Qingyu said, "trust your comrades in arms. If you can't adjust within a short time, just tell Lieutenant General Ansel, he will understand."

Ren thought for a long time, frowned and said, "It feels like it's easy to escape from reality."

"Then try to overcome it," Sheng Qingyu patted Ren on the head, and said, "Our greatest enemy is the fear in our hearts. One day you will fly your mech to the front line without fear. It's just a matter of time, don't worry and don't be discouraged when you encounter difficulties."

"How long did it take you to overcome it?" Ren looked at Sheng Qingyu and asked.

"...half a year."

Sheng Qingyu looked back at Ren with a smile.In fact, this was a lie to him. Sheng Qingyu had already overcome this fear when he fought for the first time, because he saw too many sacrifices, so many that even a fledgling recruit became numb. the point.

Of course, he would never say this to Rennes.