Mr. Chang who refuses to be hijacked by love

All his thoughts about him, noble and obscene, selfless and shameless, should not be so silent.Yu Yang's heart beat faster with this idea, so fast that he felt the panic in his speech, he opened his mouth, but couldn't open it, until the other party silently looked for the phone, the panic gushed out, he He held his wrist tightly and begged, "Stay a few more minutes, okay?"

"I know, those people may come again, I just want to tell Dong Shengsheng—" He was eager to make a little light and sound, reminding himself that the surroundings are not boundless darkness and vast silence.When the world does not transmit any information, he cannot perform calculations.

Chang Zhou's indifference made him upset, Yu Yang decided to break the boat, and approached him again like a resentment.That is not the whole of his affection, but it is without patience, tenderness, and is always straightforward, and it is the most impossible to ignore.As expected, he turned him pale, and Chang Zhou instinctively recoiled from the sense of fear. In panic, he touched the flush button, and the water in the toilet flushed down, like a sudden rain.

Yu Yang took a deep breath, "Are you—"

At this moment, Chang Zhou suddenly said, "Have you watched "Love Before Dawn Breaks Dawn"?"

The atmosphere of the arrow on the string was suddenly interrupted, Yu Yang frowned and said: "What?"

"a movie."

"Do you like movies?" Yu Yang remembered that he rarely even read novels.

"I don't like it." He sat on the toilet seat, avoiding Yu Yang completely, "The story tells the story of two young people who meet on a train. One night in order to continue the communication."

"A touching story, isn't it?"

"It was originally a beautiful story, but unfortunately, in the end they kissed inexplicably." Chang Zhou raised his head and said, "I hope they didn't kiss."

Yu Yang was a little urgent, "Don't you think they should go further?"

"I think maintaining sane communication is more moving than the dizziness caused by hormone secretion. If they kiss, then their motivation for communicating in the first place is questionable." Chang Zhou tried his best to maintain his determination, but the muscles in his wrist were under Yu Yang's touch. It was stiff when touched.

Yu Yang let go of him, and said in a depressed tone: "So, this is your thoughtful answer." Chang Zhou felt guilty, and Yu Yang continued to expose him, "You don't even allow me to say my delusions, right?"

Yu Yang's words are so ill-intentioned, he is clearly in control, but he puts himself in a humble position, deliberately embarrassing him.Chang Zhou stammered: "What on earth...why are you...I, I'm not worth it, do you know..."

Yu Yang said: "Where are you not worth it?"

Chang Zhou regarded his helplessness as a serious question, and said sincerely: "I am self-aware. I have—a lot of problems. If I don't pretend and keep a proper distance, I can't communicate with people normally, let alone—maintain Intimate relationship. Yu Yang, I'm not worth it, you know?"

He didn't have the slightest self-pity, on the contrary, he made people feel more pitiful.Yu Yang closed his eyes, and the unbearable feeling came up again, "I know."

"Then you still-"

"This is not a question that can be clarified for a while. You just think that my brain is broken and I can't fix it." Yu Yang secretly stared at him with deep eyes in the darkness, making the last plea in vain, "Really don't want it?" ?In the world of life, if a white horse passes through the gap, it will be all of a sudden."

Chang Zhou whispered, "I can't."

Yu Yang didn't want to plan anymore, turned around and opened the door, stood with his back to the light, and said dejectedly: "Let's go."

When I went back that day, before the car drove out of the urban area, the sky was stuffy with raindrops, and the water droplets hit the opaque car window glass.Sitting in the back seat, Mr. Yu watched the moonlight outside the window wipe away like gouache, and finally melt into thick gray and black clouds—it was finally raining heavily.Dong Shengsheng was walking on thin ice, not daring to provoke the boss, so he had to ask Mr. Chang in the passenger seat what he had eaten with a sneer.Mr. Chang was absent-minded and only responded with a few words.So all the way there was only silence that made Assistant Dong feel like he was sitting on pins and needles.In the suburbs, there is no underground parking lot in the old-style villas, and the car can only drive outside the small courtyard. Dong Shengsheng only has an umbrella in his hand, and Chang Zhou didn't open the door, signaling him to cover Mr. Yu first.Yu Yang brewed a way, and rushed into the rain before him.The distance is short, and Chang Zhou can't call him.After pretending to be embarrassed, Yu Yang has already entered the house.Dong Shengsheng looked at Mr. Chang's bitter and worried face, secretly thinking that the boss played a trick.It's a pity that Mr. Chang is not as familiar with Mr. Yu's tricks of concealing evil intentions as he is, thinking that he is the one who did the evil. For the next whole week, Mr. Chang will be tortured by his conscience under Mr. Yu's superb acting skills.

