God [Ancient Sword]

Next punishment. "

"When will this punishment last? He redeemed his fault, so he doesn't have to do this anymore?"

"The redemption is inexhaustible, endless... He is destined to live forever in such pain."

"Did Ah Tan dream of him, so is he sad because of him?" She was silent for a while, then said softly, "Although I don't understand why this is the case...but it must be, because I have something I want, so I feel sad because of him." You will be sad when you lose. If you know you will be sad after losing, then don’t reach out to touch it. If you don’t want to be hurt, how can you be hurt?”

The arms around her waist seemed to tighten a little bit, and the breath of the person behind her penetrated into the skin along the thin clothes, and it felt hot as if it was burning.

Ah Tan said sullenly: "Is that what Sishui thinks... But he is a human being, so there is nothing wrong with having everything a human has."

Without waiting for her to answer, he just said this to himself, as if he was confused, but also as if he had seen through: "I just feel strange, is it him who is wrong, or is it this world?"

The rain outside the house was pattering down, the house was silent, and the world was also lonely.

Her thoughts spread wildly, thinking of many things, thinking of the lives she had waited for, and she was not always so indifferent.Because I couldn't wait, I also complained.Not to mention losing, as long as you have had beautiful nostalgia is enough - you will not know until you really lose, that kind of pain can make you distort and discredit all the good things you once had.

I don't know which life it was, but I heard someone chanting Buddhist scriptures.There is a sentence in it: From love comes sorrow, from love comes fear, if you are away from the loved one, there is no worry and no fear.She only listened to it once and remembered it.

Without love, there is no worry and no fear.If you don't stretch out your hand, don't hold it in the palm of your hand, it doesn't matter whether you lose it or not.

Really very mysterious.It's even enough to make people realize.

Then she was a little puzzled—what is a Buddha?

Ordinary people say that there are gods and Buddhas in the heavens, but in the 28 heavens, there are only gods and no Buddhas, and those born in accordance with the destiny have only gods and no Buddhas.

So, what is Buddha?

Are mortals themselves creating such an unknown powerful force?

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Dad said, daughter, you are also getting older, you have always had your own ideas, and it is time to think about your life's major events.

She also felt a little embarrassed listening.Because she has always made her own plans, Dad is also at ease, and never talks about her when it is not necessary. In fact, this so-called "necessary time" has never happened since childhood.Now even Father can't bear it anymore, it's true...it's because she procrastinated a little too much.

Get up early every day to dress up, the face of the person in the mirror is already in the jasper years.The face is like a peach petal, the eyes are like autumn waves, elegant and gentle, like a painting.Although the body is a bit weaker than ordinary people, compared with the previous lives, it is considered extremely healthy.At this age, you don't want to talk about marriage. If you want to look like a nightshade and have sex like a tigress, you can't get married. However, in the past few years, the matchmaker has never stopped coming to the door, so being gossiped is secondary... If Ah Tan is involved, It will be bad.

She remained silent, and only raised her hand to pour a glass of wine for Dad.

She seldom drank with him, since Ah Tan was able to be alone, she drank less.Seeing that Dad raised his head and drank the wine cup upside down, she smiled slightly, and filled her lowered eyes again: "If I get married, what will you do?"

She said calmly: "My daughter always wants to marry. Once married, it will be difficult to come back. The wine shop is left to Ah Tan, and Ah Tan will take care of his father, but who will marry Ah Tan? What does Ah Tan like?" Girl, how to get married, how to take care of the house for the bride... Dad doesn’t know anything. Dad only knows how to drink.”

The man who was not yet young enough to be confused, and whose temples were already a little gray was slightly embarrassed, holding the wine cup, neither drinking nor letting it go, he must be looking at his daughter a little at a loss.

The corners of her eyes were slightly raised, and she smiled softly and softly: "I can go away with peace of mind until Ah Duan settles down and my father has a daughter-in-law who is filial... Ah Duan has also grown up, and will be missed by the girl's family, but Ah Tan doesn’t like any of them, so what should I do?”

what should we do?

