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There is a curfew in the city, and the city gates are closed, but the city wall can't stop Yun Xi. It was late in the night when they returned to the capital, and half of the people on the road could not be seen. Jumping up and down, turning around and talking to Ying Zhou as he walked, he was not as lively as a flower demon, but like a rabbit.

"Luoluo is very curious about our mountain, and said that he will move there with A-Lian in the future!" After a few hours, Yunxi got acquainted with Luosijing.

Ying Zhou thought for a while and said, "The river in the mountains is full of ice, I'm afraid they won't be used to it."

"What's so difficult about this! The weather is not just a matter of a tiger waving his hand. I wanted to ask before, why is it always snowing in the mountains?"

"Well, isn't winter bad?"

"Of course not! I'm a flower demon," Yunxi said aggrievedly, "It's too cold, I haven't bloomed for several years!"

Ying Zhou nodded, "Then change it when you go back."

Yun Xi ran up to him in three or two steps, followed his pace and walked backwards, asking: "The tiger, when shall we go back?"

Afraid that she would fall, Ying Zhou simply stopped, "Do you want to go back?"

"No, no, as long as I follow the tiger, I can go anywhere, it doesn't matter if I go back or not." Yunxi waved his hand and said, "It was Northwest who asked me to ask when I went back a few days ago. He himself misses the tiger. I'm sorry to say, don't be awkward."

Ying Zhou looked up at the almost full moon in the sky, and said, "I won't go back for now, if he wants to see me, he can come here."

In fact, he also misses the mountains, the boundless snow, the bright yellow sea of ​​flowers on the top of the ice, and the tranquility where time goes by endlessly but does not need to be cared about.

He was a little tired, and every day here made him more and more tired.He could already feel that his body was drying up from the inside out, and even his soul was irreversibly weakening.

His injuries were probably worse than Xiaobai's, and it was the kind that even Nan Ling couldn't heal.

But he didn't worry about it, on the contrary, he even felt good about it.

There is a way of reincarnation in the world, everything has an end, even immortals will fall one day.Tianchen said that his name was not listed in Kunwu's book, but he knew that it would be his catastrophe to enter the mortal world this time.

He has always been very open about life and death. To die is to die. To live one day longer or to live one day less is just the difference between playing a game or two of chess with Nan Ling. Xu Boyuan will die anyway, as long as he lives longer than him Just a little.

Outside the palace, Ying Zhou didn't knock on the door, so Yunxi cast a spell and returned to the courtyard where she lived.

As soon as he stood still, he saw that the light in his room was on, and the figure inside was reflected on the window. Ying Zhou and Yun Xi looked at each other, and Yun Xi smiled and said, "Oh, I'm not Mr. Bai. If it doesn't work, don't ask me, go in quickly, tiger."

Although Yun Xi's knowledge is shallow, it is not difficult for her to know who the person across the wall is. When Ying Zhou saw her reaction, she guessed who it was.

Yunxi rolled his eyes and said, "Have you ever heard a story about a tiger and a demon couple, the male lion is very good-looking, he is a well-known handsome man in the world of lions, but the female lion is not very good at it?" , is also old, but the male lion treats the female lion very well. Guess the tiger, why is this?"

Ying Zhou heard what she meant and asked, "Why?"

Yunxi said: "Because the male lion can't beat the lioness! The lioness refused to court the male lion, so she beat the male lion hard. Let me tell you, all men are like this. You will be subdued in one meal!"

"..."

Yun Xi said again: "But tiger, if you make a move, you must control it! Ordinary people are not strong enough to withstand two blows, so don't beat them up!"

What she said was serious, Ying Zhou couldn't laugh or cry, he didn't know how to remind her that he was a man just like Xu Boyuan.

"Yun Xi, you..." He paused, shaking his head, that's all.Originally, he wanted to ask Yunxi how he knew, but after thinking about it, he felt it was unnecessary, since he didn't intend to hide it anyway.

Ying Zhou opened the door and entered the room. Xu Boyuan was standing in front of the bookshelf, flipping through an unknown book in his hand. Seeing him coming in, his eyes flashed with surprise.

Ying Zhou smiled at him, walked over to take a look, what Xu Boyuan was holding was a book of monsters he bought from a bookstore, in which there were many monsters of different shapes drawn, he had to marvel at the imagination of mortals , the monsters painted in it all have three heads and six arms, four ears and eight eyes after they take human form.

"Actually, they are similar to you after transformation," Ying Zhou said, "Like Yunxi, Luosijing, and Alian, their gender is determined by nature, and their appearance is born from their hearts. They will become what they want to be."

Xu Boyuan was silent for a moment, then asked: "Then why did you create a human form?"

Ying Zhou thought for a while and said, "Probably because I envy you."

Xu Boyuan turned his back to Ying Zhou, closed the book, stuffed it back into the bookcase, and said flatly: "Afraid of death and afraid of life, what is there to envy."

Ying Zhou said: "When I first came to the world, I also felt that mortals lived too hard."

Xu Boyuan slid his fingers across the bookcase, and took out another book, "What about now?"

Ying Zhou bowed his head and smiled, "It's not bad."

Xu Boyuan was startled, and turned around, "How good is it?"

But Ying Zhou asked back, "What's so good about being a demon or a fairy?"

Xu Boyuan looked at him without answering.

Ying Zhou said: "Although your lifespan is short, once you reincarnate once in a hundred years, you can forget the good and the bad. It is always a new beginning."

The good and bad gains and losses of this life are all scattered in the samsara, forgetting emotions and worries, and being reborn.Unlike them, once you experience it, it will be thousands of years, and you will always walk with memories.

