i want to break up with my boyfriend

PS: Re-edited version, some bugs have been modified, the content is basically the same, you can skip it after reading it.

I'm gay. To be precise, I may be bisexual. I liked girls and boys in junior high and high school, but I never had the courage to pursue it. I have been soloing for more than 20 years.

My boyfriend and I met in college, that is, when a bunch of people went out to hang out, I saw him right. It was love at first sight rather than love at first sight.

I started to like him because he was good-looking. He was a student at the time and a pentathlon student. The second I looked at him, I turned into a mosquito coil, and he set me on fire. lighter.

By the way, his name is Gao Mo. At first I heard this name and thought it fit him well. His appearance, his voice, and his whole body are both aloof and indifferent.

Later, later we were together.It's a bit baffling to say, because if my liking for him starts with his good looks, then what does he start with me?

After all, my appearance is definitely not the kind that makes people fall in love at first sight. Many girls have told me that my appearance can only inspire their motherhood. I don't think they are praising me.

In short, we are together very strangely but smoothly, and the days of dating are very ordinary, as if we have skipped the period of passionate love and transitioned to the mode of getting along as an old husband and wife.

But I still feel that life is very fulfilling and very happy.He is three years older than me. When I was a freshman, he was close to graduation and was running around the world handing out his resume to find a job, but he still called me from time to time, and would eat with me when he was free, um, eating in the cafeteria Calculate.

Sometimes he would ride a small electric donkey and drive me to the park next to the school for a stroll, or after dinner, the two of us would secretly take a walk hand in hand to digest food in the dark, but he always supervised my homework. I was not very satisfied with this matter. He just made me do a winter vacation exercise and had to confirm it with my own eyes every day when I failed in high school in my freshman year.

Anyway, my boyfriend is very good, he treats me very well and our relationship is stable.

In the first year, my boyfriend found a job. Because he just entered the society, he said that he lived at home temporarily, and then began to work from five to nine every day, but we would go out on weekends, just like normal couples.

In the second year, I was a sophomore, my professional courses had just started, my busy college life had just begun, and my boyfriend had already become a full-time student, and his work was on the right track.Although the number of times we meet has decreased, our relationship has not diminished.

In the third year, my boyfriend bought a car, saying that it was a loan to facilitate his work, and he repeatedly told me to take the driver’s license test. No time to see me, but we are still together.

In the fourth year, I was about to graduate, and my resume was in the middle of the crowd and definitely not outstanding, but to my surprise, I was soon accepted by a good company in this city. That night, I took my boyfriend to have a big meal to celebrate, and then It's a matter of harmony, being wiped out by her boyfriend.

In the fifth year, my boyfriend and I discussed renting a house together, and officially started living together.The number of times of being wiped clean has increased significantly.

In the sixth year, I successfully passed the internship period and started my life as a small employee. As for my boyfriend, I have never been very clear about his work. I only know that he seems to have been promoted and raised his salary again.

I feel that the past six years have been smooth for me, with a stable job and a stable relationship. I have nothing to complain about, and God seems to favor me very much.

Only recently, I started to have doubts.

In the seventh year that my boyfriend and I have been together, the Spring Festival is approaching. Most of the shops in the street have closed their doors. I go home to celebrate the New Year. My company has not yet closed. I heard that it is because the company recently received a big order and everyone is busy. Gotta go around.

Every time the head of the financial department works overtime, he will use the boss to motivate us and say: Your boss has been in the office for three days because of this list. Why don’t you work hard to work overtime?

I have never met the boss, and I don't know whether what the head said is true or not. We can only hold back our complaints. The baby feels bitter but the baby doesn't say anything.

It may be because all the companies are so busy at the end of the year, and my boyfriend also called for three consecutive days to say that he would work overtime. In order not to disturb my sleep, I slept in the staff room.

I thought that he must have worked harder than me, and wanted to bring some supper to see him, only to realize that this was not the first time I asked him for his company address.

On the other side of the phone, he seemed to be stunned for a while, and he didn't make a sound for a long time. I thought he didn't hear me clearly and repeated it again.

"It's okay, you're tired too, go to bed early." My boyfriend replied in a very gentle tone, but he also refused my visit.