Some thoughts are not humane, but they are also...unwilling to be extinguished.She had missed him so many times, and later, in constant recollection, she was able to gradually restore the outlines of those figures that she had missed.The sky is big and the earth is big. Although he is not unscrupulous, he is also free and easy.Have you ever been trapped in a small winery?

If he wished, it would be difficult for him to take Wu Gou with brocade and worship his prime minister as a marquis.If you want to marry a wife, if it is not the princess of the princess Ji Guanjia, then it should be a lady from everyone and Xiaojia Biyu.How can those peasant women and business women... be worthy of Ah Tan.

But in this life, Ah Tan doesn't want to touch poetry and books, but only wants to play with her wine vessels, and she can't do anything about it.

In the end, Dad looked at her thoughtfully, and only sighed: "It's up to you, no matter what, you always... know."

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Xia finished walking to the sound of cicadas on the sour plum branches in front of the courtyard.Autumn has yellowed every leaf on the tree.When the leaves were all gone, the snowflakes fell.

During the Lantern Festival, she and Ah Tan went to see the lanterns together.

Even though she has been reincarnated so many times, she still remembers that when the crowd looked back that year, their eyes fell on a corner she didn't know, and then she knew that she had to wait for someone, and she waited so long because of one person. year and month.

Ah Tan held her hand, sideways protecting her and carefully avoiding the crowd.Carrying a lotus lantern, she held hands with him, walked from one end of the street to the other, and ate a bowl of Lantern Festival at a mask stand.

Ah Tan bought a half peacock mask for her to wear.

"Is it nice?" she asked.

He nodded.Put on a white-faced cat mask on yourself.

Passing by a girl buying silk flowers with a basket, she saw a very large and conspicuous revolving lantern.The lights and shadows are bright and dark, the axles are constantly turning, and the scene of men and horses chasing around a circle continues endlessly.I suddenly thought of that huge and hopeless reincarnation.The cause and effect are confused, and the beginning is reversed, but it seems difficult to get to the end.

"What is Sishui looking at?" Ah Tan covered her cold hand with his hand, trying to make it warmer, and when he raised his eyes, he noticed her fixed eyes staring in one direction, and asked gently with his head tilted.

She suddenly came back to her senses, shook her head, and smiled, the light from the lights intertwined and hit her pupils, brighter than the stars in the sky.

He was dazed for a moment, then smiled, subconsciously licked her bun, wrapped a strand of loose hair from the sideburns back into the hairpin, and led her to continue walking.

When the fireworks were set off, she and Ah Tan stood in the dimly lit place and watched from afar.The crowd was bustling and clamoring in front of them, as if it had nothing to do with them.But just looking at it like this makes me feel happy.

In the withered fireworks in the sky, she thought of the epiphyllum she had picked up a few years ago.Year after year, there is no flowering.

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She had a feeling in the dark that the epiphyllum would definitely bloom in the coming year.

She made up her mind that when the epiphyllum blooms, she will find a good marriage for Ah Tan, and then she can plan to propose a marriage for herself.

She is already satisfied with this relationship in this life, having been with her for so many years.She couldn't demand to be with him all the time.After all, Ah Tan has grown up, and she has grown up too.

During Qingming, I went to the next village to visit the graves of my uncle and aunt.

For some reason, since the few days before the Cold Food Festival, she has been feeling restless.I can't tell the reason, but I feel that my chest is congested as if it is blocked by something, and even my senses are so soft that I have lost my sharpness like sticking into cotton wool. I checked my pulse and it didn't hurt, thinking it was a psychological effect, then It feels like a shadow but can't get rid of it.

