when the cherry blossoms are in full bloom

The wound on Hamanozawa's arm was almost fifteen centimeters long. I took the gauze and carefully bandaged it round and round.

We didn't say anything.

Can't say anything.

After bandaging, seeing Hamano Ze's lips turning white, he stood up and poured water for him.

Before the hand touched the cup, the body was shackled.

I couldn't bear to struggle, afraid of touching the wound left to protect me, so I let Hamanozawa ask for the long-lost warmth from me.

I fell on the hospital bed, and the hot kiss suppressed my breath.

I looked at the ceiling, opened my lips slightly, and Hamanozawa's tongue moved back and forth in my mouth.

Kissing, unknowingly, half of the shirt came off.

I leaned on the pillow and watched Hamanozawa leave a large red mark on my chest, his eyelashes were much longer than I remembered, his eyes were slightly closed during the kiss, and his slender eyelashes formed a row under his eyes Thin shadows.

Whether it's sucking my Adam's apple or licking my butt, Hamanozawa is serious about it.

Hamanozawa's hand went deep into my penis, stroking back and forth, and the same work was repeated with his mouth.

When my chest was almost covered with Hamanozawa's saliva, Hamanozawa stopped suddenly, but he did not give up and focused on stroking my penis, but the soft thing was still soft in his palm.

"This……"

Even though Hamanozawa had a passion to vent on me, I didn't have an orgasm at all.

Not even the penis has the slightest tendency to be erect.

"you……"

Hamanozawa gave up and left his hand. He sat down slumped, and the iron bed made a "squeaky" sound.

"You understand? It's impossible for me to have feelings for you."

At this moment, I cannot feel for you at this moment.

I will never forget Hamanozawa's desperate eyes...

Hamanozawa left, and for several days in a row, the bench at the door was empty.

However, Hamanozawa and I are destined not to have the talent for a long-term cold war, and have always been.

A few days later, the nurse said to me: "The Japanese doctor is looking for you, at the door."

When I came out, I saw Hamano Ze leaning against the wall, the smoke from his mouth made him look older.

I thought Hamanozawa was hurt.

I thought Hamanozawa was still the one who was lost because of his incomprehensible feelings.

I thought Hamanozawa would avoid his eyes as always, showing his grievance.

However, when Hamanozawa saw me five days later, he raised his eyelids and never let my eyes escape.

His eyes are firm and determined.

"Liang Huai, it doesn't matter how you feel about me. Maybe, I'm just a passionate and self-righteous fool. But you must come with me!"

what?

Hamanozawa, you still don't understand what I mean?

"The thing is like this... My mission is almost finished, and now I only need to conclude the part. As long as everything goes well, I will be free. But I can't let you stay here any longer. I will ask... It can be regarded as the following I committed a crime... If you want to get the experimental results of so many years, I will let you go and let you go with me."

"Exchange me for the results of the experiment? The results of the evil experiment that will harm others? No... I can't go with you."

"Liang Huai!"

"You can save me, but you can't save the Chinese in the whole bacteria factory!"

"Of course...Liang Huai, listen to me. Things are not as optimistic as you imagined. Even if you serve the army for many years, you will die in the end...Liang Huai, you have also seen that the army regards human life Like dung, in order to preserve the Emperor's reputation, they will do anything..."

"I'm not afraid of death! I just, can't follow you, with a man who has committed a crime of blood on the soil of China, my motherland."

After thinking about it for a long time, I finally said it.

After hearing this, Hamanozawa was obviously deeply stimulated and shocked, and looked at me with his mouth slightly open.

Naked words, plain reality, and my heart that no longer trusts me.

Hamanozawa clenched his fist and squeezed the cigarette butt into his palm.

"Liang Huai... I seem to have mentioned it to you before."

Opening his palm, the deformed cigarette butt fell to the ground along with the ash.

"I was a poor student. I was interested in herbal medicine when I was young, and I learned a little knowledge from an old gentleman near my home. Then, at the request of my mother, the government saw that I was indeed talented, and funded me so that I was able to study in China. From From the moment I receive the money, my life belongs to the government. Once, how willing I was to serve my motherland, fantasizing about spreading the profound Chinese herbal medicine to Japan and healing my compatriots. Indeed, returning home In the end, I can stay in Japan to teach herbal medicine. However, I will never forget the note you left me. I thought, I thought that you also treated me...I dreamed of meeting you again, or even being with you for the rest of my life. I just wanted to come here. I even forgot that my life is not my own. I can’t control my own destiny. In the first six months, I was relatively free and looked for you, but there was no trace. Since Japan declared war on China, Then I was stared at, and finally sent to this bastard place... Liang Huai, do you think I am willing? Do you know how long I have stayed in this place? Three years, almost three full years... Halfway I haven't been back to Japan, not even once..."

As he spoke, Hamano Ze broke down in tears.

"I understand."

It turned out that everything was caused by the note written on impulse.

But it's good that I don't have to kid myself anymore.

It turned out that my self-willedness and self-righteousness are deeply hidden in the bone marrow.

Should I be grateful for this sudden war?

Thanks to the hard artillery of foreign countries for blasting my young master's temper to pieces, and blasting him completely.

So that I can see clearly my inferiority.

I won't run away, and I can't run away anywhere.