After the Mid-Autumn Festival holiday, He Yinchuan clamored to move to his uncle's house.Yu Yang was tormented by him until he had a headache, and thinking about the conflicts between his elder sister and brother-in-law, he had no choice but to intercede with Yu Liu on his behalf.He Xi'an packed his younger brother's luggage, and handed over homework to him on Yu Liu's behalf.Yu Yang asked the eldest nephew if he wanted to be together, He Xi'an shook his head and said, "I have to watch my parents."

Although the cause of this matter is not entirely his own, but he cannot escape the blame, Yu Yang thought sadly, the accident of Fang Huai's family was also the same.He finally remembered that he sent someone to send the processed Fang Huai's voice diary to Fang's house. The next day, Fang Li called and said that Mr. Fang Hangzhi's mental state had improved a lot, and Yu Yang felt relieved.This nightmare after another should have been revealed long ago.

The lingering rain, which is rare in autumn, didn't stop until Saturday night.Chang Zhou didn't speak to Mr. Yu for many days, this coldness made Chang Zhou at a loss.During dinner, it was rare for him to take the initiative to ask: "Mr. Yu hasn't come home yet?" He Qiqing said while eating, "At home! The online meeting that started early this morning didn't end until noon, and I'm probably still catching up on sleep. "

When Yu Yang woke up, he saw Dong Shengsheng gossiping in the assistant team, saying that the prospective proprietress frequently went in and out of the kitchen, study, and living room every day, and she never met the boss once, and she was almost depressed.Yu Yang smiled foolishly, got out of bed, and put on cotton home clothes.When I went downstairs, I saw Mr. Chang still sitting in the living room, and He Yinchuan was pestering him to ask questions.Yu Yang went to the kitchen to tell the chef to prepare his own dinner later, and then went to the sofa to sit down.He stared at the TV expressionlessly, Chang Zhou was very reserved, he was looking forward to seeing him, but he didn't know what to say.

Chang Zhou couldn't help trying to discern the emotion on his face, but it still fell short.Out of the corner of his eye, He Yinchuan tugged at his sleeve, held the book and asked, "Chang Zhou, tell me again, what exactly is the specific heat capacity, why can't I understand it at all?"

At the bar, Assistant Dong whispered to Assistant He: "You don't go to prepare tomorrow's meeting materials with Steven, but you are still here to join in the fun, there is enough gossip." Assistant He couldn't afford it, and said slowly: "Xiao Dong, you Separating people is because you can’t leave your eyes on the boss. You care so much about the boss, what do you think the boss will do if he finds out?” Assistant Dong quibbles: “Don’t talk nonsense. What else do I have for the boss besides dedicating myself to the boss?” Assistant He He swung the red wine in the glass and complained for him without sincerity, "It's a pity. You have devoted your heart and soul to the boss, and you can tell what he thinks in his eyes; Teacher Chang hasn't noticed that the boss is waiting for you for a long time. He speaks first. The boss just likes him." Dong Shengsheng's little thoughts were dug out and magnified by him, and he only felt that Mr. Yu's silent pursuit of Mr. Chang made him jealous. He looked away and said in shame: "Don't It's a mockery. I know that my boss and I are not in the same world." He Qiqing was about to adopt the attitude of a senior to enlighten him, but he heard him say unwillingly: "But I still want to spend a night with him. Don't you Do you think he is really suitable for holding a whip? Steven and I both think so." Assistant He scolded angrily: "Dirty! Pervert!"