So in the past few days, she has been keeping a close eye on Ah Tan, fearing that something will happen to him--the person she cares about has such a feeling, and there is no one else except him.Although the memory was retrieved, the power did not follow. I am afraid that the current body cannot bear it, and the conditions to trigger the unblocking have not been met.If something big happened...she didn't know what to do.

Xu Shi's irritability was really obvious, even Ah Tan couldn't help asking: "What is Sishui thinking about?"

With worry in her eyes, she looked back at him: "When will the rain stop?"

"In the Ching Ming season, it should be the rain of apricot blossoms and willow catkins. The continuous spring water will not stop for a while." A Tan was a little puzzled, so he took a cloak and put it on her. Come on, it's humid outside."

Since when did she start to listen to him so obediently?

...In short, she followed him into the house obediently.

The next day, after paying homage to his mother, Father guarded the tomb and refused to leave, so she and Ah Tan went to his old home.

The drizzle has never stopped. Although it is not enough to wet people's clothes, the dampness on the face is very annoying.She was getting more and more upset, and she didn't dare to tell Ah Tan, for fear that he would turn his horse's head around immediately after hearing this.I only worship once a year, although it is the body of the soul... But after all, there are still unfinished karma, and it is natural to do what you can.

The old house has been abandoned, and rumors of evildoers were raging at that time. Even if it was sold at a low price, no one dared to take the house and fields here, and they have been left unused in recent years.After all, even the body was not found, and the grave was just a tomb with some old things. Later, she also thought, this is really strange, there are non-human factors everywhere. If the robber saw money and committed the crime, Where is that body?If it is really a demon, why is there no demon energy left at the scene?

But she couldn't ask Ah Tan, and she couldn't show that she was very concerned about this matter, so she had no choice but to pretend not to know.

The drizzle wets the paper money, and when it burns, smoke comes out.Ah Tan wrapped her up tightly with a cloak, and pushed her aside to prevent her from touching her. Then, alone in front of the grave, he put small plates of paper money into the burning iron basin.The smoke scattered along the rain canopy, urging his eyes, Ah Tan squinted his eyes and began to cough lowly, but he couldn't avoid it too much, lest he committed any taboos.

She went to the carriage on the side of the road to get a water bottle, thinking that she would have to wipe his eyes that might be covered with soot later.It wasn't long before I started walking, when I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my head, like an awl with a handle piercing it hard.

She leaned on a tree to calm herself down, and when she opened her eyes, she found that the tree she picked at random was camphor wood.

As if touched by something.For some reason, a strong feeling of sadness suddenly surged in my heart.Before, she always thought that the source of this irritability was Ah Tan, and she had to follow Ah Tan, but it turned out that the one who had the accident...was actually herself.

The demonic aura surged instantly but disappeared in a blink of an eye, and her eyes could only catch a huge black monster that was not very clear.

It turns out...there really are monsters.It is still a monster that has been able to restrain its own breath.

She kept looking at Ah Tan, kept looking at him, and forgot what kind of world this is.Opening her eyes hard, trying to take another look...whatever it is, just let her take another look...but her eyelids are too heavy, too heavy, she's so tired she wants to sleep...

Suddenly closing his eyes, he fell into the most familiar darkness.

She still misses Ah Tan, but she can't see the time when the epiphyllum blooms.

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This time, after passing away, there is no direct reincarnation, but exists in the form of a soul body.When Chen Yan opened his eyes, it was the green mountains and green waters in his memory.Immediately afterwards, the tearful ice-white phoenix fell into her vision.

Snow Emperor: "Woooo, Ah Yan——Ah Yan!"

The phoenix bird whimpered and wanted to throw herself into her arms to be touched and comforted, but she forgot that her current body was just nothingness—passing through her body again, wobbling and flying back to her eyes, and then crying even harder up.

The Snow Emperor hiccupped while crying: "Wow wow wow--Ayu, oh, let's go back to the sky, don't stay here anymore, cause and effect are already unclear, huh, I finally figured it out, the prince Changqin is destined to Widowed relatives are bound by love, but once you enter reincarnation, you are also one of them!"