I thought it might be because it was inconvenient for him to be in the company, so I didn't insist any more, told him not to work too hard, and hung up the phone because his health was more important than work.

Suddenly there was only one person left in the house, which was strangely deserted. I turned on the TV, and all David TVs began to promote various programs during the Spring Festival. Below are a few large characters that the eldest son of the Gao family has officially succeeded to the throne. The tone of the news broadcast made me drowsy, so I turned off the TV and went back to my room to sleep.

The Spring Festival is here, which means that I have to go home to celebrate the New Year, and I will be questioned by seven aunts and eight aunts in a row. My relationship with work, marriage and birth make me have eight big heads.

I had the idea of ​​coming out to my parents a long time ago, but I was timid and hesitated to take actual action.Now my boyfriend and I have been together for the seventh year. Normal couples are already married and have children. Although my boyfriend and I cannot be recognized by the law, we should be known by our family.

I think, during the Chinese New Year period, I have to find an opportunity to discuss it with my boyfriend.

But things developed in a direction I didn't expect, and the life trajectories of my boyfriend and I began to distort and extend to unknown places.

The company is about to have a holiday, and my boyfriend is finally free to go home and have dinner with me. At the dinner table, I implicitly hinted whether my boyfriend should go home together to meet his parents, because I think coming out needs to be done. Both sides work together.

But my boyfriend seemed to be deliberately ignoring my hint, eating in silence, and by the way, put a piece of braised pork in my bowl.

I stuffed the braised pork into my mouth, and noticed that my boyfriend had a thick layer of dark circles under his beautiful eyes, and his complexion was also livid, with a look of kidney deficiency and overwork, but still handsome and compelling, so I decided to hold off for a while. God made it clear.

Of course, that night my boyfriend told me personally whether he had kidney deficiency or not.

Because I have to go to work as usual the next day, my boyfriend didn't go too far, he cleaned it up for me after asking for it once, and then fell asleep with his arms around me.

Then the next night was the company’s annual meeting, and everyone drank some wine. I was strictly forbidden by my boyfriend to drink because I used to go crazy after being drunk, so I only drank orange juice, and my colleagues laughed at me as a child.

At the annual meeting, I finally met the boss I was talking about, a middle-aged man in his 50s, well-maintained and without a beer belly, and he couldn’t see his face clearly when he was too far away. The host was chattering about the old boss and the new boss. Listen, sneak out early and go home.

The lights at home were not on, it was pitch black, and my boyfriend did not come back.

I took out the key to open the door, took off my leather shoes and put on slippers, and received a call from my boyfriend before I took off my coat.

"Hello, Gomo."

"Uh...well, hello, Gao Mo is drunk here, and he only has your number in his phone..." The voice on the other end of the phone was very noisy, and the speaker hesitated to speak.

"Drunk? Oh well, send me your address, and I'll be there right away." I focused on Gao Mo being drunk, and immediately put on my shoes again and took the keys to go out.

The location was quickly sent over there, and I stopped a taxi on the road, told the driver the address, and hurried to my boyfriend.

"Young man, why don't you go on a date after Chinese New Year?"

"No, go pick someone up."

"Go to the hotel to pick you up at this point."

"Master, hurry up."

I'm not in the mood to joke around with the driver and think only of Go-mok.In order not to let me drink, he usually doesn't drink himself, but today he got drunk and passed out directly.

Sitting in the car, watching the flashing street scenery, I began to wonder for the first time.Many things that I didn't pay attention to or deliberately ignored in the past came up like a revolving lantern, making my mind heavy.

My brain suddenly became clear, and I found that I never knew what Gao Mo's job was and where his company was, because he changed jobs frequently, and he never needed me to worry about.

As for his parents, or his family, I don't know anything about it. I never asked, and he never talked about it.

Gao Mo during this period gave me the illusion that something was about to happen.I don't know if I am worrying unfoundedly, but I can't restrain myself from thinking wildly.

When I arrived at the hotel, I saw several men at the door. When I got closer, I found that several young men were supporting Gao Mo, who seemed to be unconscious.

"Excuse me, I'm here to pick up Gao Mo." I leaned closer to Gao Mo, and immediately smelled the strong smell of alcohol on his body.