Mr. Chang lost his mind, and the more he talked, the farther he went, the better he was.Little friend He was already clueless, so he was discouraged and said, "You explained it very clearly, but I'm still in the fog. I'm too stupid, do you despise me?"

Chang Zhou stared at the bar for a while, feeling blessed, and asked: "Do you know why some people become fat while others are thin after eating the same amount of food?

"Because there is something called 'specific fat capacity' in the world, C=ΔW/(c×Δf). C is 'specific fat capacity', ΔW is the increased body weight, c is the total amount of cells, and Δf is the increased food intake .To measure how easy a person is to gain weight, it is the amount of food per serving and the weight gained per unit cell.”

He Yinchuan looked at the figures of the two assistants for a long time, then said dully: "I can understand it if I change it to specific heat capacity."

Chang Zhou had already looked towards the opposite side, but couldn't catch the chuckle on Mr. Yu's face, only saw him grabbing the remote control and quickly changing channels.Yu Yang has been putting on airs for a few days, but now he wants to restore the old one, but he can't change it for a while, and he is in a dilemma. Seeing him bowing his head in frustration, he feels even more regretful.

The TV screen stopped at the end of a certain station's interview with Mr. Yu a few days ago.The female reporter asked him why he was single all the time and what kind of type he liked.Mr. Chang pricked up his ears curiously. On the TV, Mr. Yu stroked his hair back. He said shyly, sincerely and artificially, "I don't have a favorite type. What I'm looking for is a person, not a group of people."

He Yinchuan vomited when he saw it, afraid that Chang Zhou would be moved by him, so he pointed it out: "My little uncle is a different person. Last time my eldest cousin asked him what kind of girl he was looking for, and he also said that he should know books and etiquette. 'Parallel sentences, cross-neck papers'. The little uncle has a high vision."

Yu Yang retorted: "What sentences are you talking about? What kind of essays are you talking about? I just want to decline your eldest cousin as a matchmaker. Besides," looking at Chang Zhou without hesitation, "it's really to the point where we can talk to each other, who still cares about Fu?" Poetry belongs to prose, huh?"

This is really not a problem that can be solved by a simple Ising model, Chang Zhou thought.His face was flushed, he swallowed the words he had spoken to, and sat silently.Yu Yang regretted even confessing his heart now, he didn't expect Chang Zhou to be so at a loss.

While He Yinchuan was studying hard again, Yu Yang walked out of the house.He stood on the porch and smoked for a while. In the inner courtyard, the soaked crabapple leaves were churning together, the puddles in the depressions of the stone path refracted the cold light randomly, and the cinnamon scattered into the soil exuded a damp and rotten smell. Life is depressed.Just as he was about to go back, he turned around and saw Chang Zhou coming out, his heart skipped a beat, he greeted him in a low voice, he turned his back again, and extinguished the cigarette, only the lingering smoke had no time to disperse.Chang Zhou stood closer and said in a low voice, "Did I embarrass you?"

"No," he raised the cigarette in his hand, "it's not because of you. The company has officially entered the stage of cross-industry development and stepped out of the financial field. The pressure is not the same as before." Yu Yang often said this sentence He bent his body, frowned slightly, and looked straight into his eyes all the time.

The gaze finally returned in vain, and Chang Zhou's voice was rarely stuffy, "Lie."

Yu Yang bent his eyes and smiled, "Can you see it?"

Chang Zhou blushed, "There are always rules."

Yu Yang remained silent, Chang Zhou hesitated and said, "I don't want you to be so...depressed because of me. You shouldn't be like this in my heart."

"What am I like in your heart?"

"You are a very complicated person, but at least you are calm and pleasant, although I don't know what makes it so."

Yu Yang smiled and said: "You let me break up, and you still don't allow me to be sad? Are you so overbearing?"

Chang Zhou didn't look at the elephant in the room, and said in embarrassment: "What is lovelorn, don't talk nonsense."