After a dozen times of reincarnation, I found him.Even if the life is not long, at least it is nearly 200 years.The place where she was sealed in the past, the mountain is still the same, the water is still the same water, but the small place has changed.The lotus pond is still there, and the sycamore tree is still there, but the Snow Emperor built a wooden house between the two, about when he occasionally took human form, and it was all made of sycamore trees, and I don’t know how he picked it from that tree. Branches grow out.

Chen Yan stretched out his hand, a few spots in the void, like destroying the dry, turning the decay into a miracle, the rough wooden house became an exquisite building in line with the aesthetics of Qinghua Shangshen in just a few breaths.She fixedly looked forward, her eyes were blank and meaningless, as if she just needed a landing point to place her gaze.Temporarily having to escape from reincarnation and stay away from the world of mortals, her current state of mind has the appearance of Qinghua Shangshen.

And it wasn't until this time that the power returned to her.

Xue Huang, who was easily distracted by other things, first widened his eyes and admired for a long while, and the moment he came back to his senses, he began to cry again.

She slowly stretched out her hand of nothingness, and made a caressing gesture on Fenghuang's head. With gentle eyes, she gently comforted: "This reincarnation...is very interesting."

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How interesting is this reincarnation?

Chen Yan calmly looked at the lotus flower quietly blooming in the lotus pond: "It is actually trying to shake my will."

Even she herself couldn't be sure whether this ray of consciousness that had been separated was still necessary for Qinghua High God to take back.But that day's destiny is so easily determined, she will be the opportunity for this huge layout.

The existence of the order of heaven and earth and all laws is stipulated in the dark, so that it is controlled so carefully that it has everything under its control. It is an exhaustive strategy that can make people willingly step into it even if they know that the road is bumpy.Perhaps, that year, before everything started, Zhu Rong stepped on the cloud and Shi Shiran passed by Yaoshan Mountain. When he unintentionally lowered his head and saw the blazing phoenix tree in the wind, he suddenly had the idea of ​​making a violin. There are already traces of where it once resided.

The indelible conflict between Qinghua High God and the Dao of Heaven should ultimately be attributed to the most innocent fairy in the world.Through a fight between Fuxi and Nuwa, the Dao of Heaven demoted a god of music.After the blood-smeared formation, the remnant soul was born using the soul-crossing technique, and dragged Qinghua Shangshen into the water alive.Shangshen saw through this calculation, and then cast a ray of divine sense.

But who would have thought of the world after thousands of years?Even Qinghua's godly eyes couldn't see that time, and even the evolution of the way of heaven couldn't peek into the long-term future.The Dao of Heaven gambled that the body energy of the lotus seeds disturbed the state of mind of Qinghua Shangshen, so that the chaos would never return. ——And even the Dao of Heaven did not dare to hope to completely destroy this god.

What is cause and what is effect?How can this world tell cause and effect!

Prince Changqin was transformed into a spirit because of the chaotic lotus seeds, and also disturbed fate because of it.It is already the location of great luck, if it is not for the way of heaven to hinder it, how can it be destroyed by a simple sentence of "Life Lord Gusha".

She plunged into reincarnation, wanting to give Qinghua Shangshen a gleam of fate to the soul that had been sorry and pitiful, but she herself was a game with the way of heaven.She used the luck of the supreme god 33 days away to resolve his lonely fate, but luck, luck, since it occupies a word of heaven, is naturally dominated by that invisible force.So there is no resistance to let Shengsibo engrave her name to record her fate, and bet on how much luck the Heavenly Dao will bestow on her.

The first god in the world, inherited from the first and most powerful creature in the chaos, even if he is an odd number that should be rejected by the way of heaven, he still possesses the merit and respect that can make the world admire him, even a mere ray of divine consciousness , that is also the incarnation of Qinghua Shangshen, the way of heaven dare to neglect?After all, the way of heaven is impartial and selfless, and even she can't help but use the laws of the way of heaven to counteract the way of heaven.