"Ah, Gao... Gao Mo will be handed over to you. He drank too much today." The man supporting Gao Mo said, and handed Gao Mo to me.

"Excuse me, I'll take him home first." I propped up Gao Mo's body and the two staggered into the car.

He didn't hear what the men behind him were saying.

"The golden house hides the beauty..."

Seeing people walking away, one of the men said playfully.

I carried my boyfriend home, tidied up and let him sleep on the bed. I hated the smell of alcohol on his body, so I planned to spend the night on the sofa.

A person sleeps on the sofa with his eyes closed.

I don't know what happened to Gao Mo at night, maybe it was the company's important guests, the dinner.

But I always feel that it shouldn't be like this.

I have been with Gao Mo for six years, now in the seventh year, I suddenly find that I don't know him well.

How much does his job require him to drink?How many night shifts does he need to work?Does his family know of my existence?Will you allow me to be with Gao Mo?

I even feel that I don't know anything about Gao Mo, but I have been with Gao Mo for so many years, I can't believe it can be so long.

I have asked him about his job more than once, but he would always use various ways to evade it cleverly, and he would also insinuate and want to know about his family, but he was only told that he was in this city.

I don't care about it doesn't mean I don't care, my concession doesn't mean I tolerate unconditionally and continue to know nothing.

I know, I gotta figure it out, it's time to figure it out.

If I continue to be confused, I will not be able to control my jealousy, I will become anxious about gains and losses, I will gradually lose my sense of security, and I will feel tired.

I fell asleep after making up my mind.

I woke up early and went out to buy breakfast. Gao Mo had just come out of the toilet with a anxious look on his face. He seemed relieved to see me changing shoes at the door with breakfast in my hand.

I didn't pay much attention to his mood, put the breakfast on the table, sat on the chair and looked serious.

"Gao Mo, I have something I want to ask you." Seeing him sitting next to me, I cut straight to my point.

As soon as Gao Mo sat down, he came to my side, wrapped his hands skillfully around my waist, pressed my whole body in his direction, and naturally pressed his mouth to kiss me.

I opened my eyes and kissed him for a while, different from the usual devotion, I was very silent and calm, Gao Mo's kiss did not stimulate the secretion of my hormones.

"Let's talk after this busy period..." Gao Mo whispered, the hangover last night made his voice a little hoarse, but the voice he made was extraordinarily sexy.

If I had been coaxed by his voice in the past, Liushen Wuzhu would have acted according to his ideas immediately, but today I made up my mind to ask clearly, so instead of surrendering, I became more calm.

I know that his attitude is to avoid the problem again, it has been done countless times, and I have to watch over his routine.

"I don't want to, just tell me now, what happened to being drunk last night?" I asked righteously, my eyes were full of seriousness.

"It's about the company, you can't drink." Gao Mo let go of me and went to get breakfast.

"What company? Do I know?"

"Yu Qing, eat your breakfast first."

"Stop dodging my questions!"

Sure enough, there is a problem!Already very obvious!If I could deceive myself and others to comfort myself countless times before, I can't do it this time anyway.

"Gao Mo, what are you hiding? And your family, I've never heard you mention it, do they know my existence?" I couldn't bear my temper, but I still tried my best to restrain it.

"What are you hiding? Is your job special or is there something about your family that you can't tell me?"

"Could it be that you only went to drink when you were unemployed? Or... Or is it that your family is not well-off and you are embarrassed to tell me?"

I guessed excitedly, and I couldn't stop my brain opening in an instant.I want to help Gao Mo find countless reasons to convince myself, but I still can't wait for Gao Mo's affirmative answer.

But I didn't have the time to observe Gao Mo's forbearing expression. I was eager to know all the truth about Gao Mo, but the person involved didn't want me to know.

"Xu Yuqing, don't get excited, don't play childish temper." Gao Mo popped out such a sentence with a cold expression, which instantly put me in the cold palace, and I only felt cold for a while, and I couldn't say a word.

Gao Mo seemed to frown after he finished speaking. I don't know if he regretted saying this, but I know that he let me down.

