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Going home from Qingshi Street, I was speechless all the way.

On the way, Xu Jingluan winked at Ying Zhou, but Ying Zhou didn't understand what she meant, looked at Xu Jingluan winking and then at Xu Boyuan who was expressionless, really didn't know what to say, but Xu Boyuan didn't ask anything .

When they arrived at the palace, Ying Zhou still lived in the outer courtyard, separated from the two, Xu Boyuan still didn't say anything.

Ying Zhou and Xu Boyuan didn't respond, so Xu Jingluan couldn't help feeling discouraged, and followed Xu Boyuan disheartenedly, dragging her head across the water pavilion, seeing the bifurcation of the two people's residences, she wanted to run away, but Xu Boyuan seemed to have a long back. With closed eyes, he said coldly, "Follow me to the study."

Xu Jingluan groaned, so she had no choice but to follow.

The lamp was on in the study, Xu Jingluan dawdled after her, and before she could get close to the chair, she heard Xu Boyuan reprimanded in a low voice: "Stand!"

She curled her lips and straightened her half-bent knee.

Xu Boyuan stood in front of the desk, within three steps of her, when a servant came in to deliver tea, neither of them made a sound, and when the servant backed away without daring to show his anger, Xu Boyuan said in a deep voice: "Ah Luan, I said, don't meddle in this matter."

Xu Jingluan knew that he would say that, rolled her eyes, and pretended to be stupid: "What are you meddling in?"

Xu Boyuan looked sideways, "Do you think I really can't do anything about you?"

Xu Jingluan was actually very afraid of hearing this sentence.

It's not because Xu Boyuan has many ways, on the contrary, I'm afraid it's because she knows that he really can't do anything with her, Xu Boyuan just scares her, Xu Boyuan spoils her too much, and she is relying on this spoiling to step on Xu Boyuan bottom line.

So she also softened her attitude, sighed, and said sincerely with her eyes wide open: "Don't, don't, I'm afraid of you. It's my fault. I shouldn't have taken him there."

Xu Boyuan said: "You are not allowed to go out again this month."

Xu Jingluan felt aggrieved immediately: "I'm not doing it for you! What should Ying Zhou do if he's so stupid and doesn't know what to do? You even punished me!"

Xu Boyuan looked at her silently, his eyes were stern and decisive.

Xu Jingluan lowered her head, looked at the shadow elongated by the candle shadow on the ground, and said softly, "I know what you're thinking, it's just that you and him are impossible."

She felt very sad because she loved Xu Boyuan very much, and hoped that Xu Boyuan could live a happier life instead of oppressing herself like this.

Also coping week is really good.

It's not that she didn't think about what her future sister-in-law would look like. After all, Xu Boyuan is unlikely to live alone all his life, but to be honest, she has seen most of the ladies of the right age in Beijing. Come on, no one is worthy of her brother, even her cousin Qi Ling always feels that there is something wrong.

"Do you know when I found out?" Xu Jingluan raised her head and said in a rare, serious and slow way, "You must think that you have hidden it well, but I still found out. Brother, there is something You just can't hide it, the way you look at him is completely different from the way you look at other people."

They probably didn't even realize how well they matched when they stood together.

"Brother, why don't you give it a try?" Xu Jingluan lightly poked his arm, "Ying Zhou is so good, give it a try, don't give up."

Xu Boyuan closed his eyes to hide the wavering in his eyes.

"Aluan..." Xu Boyuan said helplessly, "Even if he is willing, have you ever thought about what he will do after I die?"

When he said this, he laughed at his own arrogance many times in his heart.

But he still said it, because of another reason, it was more difficult to speak.

The human heart is not enough to swallow like a snake, or you can't get it, and once you get it, you will always have more delusions.He was not reconciled that he could only accompany Ying Zhou for such a short time, and he couldn't even imagine who would take his place in Ying Zhou's tens of thousands of years after his death.

He would rather Ying Zhou never know what love is like, without him, at least there would be no one else.

Xu Jingluan was stopped by the question, she didn't think of this.