Chen Yan was so gentle that he looked at the phoenix lying on the parasol branch, since he couldn't tell her that this was just a long gamble between the field and the heavens, then he would keep silent about it forever.Since you can't entangle cause and effect clearly, then stop thinking about it.It doesn't matter whether she was reincarnated in the place where Prince Changqin was, or Prince Changqin was looking for her or the future place because of her body.It's probably... fate is destined, she will always meet him,

Chen Yan: "Don't be afraid, it can't do anything to me."

Of course there is nothing I can do.This world has never changed Qinghua High God in the slightest for tens of thousands of years. How can the dozen or so reincarnations of mortals make her have any concerns—even if it is hatred or resentment, I should laugh .

Xue Huang was still sobbing, she hadn't seen her in a hundred years, and she didn't want to cry so early.

Secretly staring at Chen Yu's eyes that seemed to have never changed, he was relieved and regretful.It was as if Prince Changqin was forcibly pulled into her and her world at that time, feeling uneasy, that complex emotion of guilt, confusion, and sadness coexisting.Even she thought that maybe it would be best for Qinghua Shangshen to remain supreme and ruthless forever, but she just couldn't give up.

Xuehuang remembered asking her at that time: "Ayu, Ayu, what do you want to be like?" '

And she asked her back with a smile like this: "What does Huang'er want me to be like?" '

The more I thought about it, the tears that had just rested for a moment rolled like beads and couldn't stop.

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By the time Snow Emperor Gu Zi finished crying, it was almost late.

Although this land has the breath of forbidden and sealed creatures, the four seasons, day and night also change naturally with the heaven and the earth.Then Xuehuang came back to his senses and saw the figure quietly looking at the lotus pond under the sycamore tree. His temper flared up in the past, and he immediately became angry again.

Snow Emperor: "Taiyi Palace has nothing to do and looks at the lotus in a daze, and now I still look at the lotus in a daze! What's so good about these broken flowers?!"

Chen Yan paused for a moment, looked up at her, but his expression eased, and he smiled at her.

Xue Huang blushed unconvinced: "It's no use laughing!"

She snorted twice, and couldn't help asking: "When will you leave again, Ah Yan?"

Chen Yan tilted his head and glanced at the sky: "I don't know. But it's not far away."

There is no need to go to the underworld anymore, the magic circle in Samsara Pass allows her to be reincarnated in the world continuously, and saves the experience after death.Coming back to Hengshan this time, it is about unblocking the power.When the time came, Samsara would naturally call her back.

Xuehuang was a little anxious when she heard it, she was so busy crying, she didn't say much yet!The wings swung up and fell down, resisting the urge not to pounce into her arms—the one in front of her was a soul body, it was useless to pounce—but it didn’t matter, Yufeng skipped over the corner of the lotus pond, a flower bud was attached to the lotus leaf It moved, and the water wave spread out in circles.Those ripples rotated to bring out water droplets, roughly forming a mirror-like frame, but because of the inability to support them, they dissipated and splashed back into the pond.

The Snow Emperor was ashamed: "I, I... well, I'm bored here, just... just thinking of the supernatural powers you used before..."

So, no wonder she cried so fiercely when they saw each other again. Could it be that she has completely observed her life in the world?All the power left in the lotus pond belongs to her. In order to prolong the blooming time of this lotus seed, Qinghua High God has put in a lot of effort, and the lotus seed is tied to her. Snow Emperor wants to use these It is not difficult to trace her figure in reincarnation.

Chen Yan didn't care: "It doesn't matter."

Normally, if you detain her for a few days, you will have to make a fuss, not to mention that you have to stay here for thousands of years, if you don't have some fun to divert your attention, you probably can't stand it.