I couldn't hold back a word for a long time, put on my coat and went out dejectedly, without touching breakfast at all.

Walking on the busy street, people come and go, but the atmosphere of the Chinese New Year can't infect me. I have never been so lonely, like the only fish in the deep sea, wandering aimlessly, not knowing where to go.

All of a sudden, a horrible thought popped up: I want to break up with my boyfriend.

Maybe it was just a momentary evil thought, because before that, I also had countless times of lack of self-confidence, feeling that I was not worthy of Gao Mo at all, and I didn't understand what Gao Mo liked about me.

But breaking up, whenever I have such thoughts, Gao Mo will always tell me with his actions: no.

But today, this idea popped up and took root in my head like a weed and grew rapidly.

Maybe, he doesn't like me as much as he imagined, maybe it's the seven-year itch, he's tired of me, maybe, from the very beginning, he didn't intend to be serious with me.

I suddenly panicked, yeah, I didn’t tell me everything about myself because I was afraid that I would be entangled after the relationship ended, and I didn’t tell me about the family because I was afraid that I would not be able to get rid of me at that time, and I would come to the door like a lunatic and break The jar shatters and says everything.

My footsteps became messy, barely maintaining my composure and moving forward.My brain began to think wildly uncontrollably, thinking about Gao Mo telling me to break up indifferently and calmly, thinking about my own collapse after the breakup.

I was scared, helpless, and flustered, but I couldn't save myself.

Even though there are so many people on the street and everywhere is filled with festive red, all I can see is darkness.

No, Xu Yuqing, you have to calm down.

You can't live as if you're about to lose a gaumo.

Gao Mo looked at the person who turned to leave. The helplessness and disappointment on that person's face made him feel tight. He sat there at a loss, but he didn't know what to say, so he didn't go forward to grab Xu Yuqing.

He knew that he had hidden too much from Xu Yuqing, and he didn't dare to explain it later.

His originally wandering and helpless heart finally had Xu Yuqing as a port to rest in. He didn't dare, and he didn't allow himself to make any mistakes.

Give him some more time, Xu Yuqing.

He wants to be strong enough to protect you, to keep you in captivity, and to come up to you and tell you everything.

Because at that time, even if you want to turn around and leave without hesitation, he will be able to catch you with one hand.

He has to be so strong that you can't escape him no matter what.

I met a girl on the street that I had liked for many years.

Her name is Ye Mei. When I was in junior high school, she was like a rose in my heart, constantly piercing my little heart with thorns.The goddess that everyone loves attracts me at a glance.

My distraught appearance made her show a distressed expression, but I just felt embarrassed and didn't know what I looked like in her heart.

Ye Mei smiled at me, that smile was the same as before, very beautiful and bright, but I didn't really have the intention of appreciating it.No matter how bright her smile is, it has nothing to do with me, and I am stuck in a dead end where I am about to lose love and cannot get out.

Ye Mei and I exchanged some pleasantries, and then proposed to catch up with each other at a nearby coffee shop. We haven't seen each other for many years, and I have nothing to do now, so I agreed by accident.

She told me about her college life, which seems to be very exciting. She is now working as a designer in a company, and generally doing well.

"You're doing well!" I casually sighed, but her face darkened, and I realized that I might have said the wrong thing.

"No, it's not good." Ye Mei suddenly changed the subject of her words, which caught me off guard and didn't know how to respond.

She put down a sip of the undrinked black coffee in her hand, and said, "My boyfriend broke up with me."

She looked at me, her big watery eyes were staring at me affectionately, I didn't have time to dodge, and bumped into her eyes, but I just felt like the light was on my back.

Sure enough I heard her go on.

"I don't think any man in this world can be trusted."

"They're all lower body animals that value appearance."

Men seem to be paying attention to the lower body. I think of Gao Mo, so I feel even more depressed.

"But you are different."

"I am very happy to meet you today."

I was fidgeting, vaguely knowing that the situation would get out of hand if she continued talking, so I smiled awkwardly and replied "Me too, I am also very happy" in an attempt to end the topic.

But the result was not as I hoped.Because the next moment Ye Mei spoke.

"Xiao Xu, I know you have liked me for a long time, I want to ask, can we be together?"