Yu Yang sighed, but his abnormal vision and sense of smell suddenly brought back the freshness after the rain.He approached him inch by inch until their fingertips touched each other, and said wanly: "Calmness and pleasure are nothing more than the result of rationally keeping an appropriate distance from desire. But as the saying goes, 'going away from others grows long, and thinking about others nourishes deep' , to me, you are the only one with color in the gray and white crowd, I have no reason not to approach you. But you just keep telling me that you are not worth it."

"I—I want to get close to you too," Chang Zhou said, his hands already trembling, "I just can't imagine that kind of relationship between us."

Yu Yang felt his heart tremble like never before, as if he had just escaped from countless sharp knives.He only tolerated the silence for half a minute, and then stretched out his hand to bring Chang Zhou into his arms.The two were about the same height. Yu Yang lowered his head and secretly kissed him on the shoulder through his clothes. Chang Zhouxian didn't notice it, and even patted Yu Yang on the back comfortingly.

Yu Yang whispered in his ear: "This is enough, I thought you would hate me. I know that no one deserves to be tortured by other people's love, but I can't easily let you leave me."

He wanted to disguise his embarrassment as a short hug, but letting go was not as simple as he thought.Fortunately, he is not the only one who is nostalgic, but Mr. Chang is not as self-aware as he is.

Chang Zhou was drawn by the faint smell of benzoin and fir, and smelled Yu Yang's collar.He wondered, how should he leave him?He makes people so delirious.Mr. Chang is really struggling with his conscience, struggling to get drunk and wasting all his previous efforts.He closed his eyes weakly and smiled.

Yu Yang asked, "What are you laughing at?"

Chang Zhoudao: "I remember that Dong Shengsheng once jokingly said that you are 'Helen of Wall Street'."

"Am I so involuntary? I thought Aphrodite would be more appropriate to compliment a person's appearance."

"Are you that slutty?"

Yu Yang laughed loudly, and sighed at the end of the laugh. He hugged him, thinking that the so-called love was nothing more than the line in "Qin Wei", "Woman said to see? Shi said that. Let's see?"—— As long as you stand by someone's side, there will always be places and things to do that you will never get tired of in this world.For example at this moment.He said reluctantly, "I'm leaving tomorrow."

"Assistant He told me. They said that you received an invitation to a private forum, which is said to be mysterious?"

"It's all about keeping secrets for self-respect. In the end, you have to make deals with the government. It's not a secret among European and American elites." What made Yu Yang heartbroken was, "I can't communicate with the outside world during the forum."

Chang Zhou asked curiously, "Aren't the participants all big-bellied Jewish bosses?"

His focus gave Yu Yang a headache, "Mostly."

Chang Zhou chuckled, and asked in a low voice, "Will you be locked in for a sex party or something?"

Yu Yang couldn't help laughing, "With a big-bellied Jewish boss?"

"A reasonable guess."

Mr. Chang couldn't help laughing himself, Mr. Yu said angrily, "Why are you changing the subject so much?" He rested his chin on his shoulder, "You won't see me for a month."

Chang Zhou hummed, "It's because you won't see me for a month." There is indeed a difference.

Yu Yang laughed dumbfounded, "Why are you so smart today?"

Chang Zhou stepped back a little, looked at his pair of brown eyes that were always tolerant and always unpredictable, and said sincerely: "I'm afraid that there will be a time for parting. Before that, I hope I can make you happy."

Yu Yang's eyes were hot, he let go of his waist, turned around, only to find that the night had fallen, he let out a breath, and said in a deep voice: "I know you have already found a house. But can you wait for me?" Come back and move out? Until then, give me a chance to get my word out and let's talk about our relationship, okay?"

"What's the relationship? Landlord and tenant? We haven't signed a written contract before. I asked your lawyer. If there is no stipulated period in the house lease contract, I have the right to terminate the lease relationship at any time. Of course, you—"

Yu Yang suppressed his hatred, smiled and said, "If you keep talking, I will kiss you directly."

Chang Zhou immediately fell silent and walked into the house with a blushing face.Yu Yang called out: "Hey, don't go. Just kidding, when have you ever seen me overstepping the rules?" Chang Zhou stood back beside him with his head down. He was no less dazed than he was, but he still promised: "I Will wait for your return."

The author has something to say: Guess when he put the perfume on his pajamas.