Snow Emperor watched her cautiously for a long time, seeing that she had no intention of pursuing anything, he immediately returned to his original state: "Ayu, Ayu, do you think there is any difference between being a human being and being a god?"

Chen Yan couldn't answer for a moment, so he began to think seriously.

The dozen or so lifetimes before meeting him were like stagnant water, without any waves.Later, when I met Ah Tan, I always wanted to give back to him what was due to the missing dozen lives.When she frowned, she really thought she was sad.When she smiles, she really thinks she is happy.But after all, there are very few frowns and smiles.There is still no change between her and those ten lifetimes.

No, there is still a slight difference from the long time ago when the gods remained unchanged.Perhaps, because of this human body, it is inevitable that even those emotions and desires will be touched, and sometimes even she herself can't tell whether those emotions are real or fake.Has her heart been touched?

At the moment of her death in the previous life, her head was filled with many things.She was worried, worried that her father had lost her mother, and would be unbearable if a white-haired person sent a black-haired person this time, worried that A-Tan was already alone, and would be trapped by destiny after losing her... ... She is also unwilling, obviously... there are too many things that have not been arranged.

But when she opened her eyes, she was still her.The heart is as silent as silence, and there is no wave in the still water.Touching those memories again seems to be separated by a long distance.

Xue Huang was not surprised and continued to hum: "After all, this reincarnation is still long, you will always become different... But you can't have this temperament every life!"

Slightly ambiguous and awkward words, but she and Chen Yu did not misunderstand, Snow Emperor taught seriously: "If you are like this every life, even if you look different, he will still recognize you!"

What kind of temper is she?That is to say... There is only one Sishui in the world, so she can no longer appear in front of him with the temperament of Sishui.You can't make him recognize it, and you can't make him feel that something is wrong.Qinghua Shangshen sleeps in the Taiyi Palace with 32 layers of zenith, and cannot appear in front of him. She walks in the world, and the name she can use is probably Chen Yu.

Snow Emperor looked at her curiously: "Ayan Ayan, what are you thinking?"

She laughed quietly: "I'm thinking, who gave me the name."

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Chen Yu thought that her reincarnation would start again soon, but she waited for a full year in Hengshan.

She always seems to be wrong.

Leaving the Taiyi Palace with 32 zeniths, a ray of divine consciousness wandered around in the mortal world, as if slowly losing the accompanying magical powers belonging to Qinghua Shangshen.It should be like this, how can the rules of the human world bear the thoughts of the gods.In just a few lifetimes, she has reached the point where she can't even trust her intuition.

One year, to her, was nothing more than a fleeting time, but only when she was a human would she understand that the time of a mortal is so short.After a long time, she didn't make any movement, but Xue Huang was very irritable and impatient.So Chen Yan used the Snow Emperor to spy on the formation of reincarnation, and found the traces left by the past with difficulty, and then faintly peeked into the incomplete scene in the distant area.

Ah Tan burned her remains with a fire.She closed her eyes too early, so she didn't have time to see the miserable state of her body, so it would not be a pleasant picture... Even, she had never been able to imagine any reaction Ah Tan would have when he saw the pool of blood.One moment, he was a living person, but in the blink of an eye, he turned into a pool of blurred flesh and blood... Perhaps, many years ago, he watched his parents in this life disappear in the mouth of monsters so tragically. Many years later, the most important person in his life One of them was destroyed in the same way.

Ah Tan didn't turn his head back into the mountain.When Father heard the news, he was overwhelmed with mourning and was seriously ill. He held his breath and waited for Ah Tan to come back. Finally, before the end of summer, he passed away.

Later, the small wine shop was also closed, the yard was deserted, the house was covered with white flags, and there was a dead silence.It only takes such a short time.

In the last scene, in the heavy snow that year, she saw Ah Tan burning paper money alone under the eaves.

