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After thinking about Zhang Haoran's matter, I was able to calm down a little bit, no longer lying on the bed in the middle of the night and constantly mad, but lying quietly, looking at the ceiling with open eyes, thinking about some very sad things .

But in the end, it was just a blank face and a sleepless night. It would be nice if I could cry a lot and sleep well...

I was recuperating quietly in the old villa in the mountains and forests, but the recuperation seemed to be useless. I still worked normally during the day and couldn’t sleep at night-I was in this overdrawn state all the time. What’s even more frightening was that I couldn’t feel tired.

Maybe it's evolution, maybe the King of Hades is trying to arrest me and go to hell to reunite with Zhang Haoran——if that's the case, it would be great.

So I was overdrawn day by day like this, and every day seemed to be more or less the same.Then maybe I didn't pay attention, anyway, all of a sudden, the old mountain forest villa became lively. The BOSS summoned almost all the chiefs and some highly respected characters, and instantly filled the entire old mountain forest villa.

Everyone seemed to be anxious and restless, like when they were in middle school and were told that the National Day might not be a holiday, but it might also be a holiday?It's almost the same feeling. People are panicked, and they can easily tell that there is hope in this panic.

After that, not long after, that is, the second day when everyone gathered, I was suddenly summoned by the BOSS to the meeting room early in the morning. Although it doesn't matter to people like me who can't sleep at night, it is very important to others. No, I thought they would all be disheveled, disheveled, and appear in front of the boss with panda eyes on their faces. The result is surprising. They are all alive and kicking, obviously alive and kicking, but still pretending to be very solemn look.

——I've never seen them like this before. Could it be that they couldn't sleep yesterday and spent the whole night trying to clean themselves up?

I didn't delve into this question. After all, my mind was full of Zhang Haoran's affairs at that time. I couldn't tell whether he had left or not, and couldn't tell reality from fiction. Anyway, my whole mind was basically like a pot of paste. , basically no ability to think... So this question ends here.

Following a group of people slowly moving into the conference room step by step, the moment I sat in the seat, I even suspected that I was standing at the door, and the moment I am sitting here now is all a fantasy...

The crowd searched for a while, and it was so quiet that it had never been before. A casual glance, it seems that no one is lying on the table with their heads down watching pornography. Zhang Weiran is also sitting opposite, and the eldest sister is sitting in the corner. Sitting on the armchair, crossing Erlang's legs and playing with the mobile phone - but she has already shown that she attaches great importance to it.

Today seems a little different from usual.

The curtains were half covered, revealing the unique white light in the early morning. The podium used to press the curtains was placed in a normal position. Against the light, one could faintly see a The small figure stood there crookedly with one elbow propped on the countertop and the palm resting its chin.

Then after a self-introduction that was not necessary at all, I knew that she was the third lady of the family that had brought us together before—the 15-year-old baby girl.She went around and started to talk about some messy topics, talking about all kinds of ancient and modern Chinese and foreign, such as dialectics, karma, and the fact that this world is so small that it can loop back to you, and other things that are simply incomprehensible .

Since the other chief executives all listened with a serious face, I had no choice but to listen with a serious face.

Listening, my spirit had already broken down, and my attention was flying all over the world, and then I was suddenly awakened by Zhang Weiran's screams. When I looked up, I saw that he overturned the armchair because he couldn't overturn the table. The muzzle of the gun was pressed against her head, and she approached with a few strides.Dugu Yiyang, who was originally sitting at the end of the table, also sprinted over with a few strides, grabbed Zhang Weiran from behind and dragged him out of the conference room extremely quickly.

During the whole process, Zhang Weiran kept screaming.

In fact, at that moment, I admired the third lady. Although she was a member of the family who took care of us, if it was an ordinary girl who grew up smoothly under the care of her parents, she was only 15 years old. Facing Zhang Weiran's aura of "If a soldier is angry, lay down two corpses and bleed for five steps", her nonsense tone did not tremble in the slightest.Without pausing, it was as if Zhang Weiran could not be seen at all.

This kind of momentum is based on how sure it is, needless to say, I can also understand it.

She rambled on for a long time before finally getting to the point—she called us "those who lost friends in this scramble", and expressed her apology to us that her family killed our friends at will, saying that she had caused us harm. Sorry for the sadness and pain—she said it with a smile.

It reminded me of Zhang Haoran, and my heart throbbed again.

But I can't do anything to her either. On the surface, she went to the meeting alone to ask us for peace, but in fact she came to force us to ask for peace. That's right, they have the ability to force us.Of course, I have no reason to kill her. After all, even though she is the third lady of that family, she did not participate in any battles, and did not make any suggestions. At the time of the battle, I didn’t know which corner of the small mansion she was hiding in. She was afraid that life would be worse than death.. ....