Xu Boyuan said again: "Ah Luan, he will leave after all."

Xu Jingluan's eyes turned red, because the tone of Xu Boyuan's words was too fragile, a vulnerability she had never seen before.

She couldn't accept such a fragile Xu Boyuan, and couldn't accept that Xu Boyuan spent the rest of his life with such fragility.

"But at least...at least he is here now!" Xu Jingluan took several deep breaths, "Every day you hesitate, you lose one day; every step you take back, you get farther and farther away from him!"

Ants are still able to steal life away. For Ying Zhou, the life of a mortal may be as short as that of an ant, but for Xu Boyuan, it is a hundred years, a hundred years, if you can have it, at least it is not in vain.

"If he wants to leave, you can take him to see the prosperity of the world, take him to taste the ups and downs, and make him reluctant to leave." Xu Jingluan grabbed Xu Boyuan's arm and said all the words, "If he wants to forget, You just treat him well, give him everything, make him unable to leave you, make him forget even if he wants to, let him find your reincarnation when you die."

She curled her lips, "It's not that you can't do it, bro, you just don't dare to do it. You're just afraid that he won't like you, you're afraid that he'll refuse, you're afraid that he'll be scared away by you, you're afraid that you'll fail! You just You're just afraid of failure, you've always been like this, afraid of this, afraid of that, afraid of harming me, afraid of implicating grandparents and Dai Zheng."

Xu Boyuan's pupils constricted violently, and he saw himself reflected in Xu Jingluan's eyes that were dyed red by the candlelight, like dancing flames.

Why does Dai Zheng suddenly come up? How much does Xu Jingluan know...

"But brother, you never came to ask me if I was afraid." Xu Jingluan let go of him, and said in a low voice, "I was raised by you, I resemble you but I'm not like you. Actually, I'm not afraid , On the contrary, I can't wait for you to let go and do it, because I hate, hate the person who made me have no parents since I was born, and made you live so hard."

Xu Boyuan's mind was shocked, Xu Jingluan knew everything!

In such a flat tone, she lightly expressed her hatred.

Xu Jingluan sniffed and didn't take it seriously, "Surprised? Brother, I'm not smart, but I'm not stupid. You can indeed hide some things from me, but there are some things you can't hide sooner or later. Instead of wasting time and missing Instead of waiting, it’s better to give it a try. You’re always afraid of failure, haven’t you thought about what it would be like if you succeeded?”

It's not that Xu Boyuan didn't think about it.

Whether it's the enmity between the parents, or the matter with Ying Zhou.

The so-called success is beautiful, but it is ethereal and empty, as if it is separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, and once you take the first step, the road will be full of thorns, bloody to the end, and there is no turning back.

After so many years, he still hesitated before this first step, not daring to take it.

"Brother, if you really want to give up," Xu Jingluan exhaled to the ground, raised her head, raised her eyebrows and said, "Just get married."

Xu Boyuan suddenly tightened his grip on the table, "What did you say...?"

"If you're really willing to give up, prove it to me. Anyway, you're going to get married sooner or later." Xu Jingluan looked into Xu Boyuan's eyes and said word by word, "Whether it's A Ling or anyone else, as long as If you get married, I will never interfere in your affairs with Ying Zhou again."

Of course it is impossible for Xu Boyuan to agree, no matter who it is for.

The red marks at the corners of Xu Jingluan's eyes have not disappeared, but her pupils are very bright. Her eyes are full of slyness as usual, and she is carefree and relaxed after speaking.

She "tsk tut" twice, and said: "You said you can't, but you never thought of giving up? Otherwise, why are you angry today? You look at that young man's eyes as if he wants to kill someone."

Xu Boyuan wanted to refute, but he was speechless, and remained silent for a long time without saying a word.

Xu Jingluan smiled, she was betting, betting on her understanding of Xu Boyuan, betting on their persistence and stubbornness from the iron-blooded Qi family, as well as the decisiveness and greed that the king of the world should have.

She knew she had won the bet because the bystanders knew.

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