He grew taller again, and his face became more handsome, but there was a scar, which pierced ferociously from the corner of the left eyebrow to under the ear, and one could imagine how deep and terrifying it was at the beginning.There was no expression on his face, his pitch-black eyes were empty and silent, and the flames danced in his pupils, just as if they were painted with the color of fireworks, without any agility of the past.

Suddenly remembered, after the nightmare that day, Ah Tan's quiet and soft voice in Yurun Tiandi.

'No, sometimes he is happy, sometimes he is miserable...he has happy times.But whenever he feels happy and happy, God will take away this happiness and happiness, leaving nothing...'

So no matter what kind of happiness it is, it will eventually become the pain of being alone.So I can only guard the broken memory and continue to wait for the next punishment.

It turned out that in this life, she was the one who brought him such pain.

Chen Yan had nothing to say, so she could only remain silent.When she had been silent long enough, the time had come.So, one moment he was looking at the boring Xuehuang Sapo, and the next moment he was in a familiar space.

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The matrix is ​​the place most similar to chaos.

Chen Yan will have the feeling of returning to the world before the ancient times, but it is inevitable that he will think of the long years of loneliness after opening his eyes, the world has been turned upside down, and the process from being ignorant to knowing that he is just an odd number is too tragic. It's easy to recall.

She tried her best to control her thoughts and master all the functions that were different from normal embryos.This time, memory and power were reincarnated with the soul body at the same time. She was afraid that if the fusion was not done properly, it might collapse together with the mother body.

Birth in this life is still bad.

Poor farmers, tricky and stingy mother-in-law, timid and cowardly women, and violent and rude men.

The burden of food and clothing for the whole family is on the man's shoulders, and the woman keeps giving birth, but she gave birth to three in a row, all of whom were girls, and she was pregnant with the fourth. I thought the pain was over, but unexpectedly it was again Nothing.She thought that she would never forget the trembling hands and the heart-piercing screams of despair when her mother in this life held her in her arms.

That night, the angry grandma threw her out of the house when her mother was unprepared.The family can no longer afford a child, let alone a girl this time.The nutrition she received in the mother's womb was not enough, and she was as thin as a puppy. In such a cold winter, it didn't even take one night, and it only took half an hour to freeze her to death.

Fortunately, she didn't fall to death like this. The baby's body was insensitive to pain, and the thin layer of mattress couldn't block the cold air at all. She cried desperately with all her strength, and her voice was still as weak as a kitten's.

Later, a pair of small hands that had been blue and purple from the cold hugged her tightly, and her seven-year-old elder sister wrapped her clothes tightly around her body, and then secretly hugged her back to the house, crying Coaxing in a low voice: "Don't cry, don't cry, be good..."

The eldest sister was afraid that her crying would wake up grandma and throw her out again.And she couldn't even cry, her little face was almost purple, the mother frantically stripped off the quilt wrapped around her body, then opened her own clothes, put her on her chest, and tried to use her body The temperature brought her back to life.

When the purple gradually turned back to red, she warmed up, but the extreme hunger was almost choking her to death again.The mother's breasts could no longer produce milk, so she made rice soup with trembling hands, and carefully fed it to her while weeping silently.

The three sisters lay beside their mother's bed, weeping silently like their mother.

The eyesight of a newborn baby is not good enough, and the emotions instinctively produced by the body are transmitted to her will, and she can distinguish and feel them.In particular, the fear of death.

The ability brought from the soul body was accumulated in her small body, but she couldn't convince herself to use it, and there was no way to use it.There is too much chance that the moment she uses it, she will explode and die because her body cannot bear it.

The moment she opened her eyes in this life, she understood the rules that belonged to these forces.

It took her more than ten times to make the memory that shouldn't be possessed by mortals merge into the mortal body, so what about power?She always has to pay a certain price until she can freely use the power that mortals shouldn't have.