I heard her say this, and looked at her squirming lips, which were painted with bright red lipstick, which blended harmoniously with the atmosphere of the Chinese New Year. Her words just floated out and turned around in the air. It goes in and out of the ear.

My brain seemed to lose the ability to think in an instant, and I couldn't tell what my mood was after hearing Ye Mei's confession.

Ye Mei in front of me is my former goddess, and she is confessing to me at this moment, this scene that never appeared in my dream actually happened.

But my mind is full of Gao Mo's face.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm very confused, and the evil thought of breaking up with my boyfriend came out quietly, trying to occupy my mind.

I tried my best not to let my last line of psychological defense fall.

I stared blankly at Ye Mei, thinking that I could not make a sound because someone strangled me, otherwise I should tell her immediately that I have a boyfriend.

However, I didn't say a word.

My boyfriend came back, I didn't go to see him, but I felt a little guilty, the atmosphere between us was still awkward because of what happened yesterday.

I just watched TV and ignored him, but I sneaked a glance at him, looking very tired, not knowing what happened again.

But he won't tell me either.

Is it because we're not really close enough for him to tell me all about him?I started thinking again, I really can't control my brain.

I was very insecure and insecure.In fact, I have been deliberately hiding my insecurities because I always believe in Gao Mo.But my trust was wiped out without knowing it.

But I still don't want to give up like this, I chose to communicate again.

"Gao Mo, why can't you tell me? Do we still have secrets between us?"

"Go to sleep..." Gao Mo's subwoofer can make me feel unprincipled every time, and I am almost bewitched by his sleepy voice again.

"Are you still not going to tell me?" My tone became frustrated, but I pretended to be calm.

"I'm sleepy, there's another case tomorrow..."

"Gao Mo, you are always like this."

Yes, every time, the way of refusing to talk.

I lay down on my back and said no more.

Maybe everything is in my imagination, even if I don't want to admit it.

I'm really tired, I don't know what this tired feeling is, but I think I will really get tired if this goes on.

I was afraid that my distrust of Gao Mo would destroy the relationship between us for six years, but I was also afraid that these six years were nothing but a mirage of my imagination.

So I decided to investigate Gomo myself.I have to know his work and family background so I can feel at ease.

But just before I wanted to investigate seriously, Ye Mei sent me a text message.

[Tonight at 8 o'clock, a certain coffee shop, I will wait for you]

I subconsciously looked around, and then felt that my actions were unnecessary.I think it is necessary for me to clarify with Ye Mei that I have a boyfriend, although our relationship is very tense.

I agreed, anyway, now Gao Mo and I are having a very unpleasant fight, it doesn’t make any difference whether I go home early or late, in the past, Gao Mo didn’t allow me to go home after 8 o’clock.

When I went to the coffee shop, Ye Mei was already waiting for me at the seat, I was a little embarrassed to let a woman wait for a man.

Ye Mei smiled and said to me that she ordered my favorite coffee, and I don't know how she knew, so I could only keep putting sugar in it.

"I'm glad you can come." Ye Mei stirred the coffee, smiling like an epiphyllum blooming at night.

"Brother Xu, how did you think about what I said that day?" Ye Mei was very direct, not beating around the bush but directly getting to the point.

I stopped putting sugar, thinking about how to speak so as not to embarrass Ye Mei, but no matter what, I still wanted to refuse him.

"Well, Ye Mei, I used to like you very much, that's right." I said my words well, and I didn't find it so difficult when I said it.

"Yeah, you were stupid at that time." Ye Mei interrupted my words, but I still planned to continue telling the truth.

"So I want to tell you..." I looked up and saw that familiar figure at a glance, and fell into those familiar eyes at a glance.

I saw Gomo, so what I wanted to say didn't come out.The world feels so small to me, because right now he is looking at me, those eyes are looking at me.

I don't know what kind of mood I was in at that time, I just stood there motionless like that, I subconsciously felt that I might be finished.

Gao Mo was nearly 1.9 meters tall and stood out from the group of people. He was wearing a formal suit and exuded hormones all over his body. But when he approached me step by step, I only felt an unbearable sense of oppression.