Even if you kill her, you can't explain Zhang Haoran's death—what I'm looking for is the murderer.

The person who separated the two of us life and death and mercilessly separated them.

Her two cherry lips opened and closed with a smile, and every word and every word contained hypocritical concern and repentance. The questioning and persecution in it were endlessly repeated, and she soon left our position. , fully justifying the behavior of her family - if we hadn't made any resistance at that time, although we would not have lost friends, she would have lost her family, and the family business that my father had spent half his life in exchange for was in vain. Resisting and killing more than half, and then their families will lose their families...

In order to prevent these things from happening, she can only kill our friends.

However, this incident, this situation where a life-and-death situation must be decided could have been avoided——

The BOSS was facing away from her because of the seat, and the whole speech made people feel that the two of them were actually facing each other—the BOSS squinted his eyes half-closed, with a slight smile on his lips, but a chill in his eyes; even if she was Because his back was turned to the light and his figure was illusory, his tone was deliberately twisted, but the questioning and coercion were sharp in the aura.

When he heard the last sentence, the BOSS compromised. He bent his eyes into two fat crescent moons, and the corners of his mouth curled up in an arc of approval.

——There seems to be a mutual understanding between the two, she accepted it as soon as she saw it, and left us a suspense about "avoidance", implying that the root of our pain is actually the settlement plan made by the BOSS. Every move is upright, without the slightest timidity of being in a den of thieves, and without any trace of guilt towards us-sounding and arrogant.

Seeing her like this, I thought of Zhang Haoran for some reason.

......

I heard that in the afternoon, the BOSS went to chat with her privately again, and the two of them hid in the small room and chatted for a long time, and it seemed that they hit it off.

I didn't fall asleep that night, not because I kept thinking about Zhang Haoran, but because I was thinking about killing and revenge, what should I do with her family in the future, how can I solve the hatred in my heart?Thinking of these things that are scary to ordinary people, the calmness is abnormal, and the eyes are open looking at the ceiling with a blank expression.

I still remember that night I carried Zhang Haoran on my back to Nanjing step by step under the starry sky, I still remember that unforgettable parting of life and death, I remember the momentary redness in front of my eyes, I remember every sleepless night and every day when I lost my soul. .....

At that time, Zhang Haoran had just brought him back, and Zhang Weiran was in a small room grooming him. Normally, at this time, people close to him would come in to join in the fun, but except for me standing in the corridor , No one came to visit again.But I can only stand at the door because of fear, guilt and various reasons. I don’t know why I just dare not go in and take a look.Although knowing that this is the last chance to see him.

In the end, only Zhang Weiran was by his side.

I was pacing up and down the corridor, getting more and more irritable as if I was about to run - this place is not suitable for staying for a long time, I ran away from the corridor, out of the whole building, and ran again. I went a long way to a small alley I hadn’t been to before, and sat on the cardboard box on the corner all night, under the dim streetlights, playing poker with a bunch of homeless people...

At that time, I couldn't describe what I felt in my heart, as if everything had become meaningless, so I was willing to degenerate.

Yes, there is no point, because the last comfort of my first 20 years of life has left.

Do I need to do anything for anyone?

......

Now I seem to have found that "necessity" again, and I still need to make those who make me suffer.

——At that time, such a poisonous oath was made.

It's just that the next day, because of the BOSS's words: "You have dark circles under your eyes, change your mood." He was sent to Russia and devoted himself to the BOSS's father.I have been willing to degenerate for a long time, and my ambitions have never been rewarded.Not long after, I heard that the BOSS has formed an alliance with the local snake in the south of the Yangtze River. The two families have recently developed various friendships and relationships. If it was a word game, the silly male protagonist should have been captured by the time.

Afterwards, after a while, I heard that it was actually the third lady who learned from Guan Yunchang and went to the meeting alone and killed Zhang Haoran——suddenly I understood why Zhang Weiran suddenly went crazy at that time, and why the uncles all looked solemn and entangled , why there is no fear in her eyes——At that time, it seemed that she was hit in the head. The enemy was by my side, less than 3 meters away, unarmed and defenseless, and I let her walk away from me so arrogantly In the past ah ah ah ah ah ah! ! ! ! ! !

But no matter how regretful or how broken, it’s useless. After all, the overall situation has been decided. If I just ran to face the third lady with swords, not only would I fail to achieve my goal, but I would turn against the boss and lose 20 years of my life. Last shelter...

At that time, I was only living for the sake of biological instinct, so I had to give up the plan that had been slowly perfected for so long, the slightest delusion, and the preparations made bit by bit.Put away all thoughts, don't think about it anymore, and don't mention it anymore.

Gradually, I learned to mention Zhang Haoran as a joke.

But I still can't forget it, and I can't let it go for a long time——

"Farewell to Yanyu Jiangnan in seal cutting, I can't bear to sign your beauty."