Grandma threw her out again later, but the sisters picked her up quietly again.If he wanted to throw it away again, he would be hugged tightly by his elder sister, even if he was about to be beaten to death, he would not let go.It's probably because women always have certain weaknesses in their nature. After all, they are also the flesh and blood of her family. They can let her starve to death and freeze to death cruelly, but they can't directly strangle her to death.

Regardless of her weak body after giving birth, the mother struggled to get up and worked hard on the housework, only begging her mother-in-law to give her a way to survive.So after this, grandma pretended she didn't see it, and occasionally beat her mother and sisters in anger, but she didn't throw her out again.

Mother quietly added some sugar to the rice soup to feed her.When I saw her, I couldn't help crying.Every day I pray that my husband who goes out to work as a helper will come back later.No one knew her husband better than her. If the husband saw that the fourth was a daughter again, he would be able to do anything.She was afraid that the daughter she had managed to save would be so lost.

But what should come will eventually come.The man was so enraged that he grabbed her and was about to throw her up. The second sister jumped up and bit his wrist fiercely. The elder sister hugged her and rushed out of the house.

"Don't cry, don't cry," the elder sister cried and coaxed her while shaking her lightly, "Little Si, don't cry, Elder Sister can't help it... Wuwu, don't cry, if Xiao Si doesn't leave, mother will be punished by him." Kill me, don't cry..."

Then she stopped crying.Watching the eldest sister walk far away according to mother's instructions, and then put her on the side of the road.Her dark eyes just looked at the eldest sister, and she turned back, took off the patched clothes, carefully covered her body, and then walked away with tears.

Her hearing is already good, and her eyes can see far. As soon as there is a sound, she starts to cry, but two groups of people pass by. He sighed and sighed, but put her back where she was.

It was not a year of great famine and famine, and people also had some extra compassion, but it was obviously not to the extent of picking up abandoned babies at home.

He was born well in this life, but because of poor food, his complexion was slightly yellow and his hair was thinning, making him look very pitiful.

She was still lying on the side of the road, hungry again, it was getting late, and she couldn't cry anymore.

She thought it was time to struggle until now. When her consciousness gradually dissipated, she heard the sound of a donkey's hoof approaching from far to near, and the clear and crisp voice of the child was full of surprise: "Ah sir! There is a child here!"

Her body soared into the air, she opened her eyes weakly, and then saw an unforgettable face.

...It turns out that after all, you have to wait when you are desperate.

☆, 30

When he saw him, Chen Yan knew that in this life, he didn't have to worry about dying too early and could only wait for the afterlife.

Ah Tan has grown into a graceful and calm young man.Perhaps her temperament was a bit too cold, and the hideous scar on her temples did not carry much evil spirit, but instead made that overly handsome face a bit more heroic.

Her eyesight had already begun to slacken, and after the big stone in her heart fell to the ground, she passed out just like that.

As she expected, Ah Tan didn't leave her behind, but took her back, looking after her carefully.Ah Tan named her Fleeting Years.She knew that it was a fleeting year like water flies by.Perhaps, when he picked her up for the first time, he suddenly saw the gentle and beautiful woman in her dark eyes, so he named her like this.

Ah Tan's real name is Ji Rong. After he closed the wine shop, he also left the town. He passed the provincial examination in the first year and achieved success. In the second year, he moved forward aimlessly. Mr. Teacher, by the way, also pass the time to earn some money.He met that child when he stayed at a farmhouse one day. Because the family was struggling, the family begged to stay with him as a book boy, and he accepted it.

Chen Yan could guess that, in fact, in this life, he originally planned to accompany her and father in a peaceful and stable life.But what will come will come, she died unexpectedly, father died in depression, he went to the mountain to kill the monster to avenge her, I don't know what the result will be, the disfigured scar is always a clear proof... Later he stared blankly at the empty space. The house full of white paper streamers must have been disheartened before choosing to leave.When she left, she only brought her pot of epiphyllum that had never bloomed.

Mr. Ji will not bring children.Ah Yan is a book boy