It was the first time that I could feel the coldness of Gao Mo from such a distance. Even though the heating in the cafe was full, I felt like I was in the polar region, and my whole body was frozen stiff.

"Xu Yuqing."

I heard Gao Mo calling my name, even my first and last name, and I almost couldn't control the trembling of my body.

It took me a lot of effort to raise my head and look up at Gao Mo standing in front of me. Even though I really didn't do anything, I felt guilty for no reason.

"What a coincidence, I met you here."

After Gao Mo approached, he suddenly eased the expression on his face, and even withdrew a lot of his aura. He looked like he met a good friend in a cafe by accident, but I felt that Gao Mo was almost It popped out of his mouth with gritted teeth.

"Ah... yes, what a coincidence." I replied with a half-smile, not daring to look at Gao Mo again.

"This is..." Ye Mei seemed to be surprised by Gao Mo's outstanding appearance, but she should be even more surprised that such a person would know me.

"We are friends who haven't seen each other for six years, and we meet again here today." Gao Mo answered Ye Mei very politely, but he had no intention of leaving after greeting.

Ye Mei looked at Gao Mo and then at me, thinking of something, picked up her bag and stood up.

"Hi, I'm Brother Xu's junior high school classmate, my name is Ye Mei."

"Gao Mo."

The two exchanged names, and after shaking hands, Ye Mei continued: "In this case, you can talk, I'll go first." There was an elegant and dignified smile on her face.

"Brother Xu, I will contact you again." Turning around and not forgetting to say this to me, it really pushed me into the fire pit.

"Miss Ye, go slowly." Gao Mo said goodbye.

My heart was restless, up and down, and when I looked at Gao Mo again, I seemed to have lost my language ability, and I couldn't utter half a sentence of explanation, so I could only stare at Gao Mo stupidly.

Gao Mo also had a black face all the time and kept silent. He should be thinking about public places and he can't explode.

Sitting in Gao Mo's car, there was silence in the car.

I think it might be the calm before the storm.

Sure enough, when I was dragged home by Gao Mo, I almost fell down the stairs. Gao Mo hurriedly led me up with one hand, and lost all strength in his movements, he threw me on the bed after entering the door with his shoulders on his shoulders.

I didn't know he was so powerful before!Like a beast that escaped from prison, I was powerless to fight.He has always been gentle and restrained, except in bed.

"Gao Mo, listen to my explanation." Only then did I remember that I should explain, so I spoke.

I guessed that he must have misunderstood me, and felt very uncomfortable.But I'm still trying to explain because that's not the case.

But Gao Mo didn't give me a chance.

Yes, he actually gagged me with his tie and I started to struggle and the bed creaked and Gomo had a drink but I knew he wasn't.

I forgot how many times I passed out that night, and every time I woke up, Gao Mo was still torturing me. This was pure punishment, more cruel than ever.

I was so tired that I couldn't even open my eyes, but I clearly felt what it was like to feel like a knife was twisting my heart.

He doesn't listen to my explanation because he thinks what his eyes see is real.He didn't believe me and punished me in this way, so what about me?

I actually don't believe him anymore.

After he drained my trust, I was already shaken.All my guesses, wild thoughts, are symptoms.

I don't know why it has become like this between us, we have become very tired and we don't trust each other.

My body has long been numb, and I can't feel any pain or pleasure.I suddenly remembered how gentle he was to me when we first dated.

He picks me up from get out of class every day. Although he is just a little eDonkey, I am still very happy. He takes good care of me when I am sick. Although he does not talk a lot, I still think he loves me.

However, I still can't lie to myself.

Maybe not, he doesn't really love me.After all, we have been together for six years. Ordinary couples would get bored after being together for such a long time, not to mention that we are gay.

I don't want this anymore.

I think I'm going to get bored, every time I ask, I will be rejected for various reasons, what do I know about him?

I don't know anything because there is no need for me to know.

Maybe I didn't sleep all night, anyway, it was the next day when I opened my eyes. Gao Mo was sleeping next to me, holding me tightly with both hands, giving me the illusion that we are still in love.

I looked at my boyfriend's handsome face and wanted to cry for some reason.

Look, this man, how proud I was that I got it.But now, I just feel that it is a burden.