Ordinary people want to cultivate immortals, fear demons, and pursue immortality; demons cultivate human form, and want to break through the barrier and return to the world; color.

In fact, the law of heaven couldn't be more fair, and nothing in this world can be perfect.

For example, after 2000 years that were not bad, now it is time to experience calamity.If Ying Jie really falls, then there will be no Buzhou Tiger in this world anymore. After all, such an existence like him probably cannot enter reincarnation.

The flickering candlelight elongated all the shadows, and the two of them were silent for a while.

For some reason, Xu Boyuan looked at Ying Zhou's face and felt that there was a vast sadness and helplessness hidden under his calm expression at the moment, as if the matter had been predestined, and it was a kind of relief and relief similar to giving up something.

What did Ying Zhou give up?

Xu Boyuan almost stretched out his hand, wanting to touch his face and ask him, was it me who you gave up on?

He is deeply aware of his own contradictions.

Xu Jingluan was right, he was just afraid.

Fear that Ying Zhou will leave him one day sooner or later, fear that he and Ying Zhou only have such a short few decades.Decades later, his body will be buried alone under the loess. Even though Ying Zhou said that he would look for his reincarnation, he will no longer remember Ying Zhou, and he will not remember how important Ying Zhou is to him The presence.Will he fall in love with Ying Zhou again in his next life?It's fine if you fall in love, but if you don't, what about Ying Zhou.

He is very sure that at this moment he loves Ying Zhou very much, but the next him, with a new life and experience, may become a completely different person, will he still be him then?At that time, who is standing in Ying Zhou's heart?

Is it the current him, or the new him?

No matter which one, he didn't want to accept it.The former makes him miserable, the latter makes him jealous.

Xu Boyuan squeezed the book in his hand, and said in a low voice, "I'm going back first."

Ying Zhou tilted his head slightly, and asked, "Did you come here to look for books to read?"

"...Mmm." Xu Boyuan didn't dare to look him in the eyes, "Did you find the medicine for Xiaobai?"

Ying Zhou shook his head and said, "Actually, I didn't find medicine for him."

He raised his hand, like what Xu Boyuan did last night, covering Xu Boyuan's eyes.

Xu Boyuan was startled, "...Ying Zhou?"

The clothes rustled, he felt Zhou's approach, and then his lips softened, it was only a very, very short moment, and it was over.

Ying Zhou said, "I'm sober now, Xu Boyuan."

Xu Boyuan froze in place, his eyes widened by Ying Zhou's palms.He seldom had such a shocking moment, or the word shock was not enough to describe his mood.

Did Ying Zhou just... kiss him?

"A Luan asked me before if I would be unhappy if you were to marry Miss Qi," Ying Zhou slowly put down his hand, "I thought I wouldn't."

The darkness in front of him disappeared, but Xu Boyuan closed his eyes subconsciously, he didn't even dare to look at Ying Zhou's expression at this moment.

Ying Zhou asked softly: "Will you give Qingjialou to her?"

"..."

Xu Boyuan still closed his eyes and did not respond.

Ying Zhou took two steps back and looked at him quietly for a moment.

There are some things that you can't imagine when you haven't experienced them, but once you are in them, you can learn them without a teacher.

He thinks that Xu Boyuan likes him more or less, but he has too many burdens and worries, and the little liking for him is not enough to make Xu Boyuan put aside everything and move forward bravely.Because Xu Boyuan is a measured person, if he does something, he will think about the reasons and worry about the consequences, and only take action after confirming everything is safe, without taking any risks.

But he himself is just the opposite, he is used to being at ease, the sky is full of the Three Realms, everything in the world, as long as he thinks, nothing can hinder him.

Another long silence.

Ying Zhou lowered his head, looked at the shadow elongated by the candlelight on the ground, and said: "The eight-tailed fox is about to give birth. I want to go back to the mountains. The shortest is a month, and the longest is half a year. Yunxi will stay here, waiting for me to go back. Let Southeast also come."

Even though he was used to being relieved, he had also experienced enough embarrassment at this moment, and he felt like retreating. Such an excuse sounded like an excuse, but he couldn't find a better one for a while.

"...You clearly said that you won't leave." Xu Boyuan finally responded, his voice trembled a little when he spoke, and it sounded much lower than usual.

Ying Zhou turned his face to the side, looking at the moonlight in the courtyard outside the window, "I'm just going back for a while, the things in the world are not over, I..."

He stopped abruptly, because Xu Boyuan suddenly took two steps forward, folded his arms, and hugged him into his arms.

"Don't go," Xu Boyuan pressed his back, making their chests close to each other, bowing their heads in his ears, said, "Ying Zhou, don't go."

"..." Ying Zhou didn't know how to react.

"I will give Qingjialou to her." Xu Boyuan said in a deep voice.

Ying Zhou was stunned, and before he had time to feel sad, he heard Xu Boyuan chuckle, a little sour, a little helpless, and a little relieved and then relaxed.

"It's a dowry for her, as a gift from her elder brother," Xu Boyuan let go of Ying Zhou a little, put one hand on the back of his head, and continued, "There are ten other shops and two courtyards, which are going to be given to A Luan .”

Ying Zhou raised his eyes to look at him, not understanding what he meant.

Xu Boyuan looked at him for a moment, and held his face with his palms that were a little rough from martial arts, then lowered his head suddenly, and kissed Ying Zhou's forehead lightly.

"Other than that," he looked into Ying Zhou's eyes, "everything about me is yours."

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