"Gao Mo..."

I called his name with a hoarse voice.

He is a light sleeper and wakes up easily, so he opened his eyes when I called him.

He leaned over to kiss me, and I went up to him and kissed him, the kind that touched my lips.

"Gao Mo..." I yelled again, as if I was about to cry in the next second.

"Well, I'm here."

"Gao Mo, let's break up."

After all, I didn't cry, and I didn't even have a trembling sound. I was still snuggled into Gao Mo's arms. Our bodies were obviously very close, but our hearts were already far away.

In the seventh year with Gao Mo, and about to enter the new year, on this joyous Spring Festival morning, I broke up with my boyfriend.

After Gao Mo and I broke up, Gao Mo moved out of the rental house. Gao Mo's reaction was very calm, as if none of this had ever happened.

I forced myself not to think about him anymore, I am 26 years old, I have been working for some days, now I should also plan for my future.

The idea of ​​going home and coming out during this Spring Festival was not able to be said, so it died.

A person boarded the train and returned home in the rush of the Spring Festival travel rush, and was asked by the seven aunts and eight aunts about their relationship with work, which led to a prompt marriage.

My mother talked to me after my relatives left, and asked me if I had someone to associate with, and I could bring them back to see no matter what, her tone was a bit weird.

I dare not say that I broke up with my boyfriend of six years, so I can only nod perfunctorily and say I know.

I had to go back to work after the Spring Festival holiday, so I left.Another year passed like this, and the first Spring Festival without Gao Mo passed away peacefully.

My performance seemed to be an unexpected collapse, crying, but extremely calm.But only in the lonely nights, I will deeply feel what loneliness is.

I have only shared the bed with Gao Mo for two years, and I have developed the bad habit of not being able to sleep alone.

There is still a breath of Gao Mo in this room, as if he has never left.

I can't forget Gao Mo at all for a while, I have to admit it.At this moment, I received another text message from Ye Mei.

Gao Mo suddenly appeared that day, and Ye Mei didn't notice anything unusual, because she hadn't given up on me yet.

I didn't want to get entangled with her anymore, but now I want to think about it.My family also hopes that I can start a family and start a business soon. I am 26 years old, not too young, and the other party is still such an excellent goddess.

Moreover, at that time, I felt that I could fall in love with someone again. I didn't have to be Gao Mo, I... wanted to try to forget Gao Mo.

Ye Mei told me that we could try dating first, which made my heart move.

I decided to give it a go, knowing that breaking up with someone and starting another relationship is sloppy and scumbag.

But I can't think of any other way to divert my attention. I'm very bad, very selfish, and very unfair to Ye Mei, but even so, I still want to try my best.

Ye Mei and I started dating, like most couples, watching movies, eating, visiting playgrounds, shopping, and many other things that Gao Mo and I don't know how to do.

After Gao Mo and I were together, we used rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea every day like an old couple.

As for Ye Mei, I don't know...

I know that I am deceiving myself and others, I am deceiving myself that I am slowly falling in love with Ye Mei.But the fact is that I can't forget Gao Mo, he will always appear in my mind, no matter how much Ye Mei and I are like a couple.

Then I thought about breaking up, I was a scumbag, really, but I couldn't deceive myself anymore, I couldn't be responsible for my previous actions, and now I can't let such irresponsible things continue.

But just before I was about to ask Ye Mei out to say goodbye, I was beaten.

It happened very suddenly. In short, I was followed by someone when I got off work. I am more alert, so I wanted to go home quickly, but the man who followed me surrounded me in a dead-end alley, and I had nowhere to escape. .

Before I could open my mouth to ask, a fist was greeted to my face, that fierce force was about to make me call my mother, but I am a man, how could I give in.

I was annoyed because I was dating Ye Mei after the breakup but still remembered Gao Mo's face, and now I was beaten for no reason, I was very angry, very wronged, very aggrieved.

I am small in stature, and I am not a match for the opponent at all. I rushed forward and wanted to punch him back, but I was pushed away. I do not admit that I am a five-scumbag.

That man is going to hit me again, I really have no strength to resist, he is a head taller than me, so much stronger than me, I have no resistance at all